Author's note: It seems that some of you aren't very pleased about Squall's behaviour and actually there were few people who thought that perhaps Rinoa had used her sorceress powers to keep Squall with her But hey, would even Rinoa be that selfish? I mean To make someone love you by using magic?

Still the story is going on and I promise to tell you more about Squall's feelings on the future chapters, but just remember this: Things aren't always like they seem to be. Meaning, that there is going to be more things that I have to tell in this story, before you can tell how things really areAnd before I will let you go on and read this chapter, I want to remind you that I DO NOT own Squaresoft!

Shared Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe

Chapter 5: Shared Pain

Seifer looked her resting body silently, letting his emerald eyes rest on her slightly moving figure, focusing all his concern toward her as he absentmindedly looked her chest slowly moving up and down, that gentle and relaxed breath making him hypnotised.

She was resting peacefully on this hospital bed and her face that used to be so pale had started to get some lively blush on her fair skin, as she had gotten some blood transferred into her almost empty veins.

She was tucked under a white hospital sheet, her hands laying beside her over this sheet and Seifer was sitting on a chair right beside her bedside, leaning comfortably against the chairs back, not being able to rip his thoughts away from her, nor his eyes.

You're so stupid, Quistis Do you really think that this was going to solve all your problems?

He once again leaned his hand toward her face in order to touch her, but then he once again retreated it away slowly, shaking his head and slipping back into his thoughts. He was so confused

You did it because of Squall Hmph, if that isn't pathetic then what is?!

He looked her again, feeling his breathing slowing whenever he landed his eyes on her, his heart beating slowing down, his hands starting to shake softly, his every sense filling with

THIS IS PATHETIC, Seifer!

He got up quickly, his mind filled with rage when he understood what he was doing to himself, doing to her.

He started to walk around this small room, slipping his hand nervously through his blond hair, trying to understand what was happening to him He was clueless and he didn't like it She hated him and he knew it perfectly

He landed his emerald eyes back to her, his fury breathing starting to calm down from her lovely sight and once again he felt himself lost, but still so hopeful He approached her sleeping form slowly and then he bit his lips softly. His hand unconsciously came down to her jaw and he caress it gently with his thump, the shivers going up his spine from this lovely connect and his heart jumping up to his clenching throat, making him aware.

She flinched slightly from this gentle caress and Seifer almost withdrew his hand from this loveliness, but when he saw her continue her silent sleep, he kept his softly trembling hand right there on her jaw, not caring anymore. that name slip from her rosy lips softly under her breath and he saw one delicate drop of tear sliding out of the corner of her closed eye, going down the contours of her face.

Seifer felt himself disappointed from hearing that name and he started to trace her cheek with his wandering hand, finally brushing that tear away and frowning slightly toward her as he whispered: Squall's not worth this, Quistis

He retreated his hand away from her face and he started to walk toward the door that led out of this room, not once looking behind him, knowing that he should go away before it was too late

Goodbye, Quistis... Take care

The sliding doors shut down after him softly and he sighed heavily, turning his blond head toward Kadowaki who was sitting behind her desk, now looking toward him too, and smiling with a smile that almost soothed his soul.

She will be alright, Seifer I know she will Kadowaki said softly, these words soothing him again.

He started to walk away slowly, the metal doors in front of him sliding open, and then he said softly these words that seemed to inflict something as he walked away from her sight: Yeah, she's going to be just alright

The metal doors slid close behind him and he continued his walking along this empty corridor that led out of the infirmary to the centre of the Garden, his long grey trench coat flowing about him.

He felt like himself again No more of that insecure that he felt whenever he was in her presence, no more of that pain He wasn't sure why he felt like that around her and it made him angry, hostile and violent

He lusted her that wasn't new, after all he was a man who had his needs, but with Quistis He didn't like her, actually he hated her so much that he was very surprised that she had this kind of effect to him That was why he felt angry He had tried to kill her and he had failedHe had tried to control her and he had failed He had tried to console her and he had failed Whatever he tried to do to her he failed from it, and that was something that he wasn't used to

He had even kissed her and the only respond he could get from her was angry protests and stinging words. Even when he knew that her words were rightful, he hated her from rejecting him like that No woman had ever rejected him and he had always gotten everything AND everyone he wanted.

Did I just think that I want her?

Suddenly he was drifted away from these dangerous thoughts when his eyes started to focus to these approaching figures and he stopped in his steps right there. The burn of pure anger flamed his eyes, those strong emerald eyes being filled with this sudden fire as he recognised these figures being Squall and Rinoa.

Squall Leonhart! He hastened his steps again, coming quickly toward them, Rinoa and Squall stopping in their steps. Then Seifer was just few metres away from them, his eyes filled with annoyance as he still approached them quickly, his burning eyes focused on Squall.

Seifer, what are--- Squall started to say but was interrupted by this tall man that now squeezed his hands hardly into fists. You bastard He struck his fist right across his face, Squall landing backwards to the hard ground from this strong contact, Rinoa running beside him, shouting in fear:

Seifer looked them for awhile, chuckling to himself from this lovely' sight; the everyone's hero Squall and his own little housewife beside him, kneeling down to him to lick her puppy's wound like a mother wolf.

Did you came here to finish what she failed to do, Leonhart he shouted these words with despise on his mighty figures, his hands still in tight fists, waiting for his uncalled answer that didn't came.

Squall supported his weight up to his elbows, wiping his bleeding lips slowly to his right sleeve of his leather jacket, looking right toward Seifer's eyes like he was challenging him into something, a silent gleam of superiors on his greyish eyes that made Seifer only angrier.

