Shared
Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe
Chapter 13: Time of Actions
Balamb Garden's classrooms were full of students now when they were still living the early hours of this day.
Some of them were nervous and cranky and some of the top class students almost whistling happily when they were writing their answers to their exam papers that their instructors had given them almost a half hour ago.
This day was quite a big day for them and this exam was important to their future as SeeDs. This exam was one of the biggest they had ever done, and if they wanted to continue their SeeD schooling, they had to passed it now or try again next year.
Looking through her classroom full of students, Quistis could see sweat drops forming to some of the faces of her students. Smiling lightly from the sight of thirty students working over the test, some of them thinking their answers carefully before writing them up and some of them just writing whatever they could come up with, she felt a strange happiness overcoming her usually dark mind.
So often she felt like crying, but not now.
Usually there were so many things weighing her mind and almost every time it had been about Squall and her unreturned feelings toward him. But now when she had finally resolved those feelings with him, she felt more hopeful and more willing to live her life as it was.
Still there were feelings that she needed to solve before she could truly live happily. The feelings that she held toward Seifer were unique and so wonderful, but she still wasn't sure how to express them, as she wasn't even sure if she was right about them.
What about if this was a lie too that she had created inside her mind? What about if Seifer wanted to have nothing to do with her?
All she knew right now was that she couldn't leave things as they were. She needed to talk with him and try to solve these feelings that she had concealed inside herself out of his sight.
Sighing, she sat to the chair behind her own desk and landed her hands on the clean table, sliding them slowly against the desk's plastic-like surface. She looked her hands carefully, thinking about him even more and more, missing him with all of her heart.
Quistis had heard from Squall more about the mission where Seifer had gone, and she couldn't wait to see him again. Even when she was eager to see Seifer, she felt nervous and sad, because she wasn't sure how to handle all these emotions she was going through.
Could this truly be what she thought it was?
Sadly, she confessed to herself that she didn't know.
She wouldn't know before talking with him first And as soon he comes from the mission, she was going to talk with him, that she had promised to herself.
I'll be waiting you, Seifer
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The different shaded green forests passed his sight when looking out of the little window in front of him. Green grass fields and pieces of different shaped and sized land, few big and little mountains with their peaks covered with some snow, big and little blue shaded seas and rivers going under them.
Seifer was sitting peacefully on one of the chairs of this aircraft that right now was heading toward the Galbadia Garden, flying above this wonderful scenery.
Looking out of the little window of this tiny backroom of this quite small aircraft, he thought about the mission in task. He couldn't stop feeling like something was wrong about this all, and he felt like they were right now going toward more harder mission anyone could have guessed.
His team members, Brain, Rien, Dame and Liz, were in the control room right now, which was linked to this room, as these two were the only rooms of this ship.
Seifer had gotten enough of their presence, or more likely, he had gotten enough of the childish fights that Dame and Liz had over and over again, so he had isolated himself away from the control room into this much more peaceful backroom where he could be alone.
Happy from the fact that these rooms were separated with a wall and a door, he could now fall more deeply into the thoughts that overflowed in his head.
Even when he tried his best not to think about the feelings that pained him the most now, as he had realised they were all lies, he found himself dreaming about Quistis.
Again she was in his mind and she didn't even know what he was going through right now. She hadn't realised that he cared, she had no idea how much this tormented him. These feelings so unrequited, torturing him silently.
Oh God, how much he hoped that he wouldn't have seen Squall and Quistis kissing each other. How much he just wanted to forget the whole thing and go on with his life But he couldn't do that And he never would.
Quistis
She had affected him so deeply that now he couldn't forget her. She was everything to him and she didn't know that. And she wouldn't want to hear about it either. Not at least now, when she had finally gotten the love of her life Squall Leonhart.
Why? Why does all this happen to me?
Feeling like shouting, he bit his lips hardly with his teeth, and buried his blond head into his hands, frowning slightly. Agony filling his heart and mind, he tried to forget her, only feeling the headache growing inside his head.
