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Collins. Enjoy.
Oh yeah one more thing. This chapter will take place after Rogue has been on the train for a while so where doing a little back tracking here okay? Enjoy.
Can't Stop Loving You :
So you 're leaving in the morning on the early train
: The steady and rhythmic movements of the train had pretty much put everyone into a light sleep at least. But she couldn't sleep, she couldn't really think straight. She had this numb feeling in her chest that wouldn't go away. She had taken Advil and drunken some water and eaten some food but it didn't seem to help at all.
Rogue felt something cold on her cheek and immediately brought her hand up to make sure she wasn't crying again. One of the women on the train had asked her if she was doing alright because her eyes were red and puffy and she had tear stains on her cheeks. So she had made sure to try and keep her emotions in check. She hated it when she cried. She felt so weak whenever she did but it hurt so bad to think that she may not see Remy in what a few months maybe more. It all depended on how well things worked out with this friend of Irene's.
She could feel him. Even now when he was dormant. He was mad at her mainly for taking his life for defeating him for causing him to be trapped within her head permanently even though she didn't take all of him she took close to enough for it to be considered all of him. He had an opinion on everything always talking to her when her defensives were the slightest bite low or weak. He always took advantage of her weak points too. When she was alone. Like at school. He knew the people at school angered her to no extreme and he loved filling her head with negative thoughts when they tormented her. He then used her anger and confusion to take over. She had been getting better about keeping her mental walls up and holding him at bay. Somehow she managed to block him separate from her other physics keep the two apart.
They didn't like him either. It was the one thing they agreed on. Lately they had been helping her, well some of them. Only about two or three of the dozens she had inside her head. She at one point did try and count them all but she lost count at one point and they weren't quiet enough for her to think. She never ever really got enough time to herself to think. She knew for sure that Remy's phiyic, and Kitty's physic were often the ones to help her maintain her wall, but it wasn't enough she needed to have the others help her fight him. This was her battle but eventually it was going to involve them too.
Rogue gently slipped on her headphones and flipped threw her CDs. She couldn't find her old Linkin Park CD in the mix of them. She wanted to listen to them cause it was Remy's favorite it might convince her that they were in her room listening to it again having one of there talks. But she couldn't find it anywhere not even in her CD player. She liked the new one better. Why Remy was convinced there older one was better was beyond her but she humored him.
There friendship was what kept her going. Knowing that he was routing for her making sure that she kept on fight him. He was there from the begging it would seem. He was the one to pretty much force her into telling the Professor that he was still there. He was like a bully at school. If you ignored him he wouldn't go away he would just get worse an pick on you more until you stood up to him. And that's what she was doing now it just took her six-month to do so. But once you stand up to the bully that doesn't mean you've won. It means you've entered a whole new ball game.
Rogue felt a headache begin to start and decided to take some more Advil now before it got worse. She reached into her carry on and found her book on top and her Advil was under it somewhere. She would read it later she noted but when something slipped out of the pages Rogue couldn't help but be a little curious.
Resting all alone on the carpeted floor was a neatly folded up note. She carefully reached down for it as if she was afraid of what it might contain inside of it. This wasn't hers was the main thought she had managed to form in her head. She lightly tapped the paper then pulled away as if it was going to blow up on impact. Taking a breath she reached for it and slowly pulled it up and rested it on her lap.
She didn't dare open it because she had no idea what it was. Could it have been just a scrap of paper that got stuck in her book or maybe it was just a note reminding her to take care of something. She didn't know but curiosity got the better of her. It's not like it's going to blow up. Rogue told herself as she slowly unfolded the folded up piece of paper.
Rogue let out a small gasp when she found a card centered in the folding. It was the Queen of Hearts. What Remy had always called her. He had told her once that she was like the queen. All men were able to look and admire her from a far but none of them could touch or get near her. She held all there hearts but none of them could ever hold hers because it belonged to only one man, her King. She had asked him one time who her King would be, and he smiled and told her it would be the man that could touch her, with out touching her. It never made sense to her. Rogue smiled at the thought knowing the letter was from Remy. The thought also made her a bit depressed but she was eager to see what he wrote.
Chere, I don't get why you're leaving and I'm okay with that. Now that there isn't anything really left for me at the mansion I'll most likely be going home. That's right I'll be returning home. I'm taking your advise, you can't run from your past forever. I'm going home like you are. Of course this is all just floating around in my head and nothing is sound but you know me. Once I get an idea I go with it. Hope the train ride was okay for you and I want us to stay in touch. So here is the number for the house 469-8935. Call me when you feel you can't take it anymore or just for the hell of it. Never give up Chere you got too much to live for. Remy
Rogue felt herself melt as she read his letter. And she couldn't help but feel proud at the fact that he was going home to face his family. It had been a delma of his for a long time. And at the thought of Remy Rogue pulled out the picture of her and Remy at Christmas, Kurt had given it to her before she left. It was heart-warming picture that made Rogue blush. It was the sweetest thing Remy had ever done. Of course the guy was sweet to begin with but he completely topped himself with this.
Smiling at the memory Rogue felt herself begin to drift to sleep. She didn't realize she was so tired and she was planning on reading for a while after she had taken some Advil and got some music playing. Guess not Rogue thought as she yawned. She had been lucky enough to get a window seat so she got herself nice and comfortable against the window and dozed off to sleep.
