The next day Amanda made her way to visit her parents with her mother. The
whole time Amanda just thought about Ryan. Especially when her mom laid
the "When are you going to get married and give me grandkids" speech.
Amanda just responded by saying, "Well, mom you have Tim too." Amanda's
mom just looked at Tim then looked back at Amanda and kept nagging. Amanda
wanted to yell at her mom and say "Ok mom I'm dating a prisoner from work
and we had sex yesterday so maybe that dream of yours will come true soon!"
That would shut her up! Instead she just sat there still thinking about
Ryan and how things would be the next time they see each other. After what
seemed like hours Amanda and Tim finally left their parent's house and made
the drive back. During the drive Amanda didn't say a word. She began to
think that her mom might be right. Will she ever get married. I mean all
her relationships until now we stupid mistakes, but she was really
beginning to care for Ryan. In her head Amanda didn't want this to turn
out bad like all the rest. But still in her head she wondered where could
this go. He is in prison and she isn't. He will me there for a long time.
Even though Amanda was beginning to have feelings for Ryan deep down she
knew that nothing would ever come of their relationship but trouble.
When she got to work the next day she decided not to go find Ryan like she had planned on. Instead she would think of what she wanted to say then she would go find him and tell him what she had been thinking of. As Amanda walked into her office after her lunch break she was startled to see Ryan sitting at her desk. This was one thing Amanda didn't expect. Ryan smiled as soon as Amanda walked into the door. His smile diminished a little when he saw Amanda's emotionless face. Ryan got up from the chair and made his way towards her. When he had reached Amanda he began to kiss her softly on her smooth mouth. As he kissed her Amanda began to pull away. Ryan just looked at her and said "What's wrong?" Amanda tried to think of what she was going to say. After a few seconds of silence the words just poured out. "Ryan, I can't do this with you." She said. "What are you talking about?" He asked her unsure of what was going on. "This isn't right. This will never work out. I have been hurt before and I have wasted time on relationships that end in disaster. This is one of those relationships." She reluctantly said. "I think this is the perfect relationship. I mean I won't cheat on you, and we aren't around each other all the time so we wont get sick of each other." He said. "Yeah but it's not fair to either of us. I mean I want to be able to go out places with you and wake up with your arms around me and we can't do any of that." Amanda said. "You don't think I don't know that? I know that and you are right it's not far but its what I have to do in order to be with you. I want to be with you any way I can no matter what." Ryan continued angrily. Amanda sat down on her couch and just put her shook her head in her hands. She finally got some more words to say, "I'm sorry Ryan. I never meant for this to happen. For us to happen!" Ryan just looked at her with anger, "Fine. If that is the way you want it! But just remember that no one will ever love you the way I do." And with that he stormed out of Amanda's office slamming the door behind him. Amanda sat on her couch and cried. That night when she went home she began to wonder if she had made the biggest mistake of her life. So what if he was in Oz. The relationship was unusual but that was one think that drew Amanda to it. What if Ryan was right, what if no one would ever love her the way he did...
When she got to work the next day she decided not to go find Ryan like she had planned on. Instead she would think of what she wanted to say then she would go find him and tell him what she had been thinking of. As Amanda walked into her office after her lunch break she was startled to see Ryan sitting at her desk. This was one thing Amanda didn't expect. Ryan smiled as soon as Amanda walked into the door. His smile diminished a little when he saw Amanda's emotionless face. Ryan got up from the chair and made his way towards her. When he had reached Amanda he began to kiss her softly on her smooth mouth. As he kissed her Amanda began to pull away. Ryan just looked at her and said "What's wrong?" Amanda tried to think of what she was going to say. After a few seconds of silence the words just poured out. "Ryan, I can't do this with you." She said. "What are you talking about?" He asked her unsure of what was going on. "This isn't right. This will never work out. I have been hurt before and I have wasted time on relationships that end in disaster. This is one of those relationships." She reluctantly said. "I think this is the perfect relationship. I mean I won't cheat on you, and we aren't around each other all the time so we wont get sick of each other." He said. "Yeah but it's not fair to either of us. I mean I want to be able to go out places with you and wake up with your arms around me and we can't do any of that." Amanda said. "You don't think I don't know that? I know that and you are right it's not far but its what I have to do in order to be with you. I want to be with you any way I can no matter what." Ryan continued angrily. Amanda sat down on her couch and just put her shook her head in her hands. She finally got some more words to say, "I'm sorry Ryan. I never meant for this to happen. For us to happen!" Ryan just looked at her with anger, "Fine. If that is the way you want it! But just remember that no one will ever love you the way I do." And with that he stormed out of Amanda's office slamming the door behind him. Amanda sat on her couch and cried. That night when she went home she began to wonder if she had made the biggest mistake of her life. So what if he was in Oz. The relationship was unusual but that was one think that drew Amanda to it. What if Ryan was right, what if no one would ever love her the way he did...