REALISATION
As she looked at the sleeping form of her son she though back over the day's events. It had been a strange one. Everyone in her life seemed to have someone but her, and even Joey had a girlfriend. Jimmy had Brooke, and Bobby had what's-her-name. She couldn't remember it for the life of her; it was weird though that was all she knew.
Things didn't feel right between her and Bobby, but that was to be expected. When she had tried to call him and repair the damage to their friendship she hadn't got an answer, now she knew why, he had gone to a bar and ended up with that woman. If only things had gone differently that night, she thought to herself.
When she had seen Bobby that morning, she had realised just how much she loved him and wanted to be with him. But he was with her now.
You missed your chance, she mused. She had no one to blame for that but herself and she knew it. She had seen the two of them kissing outside the station house, and it had made her jealous. But she wasn't about to let Bobby know that.
She had a feeling he knew how she felt, how could he not know? He always seemed to discern what she was thinking and feeling. She had told him there was no need to try to make her jealous; trying to cover up how it made her feel, she doubted it had worked though.
He had been funny with her for most of the day and she didn't like it at all, she hated it in fact. She wanted to turn back the clock and undo everything that had happened since Mattie had left, but she couldn't, so she would just have to live with it. She didn't want to, but she couldn't really see what else she could do about it.
One thing she knew for certain is that this thing with this woman wouldn't last. Bobby said he was happy, but she knew him better than he thought she did. He was just saying that to try and make her jealous. It was working too.
And Jimmy, talk about your dark horse. Until today she hadn't even known he had been seeing anybody. One thing she knew though was she didn't really like this woman, she didn't know why yet but there was something about her. Maybe it was the fact Jimmy wanted Joey to meet her that she didn't like, she wasn't sure.
It would confuse her son to see his dad with another woman; he still didn't understand why his parents weren't together. Still, one day he would have to get used to seeing his parents with other people, she couldn't expect them both to put their love lives on hold until their son had grown up, maybe she could do that but she shouldn't expect Jimmy to make that sacrifice.
Maybe that's why she had done what she had to Bobby. Trying to protect her son from the heartache she was certain would occur. Saying that though she knew just how much Bobby loved her and she knew he would never do anything to hurt her. It was herself she was afraid of, she knew what she was like; she always ended up causing pain to those closest to her.
But she felt that maybe this would be different, she didn't know how she knew this... she just had a gut instinct. When two people truly loved each other they could overcome the greatest of obstacles. That's why her and Jimmy had split up, although they had loved each other it had been a different kind of love, not the kind that marriages that lasted were built upon.
What could she do though? Until Bobby stopped fooling around with this re- bound woman she couldn't do a thing. She just hoped that this woman didn't hurt Bobby. If that did happen she would feel ultimately responsible, as she had hurt him in the first place, setting off this whole chain of events.
Perhaps there was something she could do. She could talk to Bobby, explain why she had said what she had, and what she truly felt in her heart. He would understand why she had done it, wouldn't he? She hoped he would. He had to; another minute like this would send her crazy.
Why do you have to almost lose things to realise how much you need them? With that thought in her head she decided she would talk to him and tell him exactly how she felt about him. She just hoped it wasn't too late.
As she looked at the sleeping form of her son she though back over the day's events. It had been a strange one. Everyone in her life seemed to have someone but her, and even Joey had a girlfriend. Jimmy had Brooke, and Bobby had what's-her-name. She couldn't remember it for the life of her; it was weird though that was all she knew.
Things didn't feel right between her and Bobby, but that was to be expected. When she had tried to call him and repair the damage to their friendship she hadn't got an answer, now she knew why, he had gone to a bar and ended up with that woman. If only things had gone differently that night, she thought to herself.
When she had seen Bobby that morning, she had realised just how much she loved him and wanted to be with him. But he was with her now.
You missed your chance, she mused. She had no one to blame for that but herself and she knew it. She had seen the two of them kissing outside the station house, and it had made her jealous. But she wasn't about to let Bobby know that.
She had a feeling he knew how she felt, how could he not know? He always seemed to discern what she was thinking and feeling. She had told him there was no need to try to make her jealous; trying to cover up how it made her feel, she doubted it had worked though.
He had been funny with her for most of the day and she didn't like it at all, she hated it in fact. She wanted to turn back the clock and undo everything that had happened since Mattie had left, but she couldn't, so she would just have to live with it. She didn't want to, but she couldn't really see what else she could do about it.
One thing she knew for certain is that this thing with this woman wouldn't last. Bobby said he was happy, but she knew him better than he thought she did. He was just saying that to try and make her jealous. It was working too.
And Jimmy, talk about your dark horse. Until today she hadn't even known he had been seeing anybody. One thing she knew though was she didn't really like this woman, she didn't know why yet but there was something about her. Maybe it was the fact Jimmy wanted Joey to meet her that she didn't like, she wasn't sure.
It would confuse her son to see his dad with another woman; he still didn't understand why his parents weren't together. Still, one day he would have to get used to seeing his parents with other people, she couldn't expect them both to put their love lives on hold until their son had grown up, maybe she could do that but she shouldn't expect Jimmy to make that sacrifice.
Maybe that's why she had done what she had to Bobby. Trying to protect her son from the heartache she was certain would occur. Saying that though she knew just how much Bobby loved her and she knew he would never do anything to hurt her. It was herself she was afraid of, she knew what she was like; she always ended up causing pain to those closest to her.
But she felt that maybe this would be different, she didn't know how she knew this... she just had a gut instinct. When two people truly loved each other they could overcome the greatest of obstacles. That's why her and Jimmy had split up, although they had loved each other it had been a different kind of love, not the kind that marriages that lasted were built upon.
What could she do though? Until Bobby stopped fooling around with this re- bound woman she couldn't do a thing. She just hoped that this woman didn't hurt Bobby. If that did happen she would feel ultimately responsible, as she had hurt him in the first place, setting off this whole chain of events.
Perhaps there was something she could do. She could talk to Bobby, explain why she had said what she had, and what she truly felt in her heart. He would understand why she had done it, wouldn't he? She hoped he would. He had to; another minute like this would send her crazy.
Why do you have to almost lose things to realise how much you need them? With that thought in her head she decided she would talk to him and tell him exactly how she felt about him. She just hoped it wasn't too late.