He couldn't stop this feeling He just couldn't
Quistis I want only you I
That was years ago! You can't compare them, Dame
Of course I can, Liz! Who says I can't?
Interrupting his thoughts, a sudden shouting was heard coming toward his direction. The noises being heard even clearer, coming threateningly toward the door of the backroom.
Opening the door with a loud bang, the obviously angry dark haired Liz, made her way into the room where Seifer was still sitting, his back toward these two most loud members of his group that had now bombed his peace and quiet.
I say you can't, Dame, so you can't
The slightly spiky haired man with an awful temper, came right behind her, now stopping and chuckling with an contemptuous tone: Oh, you're such a bitch, Liz
Turning toward him and meeting him face to face, Liz started to lose her temper for good now.
Yeah, and you're an asshole, Dame
Now Seifer's temper was going shorthanded too.
Besides that it wasn't a good thing to interrupt him with such a racket, he was also full of those two already, so now he was sitting on the chair this time gritting his teeth with annoyance as he listened the two fighting that went on and on.
Well, at least I'm not a---!
Now Seifer had enough of this. He jumped quickly up from his seat, facing the two, as he interrupted Dame in the middle of his sentence. Just kiss the damn girl already!!!
Shocked faces of these two SeeDs targeted toward Seifer now. The face he was having was scaring the two slightly. His face was lightly red, and his green piercing eyes were slits, as he targeted his fiery gaze toward them, seeming like he was ready to throw the two out of the door.
For a while looking Seifer with shocked expressions, they glanced toward each other faces. They had been so into name-calling that they hadn't even realised being this close to each other.
Their faces and bodies were just few inches away from each other, so after the comment Seifer had thrown into the air, they felt the embarrassing heat coming over them.
Quickly jerking apart from each other, the two, now very blushed SeeDs, looked toward Seifer who was looking the two angrily.
At least they shut up for a second.
Did you have something to tell me or did you just come here to resign yourselves off from the mission, because I damn soon will throw you both out of here
The two SeeDs just stood there, their voices still gone, as they hadn't gotten over the shock and mild fear that conquered their minds. Seifer was serious and they knew it. Now they just hoped that they would have knew to shut their mouths.
Waiting for an answer, Seifer's blond eyebrows were knitted together, forming a furrow to his forehead and making his face look even angrier when his green burning eyes were in angry slits and his thin mouth pouted.
Carefully, Liz tried to drag words coming from her throat, and then finally being able to venture the words that came out as straining, her voice cracking at the end: Brain had something to tell you
His expressions never changing, he looked the two through like trying to make up his mind about them. Throwing them away was too tempting not to consider, but he knew it wouldn't help anything.
Now focusing on Dame, he waited if they had something else to say as their defence, but they didn't say anything and that was probably the best thing for them to do right now.
But it seemed that Dame was a bit pissed about this whole situation, and that he didn't really approve Seifer. Standing there, he looked Seifer dully, his eyes covered slightly with his eyelids. But that much sense he had that he wasn't going to express his thoughts into words. Because that would have made Seifer even madder and that wouldn't be a good thing.
Still angry, Seifer passed the two to the doorway, not even glancing toward them anymore.
Two SeeD's looking after him, considered the choice to follow him, but they weren't sure if that was a too good idea.
And as Seifer was out of the room, he stopped to close the door behind him, saying with a tone of strong voice that was serious as hell: You two stay in this room It's an order.
The door getting completely shut, Dame and Liz looked carefully toward the door. They were still little shocked, but got over it quite quickly.
This is your fault, you know
Oh, give it a break, Dame
Seifer walked toward the main seat before the control panel that was used for steering the craft, seeing Brain sitting on it, controlling the steady fly of this means of transport.
Resting his hand against the seat's top and trying to steady his balance in the moving craft, Seifer stood behind Brain's seat, now sighing deeply with a frustrated sight as he was still trying to control his sudden anger that had arisen from the stupid fight between Liz and Dame.
