The scoobies walked back into the library one by one. Spike and Drusilla
were last to walk in. She was furious with him.
"Everything has changed she kept saying. You are not my Spike anymore. "
"Dru we are back home now. Everything will be fine." Spike kept saying but it didn't convince her.
"Well I will get the forgetting spell ready. Willow do you wanna help me out?" Jenny asked.
Willow nodded and went to the table.
"Well it's good to be home." Xander said as he sat down.
"I second that!" Cordelia said actually agreeing with Xander.
He looked at her with shock.
"What?" she asked
"You agreeing with me that doesn't happen." Xander stuttered.
"Yeah well there's a first time for everything." she retorted.
Buffy went into Giles' office. She didn't want to do the spell but how could she explain that without telling everybody including Spike how she felt? She was startled out of her thoughts by Spike.
"Buffy are you alright?" He asked with worry in his voice.
"I was just thinking about everything that has happened and now we are just supposed to forget. Shouldn't you be with Drusilla?" Buffy asked trying to change the subject.
"She doesn't want anything to do with me." Spike answered.
"Bloody Hell after all I have done for that woman. She always wants Angel. he said with disgust.
"You deserve better" she said leaning up to his face and running her hand across his lips. Spike stood there dumbfounded as Buffy traced all of his features.
What are you doing? Buffy thought. He loves Drusilla not you. Buffy turned away from him and hugged herself.
"Buffy look at me." Spike said turning her around.
"What?" Buffy asked as she looked at anything but him.
"What's wrong?" He asked sincerely.
"Buffy it's time for the spell!" Giles called.
"We better go." she said and walked past Spike. He stood there clenching his jaws. Could she have feelings for me? He asked himself. No she loves Angel. Spike walked to join the others.
"Everyone form a circle and join hands." Jenny said.
"Just to clarify we won't remember anything that happened?" Xander asked.
"Duh that's what a forgetting spell is for." Cordelia exclaimed.
"Nobody asked you." Xander said with annoyance.
"Children please? To answer your question No we won't remember anything that has happened." Giles said with exasperation.
"Now let's get started." Jenny said.
"Wait I can't do this!" Buffy interrupted.
"Buffster what's wrong?" Xander asked confused.
"I think we need to remember. I don't want things to be the way they were. So much has happened. We can't go back. she answered calmly.
"Buffy you do realize that we could drastically change the future." Giles tried to reason.
"From what I saw our futures weren't really anything that couldn't be improved." Buffy argued.
"That may or may not be true Buffy but we could in up making things worse." Jenny explained.
"What's this really about Slayer?" Spike asked. He wasn't buying anything she was saying.
"I told you." she muttered.
"Yeah you told us a lot of bloody lies. What's this really about?" he asked.
"The nasty slayer wants my Spike just as much as he wants her." Drusilla singed.
Everybody stared at the blondes. Neither said a word.
"This has to be a joke right." Xander said with dread.
"Drusilla has always been able to see what others can't or won't admit too." Angel said with sadness in his voice.
Buffy had tears in her eyes now. She turned to Angel
"Angel I do love you she paused not knowing what to say. She wiped the tears off her face and continued. "I didn't want to hurt you. I don't know why I feel what I do for Spike but I can't ignore it she said.
"Buffy I just want you to be happy." Angel replied.
"Thanks you for understanding." she said.
When Buffy turned back around Spike was gone.
"Stupid to get your hopes up you git. Nobody would choose you over great poof." Spike muttered in the hallway as he looked for a fag. He looked up and realized he was standing in the spot where he first fought his beautiful slayer.
"Spike why did you run out like that!" Buffy asked from behind him.
"I didn't feel much like watching you and peaches once again devote your love for each other." he said with a sneer.
"That's not what happened. You left before you heard what I told him." Buffy said.
"That would be what?" Spike asked with anger.
"I told him that I didn't want to hurt him but that I could deny what I feel for you." she explained.
"What would it be you feel? Lust pity or both?" he asked lighting up his fag.
"You are the most annoying infuriating obnoxious stupid vampire I have ever met." Buffy yelled.
"Believe me I feel the same way Slayer. I hate you. You drive me bloody insane. More than Drusilla ever has!" Spike yelled back and dropped his fag on the ground and smashed it with his boot.
"I don't know how I could think that I could actually be in love with you?" Buffy yelled before she realized it.
Spike stared at her waiting to take it back but she didn't.
Buffy tried to move but Spike grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Do you really love me Buffy?" Spike asked looking at her with hope in his eyes.
"Yes I really do" she replied and gave him a gentle kiss. He wound his hands in her golden hair and deepened the kiss as Buffy wrapped her arms around his neck. They pulled away from each other and stared into each others eyes.
"I love you too Buffy. It started out as attraction but grew into so much more when Al kidnapped you. I was so scared when you were in the hospital. I knew you were strong but I felt all these feelings inside me that I knew I shouldn't." Spike said.
"I know me too. Then seeing our future selves and how he felt for her. It just made it even harder and then when they realized they loved each other. I knew. I tried to fight it but I can't and I don't want to forget. I want to move forward together." Buffy said smiling with her eyes filled of unshed tears.
"Then that's what we will do." Spike said smiling the biggest smile Buffy had ever seen.
They then leaned back in for a mind blowing kiss. Buffy ran her hands through his bleached locks as Spike roamed his hands from her waist to her shoulders and finally to her cheeks. When they pulled away they were both gasping for air. Buffy and Spike walked hand in hand back to the library to tell everyone there happy news.
A/N Hey Guys! There are only a few more chapters left. Right now I am still trying to decide whether or not to continue the story in a sequel. I already have an idea. So please review and tell me what you think?
