Author's note: So this chapter continues from the end of the second chapter, where Seifer and Quistis went outside for a walk from the graduation ball. And oh yeah You DO remember that I don't own Squaresoft, huh?
Because I don'tI hope you are still reading this, because I'm only getting started and you're going to miss lots of things if you don't keep on reading this So read it

Shared Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe

Chapter 3: Night for Us

Quistis looked up toward the night sky, her soul filling with peace, as she admired those darling stars that twinkled lazily from the dark sky. Her tranquil gaze turned toward the full moon that shone from the sky, the few soft rays lightening her and Seifer's way along the green grass fields near the Balamb Garden as they walked slowly, only sharing few simple words between themselves.

He felt his emerald eyes wandering around her well-shaped body and a wide grin crossed over his face again.

He saw that she was slender, her absolutely glorious dress tracing her perfect lines down the curves of her back, the dress' bodice embracing her wonderful bosom in a lovely squeezing way and her slender long women legs was shoving slightly under the long lavender dress as the wind breezed under it, moving the sheer material of the dress slightly up, caressing her legs in soft way of wind that entrapped his attracted gaze.

His eyes locked back to her bare shoulders that were slightly covered from her silky hair, which flowed freely around her, and his gaze started to form into inappropriate one as his emerald eyes started to wander down her body inch by inch, dreaming from embracing her wonderful body and landing sweet kisses all over her.

Come on Seifer this is Quistis you're looking at

He turned his blond head to his right, two golden locks of his short front hair dropping in front of his forehead, his proud figure starting to deepen with black shadows of lust.

He bit his lips softly, looking down to the green grass that frowned softly in the way of wind, the soft wind caressing the long straps of grass, and he kept on walking slightly behind her.

She isn't the only woman in the world, you know There are many women out there waiting to be caught

He suddenly stopped in his steps and raised his blond head up, shaking his head with laughter as he chuckled softly to himself, a cocky smile suddenly gracing his lips as he understood how pathetic he was to think like that as he just couldn't stand the sight of women who were offering their bodies shamelessly to any man, even to a complete stranger.

He knew Quistis wasn't like that and that was the utmost thing he appreciated from her, among other things of course.

Quistis stopped in her steps as she heard his cocky chuckle behind her and she turned to him in surprise, wondering what he was laughing at.

She looked his face for a minute, seeing that familiar sly smile that was now playing on his thin mouth, his proud face lightning from this arrogant, but still so lovely smile that she had silently missed. Then she found herself smiling too, being surprised how good it felt when her lips stretched into a gentle and simple smile.

What are you laughing at, Seifer? her sweet voice sounded happy and it caught his fully attention as he looked toward her, letting that same sexy smirk play upon his firm face, not knowing how much it really affected her as he said in delighted and teasing voice: Look, smiling isn't so hard when you get used to it

She looked him with her cornflower-blue eyes, this smile starting to get wider, caressing her face with its whole length as she recognized that witty smile that he now wore, and she sighed lightly, shaking her head slowly so the few strains of her silky front hair dropped to her face, framing them beautifully as she said softly: You never change, do you?

He took this change and walked toward her slowly, halving the distance between them by half as he kept his deep emerald eyes on her spirit-blue eyes, saying a teasing tone playing on top of his sly tongue:
I've always been your favourite student, Instructor so why should I change that?

She looked him deeply, her smile starting to fade away as she became strangely silent, suddenly thinking of those days so far away with absent gaze on her cornflower shaded eyes.

Things have changed very much from those days, don't you think? We have changed as well the rest of the orphan gang her words were silent and she dropped her face down, those little lips frowning in fading smile.

I think I've always loved him, Seifer even in those times, I knew that I wanted himonly him-she raised her gaze back to his wonderful green eyes that now gave her strange comfort from the passion and spirited glow she never knew they contained, those golden spirits dancing around his strong pupils, and she felt her own eyes drowning to her own sadness as she continued, not being able to held this inside her anymore.

when Rinoa came I, I lost my hope in a way that hurts the most I lost Squall to her, just like that.
she now felt the unshed tears behind her pale eyelids, those tears that tried to make their way out of her blue eyes.