Are those two always that annoying Seifer grumbled this, making Brain chuckle in slight amusement.
Oh trust me They are much worse
A smile spreading over Seifer's usually sulky face, he chuckled to Brain's last remark, knowing that he was probably right.
What do you have here? After the little delighting moment of peace, Seifer focused on the mission now. The sooner he would get away from here, the better.
We're getting closer to the area near the landing spot of Galbadia Garden
Looking toward their destination, he could see the Galbadia Garden already. It seemed to be very peaceful, not really anything suspicious was outside to be seen, but you could never know what different kind of things was happening inside.
Land down behind that hill It's better not to wake any suspiciousness.
Yes sir!
Looking the Galbadia Garden, that they were right now heading closer, with determined gaze, Seifer decided to put his other thoughts aside. He got no time to meddle with these teasing thoughts of her right now.
Finally the craft landed behind the hill that now gave them a cover. Seifer headed to open the door of this aircraft, but before he went out of it, he turned to face Rien who was sitting silently on the other chair beside Brain: Come, Rien Let's go out and see little closer And Brain
Yes Sir Turning toward their leader who seemed to be very determined person, Brain waited Seifer's orders with anticipation.
You stay here with Liz and Dame. I will be taking contact to you if something happens. However, if you don't hear about Rien and me at least ever five minutes, tell the Balamb to send troops to back us up. No hero stunts here, remember that As soon as Seifer had given the instructions, he went outside and started to walk up the green hill, the radio in his grasp.
Rien had already stood up from his seat and followed Seifer outside, the metal door sliding down behind him.
You hear me, Brain Talking to the little radio in his glowed hand, Seifer made sure that the connection worked.
Loud and clear, boss
Murmuring this, Seifer lowered his hand down beside him.
The soft wind tousled with Seifer's short spun golden hair, when walking up the quite high hill, the young brown haired Rien walking beside him. Rien hadn't said any words during this mission and Seifer was actually starting to doubt if he even knew how to talk.
But Seifer didn't really care. Actually he was happy to have even one member in this team that knew better than to waste breath into unneeded discussion.
It was a talent that Seifer was starting to appreciate very greatly.
Finally reaching on top of this hill, Seifer lowered himself down to the greenery ground and so did Rien.
The magnificent view of the big and mighty Garden looked very glorious when looking down from this hill.
The red coloured Garden was landed down, the spiral that was used to lift the Garden up with its force field when using the Garden as means of transport, was now on top of the big Garden, glowing around it.
The field was empty. Not a soul was seen outside and it was little suspicious, as usually it was full of students walking around the Garden's field.
And I thought Gardens were full of life Rien said under his breath, following Seifer's flow of thought.
Even when this was the first time Seifer had heard Rien talking, he didn't stop to think about it.
The wind blew toward them peacefully, ruffling the short hairs of these two men, who looked the Galbadia Garden from this hill. Thoughtful silence falling over them, they inspected the area more clearly now.
This is too peaceful Seifer murmured under his breath, now truly feeling that something was wrong. He had never seen the outside of the Galbadia Garden this empty before in his life. Something was going on there, he was sure about it But what?
Taking a pair of binoculars and landing them to his nose, Rien looked the near area of the Garden through them. And it didn't take long for him to find something.
We've got something here Hearing Rien say this, Seifer also saw something from the corner of his eyes. It seemed like people, how unordinary
Isn't that Headmaster Cid Gasping with a surprised tone, Rien handed the binoculars to Seifer.
Taking these binoculars quickly into his hands, Seifer landed them to his nose.
When Seifer targeted his gaze to the form of those people, he could see them all clear now.
You're right It's the Headmaster Cid and Matron Words quivering at the end, Seifer started to be really confused.
What the hell were they doing here?
Edea walked beside Cid, their hands linked to each other, as they walked toward the entrance of Galbadia Garden. Seifer also saw the Galbadian soldiers behind them, pointing the two with their guns.
What the Hell Taking the binoculars off from his eyes, Seifer looked them disappearing into the Garden.
