Author's note: Yeah, you know the drill I don't own Squaresoft and blah, blah, blah. For gods sake, I don't own even a part of it! Well after I've let it that out of my chest, we can finally continue

Shared Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe

Chapter 4: Red Blood and Love

The sun had been risen up two hours ago, the people of the Balamb Garden starting to wake up from their blissful sleep after the night of the cheerful celebration in the SeeD-graduation ball.

They hadn't much time to enjoy from freedom after that, as all the people had to start working again, the new SeeD's being send around the world for their training missions, the staff of the Garden going to their works and the students going to study hard that they can become SeeDs someday too. Everyone had something to do, but not Seifer

He was still on his room, trying to sleep his migraine off from his dizzy head.

His blond head was tugged under his pillow, growling there with annoyance, as he couldn't stand this headache or the boredom that he felt, as he had nothing to do nothing at all.

For Gods sake! Can't you be silence for even a second he started to pounce against the wall, which separated his room from the next one, hardly with his fist, shouting these abrupt words.

The voice of the chatter of the girls living in that room silenced immediately and he landed his head back down to his pillow, sighing heavily as this silence was like music to his ears.

But then there were a burst of girly giggling, making Seifer immediately open his sleepy eyes, feeling sick from this childish giggling that was followed with even more annoying talking from the boys of the Garden' and from some girl's horribly make-up or taste-of-fashion.'

Whatever they were talking about, he was NOT interested to hear them, and this time he really started to feel sick, his face becoming strangely white as he started quickly to run inside his bathroom.

He opened the toilet up, lifting his head on top of it, and then he threw up, his stomach getting all knot up, as he felt like his guts went down the toilet with all the other bad tasting liquids.

When he had finally threw up, he shook his head, his face getting the most sick looking expressions as he got up from his knees, trying to get away from this terribly smell, flushing the dirty toilet.

He walked back to his untidy bed, sitting down to the messy sheets, hanging his head in his hands, trying to steady his headache. He had only a pair of black shorts on him and his lovely chest was completely naked, those wonderful tight muscles of his snapping as he started to stretch his hands behind him, yawning very widely, before dropping his hands beside him, looking around his messy room as he started to walk back to the bathroom, his eyes still hazed.

I shouldn't have drank so much

He went in front of the mirror that hang on the bathroom's wall, raising his green eyes to look his messy image as he touched his rough chin with his hands, looking the start of his beard and chuckled softly, taking his razorblade from his cupboard and a shaving foam, starting to shave his chin carefully.

He was almost ready on his shaving, when he thought about the last night, feeling a wicked smile spread again on his face, as he remembered what he had done.

I kissed that Instructor, alright too bad she wasn't interested

He shaved the last point now, this big strip of foam on his face getting removed by the sharp razorblade and he was smiling very widely

Well it was her lost, not mine She is just so obsessed about Squall she would even perhaps kill herself for him

Suddenly his hold slipped from the razorblade in the middle of the stroke, the sharp blade cutting his chin slightly, and he grimaced in slight pain, starting to press the little bleeding wound with his hand.

! Dammit he pressed this little cut and then withdraw his hand in front of his face, his fingertips being red from his blood, and he wiped his fingertips together, this strange silence overcoming him, his face draining from colour.

She would perhaps even kill herself?!

He throw the bloody razorblade to the washbasin and he quickly stormed to put his usual clothes on, cursing to himself the every curse word he knew and then ran out of his room, almost bumping to one female student who was walking on the corridor with her friends. Hey! What are you doing

Seifer just kept on running, not having any time to stop saying excuse to her, as he was now running toward Quistis room, silently hoping that he was totally wrong from his senses on this one.

Would you be so stupid Quistis that you would do that to yourself because of him?!

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Quistis was still laying on her bed right there where she had gone sleep last night and she felt her throat being very dry.

All this time that she had slept there, she had dreamed about Squall him and herself, together ever-so happily, but now when she was waken, she knew it was a stupid lie that she had created inside her bitter mind, and she wanted to fell into sleep again, as it was much nicer than reality or that was what she thought.

She looked herself through lazily, seeing that she was still dressed in the same lavender-shaded elegant dress that she had wore yesterday in the graduation ball, but this time it was really messed, as she had slept it on, the shining fabric wrinkled. She got up from her bed slowly, feeling herself still very sleepy as she wiped her eyes from the dried tears, her long hair falling softly down her bare shoulders.

Quistis traced her gaze back to her working table, searching that metal object that she had seen last night laying on the table and she got up slowly, finally seeing the shining of this razorblade from the rest of her stuff.

I hope you all will forgive me someday

She leaned her shaking hand toward that blade that shined teasingly, almost like saying her to take it to her hands and end this suffering. She finally had it on her hand, her hand shivering nervously from the cold touch of this sharp blade against her skin and she started to feel ashamed, trying desperately to think a reason for not doing this, any reason

But she couldn't think any reason against it, only the ones favouring it.

