I Hate You
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Chapter 3
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Noa looked up to Ryuuji, down to 'his' floor, and back to Ryuuji. After a couple minutes of thought, he sat down in front of the taller boy. "Because I'm dead." Ryuuji's eyes widened. Noa paused for another moment. "You didn't know that?"
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"Um...no.." Ryuuji said, voice in somewhat disbelief. "No, I didn't..."
"Oh. Yeah..." He muttered, folding his hands in his lap.
"What..happened? If I'm allowed to ask.." He trailed off nervously.
"I'd rather not.."
"Okay. I understand."
Noa smiled slightly to himself. "Thank you." he whispered.
"For what?" Ryuuji asked, giving the younger boy an odd look. Noa shrugged slightly, smiling up to the other boy. He shifted his weight after a bit, leaning back on his hands.
"You are the first person...to ever say that they understood, is all..." Ryuuji tilted his head slightly, smiling.
"Really..? Yeah, well..." Noa looked back into Ryuuji's eyes. "I haven't had much luck with fathers, either.." Noa raised an eyebrow at that, sitting back up.
"Oh?"
"I'd rather not mention it, if that's okay with you..." The ebony-haired boy trailed off, looking away. Noa nodded, a concerned look on his features.
"Dice boy?" He asked. Ryuuji shot an angry look at him. Noa grinned. "I mean, Otogi...yes. Otogi..?" Ryuuji nodded to him.
"Neh?"
"Why do I feel--nevermind.." he muttered, shaking his head, and making his turqouise bangs fall into his eyes again. Ryuuji studied the younger boy for a minute or two, before getting up and brushing the other boy's hair out of his eyes with a slight chuckle. Noa watched Ryuuji's hand movement, and blushed slightly. Ryuuji smiled.
"You're cute when you blush." he said, still smiling. The younger boy's blush deepened, and he looked away as Ryuuji sat closer to him. Noa weaved his hands into themselves a couple of times, before he looked back to Ryuuji.
"T--thank--you...I think..." He muttered, barely audible. Ryuuji just smiled again, and patted Noa's head.
"It's true, though."
"Please..don't..please don't call me that again.." Noa said, staring into his lap. Ryuuji gave him a puzzled look.
"Why's that..?" Ryuuji asked, concerned. He put a hand on the smaller boy's shoulder in an attempt to comfort him.
"My mother...she used to call me that." he whispered, looking off with a sad smile. "...but she's gone now." he muttered, in an almost child-like tone. The kind that shows he's been telling himself that for a long time, but refuses to believe it. Ryuuji could see a faint sparkle of tears in the other boy's eyes.
"Noa-chan.." He muttered softly, running a hand over the other boy's cheek lightly. Noa gave him an odd look, before a tear made it's way down his cheek. He couldn't help himself, throwing his arms around the taller boy and crying his heart out onto his shoulder. Ryuuji squeaked a bit before smiling slightly and hugging the younger boy back. He brought his left hand up to rub Noa's back softly, running his right hand through his aqua hair soothingly. "Sshhh..."
Noa hiccupped slightly, grabbing onto the back of Ryuuji's vest. "...it's not fair.." he choked out. Ryuuji continued to rub the younger boy's back as he listened to him muttering, "..life isn't fair.."
"Hush, now..life -isn't- fair, Noa-chan..." he murmured. "It never will be..."
"Ryuuji...." Ryuuji's eyes widened at the use of his first name.
"Hai..?"
"Why do your arms around me...why do they feel so familiar..?"
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Chapter 3
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Noa looked up to Ryuuji, down to 'his' floor, and back to Ryuuji. After a couple minutes of thought, he sat down in front of the taller boy. "Because I'm dead." Ryuuji's eyes widened. Noa paused for another moment. "You didn't know that?"
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"Um...no.." Ryuuji said, voice in somewhat disbelief. "No, I didn't..."
"Oh. Yeah..." He muttered, folding his hands in his lap.
"What..happened? If I'm allowed to ask.." He trailed off nervously.
"I'd rather not.."
"Okay. I understand."
Noa smiled slightly to himself. "Thank you." he whispered.
"For what?" Ryuuji asked, giving the younger boy an odd look. Noa shrugged slightly, smiling up to the other boy. He shifted his weight after a bit, leaning back on his hands.
"You are the first person...to ever say that they understood, is all..." Ryuuji tilted his head slightly, smiling.
"Really..? Yeah, well..." Noa looked back into Ryuuji's eyes. "I haven't had much luck with fathers, either.." Noa raised an eyebrow at that, sitting back up.
"Oh?"
"I'd rather not mention it, if that's okay with you..." The ebony-haired boy trailed off, looking away. Noa nodded, a concerned look on his features.
"Dice boy?" He asked. Ryuuji shot an angry look at him. Noa grinned. "I mean, Otogi...yes. Otogi..?" Ryuuji nodded to him.
"Neh?"
"Why do I feel--nevermind.." he muttered, shaking his head, and making his turqouise bangs fall into his eyes again. Ryuuji studied the younger boy for a minute or two, before getting up and brushing the other boy's hair out of his eyes with a slight chuckle. Noa watched Ryuuji's hand movement, and blushed slightly. Ryuuji smiled.
"You're cute when you blush." he said, still smiling. The younger boy's blush deepened, and he looked away as Ryuuji sat closer to him. Noa weaved his hands into themselves a couple of times, before he looked back to Ryuuji.
"T--thank--you...I think..." He muttered, barely audible. Ryuuji just smiled again, and patted Noa's head.
"It's true, though."
"Please..don't..please don't call me that again.." Noa said, staring into his lap. Ryuuji gave him a puzzled look.
"Why's that..?" Ryuuji asked, concerned. He put a hand on the smaller boy's shoulder in an attempt to comfort him.
"My mother...she used to call me that." he whispered, looking off with a sad smile. "...but she's gone now." he muttered, in an almost child-like tone. The kind that shows he's been telling himself that for a long time, but refuses to believe it. Ryuuji could see a faint sparkle of tears in the other boy's eyes.
"Noa-chan.." He muttered softly, running a hand over the other boy's cheek lightly. Noa gave him an odd look, before a tear made it's way down his cheek. He couldn't help himself, throwing his arms around the taller boy and crying his heart out onto his shoulder. Ryuuji squeaked a bit before smiling slightly and hugging the younger boy back. He brought his left hand up to rub Noa's back softly, running his right hand through his aqua hair soothingly. "Sshhh..."
Noa hiccupped slightly, grabbing onto the back of Ryuuji's vest. "...it's not fair.." he choked out. Ryuuji continued to rub the younger boy's back as he listened to him muttering, "..life isn't fair.."
"Hush, now..life -isn't- fair, Noa-chan..." he murmured. "It never will be..."
"Ryuuji...." Ryuuji's eyes widened at the use of his first name.
"Hai..?"
"Why do your arms around me...why do they feel so familiar..?"