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I could say everything's all right
And I could pretend and say goodbye
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Rogue awoke to a start when she didn't feel the constant rumbling of the train and to an elderly woman gently shaking her shoulder. Rogue practically jumped out of her seat. Her eyes wide in shock and a huge what if plagued her mind. What if she touched me when I a sleep? Rogue thought giving the woman a friendly nod once she settled down a bit. The woman looked a bit startled but gave Rogue a small smile. Rogue then in one hasty yet swift movement grabbed her things and was bound for the exit. She couldn't take all these people staring at her. It made her physics begin to talk and snicker at the people for looking and whispering about her. They just didn't realize she was the only one that heard them.
Rogue averted her head to the right so that no one could get a good look at her face. Though her hair gave off enough, anyone could pick her out from a crowd just by catching a glance of her distinctive white striped hair. Though with these thoughts in mind she still tried to avert her gaze away from their eyes. Those eyes of the people that had caused her so much pain by fearing what they didn't know.
Once she was off the train and on the platform Rogue made sure that she was fully covered. She flipped the collar of her dark forest green trench coat up covering her neck. It was her favorite coat not because Remy had given it to her for Christmas but because it reminded her of the coat that Irene used to wear, and she loved to wear it around the house when she was little. It was too big for her at the age of ten she was to short and it was to long so she would run around the house with the bottom half dragging on the ground. But Irene sold it, or rather gave it away to good will when she was eleven. She pulled her gloves up tight so that she was sure no skin was exposed there wasn't a snow balls chance in hell she was going to add another physic to her already crowded head. No surrey bob.
The station was pretty crowded and Rogue did her best to avoid touching anyone. There was way to much touching then she liked at the moment even if it was threw cloth she didn't like it. Any more physics and she knew he would use them against her. It was like a war. He was gathering his troops to fight her, lucky for her most of her physics remained neutral and for that she was pretty grateful.
Please don't touch me, please don't touch me. Rogue chanted in her head. Why are there so many dam people here, come on it's a fricken weekday people don't you all have lives or something? Rogue thought as she turned her body to get around an elderly gentleman.
Finally she was out of the crowded plate forms and let out a sigh of relief. Thank God Rogue thought, as she inhaled the fresh air.
She was back she thought with a smile. She was home again.
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But that would be lying
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As Rogue reminisced about the fact that she was finally home after two years a thought struck her. She had no way of getting back to her home. Just great she thought.
They forgot about you, they don't care. She doesn't care, and neither does he.
Shut up. Rogue told him. He chose now to start speaking up? Rogue thought, well it's better now then on the train. Just shut will you. Rogue told him in a threatening tone, well it was in her head and she hoped she sounded threatening towards him.
You sound confident, but be warned I'll regain control. This stupid wall of your will not hold me back forever. Rogue heard him warn and she really wasn't in the mood for him. She didn't have the strength anymore but she didn't want him to know that, if he knew he would try to take over again.
Shut up. Rogue bit back.
Is that all you have to say? He asked. Not so strong now with out Remy now are we? Your washed up, your nothing with out him standing right there holding you hand. Not that he even cared enough, not that he could ever love you.
Go away and just shut up. You know nothing, he loves me just not the way I want him to. Rogue screamed out at him. She could here him laughing at her. Rogue brought her gloved hands up to her forehead and clenched her head trying to drown him out.
No. I will make you pay for killing me.
I didn't kill you. Rogue shouted back, she didn't realize then but she was crying. It was a loud booming sound that was echoing threw out her head. She hated it when he did this, he had to always bring it up.
My body is gone because of you. I can no longer live in you world. I was supposed to rule your world and reclaim it as my own. Get back at my father for enslaving me in that God forsaken tomb. But you had to ruin everything. He yelled out and it hurt and she really wished that she had taken that Advil right now.
No one should rule the world. Rogue told him.
I was suppose to. It was my destiny to rule.
And it was my destiny to stop you.
Insolent child. The least you could do is let me control your body. I would spare the lives of your friends. He tried to negotiate. Rogue wanted to laugh but it hurt so much to even think at the moment.
Liar. She told him as she took a seat on a bench at the station. She kept stumbling and people were staring at her so she would wait out his rant while sitting. He would quiet down eventually he couldn't fight her shields forever. He would tire soon, but he was stronger then before, and she was weakening. She couldn't hold her shields forever either.
Gods don't lie.
You're a demy God. Rogue informed him
A minor detail. He yelled and he seemed to get really angered by that especially. At least I'm not a murderer.
I am not a murderer, you're the murderer. You killed all those people. Rogue reminded him and she felt a shot of pain go threw her head.
I didn't kill them. He roared back.
And I didn't kill you. Rogue shot back barely holding on.
Then what do you call this hell I'm trapped in. He asked and felt her strength slowly returning.
My mind. My body. Your prison. Rogue fought him finding her inner strength and forced her shields up stronger then ever silencing him.
Rogue began to silently pant after he inner struggle and practically jumped out of her skin at the feeling of someone's hand on her shoulder. " Marie?" The voice said gently and immediately Rogue knew who it was instantly.
" Not Maire, I'm still Rogue." Rogue said in a quiet tone as she leapt up from the bench and immediately wrapped her arms around Irene bringing her into a big hug. Rogue smiled geniuinly forgetting about her fight with Apocalypse a few minutes prior.
" Welcome home sweetie." The blind woman said into Rogue's hair hugging her back.
" Good ta be home." Rogue replied content with being held by Irene. She really did miss the woman and was sad to leave her. But like Irene informed her it was all for the best.
