Evanescent
By: Aznstarangel
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, nor do I own the song "My Last Breath." They both belong to their respective creators and writers.
Chapter 1: "My Last Breath"
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Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was
I love you and I'm not afraid
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"HIEI!!! HIEI!!! Oh god..."
I felt the presence of a few people running to my side. My vision had become blurry, but I could make out a faint red mass of hair hovering over me.
"Kurama...?" I cringed at the faintness of my own voice.
This was not supposed to happen. That youkai was not supposed to find any weakness in me, and yet he knew to go after Kurama. The red-haired fox was not his target. No. Even though he fired at Kurama, the youkai was after me. He knew of my weaknesses... my faults. He knew... that I would not let Kurama die. That I would be killed myself first...
"Kurama...." The red mass moved closer to me, and my head was moved to a higher elevation as I registered that Kurama had lifted me up to his lap. His arms wrapped around me in a warm embrace, and he brought his head down to my cheek, nuzzling me and whispering for me to hold on. He then lifted his head up and yelled to Yusuke and Kuwabara to get Yukina here as fast as they could.
"Kurama... I'm n-not afraid an-anymore..." My breathing was hitched.
I saw emerald spots blink in confusion; my mind pictured the confused expression that was on the pale face at this moment. But it was true. I wasn't afraid anymore. I wasn't afraid of my weakness, of my love... It seemed ironic, how I was afraid in life, but not on the verge of death. I had done everything I set out to do, and now I would leave with a sense of accomplishment. I promised myself I would not die without finishing everything I set out to do...
And I still had one last unaccomplished thing...
"I-I l-love you... Ku-Kurama..."
I knew the beautiful leaf green orbs widened as I confessed my pent up feelings that had been inside of me when I first met him. Now I that I knew what those feelings were, I wasn't afraid of them anymore. I'd never be afraid... of anything... anymore.
I took Kurama's hand in mine and I felt his grip tighten, as if trying to keep me from the inevitable. I felt his eyes on me, trying to search for a way to heal my wound. It was useless. The youkai had fired a direct hit at Kurama. My only chance to save him was to block the full attack, thus breaking most of my ribs and causing a deep wound in my stomach. The cracked ribs caused a bit of internal bleeding, as the fractured bones pierced through some of my arteries. My lungs felt as if they were on fire, each breath I took in caused me to flinch at the pain. It wouldn't be too long until...
They wouldn't get Yukina here in time...
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Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
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Kurama eventually gave up on trying to find a solution and he wrapped his arms around me again, careful to avoid my injuries. I heard him whisper tiny prayers to Inari, wishing... hoping that Yukina would get here soon.
Once the prayers stopped, I believed it was then that Kurama registered what I told him and once his mind processed it, he needed to think. He needed to think of an answer... acceptance, or declination.
I was surrounded by silence. There was no response to my confession, neither a recompense of feelings, or a rejection. The kitsune just sat there... holding me...
At first I was afraid he didn't here me, but it wasn't possible. He must have heard me. My voice worked well enough for him to hear me in the small gap between us. He was probably thinking of how to react. Youko's weren't one's to accept love. A night of sexual intercourse, maybe - depending on who offered - but love? I knew from Kurama's past, that he never really committed himself to a person, regardless of the many offers that were placed in front of him. Despite this fact, I told him my feelings, another offer of love from yet another youkai for the infamous Youko Kurama. Now that he merged with the human, Shuuichi Minamino, his curt way of throwing away a confession of love must have changed one way or another.
My thoughts were pushed back when I felt his forelocks brush my face and he whispered into my ear:
"I love you too..."
My eyes widened. Despite the fact that my vision was slowly fading at the loss of blood, I squinted my eyes, trying to get a clearer focus on his face. Was he being sincere? I wish I could see him better; his eyes always told me everything I needed to know. Green orbs stared back at my narrowed red ones, trying to tell me that his words were true. My arm lifted up, trying to touch his well-formed face, but stopped midway as pain shot up though it, causing it to fall back down to my side. I wish I could hold him, like he was holding me. Could he feel my longing? Could he feel my pain? Could he feel me...
...at all...?
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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I inhaled again, trying to last on one breath as long as I could before taking another. Each one was precious to me as I lay in my fox's arms.
Yes, he was now my fox. In these last moments, I was glad I told him, I was glad I was with him.
