Shared Feelings
By Terra Trepe
Chapter 28: Only You
My steps were fast and steady I don't know where this strength was coming from, but thanks to it I kept on walking The pain was indescribable But I didn't care The only thing I cared right then, was to get her safe.
I looked down to her weakly breathing body on my shaking arms Her face had no look of pain No look of sorrow Just plain look of peace
There was blood coming from her mouth She had internal bleeding, that much was clear to me too
She was still breathing That was the only thing that kept me going I have to save her I just have to
It was my obligation to save her It was my duty to save her I was indebt to her No, I was indebt to myself I was doing this for me as much as I was doing this for her I wouldn't bear to lose her ever again I just loved her too much Way too much
I will save you I kept on promising down to her
I looked before myself now Only this hall and then I would be outside the Garden God. What was I going to do after that? This place was far away from other cities, towns or villages I was lost I had no hope, but I refused to give up.
I will save you I will save you These words never left my mind I have to save her I have to save her Like I was obsessed, I kept on whispering that, my voice unsteady with all the emotions
I walked and I walked The door Just few steps left Just few more steps Come on, you can do this, Seifer
And I walked Hyne, I walked
This pain This misery My body was badly injured but somehow I kept on walking
My bleeding never stopped completely, but I could feel that my wounds had healed a little bit The wounds on my chest had gone away They had disappeared It was a miracle
I know that one miracle should be enough for one man like me, but I prayed I prayed that I could have another miracle To save her, I needed a miracle And now was the perfect time for the miracle to happen But there was no hope No hope, my mind kept on shouting.
I went through the opening door and I kept on walking even when I didn't know where to go Again I walked I didn't see hope, but still I went on I wouldn't give up I wouldn't
And when I was outside The thing that I had thought to be impossible, had actually happened
I could saw something yellow So bright to my eyes I felt a dizzy wave wash through me My vision got blurred with the pain I assumed that my loss of blood was the reason for this blindness
For a second I couldn't see clearly But I could recognize the bright yellow from the scenery My steps started to loose their power I lost my balance, but somehow I got it back
And again, I continued to walk There was no other choice I wouldn't take any other choice
My eyes were still blurry, but I could see that bright yellow thing getting nearer to me A female voice shrieked something and I could see the yellow spot jumping up and down, before it ran towards me. I came closer to it and it came closer to me
I could hear someone shouting something I couldn't make clear of the words, but they were shocked
Oh God!! What happened!!!? The bright yellow thing stopped next to me, shouting with a voice I didn't recognize just then.
My sight came back to me when the blurriness became clear
It was Selphie who was asking these questions, her eyes holding a look of horror
I couldn't answer to her questions as I had no answers
Help us Help her I could hear my voice plead from her.
I looked down to the blond on my arms when I stopped with my steps I had no strength left anymore My legs refused to take even a step further
Then someone else's hands appeared under her body I looked the owner of these glowed hands The tall man stood before me and started to take her away from my arms I will carry her for the rest of the way I felt her weight getting removed off from my tired arms when Irvine took her into his own arms
I glanced the cowboy with slightly confused eyes and I looked after him when he carried her away to the big airship landed outside to the greenery
You are injured, Seifer Selphie gave me a concerned look when she told me the thing that I already knew She said something else, but I didn't understand her words
The blinding wave wash through my head and my eyes got blurred once again
Help her The silent plead was all I could get out of my throat, before my loss of balance
I started to fall down to the ground, but I was stopped when tiny hands wrapped up around my waist, trying to lift me up
Zell! Hurry! She shouted quickly when I started to fall down again, almost crushing her body with my weight.
Then I could feel another hand getting behind my back I glanced carefully to my side and I saw his figure standing there, helping Selphie with getting me up on my legs.