" So you ready to get to work?" Irene asked her slowly breaking away.
" Irene I was born ready." Rogue said picking up her bags. She took Irene's arm and they walked off the platform towards the car. Today would be full of fun but tomorrow the real work would begin.
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Author's Note: OMG I'm finally done with this chapter. I am so sorry that it took me this long to post this chapter. It took me awhile because of a few things. A) I was a bit lazy, b) I couldn't figure out where I wanted to pick back up with Rogue and c) It was kind of hard to jump into writing Rogue's point of view after writing from Remy's point of view for so long. So to get some practice on writing a new point of view I tend to start a new fic. So if any of you are wondering yes I've already started writing a new fic. It's a song fic and I'm halfway done, I'll give you a small taste of it at the end of this. I should really try finishing my fics before I start anymore shouldn't I? Oh well.
In this chapter I tried to show you guys how Rogue and Apocalypse don't really get along and how for now her other physics are just remaining neutral. But I feel that that is soon to change. I also didn't really focus on how Rogue feels about Remy either did I?
Let's see here. I'm not going to rush the end of this fic and try to make it a corny happy ever after. No. I hate those. So the next chapter will in fact be the last chapter and most likely pretty long. But oh well, some times longer chapters are better, and some times their not. I plan to finish this fic before August is over so before school starts up again this fic will be finished.
One more thing. ( I love Uncle in Jackie Chan by the way.) Does anyone know if WB aired the last of the Evo episodes? Don't be mad at me for not knowing I've been out of town for the last two weekends. I've heard some things but I'm not too sure, if they are could someone tell me what time it's on? Thank you much.
Okay onto your reviews. Sorry if I missed anyone.
Yagirl_123 - Hey sorry I made you cry, didn't mean to but I'm glad my writing was that good that it made you cry. I cried when I reread it. And don't worry in the end Remy and Rogue will get back together. What kind of a Romy writer would I be if I didn't have them get together in the end? Now I ask you honestly. ( I love Austin Powers as well.)
Ravyn Nyte - Their will most likely be a sequel to this fic. Shush. Don't tell anyone. Just kidding. Maybe not sure. Glad you liked this and Remy and Rogue have cried before so you can just let it now if ya want. Lol. Oh my god I have totally lost it haven't I? Oh well.
Ishandahalf - I wouldn't call you redundant per say. But thank you for your review. This chapter wasn't that depressing so that is a plus. I also liked it how everyone knew about Remy's feelings for Rogue and as for Rogue. Well I didn't really go into depth about how Rogue feels about Remy but I kind of hinted towards it. As of right now well I'm not to sure about her feelings. I am but I'm not. Does that make any sense to you?
Latin Rose - Don't worry they will get back together, I'll make sure you can live with yourself. And if they don't get back together by the end of this fic then there most likely will be a sequel if I can't wrap this up. Hope you liked the chapter.
Barbara Ruiz - Hey glad I gave you something to tease your brother about. Teasing family is always fun to do. And as you can see Rogue knows that he is going home.
Rogue Warrior Spirit - Hey sorry this took so long. I hope this chapter was worth the wait as well. Cause it was hard for me to write until I hit the argument with Apocalypse. What'd ya think of that by the way? I wasn't to sure how to make those two responded to one another so I hope I did a good job on that.
DaughterofDeath - Here's ya new chapter. Hoped ya liked it.
Yanna - Glad that I provided you some entertainment this summer. Hope you liked the chapter.
dReAm sPrItE - I send Remy your wishes and he will find what he looking for. What he's looking for right now is currently in Mississippi but they will get back together. Eventually.
Cool-Chick-Rae - Hey glad you liked the chapter, hope this one was just as good as the last. I reread my work to figure out anything I could tie in. And just figured Remy should go and fix up his home life. Do some soul searching. Ya know what I mean? Hey update Remy's Gambit ASAP please. I'm going to San Diego the week of the 16th, so is there anything that is a must while I'm there or is everything really good?
Chicken fingers - Glad you loved the chapter. Hope you liked this one as much as the last.
Demonic-Gambit - The romyness will be back, sooner rather then later I hope.
Ellie s.g - Hey sorry this chapter took forever and a day to post but I hope you like this as much as the last.
Okay again sorry if I missed anyone.
Alright if anyone if board and wants to read a new Romy fic then here ya go. A small teaser for my next fic. It's called: I Know The Truth. I'm still working on it so it might be pretty bad just to let you know.
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I Know the Truth written by Aida.
How have I come to this? How did I slip and fall?
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He had played her and it hurt.
Rogue ran as fast as she could away from him, she couldn't stand to look at him any more. The jerk had just used her. She was nothing but a game to him, his girl on the side. The idiot was engaged and he never told her or anyone. How could she have been so stupid of course a guy that great would already be taken. Remy had everything. He had great looks, he was sweet, kind and sensitive he knew how to make her feel special. Like she was actually worth something, he acted like he spent time with her because he wanted to not because he was forced to, the jack ass was a great actor Rogue thought as she ran. To good to be true.
Tears threatened to fall but she refused to let them fall. Oh no, she wasn't going to waist her tears over the stupid Swamp Rat. No. He wasn't worth it. She never wanted to see him again never wanted him near her. And yet she felt like she needed him more then anything right at that moment, she needed someone to tell her it was going to be okay, someone to hold her and cradle her in there strong arms. Someone to just be there for her like Remy had been before. But if getting hurt this bad was what getting that feeling back then she didn't want it. She didn't want him.
