Crimson Tears

By Kaehimi

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh!

"The Ignored Emotions"

Bakura's Point of View...

~I stopped and immediately put the scissors down as I realized what I was doing. I was trying to hurt myself! I had read somewhere in a magazine that it was called..."self-mutilation". The article had talked about a woman who had cut herself and then stuck needles into her skin. It gave me nightmares for weeks.

I pushed back my chair and stood up. I stretched before flipping off the lights, I got into bed and was soon asleep.

Lapse of Time...

The next morning, I barely remembered what had taken place the night before. I got up, got to school, and went through the whole day like I normally did. I was just there, and no one noticed. Why did no one ever realize I was there, and that I was a person too?

The principal asked to speak to me after school, it seemed that he was worried about me staying home all the time by myself. I told him that my dad traveled a lot with his work, and I was used to living on my own. He didn't seem to believe me.

I hoped they wouldn't do anything too drastic. Once before, when I was around three years old, my aunt had tried to take me from my father. She said that he didn't know anything about children, and that with my mother gone, I would never receive a "proper upbringing". The principal nodded as I told him- again- how I was perfectly fine. But he still didn't trust the fact that I was okay.

I groaned inwardly as he picked up the phone. He punched one number, but I couldn't see which, and another, and another. I shifted impatiently in the stiff chair. Looking down, I pretended my shoelace was suddenly very interesting, and leaned down to tie it. I untied it, tied it again, and untied it again. The principal just kept on talking. I guessed my father was on the other end of the line.

I tied the shoelace, and then moved to work on my right shoe. I tied that one, pulling up and down, then looked up when someone called my name. It was the principal, motioning me to the phone. I picked it up, and whispered a greeting.

"Bakura?" It was my aunt. "You should really come live with me. What is my brother-in-law thinking, leaving you alone like that?"

I sighed, explained to her that I was fine. Teachers always say to pay attention to what others say so that you don't ask the same questions. Why don't adults listen to them? I had explained at least four times today how I liked being alone.

I finally handed the phone back and was dismissed. I pushed the door open and strode outside. The breezy fall weather met my face, and leaves swirled around me. The wind rustled my hair, and I took a deep breath. The trees were shutting down so that they could survive throughout the winter, and I felt like a long nap too. How I envied them! All they did was take carbon dioxide, water, and sunlight in to produce oxygen and glucose. How simple their life was.

I decided to stop by a bakery to pick up a roll to munch on, and I hurried across the street. I smiled at the owner, who was very close to me. I will never understand, but watching people cook is so relaxing. When I first moved here, several years ago, I had stopped by this bakery and, curious, asked the owner how he made all the "yummy food". He showed me to his kitchen behind the counter, and ever since that, I have been fascinated.

I myself can never cook, I've learned that the hard way.

Today, the owner of the bakery looked unhappy. "Hello," I greeted, then cocked my head to one side. "What's wrong?"

He smiled at me, his face filled with melancholy. "We're going out of business, Bakura."

It hit me like a wet, hard snowball. "No..." I whispered.

He nodded sadly.

Lapse of Time...

I burst through the door, and slammed it behind me. Leaning against it, I gasped for the air my lungs cried for. Nothing was going right, was it?

I entered the kitchen, and saw the knife that I had used to pop the blood blister. Would it work? Well, I would find out now. Once again, I lifted a blade and placed it on the edge of my forearm...~

Kaehimi: I made up some family history...hope it's not too wacked. ^_^

Anyways, do you think Yami Bakura should be in this? Thankies!

Excuse of the Chapter: It's my birthday, I can write if I want to, write if I want too... (October 26 is my actual B'Day.)