Author's Note: This fan fiction will only tell you Kurama's side of the
story. This means that you will not know what all the other characters are
thinking about. And also, if you want to read a fan fiction with a happy
ending to it, then go read another one. But nothing bad will happen in this
chapter,
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. If I did, I don't think that they will be able to fit in my closet.
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Just Thinking About You
Another rainy night, another night when I can't think straight, another night of homework which are not done, another night when I can only think about him. Speaking of him.
"So nice of you to drop by," I said to my little guest who was hiding in the shadows.
"Hn," was all that he said but I understood him perfectly clear. He was wet and wanted some dry clothing. After all, he is half fire demon.
After our oh-so-long conversation, I went to my drawers and got some dry clothing for him.
It was a pair of white shorts and a white shirt connected to a hood with bunny ears. I got these from my kaasan when I was nine.
"These should do," I said as I held out the bunny outfit.
"Hn, are you insane? You want me to wear that?" he said with his normal, neutral expression. No matter how cruel he is, there's always that innocent child-like look in his eyes. It also makes me want to go over to him, embrace him closely and. no! I can't think about these things now. Not now, not ever.
"Well, why not?" I asked teasingly, even though I already know the answer to that question.
For some reason, I always have an urge to tease the little half koorime. It might be because of my youko side but what I don't get is why do I only get an urge to tease Hiei. I mean, I do tease Yusuke and the others but I tease Hiei the most.
Maybe it's because of Hiei. Every part of him is perfect in every way: his size, his shape, and defiantly his eyes. I mean, when you stare into those red pools of lava, it makes you feel like you're drifting in a never-ending hole of fire.
"Because it's stupid," Hiei said, interrupting my thoughts.
"But they're the only pair of clothing that I have which are about your size," I lied. I had many other sets of clothing. I just wanted to see what he would look like in the outfit I gave him. I bet he would look so cute in it, maybe even too cute.
" Hn, there is no way that I'm wearing that thing," Hiei said in a monotone voice.
Hiei never shows emotions. He hides it well. Maybe that's another reason for why I like teasing him so.
Another reason is probably because my youko half loves challenges and bringing out Hiei's emotions is defiantly a challenge. This means that to Youko, Hiei's nothing more than a toy. That's why I can't love him. It's probably very confusing to others but to me, it's very clear. I love him and I will never hurt him. He'll hate me if I did. I know him all too well. Or maybe, I don't know him at all. He hides his emotions too well to say. But one thing is for sure; I will never hurt him. And that's something I promised myself.
"Well," I smirked," you can always walk around naked".
After saying that to Hiei, my imagination took over my mind. It showed me a picture of Hiei, naked. I would have to admit, he looks nice.
"Hn," Hiei said. This meant that he 's going to think about it.
Hiei knows better. He knows that I'm teasing him. Oh well, it doesn't matter.
"I'll have to go with naked," Hiei said to me as he threw the outfit I gave him onto the floor.
At that moment, I felt my face getting hotter. I don't think he's kidding. What if he actually takes off this clothing, I don't think that I will be able to contain my urges.
He must have noticed that I was blushing but who wouldn't?
"You're becoming more of a ningen everyday," he said as he took off his shirt.
I turned away, making sure that I was not facing Hiei.
"I really don't understand but if it makes you feel any better, I'll wear my boxers," Hiei said to me like it was no big deal.
After Hiei took off his clothing and gave them to me, I took them inside my bathroom and hung them up to dry.
After that, I went back to doing my homework. I tried hard to concentrate but I just can't. I keep think about him but I don't want to turn around; I might just lose control.
"You know that you're sweating," Hiei said.
"What do you mean?" I asked as I turned around. Then, I started to panic; I just made on of the biggest mistakes in my life.
At that moment, I started to walk up to Hiei. I wanted to stop but I couldn't. Something was controlling me. More like a stage but not just stage, a ningen.
I then pushed him against the wall and kissed him passionately.
I knew it was a mistake but it was something that even I, Youko Kurama couldn't control. It was one of the many curses of being a ningen. It's called teenage hormones.
