Evanescent
By Aznstarangel
A/N: Hello everyone!! Seeing as that you're here, I expect that you want to read this chapter. Well... if you're here just because you saw my name and you love me so much that you wanted to check it out (yeah right...), this is more of an extra chapter. You don't need to read this at all. The fic with the two parts can stand alone by itself, but the main reason I wrote this is because of the person mentioned in the lines below.
Thanks and Dedications: Special thanks to all my reviewers; I love you all (No time for review responses, SORRY)!!!!! And extra special thanks to Lindsay-san (Kyrene), for inspiring this chapter, which I had no intention of writing until she asked. This one's for you Linds!!
Oh yea! If anyone wants the song "Away From Me," you can just e-mail me. I know it's not on the "Fallen" CD, so if you want it just send me an e- mail with the subject of "song request" at Animefan720@aol.com and I'll send it to you as soon as I'm able to.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, nor do I own the song "Away From Me." They both belong to their respective creators and writers.
Text Guide:
"blah" = speech
'blah' = thoughts
*blah* = bold
//blah// or \\blah\\ = italics (you'll get it when you read the story)
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Chapter 3: Away From Me
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I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I
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"ANOTHER ASSIGNMENT?!"
Yusuke, Kuwabara and I were standing once again in Koenma's palace in the Reikai, another assignment seen in our near future. We had tried to avoid assignments after loosing Hiei, and Koenma had made sure that we were not called on unless it was absolutely necessary. I suppose they all noticed that after Hiei died, I hadn't been the same, which was probably why we avoided the missions as much as possible. But recently, we had been called in a lot; a series of attacks had been made by different youkai groups and each time, the new Reikai Tantei had not been able to come back successful.
"I'm sorry Yusuke, but the fact is that no one else has been able to stop this one particular group of demons that is rather powerful and is now taking over most of the parts of the Makai. At the rate that they're increasing, I would say that the group would have taken control of the whole Makai in about..." Koenma thought for a while. "... three days."
"THREE DAYS?!"
Yusuke's outbursts were not unusual, and neither was his argumentative spirit, allowing me to zone out and think for a few minutes before they would ask me what I thought was best.
"Yusuke, I know that you did not want to have many missions - "
"To hell with *many* missions, I didn't want to have *ANY* missions."
Perhaps I had a few hours instead...
It was for the better I suppose. It meant that I had more time to think, as long as I looked like I was half interested. My mind wandered to the other thoughts in my head that lingered there, certain matters still waiting for me to address them.
Despite the many countless times that I tried to forget, I just couldn't. Even after Hiei's spirit left, I felt devoid of any sort of happy emotion, and filled with the unmistakable pain of guilt.
//Still?//
Yes, still... It would never release me from its cold grasp until my spirit died, being pulled down with the already fallen part of my heart.
I had been able to rebuild my mask, the fake smile and false happiness that I put on every morning stronger than ever. I could act totally normal around anyone and everyone I knew. But inside... I was dying.
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I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
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Waking up one day, I looked in the mirror and froze at the image I saw. A blank face stared back at me, the shadows around my still dark room creating a sinister look to my usually "innocent" (or so everyone thought) face. My eyes a dull green instead of the vibrant emerald color they were before; my hair tangled and unkempt from a night of restless tossing and turning.
I hated this... I hated this life, the way I was living, and the stupid way I had to hide inside myself in order to get away from it all. I couldn't go to anyone for help. No one would understand. This was my own journey in my own world that I created with my fake smiles and deceptive cheerfulness.
I guess it's my fault for being such a good liar.
//'Hiei...'//
//'I had no idea that when you left, you'd take a part of me with you.'//
//My sanity.//
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Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
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Trudging down the steps to my school I walked slowly, no longer avoiding my personal fan club as I would have before.
My mask stayed up, bearing all the swoons and stares of the brainless high school girls, but my mind was elsewhere. Drawn into the shadows of my own world, my mind wandered, contemplating the nature of things and the way things happened. Philosophical aren't I? Then again there was nothing philosophical about the way I dwelled on the past for so long, and that now, the past has come back and trapped me in a world in which there is no way to win.
Hiei died... I moved on...
//Didn't I?//
No... I didn't.
Damn it. DAMN IT ALL! What the hell did I do to keep myself in this realm of darkness?!
//This is no realm... this is my heart... this is the way I feel about myself and about love.//
It's all dark. Love brings nothing but sadness and I knew that. I knew that, and I let my stupid human feelings take over. I would never have let this happen if I were still a Youko... none of this would have happened.
