Author's note: Yes, finally an update, guys! Sorry for the little wait, but there were just too many things going on my life at the same time (playing Chrono Trigger and Final Fantasy X, that is) so I had to put this story aside But now I'm back again! (Meaning that I've completed both of those gamesHeh!)

Hope you enjoy this little chapter, I'm coming back soon and then I will update with the final chapter!!!!

Shared Feelings
Written by Terra Trepe

Chapter 29: Questions

The soft laughs of the children running around on their own backyards, tuned the peaceful surroundings with a joyful tone of happiness and harmony.

Their little footsteps were filled with joy when they ran around the greenery fields, laughing and enjoying this time with their friends and enjoying the life around them. Those little eyes filled with happiness, sparkling with spark of joy that only they seemed to appreciate, proofed that these children knew nothing about the cruelty of the life and of this world they were living on.

Running across the calm fields of their home village, their laughs reached into the nearby living people's hearts. But no matter how loud those laughs were, they started to fade slowly away to the air until you couldn't hear them anymore.

Just miles away from this little village, at the landscape where you couldn't hear any laughter at all, there were big threatening clouds hovering on the cold looking sky. There the wind became rushed when the raindrops fell down to the ground one after another one, and the silent groans of the upcoming storm bewared the people from the soon starting lightning.

Although the weather was one of the kinds that made people search for shelter to themselves, the people standing in this cemetery, their eyes lacking that sparkle of life, forgot their surroundings for this silent moment of serious contemplation.

Listening to the priest doing his sending for the poor woman now resting inside her coffin, the people around this white coffin silenced down and recalled their own memories from her inside their own hearts and souls.

There was shock. There was sadness. But the strongest one of these very painful feelings and thoughts were the despair over the loss of this great woman. Great friend. Great sorceress.

And the greatest undying love

The raining was soft and slow, big raindrops falling down to caress the land of this labyrinth like cemetery. Their tears were unhidden, slowly falling down from their eyes and slowly caressing their faces with salty touches. Their memories were flowing, trying to comfort them that death was one part of life and there was nothing they could do to change that.

But his thoughts were wandering. Trying to get reason out of this, he refused to let the tears overcome him. He needed to know why. Why did this happen? Past these two long lasting weeks, this question had never left his mind alone.

Why?

His gray eyes were misted with desolation as he looked down to the grave ahead of his silent figure, and he kept on wondering, his hands clutched into tight fists when he didn't find any hope left inside himself.

He wouldn't cry If he would cry now, it would mean that he was letting go of her. He didn't want to let go of her There must be a way to stop this This wasn't rightthis was never supposed to happen Not ever, not now.

Why did she die? Why did he let her die like that? Why didn't he stop it from happening? There must have been a way to prevent her death, and he had done nothinghe had just cried.

But this time he wouldn't cry He would do something to make her live again SomethingGod, anything--

Biting his lips with quite effort, Squall felt himself shuttering softly as he looked down to her coffin. The look of her face when she had slowly slipped away from him under that dawn, came back in front of him. Seeing the pale face and the cold lips unmoving, her lips stretched gently up to a weak smile that would never leave his heart in peace, he felt the first tear slipping down, passing his stubborn exterior that refused to cry now.

Slowly, but still too quickly for Squall, they started to land her coffin down to the pit on the ground that was going to serve Rinoa as her last resting place on this cruel world.

His eyes filled with tears upon seeing this heartbreaking sight that made him face the reality. She was goneforever to eternity She is gone She

A trembling sigh made his whole body shiver when he felt the tears coming faster, breaking him up with those salty touches against his face. He tried to gulp his tears down, but soon found out that he wasn't able to shut his feelings that easily. He felt a wave of something close to the burning touch of fire shutter through his body and he let the tears fall He didn't care anymore

His silent whisper wasn't enough to stop this Nothing was enough to stop this pain and confusion he felt just then. She was dead and there was nothing he could do. He had been unable to protect her. He had failed her He had failed her love

This isn't right! Squall looked her white coffin getting engulfed to the deep darkness of her grave and he yell, trying to stop her from leaving him. No! Stop! Quickly he threw himself down to the ground, his knees tolerating the hard fall. The shocked eyes of the people around him, landed down to him when he started to pounce the ground under him over and over again.

Her small voice and face covered up with tears, Selphie took a step towards him, wanting to stop him from doing this. But then another figure appeared close to him. Quistis gasped his name with despair hanging over her voice as she threw herself next to him, not caring about the muddy ground staining her dress up.

Refusing to let Quistis' words give him any comfort at all, Squall continued to look down to Rinoa's grave, feelings his tears become more intense than before. Don't do this to me! Don't leave me, Rinoa He bounced the ground even harder with his fists and he despised himself from this loathing he was carrying on his tired shoulders.

Trying to stop her own gasp of tears from coming, Selphie covered her shivering mouth with her hands. Her green eyes got covered up with new tears again and again, and her clothes and her hair were damp from the rain that started to become harder now. Seeing her unstable condition, Irvine set himself behind her and landed his hands down to her tiny shoulders, which seemed so fragile under his touch.

Zell was standing there beside those two and his eyes never left the sight before Rinoa's grave. Squall was wrecked, never had Zell seen him like that, shoving his feelings, hanging over a glimpse of despair that had no hope in sight.

His eyes burned up with tears when he moved his broken gaze to see the tombstone resting across her grave. Repeating the name written on it, Rinoa Heartilly, Zell clutched his hands into fists and he murmured something under his tear weighted breath, wanting to stop this all, but knowing that it was impossible.

Squall's eyes became possessed with the yearning flame when he reached with his shaking hands down to the white coffin disappearing from his sight. His breaths becoming suffocated, he cried these words at loud, completely forgetting the people around him.

No, Squall Don't do this Please-- Softly landing the palms of her hands to his shoulders, Quistis lowered her head to whisper these words to his ear. His tears becoming harder, he tried once again to stop Rinoa from leaving him But doing that only made him forgot that she had already left him. There was no returning back, there just wasn't

Squall was still facing the ground and he had his eyes shut. He stopped from calling Rinoa's name, when he felt a pair of warm arms trying to take him up to her embrace.

His breaths slowly becoming more even, Squall felt temped to take up the offer of comfort his friend was just now offering to him. The tears still falling down from his shut eyes, he finally reached up into her soft embrace.

Quistis took a small inhale of air when she embraced him back, somehow feeling his pain pulsating from his form close next to her. She could feel his pain She could feel his despair And she wanted to make them disappear, but she knew that it was impossible to do that This pain and suffering would always accompany him No one could make them go away

The rain became harder, the raindrops were sharper than before and they transformed into colder ones when they now touched their faces, accompanying the salty tears with simple droplets of water.

Finally her coffin met up with the end of the grave dug on the ground, but the lost ones were still crying

I couldn't even say goodbye to her-- Squall's lonely whisper reached up only to Quistis' ears, when he leaned his head to her shoulder, crying against her golden locks of hair. Quistis opened her eyes, taking yet another inhale when she felt the first tears making their appearance to her face.

Squall kept on crying, and then he said his last words on that day. And those were the words that had the biggest impact on her Those words would stay with her the longest time I didn't even got a change to tell her that I love her--

Those words echoing inside her mind, her mouth started trembling softly and her tears fell down to her face

Love Such a beautiful feeling, but was it worth of this pain and suffering She was lost with this question

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Author's note: Why is it that always when I start writing a Squinoa chapter it tends to be a sad one? I guess that is one of the mysteries of life ^_^ Please send your review, cause I'm not really sure how I succeed with writing scenes that supposes to be sad ones. Thanks for all of you!