Her chest hurt so badly, it made it extremely hard to breath and yet she continued to run. She could hear how fast her heart was beating and breaking. She had trusted him and then what he stabs her in the back. He had said he had a surprise for her and to meet her in the park at one. So she did. Mistake number one.
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~~~~Flashback~~~~
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Remy had said he had something special planed, and she couldn't wait. Ever since they had started dating she had become more like her Valley Girl roommate Kitty. When no one was looking that was. She had decided to doll herself up a bit by wearing less make-up; she wore light purple eye shadow, a light coat of eyeliner and some soft pink lipstick mixed with some of her purple. Part of her hair was pulled back leaving some white wisps of hair. She looked pretty cute, Kitty had told her. She decided to go with normal black jeans and a black tank top and her purple over shirt showing off her shoulders and some of her stomach. Along with her black gloves and black combat boots. She saw it was twelve thirty so she decided to just leave early and walk to the park it would take her a little less then a half hour. She was normally always late anyway so why not surprise him by being early or on time for once. Mistake number two Rogue would learn later.
As she quietly walked along the sidewalk she enjoyed the nice cloudy day. It was summer but she loved it when the clouds were out. It was the perfect temp. Not really hot and not cold a light breeze would pass by every so often but it felt nice. Rogue began to think about the past nine months that she had known Remy. The first three he had tried to get her to go out with him and she was surprised that he lasted that long. Remy was a character. It had taken her a while to trust him but she felt it was worth it. Whenever she was with Remy she felt wanted. Like someone actually wanted to be with her. He wasn't forced to hang out with her like the other members of her team where suppose to. Scott had told her he was probably just using her and to be careful but she ignore him, they hadn't really talked since. Not that they had really talked before. She trusted Remy and didn't need Scott telling her what she knew wasn't true, he wasn't using her. No he really seemed to care about her. At first she thought he was just playing her and would be gone within the month after they had started dating or maybe Magneto had told him that she was the easiest to get information out of but the boy had stuck around for six months. That was too long to play a girl or try to gather information out of after a month they would of tried someone else. Rouge sighed in happiness. She loved him. And she really wanted to tell him, but she hadn't found the right moment to tell him. He hadn't told her he loved her but she was okay with that. Just being with him was good enough for her. He didn't seem to mind her powers never flinched when she moved to touch him always smiled when she glared at him, some part deep inside of her believed that he truly did loved her. And she just wanted to hold on to that feeling a little longer, for a little longer she could really believe that he loved her as much as she loved and needed him.
She had finally reached the park and walked over to their bench. It was right underneath this oak tree and shaded you from the sun. It was on the other side of the park and she was still five minutes early, in the distance she saw two people standing there but didn't pay attention to them until she realized that one of them was Remy. They had just broken off a kiss and Remy was staring intently at the blonde woman, his back was partially to her so he didn't see her. She felt her breath get caught in her throat as tears began to build up in the corner of her eyes. She swallowed hard as she stopped dead in her tracks. Begging her feet to let her move but she couldn't she felt frozen in time. She prayed they wouldn't notice her. If there was a God he would let them not see her standing there like an idiot.
" Can I help y'?" The blonde woman asked in an accent much like Remy's. She looked past him and right at her. 'Shit.' Rogue thought as she tried with all her might to put up a fake smile. The physics in her head were screaming at her, no it was more like laughing at her. Telling her over and over again that they were right and she was just a stupid little girl. The blonde woman's words caused Remy's head to turn and look at her. Remy's eyes grew huge and his mouth formed a small 'O' shape.
" Rogue." Remy stated in a panic, as if he had been caught. And she knew she had caught him, the fool was two-timing her. Oh God she had tried to imagine what it would feel like if he really was she had even believed her made up horror fantasies that she had almost cried at the amount of pain it would do to her. But this. This was so much worse compared to that, cause this was real. Very real and very painful.
Rouge swallowed hard and took a deep breath and put her mask back up and scowled at him, she was about to say something but the blonde girl said something first. " Oh hi, y' must be one o' Remy's friends." She said "friends" like she knew the truth behind it all. " Hi, I'm Belladonna. Remy's fiancé." She said as her perfect red lips curled into a sly smile and her piercing blue eyes twinkled with satisfaction as she playfully fluttered her eyelashes.
That hurt even worse. The jerk was engaged and he never told her. Rogue closed her eyes and took it all in. " Hi, Ah'm Rogue. An' Remy an' ah aren' friends, were enemies." Rogue said as she turned around to walk away. " Y' an' meh 'll have are rematch Cajun." Rogue called out. Remy said nothing threw the whole exchange. And Rogue was glad that he didn't, she didn't trust herself with what she might do if he had spoken to her. Once she was out of sight she began to run, as fast as she could.
He had played her and it hurt.
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~~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~~
How the hell did it get to this? Where did she go wrong? She had always been a good judge of character. So what happened? The pain was too much for Rogue as her running began to slow to a walk once she reached the institute. She was panting heavily as she stopped right outside the giant Iron Gate. She reached up and just held onto the cold iron bars using them to hold her up. They were her lifeline at the moment. Cause she had nothing left to fall back on. She had pushed everyone away to be with Remy. She dissevered to be alone, to be in this kind of pain.
" Remy." Rogue uttered below a whisper, as her words were carried away by the winds. Leaving her all alone with her pain and anguish.
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So what'd ya think? Expect the finished project by September.