I drew my mind out of the dark realm for a fractional second and found that my body had made its way down two blocks with the fan girls still following me, each one with the dopey expression of false love in their eyes. If they knew what I really was, would they still want me to love them?
I highly doubt it.
And yet I put up with it all, no longer trying to escape their calls and persistent nagging. I didn't even really care anymore, about anything. I kept my grades consistently high, just to keep appearances up, but none of the human knowledge actually breached my mind, nothing was contained in my head, and I would remember nothing as soon as the topic was over. I spent most of my time inside myself, thinking and drowning in my thoughts. It seems that I've mastered the technique of the mind being separate from the body. I could think of anything, while my body could be doing the total opposite.
It's given me time to reflect on the things that have happened after Hiei's moving on. I went on with my life, but I lost the will to actually pay attention. It was as if I was nothing but a machine that carried on human activities so easily that no one would notice that it wasn't human. And technically I wasn't human, but being that I stayed in the human world, had a human mother, and looked like a human (most of the time) I suppose I've gotten used to being called 'a human.'
And I hate it...
I've become typical, ordinary, common... no longer strong, powerful and with supernatural powers.
I despise myself; what I've become...
Weak.
Frail.
Vulnerable.
Normal...
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I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
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There was nothing left for me in the world. Mother had found her support in her new husband, and I had kept my legacy long enough in this world so that at least everyone in my high school would've heard my name at least once. I suppose that once mother found what she needed, someone else to love and cares for, she didn't need me anymore. So why did I stay so much longer after she and Kazuya were engaged and then married? If it wasn't for them, then who was it for?
It was for Hiei.
Despite his constant requests to go with him to the Makai, I had refused Hiei's proposal of returning to the demon world, saying that my mother needed me. So why did I stay after she had no longer required my existence in her life?
Because I wanted to be with Hiei...
It sounds odd doesn't it? Why would I refuse Hiei's request to return to the Makai with him to be with him? Simple. Being that when we stayed in the Ningenkai, Hiei and I were considered Reikai Tantei, allowing Hiei an excuse to draw away from Mukuro's little errands and to focus on the missions that Koenma gave us. In Makai, Mukuro would be able to call on Hiei as much as her heart desired, leaving me with nothing but an empty bed and cold sheets.
Aren't I the deceptive one?
Allowing Koenma's little assignments and missions to keep me in perpetual contact with the fire demon saved me time and confrontation with Mukuro. I had no desire to argue with her about who got to keep Hiei on what days. Only pathetic couples that divorced did that with their children, and I was not going to make Hiei something I dragged around every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.
I created this... this world of lies, of my ideal human statistics. My youko nature caused me to become what I am, what I've been drowning in for over seventeen years. I kept up the façade long enough to set myself into an inescapable role of perfection and nothing I did would save me.
Hiei...
Take me away...
Bring me to you...
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Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
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I drew out of my realm to find that Yusuke had just given up on arguing with Koenma. I could've told him that there was no point in sparring verbally with the lord of the dead, but then again, Yusuke himself is as stubborn as a mule, and it's not like he would've listened to me anyway.
I just compared Yusuke to a long-eared animal... I can just see the relation.
"The Ningenkai is depending on you. Do try to return successful. This world is in complete chaos already and many people are being diagnosed with insanity for claiming that they've seen monsters in the park. What's worse, the demons have begun attacking. A nearby school burst into flames a few hours ago and the ferry girls are working as hard as possible to retain all the souls that were released from the human bodies." Koenma's usual blabbering of information and how important this mission was had become more desperate, as if we did fail, the world would be destroyed and sent into the rule of then demons.
This world was dying, as was my enthusiasm for life.
Trying to prevent demons from destroying the world...
What a heroic way to die...
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I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you...
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"KURAMA!!!!!"
I saw it coming; the reflected light of the sloppily handled blade was easy to spot from the corner of my eye. But being that my attention was "focused" on four other demons attacking, the one from behind was of no concern to me.
My body had adjusted to this type of fighting, random motions and pointless swinging of my Rose Whip that happened to hit its target every time. There was nothing to concentrate on, nothing to seriously "focus" on, and so I withdrew into myself again, trusting my body would handle most of the fight without my mind.
I wonder if I called to Hiei from the Ningenkai, would he hear me from Reikai? Most likely not. But perhaps if I sent a telepathic message through him and infused some of my Reiki into it the faintest inkling of a message would reach him.
In my concentration of relaying a message to Hiei, I had not felt the twinge of my body, nor had I seen the crimson liquid staining my white tunic.
