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Can't Stop Loving You : We took a taxi to the station, not a word was said
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Remy spent the entire cab trip recalling the memory of the first time he really got along with Rogue. Before that they would talk occasionally only if they had to or if Remy was board. About twice during the whole cab trip he looked over at Rogue, it used to be he wouldn't care if he was caught looking at her. But now he really didn't want her to see him. He didn't like who he was at the moment. He didn't want her to see this confused and completely out of it man that could be so greatly effected by one woman. He didn't like who he was he hated not being in control but being friends with Rogue you were so rarely in control anyway. After what seemed like hours but in real was only about a half hour the cab pulled up to the train station. Remy helped Rogue with her bags there were only two suitcases and one backpack. The fille traveled light that's for sure.
Neither of them had said a word since they got into the cab, neither of them wanted to. They got to the platform and Remy set her bags down and looked at her. Really looked at her. She wasn't the same girl he had met six months before. She wore a considerably less amount of make-up she added more color to her wardrobe and began to do different things to her hair. She went out more she talked more and was more open to being around people and touching them threw clothing. She seemed scared yet confidant. Oh how he just wanted to hold her at the moment, maybe that would help him settle his thoughts and feelings. " Well Swamp Rat." Rogue started her good bye but was cut off by Remy pulling her into a fierce hug. He didn't care how she would react, he didn't care if he would scare her away, and all he knew was that he needed to hold her. She didn't object to the closeness, she just wrapped her arms around him. " Remy?" Rogue was a little confused. Remy knew she had told him to just let her go and not to make this hard for her but what about him?
" Shhh chere. Remy jus wants t' hold y' right now." Remy said quietly into her ear. Rogue did not respond. He pulled her body close to his and tried to feel her warmth threw his clothing. He inhaled her sweet scent of strawberry shampoo and vanilla perfume that he had given to her. He ran his gloved hand threw her hair and just held her there. He had no idea what had come over him he just knew he had to hold her.
After a few more minutes had passes he pulled away form Rogue a bit keeping is hands on her shoulders, just far enough away from him so he could see her face. He looked over every inch in her face, memorizing it. He memorized how her lips curved how her eyes brows raise just a little when she was being closely watched. The lusciousness of her full pouted lips when she ran her tongue over them. The small sparkle in her emerald eyes when she was trying to figure him out; he even noticed the small white head on her left temple. " What are ya donin' Rem?" She asked breathlessly. Remy smiled and was completely honest with her.
" Memorizin' y' Rogue." He said in a sad tone. He saw the hurt flash in Rogue's eyes as he said this.
" Remy." He covered her mouth with his gloved hand and shook his head.
" I'll be here when y' decide t' come home Rogue." He told her truthfully with a gloved hand holding her face gently rubbing her cheek with his thumb. " Always." He leaned in moving a few strands of white hair away and whispered sweetly into her ear. Rogue froze at this her breathing slowed her movements stopped entirely. She met his gaze and after a few moments raised her own hand and covered his gloved hand with her gloved one. She sighed and began to stare at him with the same intensity as he had before.
For the first time Remy felt uncomfortable under Rogue's gaze. But he stood still and returned her gaze. He watched as she slowly raised her other hand and cupped his cheek, her fingers coming close to his red on black eyes that now where a dark brown but if you looked hard enough you could see the red. Rogue removed the hand that was over his and moved it down to his wrist. Pressing the small red button on his image educer revealing the red on black devil eyes he tried so hard to hide. Remy felt awkward and gave her a curious look, " Chere." It wasn't that he had a problem with showing her his eyes it was the fact that he wasn't in the mood to have people stare at him and call him a Mutie, he just wanted to have some peace today. " What are y' doin'?"
" Memorizin' ya. Ah don' want ta forget what ya look lihake." Rogue said sadly. Remy felt just the same way she did, he felt some powerful urge to never let go of her again and, he just wanted to stay like this, forever.
" Me neither chere." He said sadly, she had put her hand back over his one her face cheek. " Y' could always stay p'tite?" He knew it was a long shot but he had to try, he couldn't lose her. Not after everything they had been through. He felt Rogue shake her head no. Remy sighed and closed his eyes taking in a deep breath.