Her blue eyes filled with big tears as she started to land the sharp edge of this blade against her wrist, to the place where one of the biggest blood veins was, and she started to slide it across it carefully, the blade only tingling her wrist, as she still didn't' use force on doing it. She was only playing with the thought, getting ready for her fate to happen.

Forgive me? Who am I kidding Anyone would even notice that I'm gone, or even find my death body!

This time she pressed the edge against her wrist with all her might, wanting desperately to die away to wake up in that dream world, where everything was like she wanted she and Squall together forever.

Then her eyes widened in pain, her lower lip starting to tremble uncontrollably and the blade dropped from her hands down to the floor, the metal clinging dramatically against the hard ground.

She raised her head up, biting her lips, before she dropped harshly down to the floor, feeling her blood draining away from her body quickly, her veins emptying from this murderously red liquid that had once given her warmth.

Goodbye, cruel world

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He ran as fast as he can, feeling his heart beating against his chest, forgetting completely the nausea that bugged his brain and stomach. The corridors was pretty empty, as all the students had gone to their classes, and his hasty footsteps echoed loudly in the empty corners, his boots clanking against the floor.

DamnDamn!

Finally he was approaching to her room's door and he stopped if front of it, quickly starting to pounce the wooden door with his fists, shouting loudly: !? Are you there? Answer to me!

He shut his loud mouth up for a second, listening if he would hear any sign of live from there, and he could hear something a silent gasp for air that was followed with drowning gaggle of suffer?

His emerald eyes flew open and his breath caught on his throat, as he recognised those gasps belonging to her.

He tried to open the door, but then he realised it was locked

What about if it isn't what I think it is? But I can't just go away now Oh Hell!

He took some speed, throwing himself against this door, his elbow in front of him, and the door flew open, he almost loosing his balance and falling to the floor.

His eyes were targeted down to the floor and he could see a droplet of red blood on it, and then he moved his gaze along the floor, seeing her unmoving body laying on the floor, her body being in inhuman position, the red pool of blood surrounding her with its warm and sticky form.

His green eyes filled with fear and a loud gasp of surprise came from his mouth, his proud face starting to form into a look of cruel shock as he hastily dropped himself beside her, crawling her unmoving body into his laps, not caring about the blood that now also stained his not-so-clean grey trench coat.

He pressed her wrist tightly with his hand, in order to stop the bleeding, and he started to look the room around hastily from any piece of cloth that he could use.

He took her sheet from her bed, ripping a large strap from it and starting to tide it tightly around her wrist in place for his hand. He pressed two of his fingers against her throat, searching for pulse and there it was, even when it was just a weak pulse, it still made him little relaxed.

He placed his hands behind her waist and back, supporting her body as he got up, picking her bloody body up to his strong arms, her elegant dress being stained with red blood.

Her unconscious head dropped against his chest and he started to walk hastily toward the end of the corridor where the elevator was, and when he had pressed the elevator's button, he waited the doors to open up, his eyes holding angriness, as it took so long too long.

Then he felt his eyes landing to her body, just thinking that she was only a stupid and pathetic girl.
Do you really want to die that much? Gods you're more pathetic than I thought

Just then he finally understood how light she was she was as light as a feather, when he hold her unconscious body so close to him, but he still felt angry from her dangerous actions, feeling a voice speaking inside his mind that told him to leave her alone to her verge of death, making her a favour of her life.

You are so stupid, Instructor Stupid enough to do this to yourself

The elevator clinked and its doors opened up, Seifer walking into it and pressing the button of the first floor, heading toward the infirmary for medical help.

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Rinoa?

He opened his sleepy eyes, carefully looking behind his eyelashes toward Rinoa that was beside him on this bed.

Her almost naked body was landed tightly against his bare chest, her breasts squeezing against him and her hands clasped around his neck, hugging her head to his shoulder.

She was most probably in deep sleep and Squall started to move her hands carefully away from behind his neck, moving her body back to her own side, her body shifting uncomfortably on his warm arms almost as she was waking up but she still continued her sleep peacefully.

He sat up to the edge of the bed, slipping his hand carefully through his brown messy hair, searching for his pants with his greyish eyes, finally seeing them on the floor.

He reached to take it up and he got up to his foots, starting to walk toward the bathroom to take a refreshing shower.

Slipping his dark shorts off from his legs he approached under the shower, switching the water tub on to the cold water, the water starting to come from above him, cleaning him with this clear water that now poured on his naked body.

He enjoyed this cleansing water and he started to wipe his face with it, completely waking his mind from the rest of the relaxing sleep that filled his mind.