//Hiei...//
//Hiei can you here me?//
A faint spark pricked at my mind, until I saw a bright light. And in the center of the light it was dark, and the darkness was increasing, as if something was coming closer to me. I squinted my eyes as the light got closer, too scintillating for my human sight to bear.
\\Kurama?\\
The light called out to me, questioning as if disbelieving that I was the one that called out to it. And then I saw the face of the shining creature, crimson eyes, dark hair and a while starburst.
//Hiei...!//
\\How is this possible? Unless...\\
\\No...\\
Confusion filled his voice, until a revelation came to him, and then a feeling of dread.
//What Hiei? What's going on?//
\\Kurama you're...\\
"KURAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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I've woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows on my own
I'm longing to be lost in you...
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I drew back into my physical form, feeling my spirit fade, and barely able to make out my surroundings. My instincts told me that I was lying on the ground and I felt the presence of people around me, but I wasn't sure what exactly was going on.
"Oh god..." I heard Yusuke's voice whisper. "What am I supposed to tell Koenma? That we lost another member of our team?"
And then I faded back into the darkness...
Once again I awoke to strange surroundings, and I was still unable to comprehend what I had heard, and I still had no idea where I was.
As I got up from my lying position on the ground I looked around at what seemed to be a forest of some sort. It was beautiful to say the least, but how did I get here? And where is this place?
And what did Yusuke mean?
//Lost another member? Did Kuwabara die?//
\\Hn... Baka... You died!!\\
I turned around to see Hiei standing in a small clearing in the forest. He smiled his awkward half smirk half smile at me and I walked over to him, talking in the information I had just received with each step.
I died...
I'm dead... and now it's all over.
I extended my arms to embrace my fire demon. I would be with him forever in this land of our fantasies, in this place where not even death is a threat. There would be no more pain, and no more lying.
No more lies...
No more shadows...
I've escaped...
...And gotten away...
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Away from me...
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~*OWARI (for real ^^ )*~
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A/N: Okay... I really hate the ending part to this, but it's what some people wanted: a generally happy ending where Kurama dies and joins Hiei in their own little heaven like place. This was totally rushed and I wish I could do better, but being me... I can't...
Hope you enjoyed at least a little bit of it.
Until my next fic!
luvvies to you all,
~*aznstarangel*~
By Aznstarangel
A/N: Hello everyone!! Seeing as that you're here, I expect that you want to read this chapter. Well... if you're here just because you saw my name and you love me so much that you wanted to check it out (yeah right...), this is more of an extra chapter. You don't need to read this at all. The fic with the two parts can stand alone by itself, but the main reason I wrote this is because of the person mentioned in the lines below.
Thanks and Dedications: Special thanks to all my reviewers; I love you all (No time for review responses, SORRY)!!!!! And extra special thanks to Lindsay-san (Kyrene), for inspiring this chapter, which I had no intention of writing until she asked. This one's for you Linds!!
Oh yea! If anyone wants the song "Away From Me," you can just e-mail me. I know it's not on the "Fallen" CD, so if you want it just send me an e- mail with the subject of "song request" at Animefan720@aol.com and I'll send it to you as soon as I'm able to.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho, nor do I own the song "Away From Me." They both belong to their respective creators and writers.
Text Guide:
"blah" = speech
'blah' = thoughts
*blah* = bold
//blah// or \\blah\\ = italics (you'll get it when you read the story)
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Chapter 3: Away From Me
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I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I
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"ANOTHER ASSIGNMENT?!"
Yusuke, Kuwabara and I were standing once again in Koenma's palace in the Reikai, another assignment seen in our near future. We had tried to avoid assignments after loosing Hiei, and Koenma had made sure that we were not called on unless it was absolutely necessary. I suppose they all noticed that after Hiei died, I hadn't been the same, which was probably why we avoided the missions as much as possible. But recently, we had been called in a lot; a series of attacks had been made by different youkai groups and each time, the new Reikai Tantei had not been able to come back successful.
"I'm sorry Yusuke, but the fact is that no one else has been able to stop this one particular group of demons that is rather powerful and is now taking over most of the parts of the Makai. At the rate that they're increasing, I would say that the group would have taken control of the whole Makai in about..." Koenma thought for a while. "... three days."
"THREE DAYS?!"
Yusuke's outbursts were not unusual, and neither was his argumentative spirit, allowing me to zone out and think for a few minutes before they would ask me what I thought was best.
"Yusuke, I know that you did not want to have many missions - "
"To hell with *many* missions, I didn't want to have *ANY* missions."
Perhaps I had a few hours instead...
