Dom's POV~
"Shit! Dawn! Are you there?" I was on my knees holding Dawn in my lap. She
had blacked out a minute ago and wasn't waking up. I ran to the door and
opened it as quick as I could. "MIA!" I screamed. She was at the foot of
the stairs a minute later, she opened her mouth to say something, but I did
first. "Get your first aid kit now. Bring it to my room. Quick Dawn's in
trouble!" I ran back to my room. I didn't give a damn if I had spoiled
Leon's special time with Mia. Dawn was in trouble. I heard banging on the
stairs, but I was on the floor again holding Dawn. "Dear God, please say
Dawn is ok. I don't think I can live without her. I don't want to find out
what that would be like. I don't have the strength or energy to loose
another person I love. Please God save her. Amen," I said.
I looked up and Leon and Vince were standing there. "She won't wake up. She
blacked out," I explained.
I felt her heart-rate and thank God it was still there. "MIA!" I roared.
What was taking her so long?
"I'm here," she said. She got on her knees and began to work. She got a
little tube out and broke it in half. She put one half under Dawn's nose.
Dawn stirred, then squinted and opened her eyes, but shut them again
immediately.
"Dawn, I need to see your eyes can you open them for me real quick?" Mia
asked getting a light out of her bag. Dawn squinted her eyes open as Mia
shown the light in her eyes. "Follow the light with your eyes. Don't move
your head," Mia instructed.
Dawn nodded and followed the light. "Me, my head hurts real bad. It's
pounding so bad. Can I please shut my eyes?"
Mia bit her lip, but said, "You can, but we are gonna have to go into the
doctor to see if you are ok."
"Fuck that," Dawn said sitting up quickly, a little too quickly though
because she squinted her eyes and put her head in her knees.
"You need to go. You didn't have any beer and you are not well. If you
don't go willingly I'll be forced to call an ambulance," Mia said sternly.
"Looks like you ended up giving me a physical after all," Dawn joked, but
no one laughed. "Tough crowd. Mia can I talk to you privately for a
minute?" Dawn asked putting her hands around her knees.
"Ya, guys could you clear out and give us a second?" Mia asked.
~DAWN'S POV~
"Ya guys out," Dom said rubbing my back.
"You too Dom," I said softly. "I need to talk to her privately for a
minute."
"Oh, alright," Dom said getting slowly to his feet. "You sure your ok?" he
asked softly steeping to the door backwards so he could watch my face.
"The second I am in anymore pain than I am in right now, I will tell you,"
I promised.
He closed the door softly behind him.
"I know what is wrong. I don't need a doctor. I found out about 5 or 6
years ago. I have a brain tumor. They used chemo therapy and it shrunk and
went away. It was Malignant though. I went into remission. Then about 3 and
a half years ago I started getting really bad headaches. It had come back.
I got chemo therapy again and it went away. I was in remission. I started
getting really bad headaches about 3 or 4 months ago and I knew. I ignored
it though. I wasn't going to go through chemo therapy again. I gave up
everything to live and for six months each time I lived in hell. I wasn't
going to do it again. Ever.
"Then I met Dom. I am in love with him. I can't be in love with anyone. My
mom had some of my eggs frozen before I first got chemotherapy because she
knew I would be giving up having children. She didn't want the same life
for me her sister had. If I go into chemotherapy this time I will kill
myself. I don't want that life again. I can't have it. I WON'T" I said
loudly crying now. I looked up at Mia who was crying too.
"You have black spots in your right eye. You are going to go blind in it
soon if you don't get the tumor shrunk and soon. Can't they do surgery?"
Mia asked with silent tears going down my face.
"The last two times it has been too close to other things for them to
really worry about it. I'll go to the hospital, but only with you. I can't
let Dom know. Not yet. If what you say is true I will think about it. I
can't promise anything right now," I said truthfully.
"Can Leon come?" Mia asked. I knew she would need him to comfort her.
"Only if he promises not to ever tell anyone what he learns," I said.
"Alright," Mia said getting to her feet.
