CHAPTER EIGHT
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside a me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things of mine
(Inside of me)
But though they can see the words revealed
It's the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to loose)
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didn't fall
right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it
All in my mind.
(So what am I?)
What do I have but negativity
Cuz I cant justify the way everyone was looking at me
(Nothing to Loose)
nothing to gain
hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somwhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything until I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself toooooddddaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm somewhere I belong
SOMEWHERE I BELONG
((A/N: I just had to add this, because A. I was bored and decided to slowly, second by second interperate this song and type it up. B. Alicia has made me in love with LP. C. SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD! D. Part in the story I want to try and make in the background. It'd be awesome to make this into a music video. Well if u have the song, read this chapter, and listen to it.))
She watched as the sun began to slowly fade out, and it was the brief moment of sunset that she always loved watching. There was a small tap on her shoulder and she swerved to see who had disturbed the silence. It was just Lily. Lily gave her a look over and said
"Be careful, those Dementors will eat you alive, and you know it."
"Yeah well unless you wanna be a werewolf I suggest you sciddaddle." She replied to Lily's worries laughing. Lily headed off to the building and Kal sighed a deep breath, she enjoyed these moments of dusk, right before she was a wolf and "one with nature". She sat down on the grass, and stretched her legs out under her, and was sitting in the usual dog position. She closed her eyes and when she opened them, she saw the dim horizon gone, and she could smell the clean freshness of the full moon. It always took a minute or two, so she ran down too the shrieking shack before it took full effect. If anyone saw her transform, there's no telling what could happen. When she swung herself into the Shrieking Shack, she surprisingly found herself once more met w/ an obstacle. The same one as before and this time, it was a just as shocked, Andy. He smiled that freaky little smile, and then his eyes went wide again.
"My house leader told me that this place was always empty! What are you doing here?!"
"Well my uncle told me to come here! And I've been coming here every month so far this year!"
"I can't talk now little girl, so you better leave."
When he said this he rose to his full height, which now proved to be more then just a couple inches taller, then her. He was about 5 inches taller then she. The fact that she was still sitting in her falling position on the floor, did not help to her advantage. She stood up and tried to make the face that she knew showed she wasn't scared, and she wasn't, she was just. there's no word for it she was just afraid she actually liked this jerk. She narrowed her eyes and did this weird intimidating thing Gabi had taught her. Her eyes were narrowed, her head slightly bowed, her glasses on the tip of her nose and it felt like she was trying to look at her eyebrows when she thought about it, but to him and everyone else it looked like she could kill him. And apparently it worked because just then he walked away, without saying a word. She sighed a sigh of relief and thought
"I really didn't wanna hurt him, and I know it."
Just then she could feel it happening, her hands were being covered in the dark black fur, and her legs were getting stronger and shorter, the transformation was almost fully complete. She shook her head. She sniffed the air, so pure, so cleaner then it had been five seconds ago. She saw Gabi in the corner, meeting with a strange blood red and black furred male Nakaima, a winged wolf type creature, and she almost let it go, but then thought the better of it. She ran towards Gabi and the other beast in the deep crevices of the forest. She gave Gabi a look of concern that was visible in her almond eyes. Gabi led her aside and told her he was a spy, for our side, and he was really human, but would like to keep his identity secret. She took another sniff of the full moon's night, there was something she had never smelt before, it was a male wolf. Werewolf or regular wolf she couldn't tell. But she could tell she was going to find out. She ran towards the scent, the ground racing underneath her. She came to a screeching halt at the edge of the forest. She saw him at the edge of one of the few ponds in the Forbidden Forest. He was a male werewolf, he had shaggy brown fur that was kind of short, not long like Kal's, and on the top corner of his right ear there was a diamond shaped patch of white fur. He was sitting there licking his paw as if he had been wounded, and dipping it slowly into the crystal cool water. She slowly calculated her steps towards him; his paw was badly hurt, burned to the bone. She nudged it with her noise and let out a small whimper of concern, also meaning, "Are you hurt?"