He was always on my mind and he never faded away from it, not even now. Kurama... do you know how much I think of you? Do you know how much I'd do for you?
Apparently, I had just proven the ultimate sacrifice I would make for him...
I chuckled inwardly at my foolishness. I was dying... and if I had told him sooner, I'd have more that a few minutes to be with him.
But these few minutes would mean more to me than... anything...
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I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (you will find me)
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~*Flashback*~
"Hiei! Come on Hiei! It's fun!!"
Kurama's red hair fanned out behind him as he ran out into the newly fallen snow. Winter was definitely not one of my favorite seasons. It was cold - not that I felt it - and wet. It reminded me too much of frozen water... ice... and my childhood. The day I was thrown off the floating island for being an omen to the koorime was like this day, newly fallen snow carpeting the ground, and cold... freezing...
A wet force on my back snapped my out of my reverie. I turned to see a giggling kitsune gather another bunch of snow in his hands. He threw it straight at me, and I, not expecting the ball of white to come flying at me at lightning speed, got hit in the face... quite hard at that...
"KURAMA!!!!"
~*End Flashback*~
I looked up to see the one that had once caused me such trouble, now on the verge of tears. One small drop escaped the edge of his eyelid, sliding down his cheek, making a trail of water down the side of his face. I reached up again, this time ignoring the sharp feeling that shot up my arm, and brushed the tear away. He looked so fragile... his delicate figure and pale skin... one of the most beautiful creatures in the world.
"Y-you will f-find me someday... L-look for m-me... up in the t-trees... I'll al-always be with y-you."
More tears slid down his face. I had not the strength to brush them away this time...
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I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
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"Hiei... don't say things like that... Don't..." Kurama pleaded.
His tears trailed down his face and fell onto my lips. I wanted to comfort him so much, but I felt too drained of youki and blood to do anything. A searing pain shot throughout my body again as I inhaled. I cried out this time, not able to suppress the sound from coming out of my mouth.
Kurama gasped as I yelled and caressed my cheek, trying to soothe me, telling me to hold on and that Yusuke and Kuwabara would get Yukina here soon. I knew it wasn't going to happen. When they got here, it would be too late.
More tears fell from Kurama's face. I licked my lips, tasting the salty flavor of his tears. I knew that he was crying because he knew I was right. Yusuke and Kuwabara would not get Yukina here on time.
I would hold on as long as I could, for him... for Kurama. These precious moments with him would be worth all my pain and suffering, as long as I was in his arms when I left for the Reikai.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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I took in another ragged breath, trying not to scream in pain. My own resistance had grown thin, but the hurt look in Kurama eyes when he heard me scream... it made my will to survive increase more.
I held in the breath longer, trying not to breathe unless I had to. My mind was swimming with old memories that I forced upon myself. Memories of Kurama... of when he would tease me, when he would laugh at me for not knowing his ningen customs, or when he took care of me when I used the Kokuryuuha. I was always thinking of him, his kindness, his beauty, and now... his love...
I blinked once and just that small movement sent needles of pain throughout my body. Apparently the damned youkai had affected all of my nerve cells, causing just the slightest movement of one to trigger pain through the others. It was too much. My resolve was weakening, and I no longer had the strength, nor the ability to support myself.
I was counting on my long breaths now, each inhalation bringing me closer to the invisible light that drew me to the spirit world. The longer I held the air inside my body, the longer I could be with Kurama, and the longer I could stay in his arms. I would stay with him as long as I possibly could.
Another breath.... The light drew me closer...
No matter how long I tried to delay it, the inevitable was coming... I felt it coming...
...as did Kurama...
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Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
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"No... Hiei no..." Kurama's voice held fear and sadness all at once.
He shut his eyes, trying to block out the present... and the future... More tears slid down his face from the pressure of his eyelids as he started to mummer to himself. I watched as he whispered, trying to tell his sub-consciousness that this was all a dream.
"That's right, this is a dream. I'm dreaming," he told himself, eyes still closed. "Please Inari, let this be a dream..."
My hand rose up again, and I cursed internally as another jolting pain ran up my arm.
"K-Kurama..." His eyes opened at the sound of my voice. His expression seemed to fall as he realized that this wasn't a dream. "K-Kurama... yo- you know t-this isn't a dr-dream. You k-know what's going to ha-happen."
