Authors note: Sorry I took so long to add the next chapter… but its here! I think this one is going to be better than last chapter… I just didn't know what to write. Also the first one originally was going to be the only song fic. Well while I was half way through writing this a had a Sarah McLachlan song on and I realized one of the scenes kind of fit a verse or two of the song. So here It is! Possession, by Sarah McLachlan. Or at least pats.. or maybe switched around.
Just close your eyes
listen as the wind blowsfrom across the great dividevoices trapped in yearningmemories trapped in timethe night is my companionand solitude my guidewould i spend forever hereand not be satisfied
I flopped down on my bed, sighing the echoing voices of the older mutants scolding me out of my head. I rested the back of my hand on my forehead, which was covered in a layer of cold sweat. I closed my eyes, taking another deep breath. I could hear someone's music playing down the hall, but just faintly. I could only make out one line, and I don't know why I was trying to listen so hard.
"We both know it was a girl back in Bethlehem"
I snorted, almost laughing at the very thought. Jesus. A girl. Then the ridicule of the thought died down. Its not like it wasn't possible… Whatever.
through this world i've stumbledso many times betrayedtrying to find an honest wordto find the truth enslavedoh you speak to me in riddlesand you speak to me in rhymemy body aches to breathe your breathyour words keep me alive
"Ich bin müde! (I'm tired!)" I muttered to myself as I got up, heading over to my dresser. I didn't check to see if my door was all the way closed, though it looked like it. No one would want to spy on me anyways… I removed my shirt tossing it into a corner, which was soon accompanied by a pair of pants, duck patterned blue boxers and some socks, revealing my thin, nude form. I opened the top dresser droor, pulling out a pair of plain black boxers and then a pair of blue plaid pajamas and put them on.
"Ich muß einige Socken waschen... (I have to wash some socks…)" I mumbled to myself as I scrounged around my dresser for a pair. "Oh! Sind hier einige!(Oh! Here's some!)" I said happily as I pulled them out and put them on, then proceeded to the light switch and a moment before I pressed it, there was a knock at my door.
It scared me and I gave a soft gasp, then recollected myself. I put my hand on the knob, turning it reluctantly and opened it enough just to poke my head out. "Was? – I mean...What?" I asked a little irritated, but then noticed who it was. "Oh! Sorry, Bobby! I didn't know it was you!"
"It's ok." He replied, chuckling softly. I sat there for a moment, my head still sticking out of the door, impolitely, not saying anything, though I don't know why.
"You goin'ta invite me in?" He asked, giving a cute smile.
into this night i wanderit's morning that i dreadanother day of knowing ofthe path i fear to tread
Why is it so wrong to like that..? I thought, loving every single different way he could smile.
oh into the sea of waking dreamsi follow without pridenothing stands between us here and i won't be denied
"Oh! Yeah! Sorry. I sorta spaced out there, ha ha!" I said almost nervously, scratching my head. I opened the door, gesturing for him to come in playfully, in a royal bow. "Sir." I said as I did so. He laughed. I love his laugh. Is that why I did that? Maybe… No. This is foolish. Get your self together!
"So what did you want?" "Well I was just coming to see if you felt okay. When you got back, you looked like shit, but the adults got to you before I could call you."
"Oh…" I said, a pale pink finding its way across my face, ever so subtly, though I'm sure he noticed because he gave a grin for just a moment, then spoke again. "So are you?" "Am I…?" "OK" "Oh! I'm so out of it!" I laughed lightly. " Well I still feel kind of crappy, but I'm ok for the most part." We were silent for a moment.
and i would be the oneto hold you downkiss you so hardi'll take your breath awayand after i'd wipe away the tearsjust close your eyes dear
He was looking at me so intently, and I felt an intensity in my chest. And I felt a desire in my lips. His lips… They're so perfect. He had a mans lips, but they weren't tiny like most. They were full and pink and good for kissing. I moved my head closer to his, blushing deeply, and I could see it in his expression. Did He like me? Did he feel the same way I did. He wasn't backing from me. He wasn't wondering what I was about to do. He knew what was happening. Do I? His lips pressed against my own and I stantly yielded to him, letting my self press against his body, melting against him almost. His hand had already found its way into my hair. His tongue doused my lower lip, pleading for entrance. I opened my mouth and his tongue plunged in, strong, mine wrestling with it. Is this what I want? I grew hard against him and he grew hard against me, and at that instant I repelled myself from him. "Wha…What's wrong?" "No. I'm… I'm sorry. Ich sollte nicht den erregt haben(I should not have provoked that). I can't do this. This is wrong. You have to leave! I'm sorry!" I said shoving him out the door and shutting it behind me.
My heart was racing a million miles a second and I had my hand on my lips as I leaned against the door to my room. ' Mein Gott(My God…)' I closed my eyes tight, a tear escaping my clenched eyelids.
and i would be the oneto hold you downkiss you so hardi'll take your breath awayand after i'd wipe away the tearsjust close your eyes deari'll hold you downkiss you so hardi'll take your breath awayand after i'd wipe away the tearsjust close your eyes
The rest of the week I avoided him and when Sunday came I confessed my sins. And boy was that a doozy…But It didn't make me feel any better. I didn't feel like a better person like I always had before. It was different. I could feel in my chest that I was doing something wrong. I felt like I was telling some big lie.
through this world i've stumbledso many times betrayedtrying to find an honest wordto find the truth enslavedoh you speak to me in riddlesand you speak to me in rhymemy body aches to breathe your breathyour words keep me alive