~*~SiMpLy CoMpLiCaTeD~*~
~Disclaimer: All the characters were created by Joss, alright? *rolls eyes* Do you want to know who made my computer too? *pouts* j/k j/k ^_~ teehee
~A/N: *strangles computer* Grr! Argh! *slaps side of screen* Stupid computer! *pouts* It's so retarded. . .*sniffles* I had the next chapter to this like, ready and everything. AND THEN, right when I decide to post it, the disk I saved it on went all wonky and argh! *sobs* All my work is gone! GONE! *wipes at tears* I'm ok. . .I'm ok . . .So yeah. I know it's kind of been a looog time since an update, but I hope I still have some loyal readers out there! *giggles* So, on with the story. . .
~*~*~*~For always?~*~*~*~
Although that happened almost five years ago, I'm never going to forget it. It's a memory that will be engraved in my memory forever.
It was like some sick tale with the main character's boyfriend sleeping with the girl's best friend.
I wouldn't- I couldn't talk to him, I couldn't even look at him. I avoided him at all costs, but he tried his best to get me to talk with him. He'd wait by the door of my classroom, he'd sit on my front porch- This one time, I actually had to sneak in the backdoor while I asked Cordy to act as a diversion. Plus, it was a way to see if he really had just been using me. But when Cordy came into the house, she shook her head and told me that he didn't make any moves on her. He had only looked at her sadly and asked if she knew where I was, not bothering in asking who Cordelia was.
So he did care for me? But. . .
He hurt me. . .He hurt me so much. And the pain, God, the pain of betrayal. It nipped hungrily at my heart, how could he do this to me? How could he go out and just sleep around with another woman? I knew he was a player, but he promised. No more girls. . .I guess that was a lie. He slept with Willow. My best friend.
Oh God, don't even get me started on Willow. I think she had realize how wrong she had been in having sex with him because I found her waiting on the driveway of my house, five freakin' days after the incident, looking guilty and embarrassed. But right when I saw her, I just didn't want to talk to her. I shut the door on her face when I all I had wanted to do was wring her pale neck and watch her eyes roll back into her head. Scary how that thought made me smile.
Five days ago, I had wanted to do the same thing to William. But the worse thing about it was: I still missed him. Even though I knew he had slept with Willow, I still- felt for him. Not love. No love. Love is something you give when you can trust that person, but I couldn't trust him. Not anymore.
But I still lov- felt, for him. I cared for him, and it hurt me to see him at my doorstep, after days of trying to get my attention. His hair was in a mess and he had dark rings under his eyes. His clothes were wrinkled and his eyes were puffy and red from. . .crying? Had he cried for me?
"Elizabeth, please, luv," he gave her a pained expression, "Can we talk?"
Elizabeth lay her head on the side of the door and begged softly, "William, please. Just leave-"
"-you alone," he finished for her. He nodded and began to turn away. Suddenly, he whipped his head around and grabbed the brunette girl out of her house, shutting the door behind her. "We *need* to talk," he growled.
Forcing her to sit on the porch steps, he heaved a sigh and plopped down next to her. As Elizabeth got ready to leave, he put a firm grip on her arm and pulled her down beside him. Struggling, she tried to wiggle from his strong hold and William rolled his eyes, pulling her back against his chest. Wrapping his arms around the restless girl, he whispered close to her ear, "Elizabeth, just listen to me."
"I don't want to," she protested weakly, her efforts subsiding.
William pressed his nose against her hair, breathing in her scent and sighing in content, "Don't want to or can't?"
"I just-"
"Why won't you just hear me out, pet? Why won't you just give me a chance to explain?" The brunette man brought a finger under her chin and turned her head to face him. Elizabeth looked up at his blue eyes, she saw the pleading in there and the sadness that settled within it's depths.
Elizabeth gulped silently and looked away, whispering, "I don't want to give you another chance. Y-you'll just hurt me again."
William's arms tightened around her and he nuzzled her neck, "I would never hurt you, luv. Never." He turned her in his lap so that he could look in her eyes. Brushing a few strands from her eyes, he muttered softly, "I would never hurt you, Elizabeth." His eyes were shining from unshed tears. Damn, he thought he'd cried enough already.
She put a hand on his cheek and bit her lip, hoping that it might somehow keep her from crying too. "But you did."
His lower lip trembled and he held her tight against him, his buried his face in her chest and began muttering insensible things into her neck. "I never meant to hurt you. It wasn't my fault. I love you. I love you. I hurt you, I didn't mean to. I would never hurt you. Never. Never. Love you too much. . .Could never hurt you. . ."
Elizabeth ran a hand along his back as he clutched at her body as if it were a life line. After his little ramble, he looked up at her and finally said, "I'm sorry."
She let go of him and she nodded sadly, "I am too." With hands in her lap, she looked down at them to avoid his now steady gaze, "You cheated on me, Will."