It was for the better I suppose. It meant that I had more time to think, as long as I looked like I was half interested. My mind wandered to the other thoughts in my head that lingered there, certain matters still waiting for me to address them.
Despite the many countless times that I tried to forget, I just couldn't. Even after Hiei's spirit left, I felt devoid of any sort of happy emotion, and filled with the unmistakable pain of guilt.
//Still?//
Yes, still... It would never release me from its cold grasp until my spirit died, being pulled down with the already fallen part of my heart.
I had been able to rebuild my mask, the fake smile and false happiness that I put on every morning stronger than ever. I could act totally normal around anyone and everyone I knew. But inside... I was dying.
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I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
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Waking up one day, I looked in the mirror and froze at the image I saw. A blank face stared back at me, the shadows around my still dark room creating a sinister look to my usually "innocent" (or so everyone thought) face. My eyes a dull green instead of the vibrant emerald color they were before; my hair tangled and unkempt from a night of restless tossing and turning.
I hated this... I hated this life, the way I was living, and the stupid way I had to hide inside myself in order to get away from it all. I couldn't go to anyone for help. No one would understand. This was my own journey in my own world that I created with my fake smiles and deceptive cheerfulness.
I guess it's my fault for being such a good liar.
//'Hiei...'//
//'I had no idea that when you left, you'd take a part of me with you.'//
//My sanity.//
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Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become
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Trudging down the steps to my school I walked slowly, no longer avoiding my personal fan club as I would have before.
My mask stayed up, bearing all the swoons and stares of the brainless high school girls, but my mind was elsewhere. Drawn into the shadows of my own world, my mind wandered, contemplating the nature of things and the way things happened. Philosophical aren't I? Then again there was nothing philosophical about the way I dwelled on the past for so long, and that now, the past has come back and trapped me in a world in which there is no way to win.
Hiei died... I moved on...
//Didn't I?//
No... I didn't.
Damn it. DAMN IT ALL! What the hell did I do to keep myself in this realm of darkness?!
//This is no realm... this is my heart... this is the way I feel about myself and about love.//
It's all dark. Love brings nothing but sadness and I knew that. I knew that, and I let my stupid human feelings take over. I would never have let this happen if I were still a Youko... none of this would have happened.
I drew my mind out of the dark realm for a fractional second and found that my body had made its way down two blocks with the fan girls still following me, each one with the dopey expression of false love in their eyes. If they knew what I really was, would they still want me to love them?
I highly doubt it.
And yet I put up with it all, no longer trying to escape their calls and persistent nagging. I didn't even really care anymore, about anything. I kept my grades consistently high, just to keep appearances up, but none of the human knowledge actually breached my mind, nothing was contained in my head, and I would remember nothing as soon as the topic was over. I spent most of my time inside myself, thinking and drowning in my thoughts. It seems that I've mastered the technique of the mind being separate from the body. I could think of anything, while my body could be doing the total opposite.
It's given me time to reflect on the things that have happened after Hiei's moving on. I went on with my life, but I lost the will to actually pay attention. It was as if I was nothing but a machine that carried on human activities so easily that no one would notice that it wasn't human. And technically I wasn't human, but being that I stayed in the human world, had a human mother, and looked like a human (most of the time) I suppose I've gotten used to being called 'a human.'
And I hate it...
I've become typical, ordinary, common... no longer strong, powerful and with supernatural powers.
I despise myself; what I've become...
Weak.
Frail.
Vulnerable.
Normal...
~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me
~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~
There was nothing left for me in the world. Mother had found her support in her new husband, and I had kept my legacy long enough in this world so that at least everyone in my high school would've heard my name at least once. I suppose that once mother found what she needed, someone else to love and cares for, she didn't need me anymore. So why did I stay so much longer after she and Kazuya were engaged and then married? If it wasn't for them, then who was it for?
It was for Hiei.
Despite his constant requests to go with him to the Makai, I had refused Hiei's proposal of returning to the demon world, saying that my mother needed me. So why did I stay after she had no longer required my existence in her life?
Because I wanted to be with Hiei...
It sounds odd doesn't it? Why would I refuse Hiei's request to return to the Makai with him to be with him? Simple. Being that when we stayed in the Ningenkai, Hiei and I were considered Reikai Tantei, allowing Hiei an excuse to draw away from Mukuro's little errands and to focus on the missions that Koenma gave us. In Makai, Mukuro would be able to call on Hiei as much as her heart desired, leaving me with nothing but an empty bed and cold sheets.
Aren't I the deceptive one?