" No, ah have ta go. Thin's aren' workin' out fo' meh here Rems. Ah jus' need some space ta clear mah head, sort threw thin's, alone. He's getting' stronger, an' ah've lost control on more den one occasions. Ya know what ah mean right?" She looked up to him her eyes searching for answers he could not give her. Yes he knew, on more then one occasion it had happened to her in public. The worst was at school; he had been waiting for her at the mansion cause he had yet to attend school with her. He had taken hold of her and she lost control so everyone knew. That day she had come home and walked right up to the roof. If he hadn't of followed her he might have lost her, he found her looking over the edge like she was contemplating on jumping. " Well Irene told meh dat she knows someone dat can help meh. The Professor thinks it'll be th' best thin' fo' meh. He hasn' had th' best o' luck so it's worth a trhy, right? Only problem is ah don' know how long it'll be. This is somethin' ah need ta do an' ah hope ya can understand." Rogue said solemnly, she sighed and slowly began to remove her hand from his face. Remy caught her hand with his and brought it up to his lips and kissed her gloved hand tenderly. He saw small tears begin to form in the corner of her eyes. But he knew they would not fall she never cried except once, and she had a good reason to cry then. Feeling the need to say something more he opened his mouth to speak.
" Rogue, I."
" Shhhh." Rogue said as she moved her gloved hand up to his lips to silence him. " Ya promised ya wouldn' make this hard fo' meh." Rogue said in a quiet voice. " Ah'm gonna miss ya Remy." Rogue said distantly as she struggled to get out of Remy's hold. Being stubborn he held on for a few more seconds. Just a few more seconds with her like this, in his arms would make him happy. Even if she was leaving, even if he may never see her again, at least he would have this memory. The memory of how good it felt to have her in his arms how wonderful and fresh her auburn hair smelt of strawberries how.perfect it just felt to have her there in his arms. Just for a few more seconds he fell like she was his.
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And I saw you walk across the road
For maybe the last time I don't know
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" I'll miss y' t' chere." Remy said solemnly. It was one of the few times that he ever referred to himself using 'I' only when he was serious. He knew Rogue could tell that he really meant it cause he saw that one tear make its way slowly down her cheek. It broke his heart to see that. She did nothing to stop it, and he reached to wipe it away but she back away from his touch and shook her head.
" Be seein' ya Rems." She said in a choking manner as she fought back the other tears that threatened to fall, as she began to walk away form him, slowly at first. Walking backward and watching him closely then finally turning her back towards him. Remy stood there his mind reeling, God he was going to miss her, was this going to be the last time he ever saw her. He began to think of past times he spent with her the way they would meet up on the roof and talk the night away. How she would always threaten him when he smoked how they would race their motorcycles to school and he would let her win. At least that's what he told himself and her. When they created their own dance just for the two of them.
Remy looked back up to Rogue's retreating form and felt his voice get caught in his throat. He wanted more then anything to call out to her but he couldn't his mouth was moving but nothing was coming out. He watched in silence as she boarded the train. He still couldn't call out to her; no matter how hard he tried he couldn't even get his legs to move. He watched until she was completely gone and he couldn't see her in the train windows. He tried God how he tried he wanted to say something more to her but couldn't find the words.
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Feeling humble
I heard a rumble
On the railway track
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The ground began to rumble lightly beneath Remy's feet but he paid it no mind. Nor did he pay attention to the stares and small gasps he heard from the people walking by him when they saw his eyes. He didn't care anymore. He had lost her, and he still had no idea why he cared so much about the southern belle.
The train began to slowly pull away and Remy could only stand there and watch. His chest hurt so badly, it was an excruciating pain. It wasn't anything physical, no physical pain he could handle no sweat. It wasn't that though, it felt like his heart was breaking into a million tiny, little, iddy bitty pieces, as if someone had ripped out his heart and decided to stomp on it right there in front of him. And he was just left there to pick up the pieces. Or maybe it was that he had no heart maybe his heart had left him and some one had taken it.