He held me tighter, but not enough to cause me pain. "That won't happen. I won't let it..." His voice rose at the second sentence. I felt anger radiating from him. Who was he angry at? Was it me? Did I do something to make him unhappy? No... it couldn't be... The anger wasn't directed at me. It seemed to just be pent up inside him, trying to be released.
"Kur-Kurama... don't do th-this..." The kitsune's eyes widened as I took in another breath, waiting a few moments before I spoke again. "Kurama... never b-be afraid to s-say goodbye. It wo-won't be fo-forever... I'll al- always watch over y-you..."
Kurama started to shed tears again, but his time, he seemed a little more composed.
"A-always," I said again.
He nodded.
"Always."
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Say goodnight, don't be afraid
Calling me, holding me, as you fade to black
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I could feel it... the invisible light pulling on my spirit even harder than before. It was time...
"K-Kurama... don't be a-afraid..."
He nodded and knew that I would be going soon. I could no longer feel the pain as I wiped his last tear away. He took hole of my hand and lifted my head up carefully.
"I'm not afraid... and I'll always love you..." he whispered into my ear.
He then brought his lips to mine and they met in a soft kiss. I leaned into it, wanting more... knowing it would be my first... and my last...
Kurama seemed to hear my thoughts and held me closer, deepening the kiss. I felt dizzy and lightheaded, but that was expected. I wouldn't give this up for anything... not even life itself. We broke apart and I saw his face, a pale color flushed with pink. His lips were full and moist from the kiss and his eyes seemed to glow.
That was the last thing I saw... my beautiful fox... before everything faded and all I saw...
...was darkness...
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(Say goodnight) Holding my last breath
(Don't be afraid) Safe inside myself
(Holding me) Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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"Hiei..." Kurama whispered, but he knew... he felt it in the kiss.
"Hiei..."
Even if he did know... I didn't think he prepared himself enough for this. My vision was still clouded, even in spirit form, though after I blinked once I knew why...
Moist tears fell from my transparent body, dropping down to the ground in an unseen form, only to fall even farther than the grass and dirt itself.
I would never forget him... and I would always think of him.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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My last breath was taken from me, given to the one I loved... as a part of me that would always stay with him.
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Holding my last breath...
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Always...
To Be Continued...
By: Aznstarangel
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, nor do I own the song "My Last Breath." They both belong to their respective creators and writers.
Chapter 1: "My Last Breath"
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Hold on to me love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was
I love you and I'm not afraid
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"HIEI!!! HIEI!!! Oh god..."
I felt the presence of a few people running to my side. My vision had become blurry, but I could make out a faint red mass of hair hovering over me.
"Kurama...?" I cringed at the faintness of my own voice.
This was not supposed to happen. That youkai was not supposed to find any weakness in me, and yet he knew to go after Kurama. The red-haired fox was not his target. No. Even though he fired at Kurama, the youkai was after me. He knew of my weaknesses... my faults. He knew... that I would not let Kurama die. That I would be killed myself first...
"Kurama...." The red mass moved closer to me, and my head was moved to a higher elevation as I registered that Kurama had lifted me up to his lap. His arms wrapped around me in a warm embrace, and he brought his head down to my cheek, nuzzling me and whispering for me to hold on. He then lifted his head up and yelled to Yusuke and Kuwabara to get Yukina here as fast as they could.
"Kurama... I'm n-not afraid an-anymore..." My breathing was hitched.
I saw emerald spots blink in confusion; my mind pictured the confused expression that was on the pale face at this moment. But it was true. I wasn't afraid anymore. I wasn't afraid of my weakness, of my love... It seemed ironic, how I was afraid in life, but not on the verge of death. I had done everything I set out to do, and now I would leave with a sense of accomplishment. I promised myself I would not die without finishing everything I set out to do...
And I still had one last unaccomplished thing...
"I-I l-love you... Ku-Kurama..."
I knew the beautiful leaf green orbs widened as I confessed my pent up feelings that had been inside of me when I first met him. Now I that I knew what those feelings were, I wasn't afraid of them anymore. I'd never be afraid... of anything... anymore.
I took Kurama's hand in mine and I felt his grip tighten, as if trying to keep me from the inevitable. I felt his eyes on me, trying to search for a way to heal my wound. It was useless. The youkai had fired a direct hit at Kurama. My only chance to save him was to block the full attack, thus breaking most of my ribs and causing a deep wound in my stomach. The cracked ribs caused a bit of internal bleeding, as the fractured bones pierced through some of my arteries. My lungs felt as if they were on fire, each breath I took in caused me to flinch at the pain. It wouldn't be too long until...
