As
the days went by Lexia's life had started to look up. She had got a
reply from Amethyst and it was quite cheerful.
Dearest Lexia,
It has been too long and I have missed you so as well as the
other Marauders. Please do come over it would be a great treat and I
wish for you to meet my family as long as I can meet yours. Send my
love to Remus, Randy, Shanea and Taimi if you still keep contact with
her. Well see you there.
Yours Truly
Amethyst
Lexia
was over the moon when she read this and ran over to Randy and told
him straight away. He had smiled and agreed as he had finally got
over his anger, saying that he wished to continue the kiss that's
all. During the week however, she had gone over Remus's house because
she had questions that needed answering. She walked up the pebble
drive way extremely nervous which was stupid, this was Remus her
friend since 1st year.
After entering, she stared around the
cosy cottage smiling it had always given her a feeling of warmth. She
turned to face him as she stared at the floor avoiding her eyes; she
sat beside him and put a hand on his knee looking worried.
"Remus,
please talk to me your my friend and it saddens me to see you like
this."
He looked up at her, his amber eyes piercing
through hers making her look away at the intensity.
"Every
time I see you I feel a pang in my chest, every time I hear you I
wish to hear it for the rest of my life, every time I see you with
him...I...god Lexia I'm jealous...I"
He lifted her chin
to meet his eyes and whispered.
"I love you Lexia..."
He
leaned in and kissed her. At first it was sweet and held back, but
soon he got more and more passionate and demanding. Lexia's mind was
racing but the last thought she had before she lost it was that she
was going to regret it.
And that's when they both lost
control.
Her eyes fluttered open as she stared around, coming in to
focus she new where she was even before she opened her eyes. It was
Remus's bedroom and she was in his bed. She closed her eyes as a tear
went down her cheek. She had done it. She had cheated on Randy with
Remus.
Remus knew she was awake, he knew she was regretting
and he knew she was crying. He had felt guilty himself but he
couldn't help but feel utterly happy. He tightened his grip around
her waist pulling her closer and planting butterfly kisses on her
shoulder, stroking her cherry locks as he propped himself up with his
elbows and smiled down at her kissing away her tears before turning
her over to look at him.
"Lexia, you might regret
everything about last night but to me it was a blessing. I love you
and no one can take that away from me" He leaned down and kissed
her, making her melt as she wrapped her hands around his neck.
It
quickly deepened as he pulled her closer to him making him smile. She
broke it staring up at him, his amber eyes filled with lust and
passion. He ran his hand once more through her hair before she
slipped out of his grasp and got out of bed, wrapping one of the
satin sheets around her as she went to get changed in the
bathroom.
And he laid there, his mind whirling about
everything that had happened. He was going to have to fight for her
even though it was a losing battle. Happily married, daughter, great
life, god he wished for that but he knew it could never be his. Lexia
quickly brushed her hair and stopped staring into the mirror.
"Ok
what do you see" she said to herself.
"I see a
woman, who has a beautiful husband and daughter, fantastic life and
who is falling in love with her best friend" she wiped away a
tear and went out.
Remus looked up and got out of bed he
wrapped one of the sheets around his waist and walked up to her
smiling and putting his arms around her waist staring straight into
her eyes.
"You look so beautiful, you don't even need to
be glamour up" he whispered seductively smiling down before
meeting her lips once more, this time he kissed her more hungrily
then before.
She couldn't help respond, wrapping her hands
around his neck and pulling him closer to her stroking his hair
gently. He broke the kiss looking down on her and grinned as he
whispered
"I don't even know why you put your clothes
back on..."
He grinned and once more they lost all though
and mind.
For once in her life Lexia didn't
regret.
Remus
woke to find his bed empty. He bolted up and looked around and called
her name when he knew there would be no answer he knew there wouldn't
be. She had left long ago and had gone back to her husband and her
perfect life, how he was going to face her now was a mystery.
He
got out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom to have a very cold
shower while he thought about his situation. Meanwhile, a couple of
meters away Lexia was sitting under a cherry tree, her crystal eyes
streaming with tears and had a tinge of red. She couldn't go back,
she new that she would have to answer to Randy and she couldn't just
leave Remus I mean he was bound to come over their house anytime soon
and she couldn't go back, not yet.