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Take Care, Rogue Star
Oh yeah one more thing. This chapter will take place after Rogue has been on the train for a while so where doing a little back tracking here okay? Enjoy.
Can't Stop Loving You :
So you 're leaving in the morning on the early train
: The steady and rhythmic movements of the train had pretty much put everyone into a light sleep at least. But she couldn't sleep, she couldn't really think straight. She had this numb feeling in her chest that wouldn't go away. She had taken Advil and drunken some water and eaten some food but it didn't seem to help at all.
Rogue felt something cold on her cheek and immediately brought her hand up to make sure she wasn't crying again. One of the women on the train had asked her if she was doing alright because her eyes were red and puffy and she had tear stains on her cheeks. So she had made sure to try and keep her emotions in check. She hated it when she cried. She felt so weak whenever she did but it hurt so bad to think that she may not see Remy in what a few months maybe more. It all depended on how well things worked out with this friend of Irene's.
She could feel him. Even now when he was dormant. He was mad at her mainly for taking his life for defeating him for causing him to be trapped within her head permanently even though she didn't take all of him she took close to enough for it to be considered all of him. He had an opinion on everything always talking to her when her defensives were the slightest bite low or weak. He always took advantage of her weak points too. When she was alone. Like at school. He knew the people at school angered her to no extreme and he loved filling her head with negative thoughts when they tormented her. He then used her anger and confusion to take over. She had been getting better about keeping her mental walls up and holding him at bay. Somehow she managed to block him separate from her other physics keep the two apart.
They didn't like him either. It was the one thing they agreed on. Lately they had been helping her, well some of them. Only about two or three of the dozens she had inside her head. She at one point did try and count them all but she lost count at one point and they weren't quiet enough for her to think. She never ever really got enough time to herself to think. She knew for sure that Remy's phiyic, and Kitty's physic were often the ones to help her maintain her wall, but it wasn't enough she needed to have the others help her fight him. This was her battle but eventually it was going to involve them too.
Rogue gently slipped on her headphones and flipped threw her CDs. She couldn't find her old Linkin Park CD in the mix of them. She wanted to listen to them cause it was Remy's favorite it might convince her that they were in her room listening to it again having one of there talks. But she couldn't find it anywhere not even in her CD player. She liked the new one better. Why Remy was convinced there older one was better was beyond her but she humored him.
There friendship was what kept her going. Knowing that he was routing for her making sure that she kept on fight him. He was there from the begging it would seem. He was the one to pretty much force her into telling the Professor that he was still there. He was like a bully at school. If you ignored him he wouldn't go away he would just get worse an pick on you more until you stood up to him. And that's what she was doing now it just took her six-month to do so. But once you stand up to the bully that doesn't mean you've won. It means you've entered a whole new ball game.
Rogue felt a headache begin to start and decided to take some more Advil now before it got worse. She reached into her carry on and found her book on top and her Advil was under it somewhere. She would read it later she noted but when something slipped out of the pages Rogue couldn't help but be a little curious.
Resting all alone on the carpeted floor was a neatly folded up note. She carefully reached down for it as if she was afraid of what it might contain inside of it. This wasn't hers was the main thought she had managed to form in her head. She lightly tapped the paper then pulled away as if it was going to blow up on impact. Taking a breath she reached for it and slowly pulled it up and rested it on her lap.
She didn't dare open it because she had no idea what it was. Could it have been just a scrap of paper that got stuck in her book or maybe it was just a note reminding her to take care of something. She didn't know but curiosity got the better of her. It's not like it's going to blow up. Rogue told herself as she slowly unfolded the folded up piece of paper.
Rogue let out a small gasp when she found a card centered in the folding. It was the Queen of Hearts. What Remy had always called her. He had told her once that she was like the queen. All men were able to look and admire her from a far but none of them could touch or get near her. She held all there hearts but none of them could ever hold hers because it belonged to only one man, her King. She had asked him one time who her King would be, and he smiled and told her it would be the man that could touch her, with out touching her. It never made sense to her. Rogue smiled at the thought knowing the letter was from Remy. The thought also made her a bit depressed but she was eager to see what he wrote.
Chere, I don't get why you're leaving and I'm okay with that. Now that there isn't anything really left for me at the mansion I'll most likely be going home. That's right I'll be returning home. I'm taking your advise, you can't run from your past forever. I'm going home like you are. Of course this is all just floating around in my head and nothing is sound but you know me. Once I get an idea I go with it. Hope the train ride was okay for you and I want us to stay in touch. So here is the number for the house 469-8935. Call me when you feel you can't take it anymore or just for the hell of it. Never give up Chere you got too much to live for. Remy
Rogue felt herself melt as she read his letter. And she couldn't help but feel proud at the fact that he was going home to face his family. It had been a delma of his for a long time. And at the thought of Remy Rogue pulled out the picture of her and Remy at Christmas, Kurt had given it to her before she left. It was heart-warming picture that made Rogue blush. It was the sweetest thing Remy had ever done. Of course the guy was sweet to begin with but he completely topped himself with this.
Smiling at the memory Rogue felt herself begin to drift to sleep. She didn't realize she was so tired and she was planning on reading for a while after she had taken some Advil and got some music playing. Guess not Rogue thought as she yawned. She had been lucky enough to get a window seat so she got herself nice and comfortable against the window and dozed off to sleep.