They wouldn't get Yukina here in time...
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Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
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Kurama eventually gave up on trying to find a solution and he wrapped his arms around me again, careful to avoid my injuries. I heard him whisper tiny prayers to Inari, wishing... hoping that Yukina would get here soon.
Once the prayers stopped, I believed it was then that Kurama registered what I told him and once his mind processed it, he needed to think. He needed to think of an answer... acceptance, or declination.
I was surrounded by silence. There was no response to my confession, neither a recompense of feelings, or a rejection. The kitsune just sat there... holding me...
At first I was afraid he didn't here me, but it wasn't possible. He must have heard me. My voice worked well enough for him to hear me in the small gap between us. He was probably thinking of how to react. Youko's weren't one's to accept love. A night of sexual intercourse, maybe - depending on who offered - but love? I knew from Kurama's past, that he never really committed himself to a person, regardless of the many offers that were placed in front of him. Despite this fact, I told him my feelings, another offer of love from yet another youkai for the infamous Youko Kurama. Now that he merged with the human, Shuuichi Minamino, his curt way of throwing away a confession of love must have changed one way or another.
My thoughts were pushed back when I felt his forelocks brush my face and he whispered into my ear:
"I love you too..."
My eyes widened. Despite the fact that my vision was slowly fading at the loss of blood, I squinted my eyes, trying to get a clearer focus on his face. Was he being sincere? I wish I could see him better; his eyes always told me everything I needed to know. Green orbs stared back at my narrowed red ones, trying to tell me that his words were true. My arm lifted up, trying to touch his well-formed face, but stopped midway as pain shot up though it, causing it to fall back down to my side. I wish I could hold him, like he was holding me. Could he feel my longing? Could he feel my pain? Could he feel me...
...at all...?
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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I inhaled again, trying to last on one breath as long as I could before taking another. Each one was precious to me as I lay in my fox's arms.
Yes, he was now my fox. In these last moments, I was glad I told him, I was glad I was with him.
He was always on my mind and he never faded away from it, not even now. Kurama... do you know how much I think of you? Do you know how much I'd do for you?
Apparently, I had just proven the ultimate sacrifice I would make for him...
I chuckled inwardly at my foolishness. I was dying... and if I had told him sooner, I'd have more that a few minutes to be with him.
But these few minutes would mean more to me than... anything...
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I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (you will find me)
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~*Flashback*~
"Hiei! Come on Hiei! It's fun!!"
Kurama's red hair fanned out behind him as he ran out into the newly fallen snow. Winter was definitely not one of my favorite seasons. It was cold - not that I felt it - and wet. It reminded me too much of frozen water... ice... and my childhood. The day I was thrown off the floating island for being an omen to the koorime was like this day, newly fallen snow carpeting the ground, and cold... freezing...
A wet force on my back snapped my out of my reverie. I turned to see a giggling kitsune gather another bunch of snow in his hands. He threw it straight at me, and I, not expecting the ball of white to come flying at me at lightning speed, got hit in the face... quite hard at that...
"KURAMA!!!!"
~*End Flashback*~
I looked up to see the one that had once caused me such trouble, now on the verge of tears. One small drop escaped the edge of his eyelid, sliding down his cheek, making a trail of water down the side of his face. I reached up again, this time ignoring the sharp feeling that shot up my arm, and brushed the tear away. He looked so fragile... his delicate figure and pale skin... one of the most beautiful creatures in the world.
"Y-you will f-find me someday... L-look for m-me... up in the t-trees... I'll al-always be with y-you."
More tears slid down his face. I had not the strength to brush them away this time...
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I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
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"Hiei... don't say things like that... Don't..." Kurama pleaded.
His tears trailed down his face and fell onto my lips. I wanted to comfort him so much, but I felt too drained of youki and blood to do anything. A searing pain shot throughout my body again as I inhaled. I cried out this time, not able to suppress the sound from coming out of my mouth.
Kurama gasped as I yelled and caressed my cheek, trying to soothe me, telling me to hold on and that Yusuke and Kuwabara would get Yukina here soon. I knew it wasn't going to happen. When they got here, it would be too late.
More tears fell from Kurama's face. I licked my lips, tasting the salty flavor of his tears. I knew that he was crying because he knew I was right. Yusuke and Kuwabara would not get Yukina here on time.