His hands came into her view as he covered her small hands with his own, "That's what I wanted to talk to you about." He spent the next twenty minutes, explaining what Willow had done. It was almost unbelievable.
William's grades had been slipping, so he had asked Willow for help. She had come over and had slipped a generous amount of alcohol in their drinks when Willow had suggested a snack break. William felt foolish for not wondering why his beverage had tasted so odd and he wanted to kill himself, but Elizabeth urged him to continue with the story. It turned out that Willow had hid more bottles in her bag and kept him drunk until he couldn't think straight anymore.
"And that's when you found us," William finished, "Elizabeth, when I realized what had happened, I was furious. I was shocked and angry, I kicked Willow out of my house and came looking for you. But you kept avoiding me. God, pet-" he grabbed his female companion into his arms again, "I've missed you so much. I-I was scared."
Elizabeth frowned. Scared? "What?"
He entwined their fingers and held them tight, "I was scared- afraid of losing you. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but just believe me when I say that I love you, I would never hurt you. You're the only woman in my life -for me." He gulped, "For always."
The girl sniffed and he wiped a stray tear that fell from her eye, "For always?"
"'Till the end of eternity, luv. And forever after that."
She smiled and snuggled into his warm embrace, "Forever's a pretty long time."
The man shrugged, grinning down at her, "Not long enough. How about forever and a day?"
The girl snorted and punched him playfully on the arm, "Can't you come up with anything original?"
"What?" He asked innocently.
She rolled her eyes, "You *so* stole that from a song."
"Did not." He denied.
"Did too."
"Did not."
"Did too."
"Did not."
"Did t-" His stopped her lame retort with his lips. Smiling into the kiss, Elizabeth wrapped her arms around his neck and he pulled her impossibly closer, closing the tiny distance between them.
"God, I've missed you. . ." He sighed, taking her lower lip into his mouth. She moaned in agreement, not noticing the redhead who had been heading over to William's house, glaring at the occupied pair.
"Enjoy all this now, William," she said almost inaudibly, "Cause it's not gonna last for long."
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A/N: Just, bare with me here, k? LoL I know I've sped things up too much with the Spuffy luvin' then the fight and then more Spuffy luvin'. . .But just, bare with me, please? Next chapter might be up sometime this week, but that's only if I get some reviews. *wink* ^_^
Please be kind and review. =) It doesn't take that long to press a small wittle button and type in, "Ooh! I just love this story!" and then press submit. . .does it? *giggles*
~Disclaimer: All the characters were created by Joss, alright? *rolls eyes* Do you want to know who made my computer too? *pouts* j/k j/k ^_~ teehee
~A/N: *strangles computer* Grr! Argh! *slaps side of screen* Stupid computer! *pouts* It's so retarded. . .*sniffles* I had the next chapter to this like, ready and everything. AND THEN, right when I decide to post it, the disk I saved it on went all wonky and argh! *sobs* All my work is gone! GONE! *wipes at tears* I'm ok. . .I'm ok . . .So yeah. I know it's kind of been a looog time since an update, but I hope I still have some loyal readers out there! *giggles* So, on with the story. . .
~*~*~*~For always?~*~*~*~
Although that happened almost five years ago, I'm never going to forget it. It's a memory that will be engraved in my memory forever.
It was like some sick tale with the main character's boyfriend sleeping with the girl's best friend.
I wouldn't- I couldn't talk to him, I couldn't even look at him. I avoided him at all costs, but he tried his best to get me to talk with him. He'd wait by the door of my classroom, he'd sit on my front porch- This one time, I actually had to sneak in the backdoor while I asked Cordy to act as a diversion. Plus, it was a way to see if he really had just been using me. But when Cordy came into the house, she shook her head and told me that he didn't make any moves on her. He had only looked at her sadly and asked if she knew where I was, not bothering in asking who Cordelia was.
So he did care for me? But. . .
He hurt me. . .He hurt me so much. And the pain, God, the pain of betrayal. It nipped hungrily at my heart, how could he do this to me? How could he go out and just sleep around with another woman? I knew he was a player, but he promised. No more girls. . .I guess that was a lie. He slept with Willow. My best friend.
Oh God, don't even get me started on Willow. I think she had realize how wrong she had been in having sex with him because I found her waiting on the driveway of my house, five freakin' days after the incident, looking guilty and embarrassed. But right when I saw her, I just didn't want to talk to her. I shut the door on her face when I all I had wanted to do was wring her pale neck and watch her eyes roll back into her head. Scary how that thought made me smile.
Five days ago, I had wanted to do the same thing to William. But the worse thing about it was: I still missed him. Even though I knew he had slept with Willow, I still- felt for him. Not love. No love. Love is something you give when you can trust that person, but I couldn't trust him. Not anymore.