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I could say everything's all right
And I could pretend and say goodbye
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Rogue awoke to a start when she didn't feel the constant rumbling of the train and to an elderly woman gently shaking her shoulder. Rogue practically jumped out of her seat. Her eyes wide in shock and a huge what if plagued her mind. What if she touched me when I a sleep? Rogue thought giving the woman a friendly nod once she settled down a bit. The woman looked a bit startled but gave Rogue a small smile. Rogue then in one hasty yet swift movement grabbed her things and was bound for the exit. She couldn't take all these people staring at her. It made her physics begin to talk and snicker at the people for looking and whispering about her. They just didn't realize she was the only one that heard them.
Rogue averted her head to the right so that no one could get a good look at her face. Though her hair gave off enough, anyone could pick her out from a crowd just by catching a glance of her distinctive white striped hair. Though with these thoughts in mind she still tried to avert her gaze away from their eyes. Those eyes of the people that had caused her so much pain by fearing what they didn't know.
Once she was off the train and on the platform Rogue made sure that she was fully covered. She flipped the collar of her dark forest green trench coat up covering her neck. It was her favorite coat not because Remy had given it to her for Christmas but because it reminded her of the coat that Irene used to wear, and she loved to wear it around the house when she was little. It was too big for her at the age of ten she was to short and it was to long so she would run around the house with the bottom half dragging on the ground. But Irene sold it, or rather gave it away to good will when she was eleven. She pulled her gloves up tight so that she was sure no skin was exposed there wasn't a snow balls chance in hell she was going to add another physic to her already crowded head. No surrey bob.
The station was pretty crowded and Rogue did her best to avoid touching anyone. There was way to much touching then she liked at the moment even if it was threw cloth she didn't like it. Any more physics and she knew he would use them against her. It was like a war. He was gathering his troops to fight her, lucky for her most of her physics remained neutral and for that she was pretty grateful.
Please don't touch me, please don't touch me. Rogue chanted in her head. Why are there so many dam people here, come on it's a fricken weekday people don't you all have lives or something? Rogue thought as she turned her body to get around an elderly gentleman.
Finally she was out of the crowded plate forms and let out a sigh of relief. Thank God Rogue thought, as she inhaled the fresh air.
She was back she thought with a smile. She was home again.
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But that would be lying
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As Rogue reminisced about the fact that she was finally home after two years a thought struck her. She had no way of getting back to her home. Just great she thought.
They forgot about you, they don't care. She doesn't care, and neither does he.
Shut up. Rogue told him. He chose now to start speaking up? Rogue thought, well it's better now then on the train. Just shut will you. Rogue told him in a threatening tone, well it was in her head and she hoped she sounded threatening towards him.
You sound confident, but be warned I'll regain control. This stupid wall of your will not hold me back forever. Rogue heard him warn and she really wasn't in the mood for him. She didn't have the strength anymore but she didn't want him to know that, if he knew he would try to take over again.
Shut up. Rogue bit back.
Is that all you have to say? He asked. Not so strong now with out Remy now are we? Your washed up, your nothing with out him standing right there holding you hand. Not that he even cared enough, not that he could ever love you.
Go away and just shut up. You know nothing, he loves me just not the way I want him to. Rogue screamed out at him. She could here him laughing at her. Rogue brought her gloved hands up to her forehead and clenched her head trying to drown him out.
No. I will make you pay for killing me.
I didn't kill you. Rogue shouted back, she didn't realize then but she was crying. It was a loud booming sound that was echoing threw out her head. She hated it when he did this, he had to always bring it up.
My body is gone because of you. I can no longer live in you world. I was supposed to rule your world and reclaim it as my own. Get back at my father for enslaving me in that God forsaken tomb. But you had to ruin everything. He yelled out and it hurt and she really wished that she had taken that Advil right now.
No one should rule the world. Rogue told him.
I was suppose to. It was my destiny to rule.
And it was my destiny to stop you.
Insolent child. The least you could do is let me control your body. I would spare the lives of your friends. He tried to negotiate. Rogue wanted to laugh but it hurt so much to even think at the moment.
Liar. She told him as she took a seat on a bench at the station. She kept stumbling and people were staring at her so she would wait out his rant while sitting. He would quiet down eventually he couldn't fight her shields forever. He would tire soon, but he was stronger then before, and she was weakening. She couldn't hold her shields forever either.
Gods don't lie.
You're a demy God. Rogue informed him
A minor detail. He yelled and he seemed to get really angered by that especially. At least I'm not a murderer.
I am not a murderer, you're the murderer. You killed all those people. Rogue reminded him and she felt a shot of pain go threw her head.
I didn't kill them. He roared back.
And I didn't kill you. Rogue shot back barely holding on.
Then what do you call this hell I'm trapped in. He asked and felt her strength slowly returning.
My mind. My body. Your prison. Rogue fought him finding her inner strength and forced her shields up stronger then ever silencing him.
Rogue began to silently pant after he inner struggle and practically jumped out of her skin at the feeling of someone's hand on her shoulder. " Marie?" The voice said gently and immediately Rogue knew who it was instantly.
" Not Maire, I'm still Rogue." Rogue said in a quiet tone as she leapt up from the bench and immediately wrapped her arms around Irene bringing her into a big hug. Rogue smiled geniuinly forgetting about her fight with Apocalypse a few minutes prior.
" Welcome home sweetie." The blind woman said into Rogue's hair hugging her back.
" Good ta be home." Rogue replied content with being held by Irene. She really did miss the woman and was sad to leave her. But like Irene informed her it was all for the best.