I would hold on as long as I could, for him... for Kurama. These precious moments with him would be worth all my pain and suffering, as long as I was in his arms when I left for the Reikai.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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I took in another ragged breath, trying not to scream in pain. My own resistance had grown thin, but the hurt look in Kurama eyes when he heard me scream... it made my will to survive increase more.
I held in the breath longer, trying not to breathe unless I had to. My mind was swimming with old memories that I forced upon myself. Memories of Kurama... of when he would tease me, when he would laugh at me for not knowing his ningen customs, or when he took care of me when I used the Kokuryuuha. I was always thinking of him, his kindness, his beauty, and now... his love...
I blinked once and just that small movement sent needles of pain throughout my body. Apparently the damned youkai had affected all of my nerve cells, causing just the slightest movement of one to trigger pain through the others. It was too much. My resolve was weakening, and I no longer had the strength, nor the ability to support myself.
I was counting on my long breaths now, each inhalation bringing me closer to the invisible light that drew me to the spirit world. The longer I held the air inside my body, the longer I could be with Kurama, and the longer I could stay in his arms. I would stay with him as long as I possibly could.
Another breath.... The light drew me closer...
No matter how long I tried to delay it, the inevitable was coming... I felt it coming...
...as did Kurama...
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Closing your eyes to disappear
You pray your dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth
No one's there
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"No... Hiei no..." Kurama's voice held fear and sadness all at once.
He shut his eyes, trying to block out the present... and the future... More tears slid down his face from the pressure of his eyelids as he started to mummer to himself. I watched as he whispered, trying to tell his sub-consciousness that this was all a dream.
"That's right, this is a dream. I'm dreaming," he told himself, eyes still closed. "Please Inari, let this be a dream..."
My hand rose up again, and I cursed internally as another jolting pain ran up my arm.
"K-Kurama..." His eyes opened at the sound of my voice. His expression seemed to fall as he realized that this wasn't a dream. "K-Kurama... yo- you know t-this isn't a dr-dream. You k-know what's going to ha-happen."
He held me tighter, but not enough to cause me pain. "That won't happen. I won't let it..." His voice rose at the second sentence. I felt anger radiating from him. Who was he angry at? Was it me? Did I do something to make him unhappy? No... it couldn't be... The anger wasn't directed at me. It seemed to just be pent up inside him, trying to be released.
"Kur-Kurama... don't do th-this..." The kitsune's eyes widened as I took in another breath, waiting a few moments before I spoke again. "Kurama... never b-be afraid to s-say goodbye. It wo-won't be fo-forever... I'll al- always watch over y-you..."
Kurama started to shed tears again, but his time, he seemed a little more composed.
"A-always," I said again.
He nodded.
"Always."
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Say goodnight, don't be afraid
Calling me, holding me, as you fade to black
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I could feel it... the invisible light pulling on my spirit even harder than before. It was time...
"K-Kurama... don't be a-afraid..."
He nodded and knew that I would be going soon. I could no longer feel the pain as I wiped his last tear away. He took hole of my hand and lifted my head up carefully.
"I'm not afraid... and I'll always love you..." he whispered into my ear.
He then brought his lips to mine and they met in a soft kiss. I leaned into it, wanting more... knowing it would be my first... and my last...
Kurama seemed to hear my thoughts and held me closer, deepening the kiss. I felt dizzy and lightheaded, but that was expected. I wouldn't give this up for anything... not even life itself. We broke apart and I saw his face, a pale color flushed with pink. His lips were full and moist from the kiss and his eyes seemed to glow.
That was the last thing I saw... my beautiful fox... before everything faded and all I saw...
...was darkness...
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(Say goodnight) Holding my last breath
(Don't be afraid) Safe inside myself
(Holding me) Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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"Hiei..." Kurama whispered, but he knew... he felt it in the kiss.
"Hiei..."
Even if he did know... I didn't think he prepared himself enough for this. My vision was still clouded, even in spirit form, though after I blinked once I knew why...
Moist tears fell from my transparent body, dropping down to the ground in an unseen form, only to fall even farther than the grass and dirt itself.
I would never forget him... and I would always think of him.
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Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you?
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
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My last breath was taken from me, given to the one I loved... as a part of me that would always stay with him.
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Holding my last breath...
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Always...
To Be Continued...