But I still lov- felt, for him. I cared for him, and it hurt me to see him at my doorstep, after days of trying to get my attention. His hair was in a mess and he had dark rings under his eyes. His clothes were wrinkled and his eyes were puffy and red from. . .crying? Had he cried for me?
"Elizabeth, please, luv," he gave her a pained expression, "Can we talk?"
Elizabeth lay her head on the side of the door and begged softly, "William, please. Just leave-"
"-you alone," he finished for her. He nodded and began to turn away. Suddenly, he whipped his head around and grabbed the brunette girl out of her house, shutting the door behind her. "We *need* to talk," he growled.
Forcing her to sit on the porch steps, he heaved a sigh and plopped down next to her. As Elizabeth got ready to leave, he put a firm grip on her arm and pulled her down beside him. Struggling, she tried to wiggle from his strong hold and William rolled his eyes, pulling her back against his chest. Wrapping his arms around the restless girl, he whispered close to her ear, "Elizabeth, just listen to me."
"I don't want to," she protested weakly, her efforts subsiding.
William pressed his nose against her hair, breathing in her scent and sighing in content, "Don't want to or can't?"
"I just-"
"Why won't you just hear me out, pet? Why won't you just give me a chance to explain?" The brunette man brought a finger under her chin and turned her head to face him. Elizabeth looked up at his blue eyes, she saw the pleading in there and the sadness that settled within it's depths.
Elizabeth gulped silently and looked away, whispering, "I don't want to give you another chance. Y-you'll just hurt me again."
William's arms tightened around her and he nuzzled her neck, "I would never hurt you, luv. Never." He turned her in his lap so that he could look in her eyes. Brushing a few strands from her eyes, he muttered softly, "I would never hurt you, Elizabeth." His eyes were shining from unshed tears. Damn, he thought he'd cried enough already.
She put a hand on his cheek and bit her lip, hoping that it might somehow keep her from crying too. "But you did."
His lower lip trembled and he held her tight against him, his buried his face in her chest and began muttering insensible things into her neck. "I never meant to hurt you. It wasn't my fault. I love you. I love you. I hurt you, I didn't mean to. I would never hurt you. Never. Never. Love you too much. . .Could never hurt you. . ."
Elizabeth ran a hand along his back as he clutched at her body as if it were a life line. After his little ramble, he looked up at her and finally said, "I'm sorry."
She let go of him and she nodded sadly, "I am too." With hands in her lap, she looked down at them to avoid his now steady gaze, "You cheated on me, Will."
His hands came into her view as he covered her small hands with his own, "That's what I wanted to talk to you about." He spent the next twenty minutes, explaining what Willow had done. It was almost unbelievable.
William's grades had been slipping, so he had asked Willow for help. She had come over and had slipped a generous amount of alcohol in their drinks when Willow had suggested a snack break. William felt foolish for not wondering why his beverage had tasted so odd and he wanted to kill himself, but Elizabeth urged him to continue with the story. It turned out that Willow had hid more bottles in her bag and kept him drunk until he couldn't think straight anymore.
"And that's when you found us," William finished, "Elizabeth, when I realized what had happened, I was furious. I was shocked and angry, I kicked Willow out of my house and came looking for you. But you kept avoiding me. God, pet-" he grabbed his female companion into his arms again, "I've missed you so much. I-I was scared."
Elizabeth frowned. Scared? "What?"
He entwined their fingers and held them tight, "I was scared- afraid of losing you. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but just believe me when I say that I love you, I would never hurt you. You're the only woman in my life -for me." He gulped, "For always."
The girl sniffed and he wiped a stray tear that fell from her eye, "For always?"
"'Till the end of eternity, luv. And forever after that."
She smiled and snuggled into his warm embrace, "Forever's a pretty long time."
The man shrugged, grinning down at her, "Not long enough. How about forever and a day?"
The girl snorted and punched him playfully on the arm, "Can't you come up with anything original?"
"What?" He asked innocently.
She rolled her eyes, "You *so* stole that from a song."
"Did not." He denied.
"Did too."
"Did not."
"Did too."
"Did not."
"Did t-" His stopped her lame retort with his lips. Smiling into the kiss, Elizabeth wrapped her arms around his neck and he pulled her impossibly closer, closing the tiny distance between them.
"God, I've missed you. . ." He sighed, taking her lower lip into his mouth. She moaned in agreement, not noticing the redhead who had been heading over to William's house, glaring at the occupied pair.
"Enjoy all this now, William," she said almost inaudibly, "Cause it's not gonna last for long."
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A/N: Just, bare with me here, k? LoL I know I've sped things up too much with the Spuffy luvin' then the fight and then more Spuffy luvin'. . .But just, bare with me, please? Next chapter might be up sometime this week, but that's only if I get some reviews. *wink* ^_^
Please be kind and review. =) It doesn't take that long to press a small wittle button and type in, "Ooh! I just love this story!" and then press submit. . .does it? *giggles*