Rinoa's form was kneeling down to Squall's left side, holding her shaking hand on his left arm, her eyes full of concern as she absorbed the red blood that run slowly down his steady jaw, from the bleeding cut on his thin lips.

She turned her brown eyes up toward Seifer's leering form, her usual warm and soft figures filled with a mix of anger and pain, as she shouted straight to his smug face: Stop that, Seifer

He changed his emerald eyes toward her, being slightly confused from this sudden hostile coming from her mouth, but then he again laid his hot-blooded gaze toward Squall, who still laid on the floor: You did this to Quistis You and only you, Leonhart You're the guilty one this time, not me!

Again Rinoa pierced his mighty figure with her dark eyes that now burned with unseen violence, her words were bitter and they had the tone of threat all written in them, as she shouted, pointing her finger toward the corridors behind her: This is my final warning, Seifer! GO AWAY

Seifer changed his burning gaze back to Rinoa, biting his lips from the annoyance he felt when his ex-girlfriend' was threatening him because of the words that were so truth.

Then he felt a twinkle of despise and pity toward this weak woman, and he switched his gaze back to Squall, pointing him with his finger, his jaw clenching from anger as he shouted his final warnings: Look at that weak woman beside you and then go look at your other woman Then you make the final decision and you stick with it! And whatever your pitiful decision is, I'm going to come and beat the hell out of you, Squall LeonhartYou understood

He was trying his limits and it made Rinoa irritated, but she was more fury because she knew his words were truth Why did he always have to be so right, she hated that side of him more than anything

She was just starting to fulfil her threats, when Seifer stormed out of this awful scene, his angry figure disappearing to the empty corridors. She looked after him, almost spitting curse words out of her mind but then she changed her gaze back to Squall, who started to get up slowly, his face still stained with some blood.

You're alright, Squall she tried to control her feelings and she succeed it fairly, as her voice was inflicting nothing but concern, there was no sign of anger, only soft tone of caring and love.

I'm alright, Rinoa But I don't know about him He was again up on his long legs and she started to get up too as she crawled her hands around his strong arm, still feeling scared from Seifer's words.

Squall turned his greyish eyes on her figure, her head disappeared to the depths of his armpit seeming to be like a little mouse that crawled somewhere to hide from the evil world, her raven hair was on little pools against his arm, her grip from him tightening gently as she was slightly shaking.

Are you alright, Rinoa He landed his glowed hand gently to cares her lovely smooth tresses, and his words were genuinely concerned as was his eyes that now held a gleam of love, as he looked her lovely figure deeply, feeling her trembles against his hand and then spreading all over his body, down his spine.

He wiped some of the soft strains of her hair out of the sight of her pale face, and he tugged them gently behind her little ear, feeling the love that he felt toward her clearer than ever.

She raised her gleaming eyes up to him, her lips trembling softly as her face seemed so pale, perhaps even too pale, as she said these following words, trying to tell him that everything was alright: I'm alright, Squall I am

He looked her through for awhile, knowing that there were something wrong, but then he started to walk toward the infirmary, still keeping her close to him and leading her with him to the empty room of reception.

Then Kadowaki came from the room where Quistis was, and she raised her surprised gaze toward those two and after that she gave a sigh of shock when she saw the bleeding cut on Squall's face.

Oh my What happened? Are you alright, Squall she approached them now looking straight to the cut that Squall was now wiping with his hand, as he said with his cold tone of voice, trying to make it sound like it was nothing: It's just a little harmless scratch Nothing else.

Rinoa took her hands away from gripping his arm and she started to withdrew toward one of the chairs behind her, sitting slowly down. Squall looked toward his girlfriend, the growing concern filling his mind and face completely, as he kneeled down to her shaking form.

Her head was frowned down, her shaking hands tided around her stomach, and her soft expressions in her face was now covered with a twisting look of pain, as she started to breath frantically, her lips trembling from fear: It's my stomach

He landed his glowed hand on top of her hands that were on her stomach and he felt her trembling growing, as her eyes closed tightly, and a soft scream of pain departed from her lips that she bit so hardly, trying to control this pain.

Squall, its our baby There's something wrong with the baby These words purely shocked him and he started to quickly support her up to her feet, Kadowaki coming toward them saying to Squall as she tried to take the control: Laid her down to the examine table, Squall

She started to search for her sterile plastic gloves and then when she found them she started to put them on her hands, going toward Rinoa's body that Squall had helped up to the table. She was twisting with pain and Kadowaki knew that the situation was very dangerous and it needed to be taken care of immediately.

She started to softly push Rinoa's stomach with her hands, trying to find the reason for this sudden pain, and Squall was holding Rinoa's hand in his and wiping her forehead with his other hand, trying to calm her down as he whispered sweet consoles into her ear, fearing the worst.

Oh my God Squall flew his gaze toward Kadowaki, sending her a questioning glance, when she said those words.

Rinoa looked toward her too, her face still full of pain and fear from the sake of the life of her baby, and she asked quivering, knowing that it couldn't be anything good: W- What

Kadowaki looked down to the examine table, seeing the red liquid of blood sliding down it, seemingly to be coming from Rinoa's body and Squall looked it too, his eyes starting to gleam from fear that he had never before felt in his life.

This can't be good Kadowaki looked toward Squall's greyish eyes, trying to prepare him for the worst.

The baby Our baby Rinoa whispered this words slowly, feeling her pain growing, but this time it was the worst inside her aching heart that already knew what had happened.

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Author's note: This was the shortest chapter I've ever written, but still it contains pretty many things in it, don't you think? I promise the next chapter is longer, because first of all there are many things I have to tell about before we can really continue our journey through the world of hate, love, war, peace, despair and shared, complicated feelings

You will heard from me soon enough, when I update the next chapter! Goodbye, once again!