Just few meters more, Seifer He supported me when I felt my knees getting numb
Just few meters Just few meters The words echoed on my mind Just few meters
I was fighting with my own body, and eventually I won the fight
Both Selphie and Zell, she on my left side and he on my right side, placed my hands around their shoulders And then we started to walk together To that same airship where Quistis had just been taken to
I'm not so sure what happened after that Everything went so quickly
They put some stitches to my wounds on my sides and they transformed me some blood I rested for two days at the hospital They didn't let me see her They wouldn't even tell me how Quistis was doing
I was afraid The doctors and nurses wouldn't give me any information about her What if they were hiding something from me? What if she was dead?
These questions haunted me I couldn't take it anymore so one night I sneaked away from my room and I went to see her
The room 25 Yes, that was the number of her room
Carefully, I slipped the door open I could feel my hands shaking and my breath stopping when I landed my eyes to this room's only bed And there, I found her resting body She was like a sleeping beauty
I also saw someone else there Sitting there on a chair next to her bed It was Squall, which surprised me a little
Why wasn't he with Rinoa?
I could almost see his confused face over this darkness, but I didn't care about it. I walked to the other side of this bed and the whole time I kept my eyes on her
What are you doing here, Seifer? Shouldn't you be resting He asked with a whispering tone of voice
He didn't want to wake her up, and I understood him She needed all the rest she could have
How is she? I asked, passing his comment
She is still a little feverish, but the doctors said she is going to be alright I could feel his eyes on me, studying my expressions when I looked her face Her face had the same look of plain peace than before
Seifer Her form twisted on the bed when she kept on murmuring my name under her difficult breathing.
I'm here, Quistis I'm right here I grasped her tiny hand inside my own larger one and I hoped from the bottom of my heart that she could hear me Right here, Quistis Right here And then, she silenced up Now she was still again
I was silent for a while too She was sweating and her skin felt so hot She was almost boiling up
She has called your name every twenty minutes He raised his gaze to me and I could see something from his eyes But I was too ignorant then to understand what it was
I once again looked down to her She was going to be all right, now I was definite about it.
I looked her face when I thought about my feelings I love her even more than I had ever thought to be possible
Yes I love her But still I wasn't sure what to do next.
My thoughts wandered to the things she and me had gotten through, and I understood that the path behind us was difficult and very long
My thoughts were so messed up I knew that staying here on her side would be the right thing to do, but still my mind told me to go away
I took a deep breath when I made my decision I was being a coward by doing this to her, but I had already made my mind up I had to go away for a while Somewhere where I could think more clearly Just for few days I would meet her soon again
I leaned slowly towards her face My lips shivered slightly when I gave her a soft kiss to the corner of her rosy mouth I kept my lips over hers for few seconds before I was able to broke the gentle kiss And when I retreated, I whispered my goodbyes to her
Take care, Quistis
I kept my gaze on her for second longer before I walked away. Squall's eyes followed my back, but he didn't say anything
When I was away, walking through this corridor that led away from this hellhole, I heard someone walking after me
It was Squall I didn't need to turn towards him when I already knew that it was he
Seifer, you can't go away I stopped with my steps when he said that. This time I turned to face him
Much to my surprise, he had a look of sadness hovering on his expressions.
You're not fully recovered yet And what about Quistis? You can't leave her like this
I looked down to the floor His words had much sense on them, but I had to go away And I had to do it now.
There's so much going on my mind right now, Squall I have to go But I'm not leaving her I met his gaze and I could hear my tone of voice getting more serious on the end of my sentence.
He tried to interrupt me, but I didn't allow him.
I just can't bear to see her like this You understand, right?
After asking my question, he silenced up I saw his expressions getting somehow different
Before, he had looked like himself Silent and somehow cold... But now I recognized an incredible sadness from his eyes
I tried to forget the pain I could see from him, and I walked away I left this hospital and I sneaked away into the darkness of the silent night
And week after that, I heard the heartbreaking news
Rinoa was dead
So that was the reason why Squall had seemed so sad I had seen that something was wrong with him It was almost like he had pleaded someone to hear his suffering But still I had closed my eyes from his pain
And now
I felt horrible
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