He let out a sound, which was more like a half bark, half growl meaning, "I'm fine." And turned his face away. She leaned down and blew gently on his paw, which was considerably less difficult for a wolf to do then it is for a werewolf. She led him over to a tree on the other side of the pond, and inside. In the cool shadows of the tree, moonlight shone through knots in the trunk. There was a black pool of liquid, and at first the twinkles of light looked like just the light shining on the water. She moved his paw towards the pool, but he wasn't too quick to put his paw into a strange black mixture of mystery. She just looked at him, and he slowly moved his cut paw in. The twinkles of light moved out of the liquid and swirled around his paw, making a whirlwind of colors and light and song. The song made Kal think and surprised her. Usually the song was just soft humming and like a tiny baby grand piano playing in the distance. But today, with this boy, it was "Swing, Swing" one of her favorite All American Rejects songs. The music went off and it was silent. It was dark now, the fairy lights had gone off, and all that was left was the moonlight shining through the holes in the ancient tree. The moonlight disappeared for seconds and she saw him transform back into himself, the real human form underneath. It was Andy. She looked at him for a second in a daze, and before she could say anything, he got up and ran off. She got up and ran as fast as her legs could carry her. She stumbled and slid into a bush. Through the plant Rephen was talking to what seemed like a shadow of dark mist and a deep raspy voice.
"But sir. I don't know if I can do this for you."
"SHUT UP FOOL! When your damned father traded his life away from me so he could be free, he gave me yours! YOU ARE MY SLAVE!!! DO AS I COMMAND!!!! CRUCIO!!!"
There was a loud blast and a scream of gut wrenching horror from Rephen. Then a voice came from the body that had to be Rephen's. "Fine, your bidding will be done, master." Was all it said. His body doubled over and crumpled onto the floor in pain, and it was completely dark, Kal watched the slivery mist float away into the forest. She walked over to Andy's body, and the sun started to rise. The sunlight fell on his doubled over body, his face in a state of complete bliss, caressed by the soft prisms of colors. There was now a cut/ soon to be scar, a small yet very deep nick on the left side of his face. He shook himself awake as she gingerly touched the mark, and as soon as he saw her, he took off at a dead run. She sighed "Not again." And she just sat there, watching him run to the castle.
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside a me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I'm not the only person with these things of mine
(Inside of me)
But though they can see the words revealed
It's the only real thing that I've got left to feel
(Nothing to loose)
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didn't fall
right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it
All in my mind.
(So what am I?)
What do I have but negativity
Cuz I cant justify the way everyone was looking at me
(Nothing to Loose)
nothing to gain
hollow and alone
And the fault is my own,
the fault is my own
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somwhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything until I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself toooooddddaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let you on the pain I felt so long
(It makes all the pain turn to stone)
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like I'm somewhere I belong
SOMEWHERE I BELONG
((A/N: I just had to add this, because A. I was bored and decided to slowly, second by second interperate this song and type it up. B. Alicia has made me in love with LP. C. SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD! D. Part in the story I want to try and make in the background. It'd be awesome to make this into a music video. Well if u have the song, read this chapter, and listen to it.))
She watched as the sun began to slowly fade out, and it was the brief moment of sunset that she always loved watching. There was a small tap on her shoulder and she swerved to see who had disturbed the silence. It was just Lily. Lily gave her a look over and said
"Be careful, those Dementors will eat you alive, and you know it."
"Yeah well unless you wanna be a werewolf I suggest you sciddaddle." She replied to Lily's worries laughing. Lily headed off to the building and Kal sighed a deep breath, she enjoyed these moments of dusk, right before she was a wolf and "one with nature". She sat down on the grass, and stretched her legs out under her, and was sitting in the usual dog position. She closed her eyes and when she opened them, she saw the dim horizon gone, and she could smell the clean freshness of the full moon. It always took a minute or two, so she ran down too the shrieking shack before it took full effect. If anyone saw her transform, there's no telling what could happen. When she swung herself into the Shrieking Shack, she surprisingly found herself once more met w/ an obstacle. The same one as before and this time, it was a just as shocked, Andy. He smiled that freaky little smile, and then his eyes went wide again.
"My house leader told me that this place was always empty! What are you doing here?!"
"Well my uncle told me to come here! And I've been coming here every month so far this year!"
"I can't talk now little girl, so you better leave."