She sniffled softly as she laughed silently, trying desperately to hide her tears behind that collapsing laugh, feeling his piercing eyes on her once again: I'm sorry if I put you into awkward position, Seifer You don't need to say anything.

In the first time in his life, he didn't know what to say. He always had an easy answer to everything, but now they all were gone as he looked her trembling figure, wanting to make her smile again with that same genuine smile that had traced her pink lips perfectly. His words were muffled inside his mind and his breath was shallow, almost death.

She started to shiver, from cold perhaps, and Seifer saw that. He raised his hands to take his dark jacket off and she looked him with confusion in her cornflower eyes, but when she saw the tanned skin of his well-trimmed arms, the womanly pleasure she felt from this sight almost made the soft moan of pleasure escaping from her passionate lips.

She just barely stopped them coming, feeling her throat drying from this horrible struggle against those needing moans that contained many unanswered feelings.

She took a long breaking breath, feeling suddenly her face getting some color as she blushed from this sudden pleasure, when Seifer started to land the jacket against her shoulders, landing his gentle and warm hands on top of it, making a sudden wave of shiver going through her whole body from his touch.

He has never touched me before never

She found herself calming down as she realized how strangely good his touch felt, those strong hands so gentle and soft giving her a warmth she had never before felt in her empty life.

She locked her cornflower-shaded eyes with his emerald eyes, those deep eyes looking intently toward hers with shooing calmness, almost like they understood what she was going through.

I understand I understand perhaps too well his eyes were so gentle, so loving, as he uttered those words to her.

She had never seen this side from him, she only knew the teasing, cocky and uncaring Seifer, who had once been the sorceress' loyal knight, Ultimecia's own little raging puppet It was easy to have only negative feelings toward him back then, but now she didn't know what to think and the cloud of insecure was hanging over her, keeping her eyes on him, not finding any words to react to his straying voice as her own voice was gone.

They kept on looking into each other eyes, not caring the fact that they were so close to each other, sharing only few inches between their craving bodies as his hands were still over her shoulders, squeezing them so gently.

You're attractive, damn sexy and everything but still You and me that can never happen We are so different and, Seifer stopped in the middle of his words that went inside his mind, finally understanding what he was about to think.

And what, Seifer? Quistis loves Squall? No, that can't be it She just thinks she loves him, he looked her more deeply now, some faraway in his mind knowing that these words were truth as this lovely woman, who was now standing in front of him, waiting for him to speak up or silence for eternity.

He finally took a daring breath before starting to move his hands against her shoulders, feeling her sweet trembling under his touch, few of her beautiful strains of hair wriggling around his fingers in a way of dancing pair of lovers.

You don't love him, Quistis his gaze was soft, trying to make her understand these facts.

You have to accept that because if you won't you will end up all alone, never finding the true love that you so deserve.

She looked him in slight shock, starting to feel the tears burning behind her cornflower eyes as she was listening to his words that hurt her so much, and she said softly, trying to control her quivering voice as she needed to assure him, and most of all, assure herself about her feelings: I love Squall I really do, Seifer

Don't lie to yourself, Quistis You will just end up more hurt than you already are

But I love him I've never before---

You DO NOT love him You just don't, Quistis his tone of voice was hardening now, the sternness of his words softened by so gentle and loving tone that she had never heard him use, or even thought to be capable for, as he interrupted her shaking words, his eyes burning with such passion that she had never received in her lifeever.

I DO love him, Seifer! And he loves me back---!

Then why is he with Rinoa? Do you honestly think that he chose her over you, just because he is fond of her?

Her sparkling eyes were now on the verge of releasing those delicate tears that was trapped inside her cornflower-shaded eyes: He loves me He has to love me

Seifer looked her deeply as he started to slow down, now just looking her heartbreaking frame, still keeping his hands on top of her shoulders, feeling her body tremble as she fought back against the tears that he well knew she was hiding.

It's alright, Quistis It's alright to cry

she threw her hands to the air, making his comforting hands flew away from touching her shoulders and she shouted, seeming to be really pissed-off by his sudden caring words, knowing that crying had never done any good to her.

