Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by JK Rowling. The plot is mine, though.
Summary: The mistakes done in the past would really hurt in the future. Hermione retells the story of her life seven years ago…
Author's Note: this is not related to 'Because of You' although I got this title from 'BoY's' first chapter… this is my second try in writing. Hope you'll like it.
The Thorns from the Pastby: katorse
PrologueAs I look back seven years ago, of the time when I was still at Hogwarts. I can still remember all the pain and heartaches I have come to face. Though sometimes, happiness is at the end, I can't still bear the fact that somehow I have lost it through the way.
Happiness, I have encountered it face to face but still I didn't have the guts to grasp on it. I was about to, but the other part of me says, 'don't or you'll just get hurt'. But still the other part keeps on telling me to 'go on and try'.
But I didn't.
Yes, happiness. I know I've already got happiness from my friends, my family and relatives, but inside me yells and tells me 'it just ain't enough'…
From the first day of my birth, I only felt the love and care from my parents, which until now it gets better each day. They never fail to give me their attention for they know that I might get bored with my life for not having any brother or sister. They never forgot a single birthday I had for the past seventeen years of my childhood, until now at the tender age of twenty-four, they still do. But it's different now; I'm living separately from them. And I have my own life, though sometimes, I still need my mother for everyday advice and guide to stay strong.
Another thing aside from happiness is the feeling of fulfillment. In every challenge you take, happiness is present but not always. But if you had achieved it, you will feel fulfilled, especially if you really dreamt of it, and if you really worked hard just to have your dreams. But what if you already gave up everything, sacrificed your own happiness just to have it? Does fulfillment still make sense?
Me, Hermione Granger, already gave up the most of myself, but still, that feeling of fulfillment doesn't seem to show up. It seems that it doesn't know that I exist. It also seems that something different, the opposite, come to know me better and it won't try to stop bothering me. It can't seem to leave me behind. You know, it's kinda up-to-date. He knows everything about me: my only happiness, my goals in life, my dreams, my thoughts, and most of all my weaknesses. And what's worst is, he's included in the latter.
A word to describe him: Loneliness.
He is there every time I feel alone, dejected, taken for granted, ignored and hated. For all these years it just seems to tense up and just built something more inside of me. I keep on feeling weaker and lost in a different world, which I've known before but seem to become a stranger. But every time I try to ignore it, –try to forget the past– the more I feel miserable, the more I feel left out. It only adds to the pain I had felt before. Which up to now, I don't understand why… And that's also why I regret the times I have ignored and didn't even tried to accept it….