" So you ready to get to work?" Irene asked her slowly breaking away.
" Irene I was born ready." Rogue said picking up her bags. She took Irene's arm and they walked off the platform towards the car. Today would be full of fun but tomorrow the real work would begin.
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Author's Note: OMG I'm finally done with this chapter. I am so sorry that it took me this long to post this chapter. It took me awhile because of a few things. A) I was a bit lazy, b) I couldn't figure out where I wanted to pick back up with Rogue and c) It was kind of hard to jump into writing Rogue's point of view after writing from Remy's point of view for so long. So to get some practice on writing a new point of view I tend to start a new fic. So if any of you are wondering yes I've already started writing a new fic. It's a song fic and I'm halfway done, I'll give you a small taste of it at the end of this. I should really try finishing my fics before I start anymore shouldn't I? Oh well.
In this chapter I tried to show you guys how Rogue and Apocalypse don't really get along and how for now her other physics are just remaining neutral. But I feel that that is soon to change. I also didn't really focus on how Rogue feels about Remy either did I?
Let's see here. I'm not going to rush the end of this fic and try to make it a corny happy ever after. No. I hate those. So the next chapter will in fact be the last chapter and most likely pretty long. But oh well, some times longer chapters are better, and some times their not. I plan to finish this fic before August is over so before school starts up again this fic will be finished.
One more thing. ( I love Uncle in Jackie Chan by the way.) Does anyone know if WB aired the last of the Evo episodes? Don't be mad at me for not knowing I've been out of town for the last two weekends. I've heard some things but I'm not too sure, if they are could someone tell me what time it's on? Thank you much.
Okay onto your reviews. Sorry if I missed anyone.
Yagirl_123 - Hey sorry I made you cry, didn't mean to but I'm glad my writing was that good that it made you cry. I cried when I reread it. And don't worry in the end Remy and Rogue will get back together. What kind of a Romy writer would I be if I didn't have them get together in the end? Now I ask you honestly. ( I love Austin Powers as well.)
Ravyn Nyte - Their will most likely be a sequel to this fic. Shush. Don't tell anyone. Just kidding. Maybe not sure. Glad you liked this and Remy and Rogue have cried before so you can just let it now if ya want. Lol. Oh my god I have totally lost it haven't I? Oh well.
Ishandahalf - I wouldn't call you redundant per say. But thank you for your review. This chapter wasn't that depressing so that is a plus. I also liked it how everyone knew about Remy's feelings for Rogue and as for Rogue. Well I didn't really go into depth about how Rogue feels about Remy but I kind of hinted towards it. As of right now well I'm not to sure about her feelings. I am but I'm not. Does that make any sense to you?
Latin Rose - Don't worry they will get back together, I'll make sure you can live with yourself. And if they don't get back together by the end of this fic then there most likely will be a sequel if I can't wrap this up. Hope you liked the chapter.
Barbara Ruiz - Hey glad I gave you something to tease your brother about. Teasing family is always fun to do. And as you can see Rogue knows that he is going home.
Rogue Warrior Spirit - Hey sorry this took so long. I hope this chapter was worth the wait as well. Cause it was hard for me to write until I hit the argument with Apocalypse. What'd ya think of that by the way? I wasn't to sure how to make those two responded to one another so I hope I did a good job on that.
DaughterofDeath - Here's ya new chapter. Hoped ya liked it.
Yanna - Glad that I provided you some entertainment this summer. Hope you liked the chapter.
dReAm sPrItE - I send Remy your wishes and he will find what he looking for. What he's looking for right now is currently in Mississippi but they will get back together. Eventually.
Cool-Chick-Rae - Hey glad you liked the chapter, hope this one was just as good as the last. I reread my work to figure out anything I could tie in. And just figured Remy should go and fix up his home life. Do some soul searching. Ya know what I mean? Hey update Remy's Gambit ASAP please. I'm going to San Diego the week of the 16th, so is there anything that is a must while I'm there or is everything really good?
Chicken fingers - Glad you loved the chapter. Hope you liked this one as much as the last.
Demonic-Gambit - The romyness will be back, sooner rather then later I hope.
Ellie s.g - Hey sorry this chapter took forever and a day to post but I hope you like this as much as the last.
Okay again sorry if I missed anyone.
Alright if anyone if board and wants to read a new Romy fic then here ya go. A small teaser for my next fic. It's called: I Know The Truth. I'm still working on it so it might be pretty bad just to let you know.
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I Know the Truth written by Aida.
How have I come to this? How did I slip and fall?
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He had played her and it hurt.
Rogue ran as fast as she could away from him, she couldn't stand to look at him any more. The jerk had just used her. She was nothing but a game to him, his girl on the side. The idiot was engaged and he never told her or anyone. How could she have been so stupid of course a guy that great would already be taken. Remy had everything. He had great looks, he was sweet, kind and sensitive he knew how to make her feel special. Like she was actually worth something, he acted like he spent time with her because he wanted to not because he was forced to, the jack ass was a great actor Rogue thought as she ran. To good to be true.
Tears threatened to fall but she refused to let them fall. Oh no, she wasn't going to waist her tears over the stupid Swamp Rat. No. He wasn't worth it. She never wanted to see him again never wanted him near her. And yet she felt like she needed him more then anything right at that moment, she needed someone to tell her it was going to be okay, someone to hold her and cradle her in there strong arms. Someone to just be there for her like Remy had been before. But if getting hurt this bad was what getting that feeling back then she didn't want it. She didn't want him.