It's NOT alright to cry! Crying won't solve anything Only weak ones cry her words were bitter and annoyed and the tears started to make their way down the contours of her face, making her only more angry.

I hate you she gathered all her strength to punch him against his abdomen, but he didn't even budge and it made her really angry as she started to shout with her whole voice, the sadness and pain she felt ringing clearly from her words:
I hate you, Seifer! I hate you! And I hate him! I hate---

Her words started to brake down as the tears started to slide down her cheeks uncontrollably, and she suddenly threw herself into his warm arms, hiding her sweet face against his chest, catching him off guard.

He quickly surrounded her shaking body protectively with his strong arms and he tugged her head under his firm jaw, letting her cry against his shoulder. Let it all come, Quistis It will help---

He slowly frowned down to whisper in her ear, his lips gently brushing the shell of her ear: ---I will help you

She frowned in strange fear now: What are you doing

he was getting closer to her now too close in fact.

Let go off me she yanked his hands away from her and started to walk quickly away from him, being scared from his sudden behavior as she turned her uncaring back to him.

But Seifer wasn't going to let her walk away like that Not from him

He gripped her arm fiercely, the soft flesh of her arm getting reddened under his strong and hurting grasp as he turned her around violently and pulled her body tightly against his with force, not caring what she was going to do.

I told you to let go---! she saw his firm face dropping threateningly to hers but before she could even response, she felt his gentle lips drawing her lips into a strong kiss, silencing her protests.

She was surprised from this, trying desperately to yank herself away from his strong hold but her efforts failing as he kept her in a strong embrace, trying to persuade her soul to answer his hungry kiss.

He changed his hands back to her slim waist, founding a place for his hand on the small of her back and he pulled her as close to him as possible, still kissing her with fierce as he felt angry from her protests.

Get your dirty hands off me she finally knocked him down, Seifer falling down to the ground and scowling in annoyance as he started to get up: What the hell is wrong with you, Instructor

She wiped her lips with her hand, trying to wipe any trace of the moist of his lips on hers, her eyes burning with pure annoyance: I could ask you the very same question

They were both silent for awhile, looking toward each other intently and they had a large space between them, but then she started to shake her head with angriness, before raising her angry gaze back toward him, saying in a fake-pleasant voice:
Goodnight, Seifer Goodnight for good

He looked her figure that stormed away with wide steps, walking toward the Garden, leaving him all alone there.

wait! he shouted after her with somehow mournful gaze in his darkening emerald eyes but didn't get any reply as she just kept on walking, not even once looking behind her

Way to go, Romeo

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It was so warm, so pleasant She could hear the birds singing beautifully, the silent laugh of children around her sleeping body. She started to get up slowly, a wide smile on her face as she started to stretch her hands slightly to the air, wiping all the sleepy thoughts away from her waking mind.

The children were gone, but she still heard them, lurking somewhere, wanting her to find them.

Alright, I hope you are ready because here I come!

She started to walk slowly toward the other room, a smile still playing on her face as she started to feel light, feeling like she was able fly. The background started to become dark, her whole body being surrounded by this black darkness that made her skin shiver in delight.

She wasn't scared not at all She felt satisfied from these cold shivers, from this silent pain that she felt inside her heart. Now there was only silence neither annoying voice of children nor awful song of the birds, only silence

Don't you think that this is the perfect world no living souls anywhere, only darkness and suffering
Yes You want this as much as I do, RinoaYes, you and me are the same

She turned quickly, this time her smile fading away as she started to feel afraid, thinking that the voice was heard behind her. But no There were nothing, only darkness, but still the voice continued.

That deadly tone of voice, filled with darkness, coldness and agony, but still it contain awfully familiar tone of comfort
a tone that she had missed all her life.

You're finally here, my child

A cold and stiff hand landed to her shoulder and Rinoa quickly turned to face whatever it was.

Her brown eyes flew open from shock, a silent gasp of surprise, a shriek for help coming from her mouth as she saw it.