Thanks
Jaime Bee
New Spuffy videos on my site www.jaimebees.com
"Everything has changed she kept saying. You are not my Spike anymore. "
"Dru we are back home now. Everything will be fine." Spike kept saying but it didn't convince her.
"Well I will get the forgetting spell ready. Willow do you wanna help me out?" Jenny asked.
Willow nodded and went to the table.
"Well it's good to be home." Xander said as he sat down.
"I second that!" Cordelia said actually agreeing with Xander.
He looked at her with shock.
"What?" she asked
"You agreeing with me that doesn't happen." Xander stuttered.
"Yeah well there's a first time for everything." she retorted.
Buffy went into Giles' office. She didn't want to do the spell but how could she explain that without telling everybody including Spike how she felt? She was startled out of her thoughts by Spike.
"Buffy are you alright?" He asked with worry in his voice.
"I was just thinking about everything that has happened and now we are just supposed to forget. Shouldn't you be with Drusilla?" Buffy asked trying to change the subject.
"She doesn't want anything to do with me." Spike answered.
"Bloody Hell after all I have done for that woman. She always wants Angel. he said with disgust.
"You deserve better" she said leaning up to his face and running her hand across his lips. Spike stood there dumbfounded as Buffy traced all of his features.
What are you doing? Buffy thought. He loves Drusilla not you. Buffy turned away from him and hugged herself.
"Buffy look at me." Spike said turning her around.
"What?" Buffy asked as she looked at anything but him.
"What's wrong?" He asked sincerely.
"Buffy it's time for the spell!" Giles called.
"We better go." she said and walked past Spike. He stood there clenching his jaws. Could she have feelings for me? He asked himself. No she loves Angel. Spike walked to join the others.
"Everyone form a circle and join hands." Jenny said.
"Just to clarify we won't remember anything that happened?" Xander asked.
"Duh that's what a forgetting spell is for." Cordelia exclaimed.
"Nobody asked you." Xander said with annoyance.
"Children please? To answer your question No we won't remember anything that has happened." Giles said with exasperation.
"Now let's get started." Jenny said.
"Wait I can't do this!" Buffy interrupted.
"Buffster what's wrong?" Xander asked confused.
"I think we need to remember. I don't want things to be the way they were. So much has happened. We can't go back. she answered calmly.
"Buffy you do realize that we could drastically change the future." Giles tried to reason.
"From what I saw our futures weren't really anything that couldn't be improved." Buffy argued.
"That may or may not be true Buffy but we could in up making things worse." Jenny explained.
"What's this really about Slayer?" Spike asked. He wasn't buying anything she was saying.
"I told you." she muttered.
"Yeah you told us a lot of bloody lies. What's this really about?" he asked.
"The nasty slayer wants my Spike just as much as he wants her." Drusilla singed.
Everybody stared at the blondes. Neither said a word.
"This has to be a joke right." Xander said with dread.
"Drusilla has always been able to see what others can't or won't admit too." Angel said with sadness in his voice.
Buffy had tears in her eyes now. She turned to Angel
"Angel I do love you she paused not knowing what to say. She wiped the tears off her face and continued. "I didn't want to hurt you. I don't know why I feel what I do for Spike but I can't ignore it she said.
"Buffy I just want you to be happy." Angel replied.
"Thanks you for understanding." she said.
When Buffy turned back around Spike was gone.
"Stupid to get your hopes up you git. Nobody would choose you over great poof." Spike muttered in the hallway as he looked for a fag. He looked up and realized he was standing in the spot where he first fought his beautiful slayer.
"Spike why did you run out like that!" Buffy asked from behind him.
"I didn't feel much like watching you and peaches once again devote your love for each other." he said with a sneer.
"That's not what happened. You left before you heard what I told him." Buffy said.
"That would be what?" Spike asked with anger.
"I told him that I didn't want to hurt him but that I could deny what I feel for you." she explained.
"What would it be you feel? Lust pity or both?" he asked lighting up his fag.
"You are the most annoying infuriating obnoxious stupid vampire I have ever met." Buffy yelled.
"Believe me I feel the same way Slayer. I hate you. You drive me bloody insane. More than Drusilla ever has!" Spike yelled back and dropped his fag on the ground and smashed it with his boot.
"I don't know how I could think that I could actually be in love with you?" Buffy yelled before she realized it.
Spike stared at her waiting to take it back but she didn't.
Buffy tried to move but Spike grabbed her by the shoulders.
"Do you really love me Buffy?" Spike asked looking at her with hope in his eyes.
"Yes I really do" she replied and gave him a gentle kiss. He wound his hands in her golden hair and deepened the kiss as Buffy wrapped her arms around his neck. They pulled away from each other and stared into each others eyes.
"I love you too Buffy. It started out as attraction but grew into so much more when Al kidnapped you. I was so scared when you were in the hospital. I knew you were strong but I felt all these feelings inside me that I knew I shouldn't." Spike said.
"I know me too. Then seeing our future selves and how he felt for her. It just made it even harder and then when they realized they loved each other. I knew. I tried to fight it but I can't and I don't want to forget. I want to move forward together." Buffy said smiling with her eyes filled of unshed tears.
"Then that's what we will do." Spike said smiling the biggest smile Buffy had ever seen.
They then leaned back in for a mind blowing kiss. Buffy ran her hands through his bleached locks as Spike roamed his hands from her waist to her shoulders and finally to her cheeks. When they pulled away they were both gasping for air. Buffy and Spike walked hand in hand back to the library to tell everyone there happy news.
A/N Hey Guys! There are only a few more chapters left. Right now I am still trying to decide whether or not to continue the story in a sequel. I already have an idea. So please review and tell me what you think?
Thanks
Jaime Bee
New Spuffy videos on my site www.jaimebees.com