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And when I hear that whistle blow
I'll walk away and you won't know
That I'll be crying
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The train whistle blew and Remy could no longer bear the pain he felt watching the train that Rogue was on pull away. It was just too much. He felt short of breath like the wind had just gotten knocked out of him. He couldn't stand it all these voices in his head screamed at him to go chase the train down and bring Rogue back. His arms longed to hold her one more time. Kiss her forehead one more time. Even though they had been great friends at times it felt like they were more then friends and other times like they hated each other. But.
Remy watched the train until it was no longer in view; actually it was more like he was watching Rogue walk on that platform over and over again seeing what he should of done. What he should of said to her. The train was no longer insight but Remy still stood there watching the last place she stood. Watching her walk onto that train over and over again. Hearing her last words over and over again.
" Be seein' ya Rems."
Finally Remy turned to leave. It was to depressing and he now had the feelings in his legs again and could move. His chest hurt, it was like some one constantly pounding on it like there was no tomorrow but worse. Much worse. He had never felt anything like this before. As he turned to leave Remy felt something cold and wet fall gently down his cheek. He slowly brought his gloved hand up and touched his cheek. He brought it down into plain few and was amazed at the sight he saw. There on the tip of his gloved fingers was a small shimmering teardrop.
For the first time in his life he was crying. He had never once cried before, he never cared enough to cry before. That's when he finally realized it. He loved her, he had fallen in love with Rogue, and he had just stood there like an idiot and watched her walk out of his life. Oh what an idiot he had been. Why the hell hadn't he realized this sooner, why was he so stupid? He looked back to where she had been, where he had last seen her and he heard her soft sweet, sad voice in his ears again.
" Be seein' ya Rems."
: Author's Note: How's that for angst? I'm not an angst writer so let me know what you think. All right now you know why she's, well sort of. If you kind of piece together some of the last chapter and this you may get it but oh well. Next chapter you will understand more I promise. Well she's gone and Remy's alone but it doesn't end here. So don't hate me okay. There is still another verse and chores so don't hate me okay. Please let me now what you think and review. It'll take me a while to post the next chapter because I have yet to start it, and with this one I was half done when I posted the last chapter. Later.
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Okay I see other Authors do this so I'll give it a try. Sorry if I left anyone out.
Cool-Chick-Rae - Okay sorry about the French thing with your review. Was having a bad day and was little offended by what you wrote and I can't at the moment remember what it was but it added to my bad, I just had found out my dad was remarrying and my mother's half of the family is pissed off at me cause I am going to the wedding and you don't really need to know all this so sorry. Also I'm glad you like my story and for your story I was just making sure that you didn't put in some corny part of Rogue not knowing where he lived. Again sorry.
Bettie-Chan - Glad you loved it, and lay off the sugar. No one should be that hyper.
Misa1124 - Hey I would like to know where I'm going with this fic too. I have an idea but I'm more of a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl.
Sash - I know, Remy and Rogue are so perfect for each other. Anyone else is just weird. Oh ya thanks for being the first to review this fic. I was worried no one would like it, so thank you for proving me wrong.
Girl Number 1 - Hey don't worry I am going to write this thing out till the very end. I hate it when authors quit half way threw a story so don't worry I'll finish this story if it kills me for you and everyone else's that likes this story.
Ishandahalf - Yeah I enjoyed writing the whole bonding thing. For me I hate it when people write they felt a connection after they met for the first time, these two are too stubborn to fall for each other that quickly. Glad you like it so far.
Carla - Well your question as to why Rogue is leaving is kind of answered. And as for Remy going with her the answer is: no. But going after her, well I'm not at liberty to say as of right now. So you'll have to wait and see. I hope the suspense doesn't kill you.
Riah Yaps - I love being evil and writing cliffhangers, I hate reading them but I love writing them. Hope you liked the chapter.
BloodDevil - Well here is one more future chapter, hope you enjoyed it.
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Again sorry if I missed anyone it's one am and I'm to tired to write any more.