She shed a few more tears
before her necklace began to shine brightly and that's when she heard
a popping noise and it wasn't Shanea it was Cherry. Cherry was
Randy's cousin and quite a close one. She was friends with Cherry but
they where just friends and not as close as she is well was with
Shanea.
Cherry embraced her tightly letting her cry into her
shoulder. Cherry had medium length black locks and fiercely green
eyes and fair skin. She was very supportive and Lexia had thanked her
for coming. They talked for a while as she had asked about Bellatrix
and Randy but not about why she was crying which was a
relief.
Cherry took her back home as Lexia nodded slowly her
bottom lip trembling as she opened the polished oak doors and put her
clock up on the stand.
She walked into
the foyer, looking around the quiet room.
"Hello? Anybody
home?"
"Lexia? Is that you?"
Shanea came out of
the kitchen and walked over to her swiftly, pulling her into an
embrace. Lexia was taken aback slightly and pulled away, frowning at
Shanea.
"What's the matter? What happened?"
She
noticed the redness of her eyes, as if she was crying. She became
alarmed as her eyes widened.
"Is it Bella? Where is she?
What happened Shanea!"?
"I...I think you better come into
the kitchen with me Lexia...we have much to discuss..." Shanea
stuttered, silent tears rolling down her cheeks. Lexia was still
concerned but followed her to find The Order there, all solemn and
red-eyed.
"It's best you sit down Alexia...we have some
bad news..."
She was getting cross now, it was like they
were stalling her or something?
"I think I'll stand Albus,
just say it..."
Albus took off his glasses and rubbed his
temples, thinking on how to tell it to her.
"Alexia, at 4:30
this morning, Randy went missing, he was out the night looking for
you and didn't return. We went looking for him and...and Mr.
Weasley found Randy's body...I'm sorry Alexia but...Randy was
killed, by Death Eaters we presume, his hands were bound and his body
was badly bruised...It seems he couldn't fight them off..."
Alexia
froze. She stared in shock at the faces of her friends and family.
Her knees gave way and she crashed to the floor before a piercing,
soul-racked scream came from the Kitchen. She began to shake
uncontrollably before fainting.
When she woke she felt a wave
of ice go over her, as her eyes focused she noticed she was in her
room, she sat up and looked around before feeling incredibly weak
again, as the reality sank in. She stared up at the ceiling, feeling
so many emotions. Despair. Guilt. Betrayal. Worry. Confusion. Anger.
Yet, the one that was most profound was: Emptiness. The tears welled
in her eyes as she sat up, clutching the sheets and crying. Her loud
sobs and screams could be heard through-out the quiet Manor.
For
days she stayed in her room, bed more like it. Not moving, eating,
sleeping, drinking. Nothing. Just....existing, crying, screaming...
Various people tried to come in but she would through curses at them,
they even tried Bella but she wouldn't even look at her either.
Everything reminded him of her and she didn't want to lose it.
Meanwhile, downstairs Shanea, Albus, Minevera, Cherry,
Amethyst, Most of the Weasley family, Taimi and Lily's sister and
cousins Natasha, Catalina and William, were all trying to think up a
way to get the grieving Lexia out of her room.
"It's just
no good, I mean...she is prepared to kill someone to stay in that
room..." said Shanea while hold Bella on one hip.
"We
can't just leave her in there shes had her time now she needs to
get out and move on with her child!"
"Shes just lost her
husband, for christs sake Will!"
They all sat down in
silence, trying to think up what they could do.
"Give me a
go..."
They all looked up at Rmus, amazed, it was the first
time he had spoken since it happened.
"But...Remus, you
know how she is, what makes you think she'll let you in after
rejecting Bella?"
Remus gave Percy a piercing glare before
banging his fists on the table.
"Don't you dare
underestimate me again, boy" he growled.
They all stared at
him in fear as Shanea tried to put a hand on his shoulder but he
jerked it off and strode out towards Lexia.
