Author's note: Oh goodie, goodie! Finally I wrote it.
I've waited to write this chapter from the very beginning and I'm happy to say that I'm quite satisfied from this chapter.
Yeah, I know that there must be million grammatical errors and such, but forgive me! English is my third language Not second or first, and this is my first attempt from writing a long story in English So don't let the errors bug you too much But I do appreciate it when you buzz me from them. Especially when they are major ones!
Warning: This story is now rated R, basically because of the mild sexual content of this chapter LEMON alert is for this chapter only, so don't freak down, I think you can skip this chapter if you don't want to read it
Still I recommend you read this, there's nothing vulgar and I think it's written pretty tastefully.
Shared Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe
Chapter 8: Surrendering
Rage filled his senses quickly, making him look her angrily. Why did he even care she was still in love with Squall, why else would she be doing this? He was mad now She shouldn't have this kind of affect to him.
Seifer opened the door vividly, walking away from her and not looking behind him. He closed the door harshly behind him, the halls echoing loudly.
Quistis heard his fury steps for awhile, before they faded away again.
Still she stood there, the jacket on her hands, her heart bouncing wildly. She stood there silently, being confused from the mix of feelings roaming inside her.
He was gone now So Why didn't she feel good again? This was what she wanted Right?
Am I stupid she spit this to herself, throwing the jacket to the floor, before she left away from her room, heading toward his room again.
Seifer shut the door after him. He was mad What did she mean with that terrible mistake
How could something as powerful and mind-blowing as that kiss been a mistake
It had felt good, and he wanted more, but not in the million years, he was going to go and beg her. He still had his pride
He hadn't planned this He hadn't planned any of his actions, he had just done them, and now this kiss He had surprised even himself with all those feelings that went though him when he kissed her and when she was answering to his kiss.
I'm pathetic I'm more pathetic than she is he stopped strolling around his room, finally admitting his feelings.
He wasn't able to blame her from this anymore.
She may still be in love with Squall and may have tried to kill herself, but Seifer was the one who tried to deny having any feelings toward anyone toward her.
He was far more pathetic than she He denied, he hided, and he tried to cover his true feelings with his rude attitude
At least Quistis was trying to be honest to herself She tried to live up to her feelings
He was the lonely one. The diseased one.
Suddenly the door opened behind him. He didn't turn, as he already knew whom it was.
Quistis closed the door after her. Nothing was heard for a while.
They both were silent, just standing there, thinking what had happened. Seifer didn't turn to her. He couldn't face her anymore. He was still mad. He tried to gather himself up. Tried to wash all the angriness away from his mind. Tried to reason himself not to lose his temper anymore.
Yes. It was her voice. That soft, reasonable, mild and even cold voice. The voice was unrelenting.
That voice that sent shivers through him, coming from the woman who made him crazy in every way that was possible.
What the hell is wrong with you? Oh she couldn't have picked her words any better.
What's wrong with me?! He suddenly faced her now, his eyes burning from angriness again.
Seifer couldn't believe that she had just asked that.
Promptly, she repeated the question, her eyes reflecting his angriness: Yes, what's wrong with you?
Seifer stroked his short hair in nervous manner. No In frustrated manner.
His gaze was anywhere but on her for awhile, and she could see he was losing his temper again.
He shot her a cruel gaze now.
You really want to know what's wrong with me? His words were spiteful, daring her even. He was now looking her viciously. All kindness was gone from his emeralds eyes.
Yes. I do, Seifer.
He took a threatening step toward her. His expressions were filled with aggression and angriness as he suddenly shouted right to her face, his voice stinging through her mind.
You, Quistis!
She locked her gaze with him, confused from his sudden answer. Her jaw started suddenly trembling. She was shocked, not just because of his answer, but from his expressions.
He was slowly calming down, uttering this, the despair heightening his rich tone of voice. She trembled suddenly, tears appearing to her eyes slowly, but never dropping.
He looked her deeply, feeling hurt deep inside his heart.
You, Quistis. You are messing with my mind. At the night of the graduation ball you opened up for me, and then when I kissed you You shoved me away
But you she tried to cut him off but failed. Now his words were getting faster again. More angrier.
And just few minutes ago you kissed me. You welcomed me with open arms, just to push me away! I tried to comfort you and you threw me away. And now you are here again, asking me what's wrong!
Again his fury eyes met hers tranquil blue ones. He had no intentions to stop there and she knew it.
Make up your freaking mind, Quistis! What do you want?! You want Squall then take him! I don't care!
Slowly her eyes started to fill with even more tears, some of them overflowing from her azure eyes. She didn't stop them from coming and she let them slip down her cheeks, not even thinking of wiping them away.