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Take Care, Rogue Star
Can't Stop Loving You : We took a taxi to the station, not a word was said
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Remy spent the entire cab trip recalling the memory of the first time he really got along with Rogue. Before that they would talk occasionally only if they had to or if Remy was board. About twice during the whole cab trip he looked over at Rogue, it used to be he wouldn't care if he was caught looking at her. But now he really didn't want her to see him. He didn't like who he was at the moment. He didn't want her to see this confused and completely out of it man that could be so greatly effected by one woman. He didn't like who he was he hated not being in control but being friends with Rogue you were so rarely in control anyway. After what seemed like hours but in real was only about a half hour the cab pulled up to the train station. Remy helped Rogue with her bags there were only two suitcases and one backpack. The fille traveled light that's for sure.
Neither of them had said a word since they got into the cab, neither of them wanted to. They got to the platform and Remy set her bags down and looked at her. Really looked at her. She wasn't the same girl he had met six months before. She wore a considerably less amount of make-up she added more color to her wardrobe and began to do different things to her hair. She went out more she talked more and was more open to being around people and touching them threw clothing. She seemed scared yet confidant. Oh how he just wanted to hold her at the moment, maybe that would help him settle his thoughts and feelings. " Well Swamp Rat." Rogue started her good bye but was cut off by Remy pulling her into a fierce hug. He didn't care how she would react, he didn't care if he would scare her away, and all he knew was that he needed to hold her. She didn't object to the closeness, she just wrapped her arms around him. " Remy?" Rogue was a little confused. Remy knew she had told him to just let her go and not to make this hard for her but what about him?
" Shhh chere. Remy jus wants t' hold y' right now." Remy said quietly into her ear. Rogue did not respond. He pulled her body close to his and tried to feel her warmth threw his clothing. He inhaled her sweet scent of strawberry shampoo and vanilla perfume that he had given to her. He ran his gloved hand threw her hair and just held her there. He had no idea what had come over him he just knew he had to hold her.
After a few more minutes had passes he pulled away form Rogue a bit keeping is hands on her shoulders, just far enough away from him so he could see her face. He looked over every inch in her face, memorizing it. He memorized how her lips curved how her eyes brows raise just a little when she was being closely watched. The lusciousness of her full pouted lips when she ran her tongue over them. The small sparkle in her emerald eyes when she was trying to figure him out; he even noticed the small white head on her left temple. " What are ya donin' Rem?" She asked breathlessly. Remy smiled and was completely honest with her.
" Memorizin' y' Rogue." He said in a sad tone. He saw the hurt flash in Rogue's eyes as he said this.
" Remy." He covered her mouth with his gloved hand and shook his head.
" I'll be here when y' decide t' come home Rogue." He told her truthfully with a gloved hand holding her face gently rubbing her cheek with his thumb. " Always." He leaned in moving a few strands of white hair away and whispered sweetly into her ear. Rogue froze at this her breathing slowed her movements stopped entirely. She met his gaze and after a few moments raised her own hand and covered his gloved hand with her gloved one. She sighed and began to stare at him with the same intensity as he had before.
For the first time Remy felt uncomfortable under Rogue's gaze. But he stood still and returned her gaze. He watched as she slowly raised her other hand and cupped his cheek, her fingers coming close to his red on black eyes that now where a dark brown but if you looked hard enough you could see the red. Rogue removed the hand that was over his and moved it down to his wrist. Pressing the small red button on his image educer revealing the red on black devil eyes he tried so hard to hide. Remy felt awkward and gave her a curious look, " Chere." It wasn't that he had a problem with showing her his eyes it was the fact that he wasn't in the mood to have people stare at him and call him a Mutie, he just wanted to have some peace today. " What are y' doin'?"
" Memorizin' ya. Ah don' want ta forget what ya look lihake." Rogue said sadly. Remy felt just the same way she did, he felt some powerful urge to never let go of her again and, he just wanted to stay like this, forever.
" Me neither chere." He said sadly, she had put her hand back over his one her face cheek. " Y' could always stay p'tite?" He knew it was a long shot but he had to try, he couldn't lose her. Not after everything they had been through. He felt Rogue shake her head no. Remy sighed and closed his eyes taking in a deep breath.