Her chest hurt so badly, it made it extremely hard to breath and yet she continued to run. She could hear how fast her heart was beating and breaking. She had trusted him and then what he stabs her in the back. He had said he had a surprise for her and to meet her in the park at one. So she did. Mistake number one.
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~~~~Flashback~~~~
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Remy had said he had something special planed, and she couldn't wait. Ever since they had started dating she had become more like her Valley Girl roommate Kitty. When no one was looking that was. She had decided to doll herself up a bit by wearing less make-up; she wore light purple eye shadow, a light coat of eyeliner and some soft pink lipstick mixed with some of her purple. Part of her hair was pulled back leaving some white wisps of hair. She looked pretty cute, Kitty had told her. She decided to go with normal black jeans and a black tank top and her purple over shirt showing off her shoulders and some of her stomach. Along with her black gloves and black combat boots. She saw it was twelve thirty so she decided to just leave early and walk to the park it would take her a little less then a half hour. She was normally always late anyway so why not surprise him by being early or on time for once. Mistake number two Rogue would learn later.
As she quietly walked along the sidewalk she enjoyed the nice cloudy day. It was summer but she loved it when the clouds were out. It was the perfect temp. Not really hot and not cold a light breeze would pass by every so often but it felt nice. Rogue began to think about the past nine months that she had known Remy. The first three he had tried to get her to go out with him and she was surprised that he lasted that long. Remy was a character. It had taken her a while to trust him but she felt it was worth it. Whenever she was with Remy she felt wanted. Like someone actually wanted to be with her. He wasn't forced to hang out with her like the other members of her team where suppose to. Scott had told her he was probably just using her and to be careful but she ignore him, they hadn't really talked since. Not that they had really talked before. She trusted Remy and didn't need Scott telling her what she knew wasn't true, he wasn't using her. No he really seemed to care about her. At first she thought he was just playing her and would be gone within the month after they had started dating or maybe Magneto had told him that she was the easiest to get information out of but the boy had stuck around for six months. That was too long to play a girl or try to gather information out of after a month they would of tried someone else. Rouge sighed in happiness. She loved him. And she really wanted to tell him, but she hadn't found the right moment to tell him. He hadn't told her he loved her but she was okay with that. Just being with him was good enough for her. He didn't seem to mind her powers never flinched when she moved to touch him always smiled when she glared at him, some part deep inside of her believed that he truly did loved her. And she just wanted to hold on to that feeling a little longer, for a little longer she could really believe that he loved her as much as she loved and needed him.
She had finally reached the park and walked over to their bench. It was right underneath this oak tree and shaded you from the sun. It was on the other side of the park and she was still five minutes early, in the distance she saw two people standing there but didn't pay attention to them until she realized that one of them was Remy. They had just broken off a kiss and Remy was staring intently at the blonde woman, his back was partially to her so he didn't see her. She felt her breath get caught in her throat as tears began to build up in the corner of her eyes. She swallowed hard as she stopped dead in her tracks. Begging her feet to let her move but she couldn't she felt frozen in time. She prayed they wouldn't notice her. If there was a God he would let them not see her standing there like an idiot.
" Can I help y'?" The blonde woman asked in an accent much like Remy's. She looked past him and right at her. 'Shit.' Rogue thought as she tried with all her might to put up a fake smile. The physics in her head were screaming at her, no it was more like laughing at her. Telling her over and over again that they were right and she was just a stupid little girl. The blonde woman's words caused Remy's head to turn and look at her. Remy's eyes grew huge and his mouth formed a small 'O' shape.
" Rogue." Remy stated in a panic, as if he had been caught. And she knew she had caught him, the fool was two-timing her. Oh God she had tried to imagine what it would feel like if he really was she had even believed her made up horror fantasies that she had almost cried at the amount of pain it would do to her. But this. This was so much worse compared to that, cause this was real. Very real and very painful.
Rouge swallowed hard and took a deep breath and put her mask back up and scowled at him, she was about to say something but the blonde girl said something first. " Oh hi, y' must be one o' Remy's friends." She said "friends" like she knew the truth behind it all. " Hi, I'm Belladonna. Remy's fiancé." She said as her perfect red lips curled into a sly smile and her piercing blue eyes twinkled with satisfaction as she playfully fluttered her eyelashes.
That hurt even worse. The jerk was engaged and he never told her. Rogue closed her eyes and took it all in. " Hi, Ah'm Rogue. An' Remy an' ah aren' friends, were enemies." Rogue said as she turned around to walk away. " Y' an' meh 'll have are rematch Cajun." Rogue called out. Remy said nothing threw the whole exchange. And Rogue was glad that he didn't, she didn't trust herself with what she might do if he had spoken to her. Once she was out of sight she began to run, as fast as she could.
He had played her and it hurt.
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How the hell did it get to this? Where did she go wrong? She had always been a good judge of character. So what happened? The pain was too much for Rogue as her running began to slow to a walk once she reached the institute. She was panting heavily as she stopped right outside the giant Iron Gate. She reached up and just held onto the cold iron bars using them to hold her up. They were her lifeline at the moment. Cause she had nothing left to fall back on. She had pushed everyone away to be with Remy. She dissevered to be alone, to be in this kind of pain.
" Remy." Rogue uttered below a whisper, as her words were carried away by the winds. Leaving her all alone with her pain and anguish.
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So what'd ya think? Expect the finished project by September.
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Take Care, Rogue Star