For awhile he was just looking her, pitying her. Suddenly chuckling roughly, he distracted his thoughts.
Now he was cruel again. The hate flamed his eyes, like he was overtook by the devil himself, as he spluttered these following words: It was your real lucky day when Rinoa lost their baby and left Squall, wasn't it?
What!?
Surprised and angry, she shot her gaze back to him again. He was sneering and it made her furious.
How could he say such a terrible things?
Her expressions were vicious. Lifting her hand to the height of her head, she took some speed, and before he even realised what she was about to do, her palm slapped right against his cheek, his blond head jerking to his other side from this stinking blow.
Slightly shocked, Seifer lifted his other hand slowly up to his cheek, right to the place she had hit him, and he kept his gaze away from her, trying to think what to do.
Quistis stared him angrily, her blue eyes still gleaming from tears as she hissed her last silent but furious words: You had no right to say that, Seifer!
Now turning over her heels, she started opening the door hastily. She was intending to run away, but was stopped by the furious Seifer.
You're not going anywhere! He gripped from her arms fiercely and pushed her against the door, slamming it shut at the same time.
Let go! She tried to push him away, only to see that it was useless. Wildly, he pushed her body more tightly against the door, now leering closer to her.
I said, let go! Tears streaming down her face, she once again tried to push him away, only to see that she didn't want him to let go.
She wanted him to embrace her, to take this pain away.
That was the only thing she wanted now, and she was completely out of words when she suddenly felt his strong lips pressed against hers.
Not finding any trace of resistance, Seifer pushed his body tightly against hers, feeling her body squirming under him as she laced her hands behind his neck, starting to kiss him back.
Their hips came together, pressing against each other, and an excited sight left from her as she felt these growing tremors going through her eager body. Now trying to calm down for a second, he retreated away from her.
He felt his own breathing wild and when he looked her form that still leaned against the door, panting with the same passion he was feeling, he finally understood how alike they were.
They were both despaired. They were both lonely.
Slowly he placed his one hand up to her cheek and leaned to kiss her again, but this time with softer lips and with more gentle brush.
She sighed again, letting him kiss her.
Again retreating, Seifer stopped this kiss, feeling strangely nervous when he realised that she hadn't left already, that she was still there, letting him kiss her this way.
What had changed her mind? Why did he felt like this from her? Why was he nervous?
So many questions, but no answers.
He took his glows off from his hands, letting these dark leather glows drop to the floor. The whole time, he was intently looking right to her eyes that still gleamed from little tears.
Slowly placing one hand back to her cheek he leaned closer to her, breathing softly and deeply.
Reaching to the back of her head, he slipped the hair clip away from her hair, letting the golden waterfalls of her hair drop down to her shoulders.
He slid his hand through her golden hair, tossing them slowly away from the way of her delicate neck. Hovering, he finally landed his lips to the crook of her neck. She sighed deeply and closed her eyes, feeling trembles going up her spine from this sweet contact.
His muffled breathes against her neck, warm and comforting. His lips snuggling gently against her skin, sending passionate flame through her. Massaging his back with tender touches, she started to remove his grey trench coat away. He helped her and then started to unbutton her jacket, kissing her at the same time with genuine affection.
Cloth after cloths were removed, tender and passionate kisses and touches were given one after another. They hadn't even stopped to think what was happening, and now the only thing that they had on, was their underwear.
Things were getting more and more passionate and they were heading toward his bed, stumbling on their way there. She pushed him gently to sit down onto the bed and started to remove her black cotton bra away, looking carefully his reacts from this action.
She was satisfied to see he was enjoying the sight and it made her more confidence from her following action.
She scooped herself on top of him on the bed, tiding her legs behind his back.
Their hips were right against each other and she pushed her hips down to him, creating a teasing pressure.
Groaning, he wrapped his arms around her hips, pressing her even closer.
They had their underwear still on. Those few thin layers that they now wanted to remove.
She felt him hard against her, as she gently rocked her hips on his. She was making him crazy. Not to mention herself.
Feeling the first tremor of ecstasy, she sighed, biting her lips from this growing desire that she felt toward him.
He was going mad from desire too, and he knew he couldn't stop himself anymore.
Rolling around, Seifer pushed her onto her back, landing his body on top of her. She sighed eagerly, her body squirming slowly under him from the excitement of this moment. Her legs were between his, and her body was covered with his. Her breasts were squeezed against his abdomen and they both sighed from the contact.
Lifting his weight to his arms, he hovered his face above her, looking her with his green eyes that were widened from lust.
He wanted this so bad, but was she ready? He was breathing heavily, searching her eyes for assurance.
Those azure eyes were darkened with lust, as she pulled him back down, her lips meeting his in a passionate kiss.