Allowing Koenma's little assignments and missions to keep me in perpetual contact with the fire demon saved me time and confrontation with Mukuro. I had no desire to argue with her about who got to keep Hiei on what days. Only pathetic couples that divorced did that with their children, and I was not going to make Hiei something I dragged around every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday.
I created this... this world of lies, of my ideal human statistics. My youko nature caused me to become what I am, what I've been drowning in for over seventeen years. I kept up the façade long enough to set myself into an inescapable role of perfection and nothing I did would save me.
Hiei...
Take me away...
Bring me to you...
~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~
Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live
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I drew out of my realm to find that Yusuke had just given up on arguing with Koenma. I could've told him that there was no point in sparring verbally with the lord of the dead, but then again, Yusuke himself is as stubborn as a mule, and it's not like he would've listened to me anyway.
I just compared Yusuke to a long-eared animal... I can just see the relation.
"The Ningenkai is depending on you. Do try to return successful. This world is in complete chaos already and many people are being diagnosed with insanity for claiming that they've seen monsters in the park. What's worse, the demons have begun attacking. A nearby school burst into flames a few hours ago and the ferry girls are working as hard as possible to retain all the souls that were released from the human bodies." Koenma's usual blabbering of information and how important this mission was had become more desperate, as if we did fail, the world would be destroyed and sent into the rule of then demons.
This world was dying, as was my enthusiasm for life.
Trying to prevent demons from destroying the world...
What a heroic way to die...
~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~
I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you...
~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~.:*:.~
"KURAMA!!!!!"
I saw it coming; the reflected light of the sloppily handled blade was easy to spot from the corner of my eye. But being that my attention was "focused" on four other demons attacking, the one from behind was of no concern to me.
My body had adjusted to this type of fighting, random motions and pointless swinging of my Rose Whip that happened to hit its target every time. There was nothing to concentrate on, nothing to seriously "focus" on, and so I withdrew into myself again, trusting my body would handle most of the fight without my mind.
I wonder if I called to Hiei from the Ningenkai, would he hear me from Reikai? Most likely not. But perhaps if I sent a telepathic message through him and infused some of my Reiki into it the faintest inkling of a message would reach him.
In my concentration of relaying a message to Hiei, I had not felt the twinge of my body, nor had I seen the crimson liquid staining my white tunic.
//Hiei...//
//Hiei can you here me?//
A faint spark pricked at my mind, until I saw a bright light. And in the center of the light it was dark, and the darkness was increasing, as if something was coming closer to me. I squinted my eyes as the light got closer, too scintillating for my human sight to bear.
\\Kurama?\\
The light called out to me, questioning as if disbelieving that I was the one that called out to it. And then I saw the face of the shining creature, crimson eyes, dark hair and a while starburst.
//Hiei...!//
\\How is this possible? Unless...\\
\\No...\\
Confusion filled his voice, until a revelation came to him, and then a feeling of dread.
//What Hiei? What's going on?//
\\Kurama you're...\\
"KURAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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I've woken now to find myself
I'm lost in shadows on my own
I'm longing to be lost in you...
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I drew back into my physical form, feeling my spirit fade, and barely able to make out my surroundings. My instincts told me that I was lying on the ground and I felt the presence of people around me, but I wasn't sure what exactly was going on.
"Oh god..." I heard Yusuke's voice whisper. "What am I supposed to tell Koenma? That we lost another member of our team?"
And then I faded back into the darkness...
Once again I awoke to strange surroundings, and I was still unable to comprehend what I had heard, and I still had no idea where I was.
As I got up from my lying position on the ground I looked around at what seemed to be a forest of some sort. It was beautiful to say the least, but how did I get here? And where is this place?
And what did Yusuke mean?
//Lost another member? Did Kuwabara die?//
\\Hn... Baka... You died!!\\
I turned around to see Hiei standing in a small clearing in the forest. He smiled his awkward half smirk half smile at me and I walked over to him, talking in the information I had just received with each step.
I died...
I'm dead... and now it's all over.
I extended my arms to embrace my fire demon. I would be with him forever in this land of our fantasies, in this place where not even death is a threat. There would be no more pain, and no more lying.
No more lies...
No more shadows...
I've escaped...
...And gotten away...
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Away from me...
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~*OWARI (for real ^^ )*~
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A/N: Okay... I really hate the ending part to this, but it's what some people wanted: a generally happy ending where Kurama dies and joins Hiei in their own little heaven like place. This was totally rushed and I wish I could do better, but being me... I can't...
Hope you enjoyed at least a little bit of it.
Until my next fic!
luvvies to you all,
~*aznstarangel*~