Author: aomurasakiai
Warnings: AU, Angst, Sap, Shounen ai/Yaoi [Lime Warning]
Pairings: 2+1, 1+2, 2x1 [R+1]
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG-13 [R in Chapters 17 and 18]
*Everything above may be
subject to change*
Fragile Faith: Chapter 21 – Fading Hope
Lady Une lowered her eyes as she finished, the stream of tears never ceasing. Heero just stood there.
"I'll go."
"W-What? You can't be serious. What about Duo? I know that you want to be with him. I *want* you to be with him! He's the one who will make you happy! Not that… that…"
"Lady Une…" The woman stopped her tirade when Heero's voice cut through the air.
"You said so yourself. This place will be closed if I don't go with Miss Darlian and… marry her. This isn't about my needs or my wants." Heero's voice trembled a little. "It's about the other orphans and the orphanage."
Without another word, the Japanese boy turned and went back into his room. Lady Une placed her hand to her mouth, muffled sobs echoed through the empty kitchen.
Behind the closed door, Heero slid down and finally let his tears fall.
'It *was* too good to be true… I guess I was never meant to be happy.' Heero's sad blue eyes turned to rest upon the plushie. 'But… I'm glad that I got to meet Duo and be with him… no matter how short it was.' Heero stood and walked over to his plushie, clutching it tightly to this chest, he sobbed quietly.
'I was right after all… That day… really was repeating itself.'
~~~That afternoon~~~
*click*
Lady Une hung up the phone and sighed. That was probably the 20th call to the university and she still couldn't get a hold of the braided boy. She immediately looked up immediately when she heard Heero's door open. Lady Une barely had time to call out his name before he was gone out the front door. He returned within an hour, carrying a book and a plastic bag and he disappeared into his room. When Lady Une brought some food for him, she found the door locked. Knocking and calling his name received no response. She set the plate of food down and almost cried when she returned later to find it untouched.
"Look what you've done Relena Darlian," Lady Une whispered.
Inside the dim room Heero Yuy sat by the window, scissors in one hand, felt in the other, and an open book in front of him.
~~~That night~~~
Lady Une went to open the door once again and this time she was surprised when the knob turned. When she peeked inside, tears escaped her eyes once again at the sight of a sleeping Japanese boy, clutching onto his plushie, another one that had green felt on its upper body and black felt on its lower also held tightly within his arms. Heero's shirt that he'd worn to the aquarium months before was on the floor. As she walked closer, she saw that the top two buttons were missing and that they now adorned the face of the newly made plushie. She also saw tiny splotches of red on the blanket beside the sleeping teen and she gasped, realizing that it was blood. Gently taking Heero's hand and turning it, she saw the faint traces of blood smeared on his fingers.
Lady Une covered her mouth and hastily went out of the room, not wanting to wake Heero with her crying. She stood in the hallway leaning against the wall as all her strength escaped her through the tears that she shed.
Inside the room, Heero opened his eyes. He held the two plushies closer to him before he reached for the headphones. He was about to drift off into a troubled slumber, listening to the piano melody of "Nukumori no Kioku [Memories of Warmth]" when the last 2 batteries inside his Walkman died.
Heero heard the fading music… and his hopes faded along with it.
tbc…