I felt warm, very warm. Could it be love? No, it's not. It' just me, it has to be.
I parted from Hiei when I sensed that someone else was here.
I turned around to see who it is. To my surprise, it was my kaasan.
The look on her face was full of surprise and fear. I can understand that she'd be surprise is she found out that her son was gay but I see no reason why would she be afraid.
The look on her face was not only full of those emotions but full or pain as well. She then, fell unconscious.
I ignored her, thinking that she might think that this was all a nightmare when she regains conscious.
I turned back to Hiei, who was also very surprised but it didn't take long before he snapped back into reality.
"Don't do that again, kitsune?" Hiei said as he began to make his way to my bathroom. This is, before I blocked his path,
"Get out of my way!" he said as he pushed me aside. I quickly got up and grabbed him and embraced him in a hug.
" I love you" I whispered into his ears before I kissed him.
The kiss didn't last long. After our lips meant, Hiei pushed me away, which made me lose my balance, and I fell on my bottom. After that, he continued to make his way to my bathroom.
I just sat there, staring at Hiei, wearing a face full on question.
After Hiei finished dressing himself with his clothing, which are still wet, he jumped onto my window and opened it.
I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.
Hiei, who somehow understood what I was going to say, said, "I don't love you and I never will."
At that moment, I felt my heart break into many little pieces.
"Oh, and don't show your face to anyone until you've looked in a mirror," he said and then, jumped out the opened window.
I sat there, on the floor, thinking about Hiei, for hours. Then, I remembered what he said. "Look in a mirror." Why?
I got up from the floor bur not before falling down again.
I walked over to my kaasan. I then picked up and carried her to her bedroom. Then, I laid her down and went back to my own room to get some sleep. Hopefully, when I wake up, this will all be a dream.
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Nothing bad really happened to Kurama but I assure you, it will happen very soon.
Kurama in this fan fiction is very pathetic. If you love him, don't read this and go read something else.
Why he is pathetic: 1.) He promised not to hurt Hiei but ends up hurting himself. 2.) He denies reality.
I just know that I'll get flames for this.
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. If I did, I don't think that they will be able to fit in my closet.
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Just Thinking About You
Another rainy night, another night when I can't think straight, another night of homework which are not done, another night when I can only think about him. Speaking of him.
"So nice of you to drop by," I said to my little guest who was hiding in the shadows.
"Hn," was all that he said but I understood him perfectly clear. He was wet and wanted some dry clothing. After all, he is half fire demon.
After our oh-so-long conversation, I went to my drawers and got some dry clothing for him.
It was a pair of white shorts and a white shirt connected to a hood with bunny ears. I got these from my kaasan when I was nine.
"These should do," I said as I held out the bunny outfit.
"Hn, are you insane? You want me to wear that?" he said with his normal, neutral expression. No matter how cruel he is, there's always that innocent child-like look in his eyes. It also makes me want to go over to him, embrace him closely and. no! I can't think about these things now. Not now, not ever.
"Well, why not?" I asked teasingly, even though I already know the answer to that question.
For some reason, I always have an urge to tease the little half koorime. It might be because of my youko side but what I don't get is why do I only get an urge to tease Hiei. I mean, I do tease Yusuke and the others but I tease Hiei the most.
Maybe it's because of Hiei. Every part of him is perfect in every way: his size, his shape, and defiantly his eyes. I mean, when you stare into those red pools of lava, it makes you feel like you're drifting in a never-ending hole of fire.
"Because it's stupid," Hiei said, interrupting my thoughts.
"But they're the only pair of clothing that I have which are about your size," I lied. I had many other sets of clothing. I just wanted to see what he would look like in the outfit I gave him. I bet he would look so cute in it, maybe even too cute.
" Hn, there is no way that I'm wearing that thing," Hiei said in a monotone voice.
Hiei never shows emotions. He hides it well. Maybe that's another reason for why I like teasing him so.