He
choked in his tears as he turned the knob slowly, pushing
forward.
Lexia had grabbed her wand, prepared to blast whoever
it was into oblivion.
"Lexi?..." stuttered Remus.
She
froze, she felt a constricting pain go over her, she lowered her
wand. Remus entered the room and closed the door, standing still as
he gasped. Lexia had come out of the covers as he saw her for the
first time in 2 weeks. Her hair was tattered and wild curls cascaded
down her back, the front parts of her hair were sticking to her face,
wet from the sweat and tears. Her skin was oily and red, with dark
patches under her eyes. As he looked into those crystal blue oceans
he once adored he felt seering pain hit his chest and darted away.
What once lived in those adoring, warm eyes was now, lifelessness,
death, hatred, despair, suffering...
Lexia's clothes where torn
and tattered and she was sitting in the middle of the bed, paper
scattered around her. Remus cleared his throat and opened his mouth
to speak but Lexia got there first.
"You dare speak a work
to me I shall blast you into nothingness for that is where you have
cast me..." she muttered loud enough for him to hear. Her voice was
as cold as ice and such poison and hatred lingered there.
"You
are too listen to what I have to say and maybe...maybe you shall get
a word in"
She took a deep breath then looked up at him, giving
him a piercing gaze.
"You have destroyed me, you have taken
away my soul, my life, my love...you have made my daughter have to
grow up without her father, you have had this world lose Randy
Silverwolf the grace of this world, the one person who wanted to make
a difference...you have destroyed me...you have destroyed me...YOU
HAVE DESTROYED ME REMUS LUPIN! YOU HAVE DESTROYED ME!" She panted
slightly, catching her breath from the scream, after falling back
into the pillows, crying heart-aching sobs. She lied there, staring
into nothing before whispering.
"You destroyed
me..."
Remus had fallen to his knees
by this point, the pain he was feeling was like a thousand knives
stabbing him all over and twirling them around in his flesh. He lay,
curled up on the floor, crying himself. He reached out to one of the
papers and read:
Even in death,
Give me a reason
to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're
all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to
where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you
home
I'll stay forever here with you
My love
The softly
spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
Some
say I'm crazy for my love, oh my love
But no bonds can hold me
from your side, oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They
don't hear you singing to me
I'll stay forever here with
you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in
death our love goes on
And I can't love you anymore than I
do
I'll stay forever here with you
My love
The
softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And
I can't love you anymore than I do
(I'll die, but real love is
forever)
Remus scrunched the paper, bowing his head, before
looking up at her.
"Lexia...I know it is my fault, I shall
have that sin n my soul for eternity...but until then, hear me out,
will you loath me forever? Because if you will then there is no point
in me living...for me to have the one thing in my life hate me...what's
the point?"
There was silence, and Lexia was first to
speak.
"Answer this for me Remus...Who do you turn to when
the only person who can dry your tears is the one who made you cry?
Don't you see? It's not you who I only hate but myself...I have
such a loathing for myself as I do for you...maybe more...do you know
how hard it is for me to hate you? I know...I know I should but...I
cant bring myself to it...all I am is empty...I've lost him..."
"And
Bella?"
"What about her? I have to much hate to love..."
she spat, turning away.Remus stared at
her, before taking one step forward.
"How would you feel if
you lost your father then your mother? Because that is what you
little girl is going through...instead of looking after and caring
for the last piece of Randy there is your pushing her away, and at a
young age, you may get the same treatment in years to come..."
His
mouth twitched as he saw the look of horror fill Lexia's face, he
had gotten to her. He turned on his heel and walked out, downstairs
and back into the Kitchen to meet the amazed faces of family and
friends.
A couple of moments later, there
was a creaking in the stairs and then a swish of the kitchen door.
There stood Lexia, bathed, clothed and alive. They all looked up,
shocked before turning to Remus who merely smiled, there was a squeal
and a rush of wind as little Bella ran past them all and into her
mothers arms.
"Never leave me again mummy..." Bella
whispered, crying softly.
A/N : This is in the
memory of Nickolas Nathan Saunders. I changed the last bit cause it
sucked before.