That was enough for him to get back onto the track.
Her hands roamed behind his back, rubbing him excitedly but gently.
His hands however, were now on her tights, tracing his hands up against them. His touch was so hot against her. Melting her.
Slowly and teasingly, he brushed her inner tights. She sighed now. She was waiting for feeling his touch.
He reached to her black panties now, sliding his hand under them. The contact of his gentle hand made her moan more hardly, arching her back so she pressed closer to his touch. Seifer groaned now too. This warmth was overwhelming.
Slipping his hand away now, he made her sigh in frustration. She caught his lips on her, chewing his bottom lip gently with her teeth. Why couldn't he just give her what she wanted She was sure he was teasing her by not going further.
Seifer knew she was waiting for more, so when he started to remove her black panties off, he wasn't surprised to feel her hands on his tights, squeezing them hungrily.
It didn't take long for her to help him take his black boxers off, throwing them to the floor.
There they were. Not even a one piece of clothing on them. They were completely naked.
It felt so natural to be like this. In each other embraces. Their naked bodies squeezing closer.
They kissed wildly. Their tongues tangling to each other.
He rubbed his hips on hers, warming her up. It wasn't necessary, as she was already sighing in delight, waiting for him.
Moving her legs more far a part, she gave him a better access. Wrapping her legs around his back, she made him squeeze closer to her. They moaned. Still he wasn't ready to do anything. Oh God, he wanted But still
Every sense and part of him wanted her, but still every sense of him told him that they should wait, that she wasn't ready for this yet. But when he laid his eyes on her trembling body under him, seeing her pleading gaze, her eyes widened from lust and her needing moan meeting his, he leaned to kiss her.
Not needing any more assurance, and not being able to stop himself, he started slowly thrusting into her, groaning.
She sighed from pure ecstasy, her moans coming deeper, more frequent as he created a rhythm. It didn't take long before she started to move her hips too, matching the rhythm with his.
Quistis dug her nails into his back, as he slowly brushed into her. Ever now and then he was moaning her name.
He said her name so beautifully so meaningfully.
Oh, Hyne Seifer she was confused again, but she didn't want to stop this. This felt so good.
He leaned to her, kissing her lustfully between his deep breaths.
He leaned into her hair, smelling their unique fragrant. He nibbled her earlobe gently.
He panted into her ear. He was on the way to his climax.
She was on her peak too, and Seifer could sense it.
Now slowing down, he retreated away slightly. He looked her panting figure. She was sweating and her eyes were shut.
Her naked chest moved up and down quickly and her hair was all messed up.
She looked so beautiful So beautiful Like his Angel.
He wanted to give her pleasure. Oh how he wanted to give her that
Now hardly thrusting into her, she exploded the first time.
Oh, Seifer! She arched her back and rolled her head from side to side. She had it hard.
She was so thigh around him. That was the final trigger for him.
Seifer exploded too, moaning her name again and again with clenching teeth.
Now, they both on their climax, they stopped for this sensation.
Landing against her gently, he tried to clear his sight. His eyes were blurred from sheer thrill and he rolled to his side.
Slowly taking the blanket of his bed he covered himself and she joined him under these sheets. Even when they just had been as close as two people could get physically, they kept a save distant from each other.
Panting for awhile, they just laid there.
He had never before experienced anything like that. And she hadn't either It had been something new
It wasn't just sex to him, it was something more
She rolled beside him, startling him from the sudden closeness.
Nonetheless, he lifted his hand so she could snuggle beside him. She leaned her head to his chest and carefully, almost like fearing to break her, he wrapped his comforting arm around her.
Drowsed, she closed her eyes, landing her tiny hands to his chest. She looked so content when she slowly drifted into sleep.
Absorbing her carefully, he tried to think what had just happened.
He wasn't sure The only thing he knew was that it had been something special.
Seifer needed to talk with her from this, but still he felt happy that they wouldn't talk now
He was afraid of what she would tell him.
Would she say that this was a mistake too?
He couldn't think about that
Now just letting himself be happy from having her beside him, he closed his emerald eyes, letting the sleep come.
And there, the sleep came, guiding him into his dreams of this woman beside him.
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Author's note: Well, how did you like it? It wasn't anything vulgar, right?
If you still haven't noticed, I'm a big fan of Queifer and it is my favourite coupling. But don't worry Squinoa fans, there is going to be more Squinoa on the future chapters too, you just have to wait for awhile
As always, the reviews are welcome, and actually if you still haven't written a review from this story then please do now This chapter means something for me and I want to know everyone of yours opinion from it!
And yeah, there's still one thing Is the rating R correct for this story or should I change it?
Goodbye and remember to read the next chapter of Shared Feelings! Thank you!