She gave me her hand and it took all my strength to stand. I held on to her
as we walked to the door. To Dom's sad, empty eyes.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The Hospital~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Your tumor has come back," the doctor said the words I had heard once before. "It is larger than it was the other times and has caused pressure on your cerebellum, that is a part of your brain," he said like I was am imbecile. I just rolled my eyes. "This is a serious matter young lady!" he said sharply. "I give you 3 months tops if we don't start chemotherapy now," he said. Mia and Leon were sitting in chairs next to my bed and I heard Mia sob softly. Leon sat and rubbed her back and I put my head down. I had been through all this before. "When do we start chemotherapy?" I asked softly. We can start tomorrow morning if you want, but you are gonna have to stay the night tonight. I will let you go home tomorrow. Do you want an..." "No, I do not want the IV in my chest," I said knowingly. "Ok," he said softly. "I guess I will see you bright and early. If you are in any pain ask the nurse and I will leave some pain killers with her," he said walking out. "What made you change your mind about the chemotherapy?" Mia asked with tears running down her face. "You," I said. "I don't want to be a walking zombie when I'm on this crap though. So you are now hired as my personal nurse. On call twenty four hours a day," I smiled joking around. "Hey, what about when Mia and I have personal time?" Leon asked. "Hey you gotta schedule it around my needs. If I need to pee in the middle of the night are you gonna help me in the bathroom, then back to my room? Or would you make me pee the bed and sleep in it?" I asked mockingly. "Alright, Mia and I will do our thing around one in the afternoon until two- thirty. No calls to her during that time, alright?" Leon asked. "Deal," I said jokingly. "Don't I get a say in this?" Mia asked. "NO!" Leon and I said in unison. We all laughed. After another ten minutes it got real tense. Mia had just asked what she was supposed to say to Dom. I bit my lip thinking. "I will call Dom tonight, but tell him I am fine and that they are keeping me over night for precautions. I want to be the one to tell him, but not yet. I will come home tomorrow and tell him I'm feeling queasy from the medicine they gave me. I will tell him alone," I don't want just anyone to tell him. Leon and Mia nodded. They gave me hugs and left. Then I reached over to the phone and dialed the numbers I've been dreading to call. My mothers. It rang twice and the answering machine came on. Her cherry voice made me sad so I hung up. I dialed her cell and she answered on the second ring. "Hello?" she asked confused. I guess she had looked on the caller id and was wondering why someone was calling her from the L.A. Memorial. "Mama, It's Dawn," I said slowly. "Oh baby, how are you?" she asked happily. I had to word myself carefully. "Mom, I am in the hospital," I said. "Oh, honey, is it?" she asked. "Ya, they say it is bigger this time. They gave me three months. I'm going to take the chemotherapy. Tomorrow morning is my first dosage," I said softly. "Are you ok?" she asked. "No. I want to live mommy. I want children and a husband and a house. I'm in love," I told her. "Oh, does he know?" she asked. "No, not yet. I'm going to tell him later this week. It is going to be a little hard since I am living with him." "You need to tell him. You'll end up breaking your own heart and his if you don't," my mom said. "I know. I just wanted to let you know. I have to go mom. I love you," I said. "I love you too honey. Keep in touch and tell me how it all is. If you need me I'm only a phone call away. And if you need me there, just say the word. Talk to you soon honey. Bye." She hung up. I stared at the phone. The fist time I had talked to her in a year and she didn't even notice. One more phone call, then bed, I decided. I dialed Dom's cell and he answered on the first ring. "Dawn? Is it you?" he asked. He sounded really worried. "No, it's your wife," I laughed. "Oh, Dawn, are you ok?" he asked. "Ya. They are having me stay over night for precautions. I will be home tomorrow evening," I said. I hated to lie to him, but I couldn't bare to tell him the truth over the phone. "Why can't you come home? Just tell the doctor you want to go home. Unless you don't want to come home to me... is that it?" he asked lowering his voice. "Dom, look on your ID. Does it saw L.A. Memorial? Why would I not want to come home?" I asked. "Cause I love you and you can't handle it," he said meekly. "Dominic Toretto! How dare you imply that I don't love you. I love you more than there are stars in the sky. I want you to remember that when you sleep alone tonight. In an empty bed!" I said icily. "You love me?" he asked, he was so cute and I loved playing these games with him. "Yes, and that is why you are going to sleep in a cold bed tonight!" I said. He just laughed. "Alright. What time tomorrow night so I can come get you?" he asked. "I already got a ride and I don't know the exact time," I bit my lip. "Ok. So I will see you tomorrow beautiful?" he asked. "Ya, but I don't think you will think I am beautiful. They are giving me some medicine that is making me very sick, so I might be puking on you when I get home," I said truthfully. Well part of it was the truth. "No puking in my house!" Dom joked. I just smiled. "I love you Dom," I said. "I love you too beautiful," he said. "Night." "Goodnight," he said. I put the receiver down. I rolled over and hugged my pillow and cried myself to sleep. ~A/N~ Tell me what you think... love ya'll.