.From The Side Of The Innocent.
During Ascension I, they show Jean's reaction to the Professor being "destroyed". But no one else's. This is Kitty's reaction to the "end" and the hopelessness of that episode.
I watched as the horrific sight unfolded before me. Apocalypse's energy focused on the professor's body. Stunning me and stealing my breath away, I saw the end. Professor gasped his last breath before light swirled around him, summoning him elsewhere. Then, both he and Storm were gone.
I gasped. Where they had been floating in mid-air, there was nothing. I felt Rouge shift behind me. Jean sobbed and ran from the room, Scott following quickly after. But I couldn't. My face was transfixed toward the screen.
Professor Xavier… Gone…No…What? My mind thought wildly. It can't be! Our mentor, our savior, lost in the churning oblivion. Seeing him gone so fast, it seemed that our fate had already been sealed. We had no chance without him and Storm.
My breathing became short and shallow. I stumbled forward and grasped the back of Mr. McCoy's chair. Gone…It cannot be! My mind spun, incapable of forming another conscious thought.
Mr. McCoy slowly turned. "Kitty?", He asked slowly, in an even tone.
I couldn't answer. I still watched the blank screen, bidding it to give me answers.
"Kitty?" He inquired again, grasping my hand and pulling it off of the chair. "It will be alright. Do you hear me, Kitty? Everything will be fine."
I pulled away with a power that I wasn't sure I had. That I didn't think I wanted at the moment. My hand slid through his, becoming icy cold.
"How is everything going to be fine again?" I hissed in a moment of insanity. "They're GONE! Both of them!" I screamed into the metal room. The echo chilled me to the bone, making everything, if possible, more real.
"Kitty!" The teacher sounded more than surprised at my less than positive and perfect response.
I couldn't always be that though. Not when my world is crashing down around me. I cared too much. I was in too much shock.
Suddenly, I had no energy left. Tears flowing down my cheeks, I let my arms fall to my sides. I was defeated. I couldn't do anything, not a thing, to bring them back. None of us could. No matter how much we wanted.
My head spun and my vision darkened. I closed my eyes. I couldn't deal with this anymore. Without realizing it, I welcomed the darkness and sunk to the ground. I was drawn toward nothingness. But I had no memory of this. I only knew that it was warm and inviting.