Her restless body stiffened and jumped to sit up on her bed, taking a loud gasps for air and feeling sweat burning on her forehead, her dark hair tangled from this salty liquid of fear.

She turned her gaze around this room, her eyes frantically searching for the vessel of that voice, but only finding the sleeping form of Squall by her side, his naked body covered with her bed sheets.

Her heart beating started to go back to its peaceful rhythm, as she heard that deathly familiar voice again, almost as it spoke in her head.

Finally my child Finally we will be together forever

The voice faded away as did her thoughts, her body landing peacefully down next to Squall's, her mind suddenly drifting into dreams of forgetting, her mind completely shutting this dream away.

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Quistis walked with wide steps toward her room, feeling very angry from the episode she had with Seifer.

That idiot bastard! Thinking I'm easy catch for him to use for his pleasures No way!

She looked very tired and annoyed, her usual tender eyes burning with hurting agony as she opened the door of her room with force, banking the wooden door shut, locking it up.

She walked to her bathroom quickly, looking her face from the mirror of her tranquil coloured bathroom, breathing wildly as she tried to control her anger, knowing that she should really calm down.

She took long comforting breaths and soon enough she calmed down, looking deeply into her blue eyes, starting to observe her face with her hands, sliding her trembling fingers down her fair skin, carefully.

Squall Do you think I'm ugly?

She moved her inner finger on her lips, closing her eyes and remembering how good did Squall's touch felt, when he had done this to her, so slowly, so absentmindedly his greyish eyes twinkling with emotions that he had never before expressed to her.

You and Rinoa So it has always been and so it will be for eternity

She gulped softly, when she felt the tears burning behind her eyelids, burning teasingly inside her throat, and she felt the tears starting to slide down her cheeks, once again, but this time she knew what to do.

She opened her medicine cabinet's door with trembling hands and she quickly searched the medicines over, messing the whole perfect order of these lined drugs. When she finally reached to that one white can of sleeping medicine, she tried opened it up with her hysterically shaking hands, only to see that it was really hard to open it and then she growled in anger, as she raised it up to her mouth.

She opened the can up with her teeth, spitting the cork from her mouth down to the white washbasin, and then she shook the can upside down to her hand that was under it, ready to take those white dangerous pills into her grasp.

They fall bumping down to her shaking hands, many of the pills falling from there down to the washbasin.

She felt her hands shaking even more and she absorbed her hand and the pills that were on it with her tearful eyes, feeling her crying hardening as she felt desperate and so confused.

What am I doing?

She throw the last of the medicines to the floor, leaving only one pill to her hand, slipping it into her dry mouth and gulping it with force down her throat, holding her hands on her throat and closing her eyes.

SquallWhy don't you help me

She went slowly back to her little bedroom, switching the bathroom's lights off, before she walked to her puny, but not so little bed, and fall herself down there on her stomach.

She gripped the large pillow under her with her both hands, trying to tell herself not to cry.

You're so pitiful, Quistis Don't cry don't...

But then she drowned her face against her pillow, starting to cry so loudly that it hurt her soul even more, gasping desperately some air, as she felt choked from these tears, almost hoping that she would.

Her crying grow harder, more desperate, and she turned her head against the pillow, finally stopping her gaze toward her working table.

Under those many blurry tears on her eyes, she could see that metal object lying on her table, almost as it was some kind of sign for her to do that one thing she had planned to do for so many times.

But she was too tired now and she couldn't stop herself when she drifted in to deep, hurting sleep

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Author's note: Yeah, third chapter done more ones still to go So what did you like about the scene between Quistis and Seifer? And what do you think about that strange dream that Rinoa had? Or did you think there was nothing unusual about it, that it was only one of the freaking dreams of Rinoa? And what about Quistis, is she going to do something stupid and what happens after that? (Hmm Seifer you should be more carefully from now on when you try to sweep Quistis legs off, because she is that type of woman who isn't going to accept you harass her like that!)

Well I hope you enjoyed as much as I did, because I'm really going to write this till the bitter end You like it or not!

(Please send me those reviews so I know that you are still alive)