There's something you should know
What is it Answering to the radio in his hand, Seifer still looked absently toward the Garden, wondering the whole situation.
I just got a message from the Balamb Garden Galbadia Garden has declared a war against us
Seifer had his doubts about this all, but he hadn't seen this coming No one had.
The declaration was made by a sorceress who is now using Galbadia Garden as her base Balamb is going to make a full assault against them.
A sorceress You mean Sorceress Edea Burrowing his eyebrows in confusion, Seifer considered the option of Edea being the sorceress ruling Galbadia now.
They don't know who it was, but the message says clearly that it is a sorceress who is in charge out there now Brain didn't seem to take Seifer's option down, but he sounded highly doubtful.
There's something weird going on here too It seems that Headmaster Cid and Sorceress Edea are their prisoners now. Telling the news from the other end of the line, Seifer tried to make a connection between these incidents, that he still couldn't believe to be happening.
!? Alright, I will tell the Balamb Garden too
Knowing that the orders they had been set to do in this mission was probably changed now, cause of the sudden turnouts, Seifer was already thinking ahead.
And what are we being ordered to do now?
To wait for the reinforcement That's all
Not wanting to just stay here and do nothing, he wasn't happy to hear these orders that he had already guessed to be coming.
Really great Cutting the radio, Seifer murmured this disappointedly, feeling his mind and soul screaming for action.
The last time he had been participating these kinds of fights had been when he was leading the Galbadian forces. But this time it was different, now he was at the right side. He was there where he had always yearned for
He was with Balamb Garden and SeeDs. He was one of the good guys.
And this time he also had a reason to fight, besides of defending the home Garden and the rest of the world.
He was going to fight for Quistis To make sure that she was protected from all of this She was his reason for everything.
As long as she stays at Balamb, she'll be safe I will make sure of that
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Halls full of people running around and setting of to the aircrafts ordered to go to the battlefield, the one woman wearing her usual pale battle uniform ran hastily through the corridors, being careful not to crash with the other SeeDs and people running around in the panic that exploded from the sudden war declaration they had gotten from the Galbadia Garden.
Come on people! Move!
Few aircrafts had already set off to their destination, where the battlefield was already filled with fighting and battles as some of the Balamb Garden's force had already started actions against the Galbadia.
Balamb was still in peace, except the hasty moments filled with panic when the people living in there readied for defence actions in case if Garden would fall under attack.
Running on the corridors, her breathing anything but relaxed, Quistis tried to desperately find some of her friends, but not finding any of them. Her steps were hasty and she almost stumbled to her legs, when she made her way through the corridors, trying to get herself outside to the Garden where all the aircrafts were setting off.
She needed to go to the battlefield. She just couldn't stay here and wait, when there were fighting going on somewhere else.
For Gods sake, she had further experience with these kinds of massive battles, as she had been the one of the legendary' SeeDs who had saved the world over a year ago. If nothing else, it was her duty to go there.
Finally getting outside the Garden to the field where the aircrafts were lifting off to their destination, Quistis stopped in her steps, looking the big aircrafts being loaded with SeeDs ready to go and fight.
People running past her from all the directions, she was the only one who right now wasn't rushing anywhere.
Some aircrafts lifted off from the ground and started heading toward their enemy's base, the propels of the crafts spinning wildly on top of them, creating a wind that blew toward her softly.
Her golden tresses of hair were combed up into her usual hairstyle and the few strains of these long tresses flowed against the sides of her face from the soft breeze playing around them, when she felt her eyes wetting with few tears.
Seifer
She was sure that something bad was going to happen and the thought of something bad happening to Seifer, made her unstable. He was so much to her and she couldn't bear the fear she felt inside her mind and heart right now.
She had to be with him even for a moment That was the reason why she was going. Not because that it was her duty as SeeD to go, but because she needed to be at his side.
Inhaling a deep breath she set her heart to this decision she had just made, and started to run toward the aircrafts.
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