When he said this he rose to his full height, which now proved to be more then just a couple inches taller, then her. He was about 5 inches taller then she. The fact that she was still sitting in her falling position on the floor, did not help to her advantage. She stood up and tried to make the face that she knew showed she wasn't scared, and she wasn't, she was just. there's no word for it she was just afraid she actually liked this jerk. She narrowed her eyes and did this weird intimidating thing Gabi had taught her. Her eyes were narrowed, her head slightly bowed, her glasses on the tip of her nose and it felt like she was trying to look at her eyebrows when she thought about it, but to him and everyone else it looked like she could kill him. And apparently it worked because just then he walked away, without saying a word. She sighed a sigh of relief and thought
"I really didn't wanna hurt him, and I know it."
Just then she could feel it happening, her hands were being covered in the dark black fur, and her legs were getting stronger and shorter, the transformation was almost fully complete. She shook her head. She sniffed the air, so pure, so cleaner then it had been five seconds ago. She saw Gabi in the corner, meeting with a strange blood red and black furred male Nakaima, a winged wolf type creature, and she almost let it go, but then thought the better of it. She ran towards Gabi and the other beast in the deep crevices of the forest. She gave Gabi a look of concern that was visible in her almond eyes. Gabi led her aside and told her he was a spy, for our side, and he was really human, but would like to keep his identity secret. She took another sniff of the full moon's night, there was something she had never smelt before, it was a male wolf. Werewolf or regular wolf she couldn't tell. But she could tell she was going to find out. She ran towards the scent, the ground racing underneath her. She came to a screeching halt at the edge of the forest. She saw him at the edge of one of the few ponds in the Forbidden Forest. He was a male werewolf, he had shaggy brown fur that was kind of short, not long like Kal's, and on the top corner of his right ear there was a diamond shaped patch of white fur. He was sitting there licking his paw as if he had been wounded, and dipping it slowly into the crystal cool water. She slowly calculated her steps towards him; his paw was badly hurt, burned to the bone. She nudged it with her noise and let out a small whimper of concern, also meaning, "Are you hurt?"
He let out a sound, which was more like a half bark, half growl meaning, "I'm fine." And turned his face away. She leaned down and blew gently on his paw, which was considerably less difficult for a wolf to do then it is for a werewolf. She led him over to a tree on the other side of the pond, and inside. In the cool shadows of the tree, moonlight shone through knots in the trunk. There was a black pool of liquid, and at first the twinkles of light looked like just the light shining on the water. She moved his paw towards the pool, but he wasn't too quick to put his paw into a strange black mixture of mystery. She just looked at him, and he slowly moved his cut paw in. The twinkles of light moved out of the liquid and swirled around his paw, making a whirlwind of colors and light and song. The song made Kal think and surprised her. Usually the song was just soft humming and like a tiny baby grand piano playing in the distance. But today, with this boy, it was "Swing, Swing" one of her favorite All American Rejects songs. The music went off and it was silent. It was dark now, the fairy lights had gone off, and all that was left was the moonlight shining through the holes in the ancient tree. The moonlight disappeared for seconds and she saw him transform back into himself, the real human form underneath. It was Andy. She looked at him for a second in a daze, and before she could say anything, he got up and ran off. She got up and ran as fast as her legs could carry her. She stumbled and slid into a bush. Through the plant Rephen was talking to what seemed like a shadow of dark mist and a deep raspy voice.
"But sir. I don't know if I can do this for you."
"SHUT UP FOOL! When your damned father traded his life away from me so he could be free, he gave me yours! YOU ARE MY SLAVE!!! DO AS I COMMAND!!!! CRUCIO!!!"
There was a loud blast and a scream of gut wrenching horror from Rephen. Then a voice came from the body that had to be Rephen's. "Fine, your bidding will be done, master." Was all it said. His body doubled over and crumpled onto the floor in pain, and it was completely dark, Kal watched the slivery mist float away into the forest. She walked over to Andy's body, and the sun started to rise. The sunlight fell on his doubled over body, his face in a state of complete bliss, caressed by the soft prisms of colors. There was now a cut/ soon to be scar, a small yet very deep nick on the left side of his face. He shook himself awake as she gingerly touched the mark, and as soon as he saw her, he took off at a dead run. She sighed "Not again." And she just sat there, watching him run to the castle.