" No, ah have ta go. Thin's aren' workin' out fo' meh here Rems. Ah jus' need some space ta clear mah head, sort threw thin's, alone. He's getting' stronger, an' ah've lost control on more den one occasions. Ya know what ah mean right?" She looked up to him her eyes searching for answers he could not give her. Yes he knew, on more then one occasion it had happened to her in public. The worst was at school; he had been waiting for her at the mansion cause he had yet to attend school with her. He had taken hold of her and she lost control so everyone knew. That day she had come home and walked right up to the roof. If he hadn't of followed her he might have lost her, he found her looking over the edge like she was contemplating on jumping. " Well Irene told meh dat she knows someone dat can help meh. The Professor thinks it'll be th' best thin' fo' meh. He hasn' had th' best o' luck so it's worth a trhy, right? Only problem is ah don' know how long it'll be. This is somethin' ah need ta do an' ah hope ya can understand." Rogue said solemnly, she sighed and slowly began to remove her hand from his face. Remy caught her hand with his and brought it up to his lips and kissed her gloved hand tenderly. He saw small tears begin to form in the corner of her eyes. But he knew they would not fall she never cried except once, and she had a good reason to cry then. Feeling the need to say something more he opened his mouth to speak.
" Rogue, I."
" Shhhh." Rogue said as she moved her gloved hand up to his lips to silence him. " Ya promised ya wouldn' make this hard fo' meh." Rogue said in a quiet voice. " Ah'm gonna miss ya Remy." Rogue said distantly as she struggled to get out of Remy's hold. Being stubborn he held on for a few more seconds. Just a few more seconds with her like this, in his arms would make him happy. Even if she was leaving, even if he may never see her again, at least he would have this memory. The memory of how good it felt to have her in his arms how wonderful and fresh her auburn hair smelt of strawberries how.perfect it just felt to have her there in his arms. Just for a few more seconds he fell like she was his.
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And I saw you walk across the road
For maybe the last time I don't know
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" I'll miss y' t' chere." Remy said solemnly. It was one of the few times that he ever referred to himself using 'I' only when he was serious. He knew Rogue could tell that he really meant it cause he saw that one tear make its way slowly down her cheek. It broke his heart to see that. She did nothing to stop it, and he reached to wipe it away but she back away from his touch and shook her head.
" Be seein' ya Rems." She said in a choking manner as she fought back the other tears that threatened to fall, as she began to walk away form him, slowly at first. Walking backward and watching him closely then finally turning her back towards him. Remy stood there his mind reeling, God he was going to miss her, was this going to be the last time he ever saw her. He began to think of past times he spent with her the way they would meet up on the roof and talk the night away. How she would always threaten him when he smoked how they would race their motorcycles to school and he would let her win. At least that's what he told himself and her. When they created their own dance just for the two of them.
Remy looked back up to Rogue's retreating form and felt his voice get caught in his throat. He wanted more then anything to call out to her but he couldn't his mouth was moving but nothing was coming out. He watched in silence as she boarded the train. He still couldn't call out to her; no matter how hard he tried he couldn't even get his legs to move. He watched until she was completely gone and he couldn't see her in the train windows. He tried God how he tried he wanted to say something more to her but couldn't find the words.
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Feeling humble
I heard a rumble
On the railway track
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The ground began to rumble lightly beneath Remy's feet but he paid it no mind. Nor did he pay attention to the stares and small gasps he heard from the people walking by him when they saw his eyes. He didn't care anymore. He had lost her, and he still had no idea why he cared so much about the southern belle.
The train began to slowly pull away and Remy could only stand there and watch. His chest hurt so badly, it was an excruciating pain. It wasn't anything physical, no physical pain he could handle no sweat. It wasn't that though, it felt like his heart was breaking into a million tiny, little, iddy bitty pieces, as if someone had ripped out his heart and decided to stomp on it right there in front of him. And he was just left there to pick up the pieces. Or maybe it was that he had no heart maybe his heart had left him and some one had taken it.
