Disclaimer: Okay, I'm on chapter 7 now, and I don't own Charmed, and I'm
getting this continued sense of déjà vu, saying this over and over again,
lol.
Chapter Summary: Another Flashback, to when Jirad left Penny, and Kyra is forced to go back to faery for the last ingredient for their vanquishing potion.. Will she be able to confront her fears or will she vanish into the dreamscape forever?
Chapter 7: Can't Be Perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand -Simple Plan, from Perfect
*Flashback*
Tears streamed quietly down Penny's face as she listened to the words she didn't want to hear. Jirad tipped her face up gently so he could look into her depthless eyes. "I have to go. I can't stay here, I can't belong to just you. There are people out there that need me, innocents that I have to save, I owe it to them," Jirad tried to explain, knowing she could never understand. She looked so beautiful, he wanted to kiss away her tears, kiss away all her worries, and the bitterness he knew would follow his departure. But to give in would be defeat and he couldn't face defeat, not after all his years of doing exactly what he thought was right. Instead, he kissed her forehead and left.
Jirad knew he would never go back, his love for Penny and Payton was too strong, it would overwhelm him and he wouldn't be able to protect the innocent anymore. It was too much to handle even now, he wished he could do nothing but hold Penny and Payton for all of time, but he was sworn to protect the innocent and he couldn't go back now. They would learn to live without him, even if he would never stop missing them and yearning for them with every fiber of his being. It was better this way, he kept telling himself, praying that it was true.
Penny knew he had to leave, she knew he loved her, she knew she would've done the same thing. And she knew he had left her. She couldn't force herself to understand, to comprehend the words he had said. She was a survivor though, she had survived before and she would continue to do so, she had to be there for her daughter. *End of Flashback*
"I'll go," Kyra told Paige resolutely.
"Are you sure? I could go, it'd be safer," Paige offered.
"It's something I just have to do, Paige, and I know how to get there. Besides, I have to face my fears, right?" Paige just hoped she was right. After only a few weeks she loved her cousin and would do anything to protect the sweet young woman she seemed to be. If she insisted though, she knew she would have to give in. Without another word, Kyra spun away.
Chris just stared into Kyra's iced-over green eyes, unable to tell her how he felt. He knew she was bad for him, that she wasn't everything he and everyone else thought she was. He also knew he loved her, with a love that she alone had provoked. He wasn't sure if he could survive if she were to leave. Only a few weeks and he was her willing slave and she knew it.
"I have to go." She hid her emotions well, he thought. She stood perfectly still as she looked up at him. Chris was everything Desron wasn't. He was dependable, he wasn't the control freak Desron had learned to become. He was a whitelighter and everything that meant.
"Be careful," he told her quietly, stealing a last kiss from her before she left him alone with only his thoughts for company.
Her last stop was Desron's Manhattan flat. He blinked to the Underworld for business but he preferred New York, as un-demonic as that seemed to some. Kyra appeared in front of him. Used to her unannounced appearances he didn't even blink. Instead he smiled sadistically and kissed her, on the lips Chris had just kissed seconds before. He managed to thaw her out a bit more, but she stopped him before he could get too carried away. "I'm leaving," she told him. "Faery?" he questioned. "Yea." "Okay," he would miss her if she didn't come back, but there were others like her. Well, not quite like her, but maybe close enough.
Kyra's relationship with Desron was meaningless in such a way that it had much more meaning than either wanted to believe. Kyra knew she was just another fling in the Source's career, another source of power, but she loved him in her own way. Just as he loved her, unknowing as he was. He had even forgotten about the other girls, the only one he wanted was Kyra. Yet he didn't even realize how much she'd become to him, it wasn't love, demons weren't capable of love. But it was something.
Last stop, Kyra thought, spinning into Faery armed only with her determination and formidable powers. She hoped it wouldn't be the last stop she'd ever make.
So, what do you think should happen in Faery? I'd love some ideas..
Chapter Summary: Another Flashback, to when Jirad left Penny, and Kyra is forced to go back to faery for the last ingredient for their vanquishing potion.. Will she be able to confront her fears or will she vanish into the dreamscape forever?
Chapter 7: Can't Be Perfect
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand -Simple Plan, from Perfect
*Flashback*
Tears streamed quietly down Penny's face as she listened to the words she didn't want to hear. Jirad tipped her face up gently so he could look into her depthless eyes. "I have to go. I can't stay here, I can't belong to just you. There are people out there that need me, innocents that I have to save, I owe it to them," Jirad tried to explain, knowing she could never understand. She looked so beautiful, he wanted to kiss away her tears, kiss away all her worries, and the bitterness he knew would follow his departure. But to give in would be defeat and he couldn't face defeat, not after all his years of doing exactly what he thought was right. Instead, he kissed her forehead and left.
Jirad knew he would never go back, his love for Penny and Payton was too strong, it would overwhelm him and he wouldn't be able to protect the innocent anymore. It was too much to handle even now, he wished he could do nothing but hold Penny and Payton for all of time, but he was sworn to protect the innocent and he couldn't go back now. They would learn to live without him, even if he would never stop missing them and yearning for them with every fiber of his being. It was better this way, he kept telling himself, praying that it was true.
Penny knew he had to leave, she knew he loved her, she knew she would've done the same thing. And she knew he had left her. She couldn't force herself to understand, to comprehend the words he had said. She was a survivor though, she had survived before and she would continue to do so, she had to be there for her daughter. *End of Flashback*
"I'll go," Kyra told Paige resolutely.
"Are you sure? I could go, it'd be safer," Paige offered.
"It's something I just have to do, Paige, and I know how to get there. Besides, I have to face my fears, right?" Paige just hoped she was right. After only a few weeks she loved her cousin and would do anything to protect the sweet young woman she seemed to be. If she insisted though, she knew she would have to give in. Without another word, Kyra spun away.
Chris just stared into Kyra's iced-over green eyes, unable to tell her how he felt. He knew she was bad for him, that she wasn't everything he and everyone else thought she was. He also knew he loved her, with a love that she alone had provoked. He wasn't sure if he could survive if she were to leave. Only a few weeks and he was her willing slave and she knew it.
"I have to go." She hid her emotions well, he thought. She stood perfectly still as she looked up at him. Chris was everything Desron wasn't. He was dependable, he wasn't the control freak Desron had learned to become. He was a whitelighter and everything that meant.
"Be careful," he told her quietly, stealing a last kiss from her before she left him alone with only his thoughts for company.
Her last stop was Desron's Manhattan flat. He blinked to the Underworld for business but he preferred New York, as un-demonic as that seemed to some. Kyra appeared in front of him. Used to her unannounced appearances he didn't even blink. Instead he smiled sadistically and kissed her, on the lips Chris had just kissed seconds before. He managed to thaw her out a bit more, but she stopped him before he could get too carried away. "I'm leaving," she told him. "Faery?" he questioned. "Yea." "Okay," he would miss her if she didn't come back, but there were others like her. Well, not quite like her, but maybe close enough.
Kyra's relationship with Desron was meaningless in such a way that it had much more meaning than either wanted to believe. Kyra knew she was just another fling in the Source's career, another source of power, but she loved him in her own way. Just as he loved her, unknowing as he was. He had even forgotten about the other girls, the only one he wanted was Kyra. Yet he didn't even realize how much she'd become to him, it wasn't love, demons weren't capable of love. But it was something.
Last stop, Kyra thought, spinning into Faery armed only with her determination and formidable powers. She hoped it wouldn't be the last stop she'd ever make.
So, what do you think should happen in Faery? I'd love some ideas..