Another reason is probably because my youko half loves challenges and bringing out Hiei's emotions is defiantly a challenge. This means that to Youko, Hiei's nothing more than a toy. That's why I can't love him. It's probably very confusing to others but to me, it's very clear. I love him and I will never hurt him. He'll hate me if I did. I know him all too well. Or maybe, I don't know him at all. He hides his emotions too well to say. But one thing is for sure; I will never hurt him. And that's something I promised myself.
"Well," I smirked," you can always walk around naked".
After saying that to Hiei, my imagination took over my mind. It showed me a picture of Hiei, naked. I would have to admit, he looks nice.
"Hn," Hiei said. This meant that he 's going to think about it.
Hiei knows better. He knows that I'm teasing him. Oh well, it doesn't matter.
"I'll have to go with naked," Hiei said to me as he threw the outfit I gave him onto the floor.
At that moment, I felt my face getting hotter. I don't think he's kidding. What if he actually takes off this clothing, I don't think that I will be able to contain my urges.
He must have noticed that I was blushing but who wouldn't?
"You're becoming more of a ningen everyday," he said as he took off his shirt.
I turned away, making sure that I was not facing Hiei.
"I really don't understand but if it makes you feel any better, I'll wear my boxers," Hiei said to me like it was no big deal.
After Hiei took off his clothing and gave them to me, I took them inside my bathroom and hung them up to dry.
After that, I went back to doing my homework. I tried hard to concentrate but I just can't. I keep think about him but I don't want to turn around; I might just lose control.
"You know that you're sweating," Hiei said.
"What do you mean?" I asked as I turned around. Then, I started to panic; I just made on of the biggest mistakes in my life.
At that moment, I started to walk up to Hiei. I wanted to stop but I couldn't. Something was controlling me. More like a stage but not just stage, a ningen.
I then pushed him against the wall and kissed him passionately.
I knew it was a mistake but it was something that even I, Youko Kurama couldn't control. It was one of the many curses of being a ningen. It's called teenage hormones.
I felt warm, very warm. Could it be love? No, it's not. It' just me, it has to be.
I parted from Hiei when I sensed that someone else was here.
I turned around to see who it is. To my surprise, it was my kaasan.
The look on her face was full of surprise and fear. I can understand that she'd be surprise is she found out that her son was gay but I see no reason why would she be afraid.
The look on her face was not only full of those emotions but full or pain as well. She then, fell unconscious.
I ignored her, thinking that she might think that this was all a nightmare when she regains conscious.
I turned back to Hiei, who was also very surprised but it didn't take long before he snapped back into reality.
"Don't do that again, kitsune?" Hiei said as he began to make his way to my bathroom. This is, before I blocked his path,
"Get out of my way!" he said as he pushed me aside. I quickly got up and grabbed him and embraced him in a hug.
" I love you" I whispered into his ears before I kissed him.
The kiss didn't last long. After our lips meant, Hiei pushed me away, which made me lose my balance, and I fell on my bottom. After that, he continued to make his way to my bathroom.
I just sat there, staring at Hiei, wearing a face full on question.
After Hiei finished dressing himself with his clothing, which are still wet, he jumped onto my window and opened it.
I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.
Hiei, who somehow understood what I was going to say, said, "I don't love you and I never will."
At that moment, I felt my heart break into many little pieces.
"Oh, and don't show your face to anyone until you've looked in a mirror," he said and then, jumped out the opened window.
I sat there, on the floor, thinking about Hiei, for hours. Then, I remembered what he said. "Look in a mirror." Why?
I got up from the floor bur not before falling down again.
I walked over to my kaasan. I then picked up and carried her to her bedroom. Then, I laid her down and went back to my own room to get some sleep. Hopefully, when I wake up, this will all be a dream.
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Nothing bad really happened to Kurama but I assure you, it will happen very soon.
Kurama in this fan fiction is very pathetic. If you love him, don't read this and go read something else.
Why he is pathetic: 1.) He promised not to hurt Hiei but ends up hurting himself. 2.) He denies reality.
I just know that I'll get flames for this.