Quistis what I did to you was a cowardly thing to do but I'm so confused So confused from my feelings

His mind was waking up, the cold water making the blood go through his veins all over his body, his thoughts starting to stir and work even harder, as he thought about Quistis.

He shut the shower and took a white towel that hang on the wall, starting to dry his hair with it, brushing it against them wildly, and then he tided it around his waist, the towel hiding his lower body and legs.

Squall walked back to the bedroom where Rinoa was sleeping and he looked her resting body with fondness, truly admiring this raven haired beauty who had given him love and changed his whole live with her appearance.

His head started to drop unconsciously down to her sleeping face and he landed a gentle kiss to her cheek, a weak smile coming to her rosy lips, as she appreciated this even when she was still sleeping.

Just then he realized how differently he thought about these women Quistis and Rinoa, there was a difference, but still he didn't know which of them was the one for him, he didn't know and that had grown into a quite a problem now a days He knew he should make his decision, and actually he knew the answer, but he just couldn't do it

Rinoa

Just then there was a knock on the floor, waking Squall from his thoughts back to the reality:
! Wake up This is Selphie! Open the door, this is very urgent

He looked the door and sighed, approaching to open it up.

When the door was open, the overacting, always so cheery person, almost jumped inside, her hands flowing in the air like she was going to fly and she started to shout with her cheery voice, which now held a tone of fear: Rinoa, Rin---

She fell in strange silence when she landed her big sparkling green eyes to Squall's half naked body, seeming to be very shocked This made him chuckle softly, looking her with his normal, cold gaze:
What's wrong, Selphie You've never seen a man with nothing but towel on

She looked him awhile, then shook her head wildly, her brown hair moving with her head, the end of the hair pouching softly against her cheeks.

Good God that you are here! Something really awful has happened! It's about Quistis she continued with her worrying voice, her voice trailing away at the end, leaving many questions hanging in the air and waking his interest.

What about Quistis? Come inside his concern grew from the mention of her name, and he was now showing Selphie to come inside to Rinoa's room from the corridor. He closed the door after her, turning to look at Selphie, who still seemed to be frustrated from the fear that he could well see reflected from her figure.

She is in the infirmary now, Squall It seems she has tried tried to kill herself

His eyes flew open from pure shock and then there was a soft sleepy voice of waking Rinoa coming behind him, joining to this conversation with a shocked tone too: ?! Are you sure about that, Selphie

I, I'm sorry to say I am She has cut her wrist open, and and

Now Squall stormed into the bathroom to put some clothes on and Rinoa looked after his hasty frame, before continuing her talk with Selphie as she herself sat up to the bed, starting to collect her clothes from the floor.

What has happened

Selphie looked her, feeling sad from Quistis state as she continued saying all that she knew, which was close to nothing:
I don't know much I was in the infirmary talking with Kadowaki when Seifer came carrying her body

Squall came from the bathroom and he was wearing all his clothes on, except for his black leather jacket, and he was now putting his brown belt around his waist, looking for his jacket with his silent eyes.

She, she wasn't moving at all, and and she was all covered with her blood Squall, is she going to die

Selphie was now almost in tears, as she was pleading for Squall to say that everything was alright, but Squall just picked his jacket up from on top of the chair next to him and he approached to her shaking form, putting his jacket on.

Selphie, does anyone else know about this

I don't think so

Me and Rinoa will go see how she is doing

She just nodded her head, biting her lips nervously she really didn't remember from being this sad in her life

You, Zell and Irvine try to hold the rumours from spreading A big fuss about this isn't going to help her, so lye if need be I will clean this whole mess after we have assurance about her well being his voice was cold and uncaring as was his appearance, when he said these words with his leader tone.

After all, he was their leader and the leader of this Garden too, there were no time for him to be sentimental over this.

Squall turned toward Rinoa, looking if she was ready to go, and she was putting her brown boots on her legs, looking up to him in silence, her eyes telling that she understood him perfectly, nodding slightly with her head.

I, I will go now and tell Zell and Irvine the orders as soon as you have information, please come tell us too because we're worried about Quisty, she is part of our gang she is our friend too after uttering these words, Selphie ran away from the room, going to search Irvine and Zell, and right after that Rinoa and Squall went together toward the infirmary, in order to meet their friend, hopefully alive

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Author's note: Oh, oh, Quisty what did you do? Well it was very good thing that Seifer found you it seems he has a sixth sense or something, but was he on time? And what about Rinoa and Squall? How did they take the news from Quistis suicide tempt, are they broken, will their relationship handle whatever is going to happen?

And that Rinoa's dream this chapter had nothing from it, so was it just a simple dream that has no point at all?

Is Quistis going to die? Well, you find the answers to those questions and to many others by reading the next chapter

Please don't make me plead for those reviews, and just lift my spirit (or mug me down) with them They make this all worth of my time, even when you flame me, because the criticism strengthens character!