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The Hospital~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Your tumor has come back," the doctor said the words I had heard once before. "It is larger than it was the other times and has caused pressure on your cerebellum, that is a part of your brain," he said like I was am imbecile. I just rolled my eyes. "This is a serious matter young lady!" he said sharply. "I give you 3 months tops if we don't start chemotherapy now," he said. Mia and Leon were sitting in chairs next to my bed and I heard Mia sob softly. Leon sat and rubbed her back and I put my head down. I had been through all this before. "When do we start chemotherapy?" I asked softly. We can start tomorrow morning if you want, but you are gonna have to stay the night tonight. I will let you go home tomorrow. Do you want an..." "No, I do not want the IV in my chest," I said knowingly. "Ok," he said softly. "I guess I will see you bright and early. If you are in any pain ask the nurse and I will leave some pain killers with her," he said walking out. "What made you change your mind about the chemotherapy?" Mia asked with tears running down her face. "You," I said. "I don't want to be a walking zombie when I'm on this crap though. So you are now hired as my personal nurse. On call twenty four hours a day," I smiled joking around. "Hey, what about when Mia and I have personal time?" Leon asked. "Hey you gotta schedule it around my needs. If I need to pee in the middle of the night are you gonna help me in the bathroom, then back to my room? Or would you make me pee the bed and sleep in it?" I asked mockingly. "Alright, Mia and I will do our thing around one in the afternoon until two- thirty. No calls to her during that time, alright?" Leon asked. "Deal," I said jokingly. "Don't I get a say in this?" Mia asked. "NO!" Leon and I said in unison. We all laughed. After another ten minutes it got real tense. Mia had just asked what she was supposed to say to Dom. I bit my lip thinking. "I will call Dom tonight, but tell him I am fine and that they are keeping me over night for precautions. I want to be the one to tell him, but not yet. I will come home tomorrow and tell him I'm feeling queasy from the medicine they gave me. I will tell him alone," I don't want just anyone to tell him. Leon and Mia nodded. They gave me hugs and left. Then I reached over to the phone and dialed the numbers I've been dreading to call. My mothers. It rang twice and the answering machine came on. Her cherry voice made me sad so I hung up. I dialed her cell and she answered on the second ring. "Hello?" she asked confused. I guess she had looked on the caller id and was wondering why someone was calling her from the L.A. Memorial. "Mama, It's Dawn," I said slowly. "Oh baby, how are you?" she asked happily. I had to word myself carefully. "Mom, I am in the hospital," I said. "Oh, honey, is it?" she asked. "Ya, they say it is bigger this time. They gave me three months. I'm going to take the chemotherapy. Tomorrow morning is my first dosage," I said softly. "Are you ok?" she asked. "No. I want to live mommy. I want children and a husband and a house. I'm in love," I told her. "Oh, does he know?" she asked. "No, not yet. I'm going to tell him later this week. It is going to be a little hard since I am living with him." "You need to tell him. You'll end up breaking your own heart and his if you don't," my mom said. "I know. I just wanted to let you know. I have to go mom. I love you," I said. "I love you too honey. Keep in touch and tell me how it all is. If you need me I'm only a phone call away. And if you need me there, just say the word. Talk to you soon honey. Bye." She hung up. I stared at the phone. The fist time I had talked to her in a year and she didn't even notice. One more phone call, then bed, I decided. I dialed Dom's cell and he answered on the first ring. "Dawn? Is it you?" he asked. He sounded really worried. "No, it's your wife," I laughed. "Oh, Dawn, are you ok?" he asked. "Ya. They are having me stay over night for precautions. I will be home tomorrow evening," I said. I hated to lie to him, but I couldn't bare to tell him the truth over the phone. "Why can't you come home? Just tell the doctor you want to go home. Unless you don't want to come home to me... is that it?" he asked lowering his voice. "Dom, look on your ID. Does it saw L.A. Memorial? Why would I not want to come home?" I asked. "Cause I love you and you can't handle it," he said meekly. "Dominic Toretto! How dare you imply that I don't love you. I love you more than there are stars in the sky. I want you to remember that when you sleep alone tonight. In an empty bed!" I said icily. "You love me?" he asked, he was so cute and I loved playing these games with him. "Yes, and that is why you are going to sleep in a cold bed tonight!" I said. He just laughed. "Alright. What time tomorrow night so I can come get you?" he asked. "I already got a ride and I don't know the exact time," I bit my lip. "Ok. So I will see you tomorrow beautiful?" he asked. "Ya, but I don't think you will think I am beautiful. They are giving me some medicine that is making me very sick, so I might be puking on you when I get home," I said truthfully. Well part of it was the truth. "No puking in my house!" Dom joked. I just smiled. "I love you Dom," I said. "I love you too beautiful," he said. "Night." "Goodnight," he said. I put the receiver down. I rolled over and hugged my pillow and cried myself to sleep. ~A/N~ Tell me what you think... love ya'll.