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And when I hear that whistle blow
I'll walk away and you won't know
That I'll be crying
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The train whistle blew and Remy could no longer bear the pain he felt watching the train that Rogue was on pull away. It was just too much. He felt short of breath like the wind had just gotten knocked out of him. He couldn't stand it all these voices in his head screamed at him to go chase the train down and bring Rogue back. His arms longed to hold her one more time. Kiss her forehead one more time. Even though they had been great friends at times it felt like they were more then friends and other times like they hated each other. But.
Remy watched the train until it was no longer in view; actually it was more like he was watching Rogue walk on that platform over and over again seeing what he should of done. What he should of said to her. The train was no longer insight but Remy still stood there watching the last place she stood. Watching her walk onto that train over and over again. Hearing her last words over and over again.
" Be seein' ya Rems."
Finally Remy turned to leave. It was to depressing and he now had the feelings in his legs again and could move. His chest hurt, it was like some one constantly pounding on it like there was no tomorrow but worse. Much worse. He had never felt anything like this before. As he turned to leave Remy felt something cold and wet fall gently down his cheek. He slowly brought his gloved hand up and touched his cheek. He brought it down into plain few and was amazed at the sight he saw. There on the tip of his gloved fingers was a small shimmering teardrop.
For the first time in his life he was crying. He had never once cried before, he never cared enough to cry before. That's when he finally realized it. He loved her, he had fallen in love with Rogue, and he had just stood there like an idiot and watched her walk out of his life. Oh what an idiot he had been. Why the hell hadn't he realized this sooner, why was he so stupid? He looked back to where she had been, where he had last seen her and he heard her soft sweet, sad voice in his ears again.
" Be seein' ya Rems."
: Author's Note: How's that for angst? I'm not an angst writer so let me know what you think. All right now you know why she's, well sort of. If you kind of piece together some of the last chapter and this you may get it but oh well. Next chapter you will understand more I promise. Well she's gone and Remy's alone but it doesn't end here. So don't hate me okay. There is still another verse and chores so don't hate me okay. Please let me now what you think and review. It'll take me a while to post the next chapter because I have yet to start it, and with this one I was half done when I posted the last chapter. Later.
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Okay I see other Authors do this so I'll give it a try. Sorry if I left anyone out.
Cool-Chick-Rae - Okay sorry about the French thing with your review. Was having a bad day and was little offended by what you wrote and I can't at the moment remember what it was but it added to my bad, I just had found out my dad was remarrying and my mother's half of the family is pissed off at me cause I am going to the wedding and you don't really need to know all this so sorry. Also I'm glad you like my story and for your story I was just making sure that you didn't put in some corny part of Rogue not knowing where he lived. Again sorry.
Bettie-Chan - Glad you loved it, and lay off the sugar. No one should be that hyper.
Misa1124 - Hey I would like to know where I'm going with this fic too. I have an idea but I'm more of a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl.
Sash - I know, Remy and Rogue are so perfect for each other. Anyone else is just weird. Oh ya thanks for being the first to review this fic. I was worried no one would like it, so thank you for proving me wrong.
Girl Number 1 - Hey don't worry I am going to write this thing out till the very end. I hate it when authors quit half way threw a story so don't worry I'll finish this story if it kills me for you and everyone else's that likes this story.
Ishandahalf - Yeah I enjoyed writing the whole bonding thing. For me I hate it when people write they felt a connection after they met for the first time, these two are too stubborn to fall for each other that quickly. Glad you like it so far.
Carla - Well your question as to why Rogue is leaving is kind of answered. And as for Remy going with her the answer is: no. But going after her, well I'm not at liberty to say as of right now. So you'll have to wait and see. I hope the suspense doesn't kill you.
Riah Yaps - I love being evil and writing cliffhangers, I hate reading them but I love writing them. Hope you liked the chapter.
BloodDevil - Well here is one more future chapter, hope you enjoyed it.
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Again sorry if I missed anyone it's one am and I'm to tired to write any more.
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Take Care, Rogue Star