Vaughn walked through the doors of JFT.
It felt like the past two years had never happened,
That he had never quit this job.
That he had been walking through these doors every day for the past years.
Except for the huge slap in the face of a reminder that he got ever morning waking up next to wife.
The one thing that he loved and could not hate,
But would love to hate.
He had betrayed Sydney,
Something he knew she would never do to him.
After everything she had been through,
Noah, Danny, then him.
He wanted to die.
Especially after that night Two Weeks ago.
(Flashback)
"What time do we leave in the morning?" Sydney asked him gathering the papers off of the hotel desk, preparing to go back to her room.
She had a tired worn out voice,
not from the mission, but her life,
her life was tired, and worn way to thin.
"I think 10" he told her
'I am married I am married, why did I have to get f****** married?' Vaughn kept repeacting over and over in his head.
Since she had died,
he wasless then half of what he used to be.
You think that after loving someone as much as he did,
you can never love again if you lose them,
which is true to some extent.
He would never tell anyone this.
He loved his wife.
But not like he loved Sydney,
Lauren was like a good dissapointment in his life.
She helped him get parts of his life back.
But the only one who could fully fix it was Sydney.
"Wow, I guess I get to sleep in a little" syd joked sleepily
"Well I think they passed some law about CIA agents having to come home at four in the morning" Vaughn tried to joke but immediately regretted his words.
There were two things that they didn't talk about,
His wife and the time she was gone.
Who would blame either of them?
Sydney picked up the rest of the papers, looking down at the ground.
She wanted to badly to cry, but she wouldn't let her guard down around Vaughn,
Not anymore,
Not after he had betrayed her.
So she quickly headed for the door.
Vaughn walked over and obstructed her path though.
"Vaughn. please. just let me leave" she begged
Her voice wavering
"Syd" he made her look up
"I am so sorry. you know that" he tried to apologize
"I just want to go" she fought him tears now running down her cheeks.
That was their moment of weakness.
Vaughn bent down and kissed her.
Feeling for the first time in two years.
The passion and the love would have been tangible to someone if they walked in the room.
But the Cheating and the Wrong doing would have been too.
But This was the only place he wanted to be.
This was the only place he ever wanted to be.
And he felt alive again.
Be damned with moving on.
Confusion hit Sydney's bring full force.
She fought so hard not to let herself go numb.
She wanted to remind herself he was married.
But she didn't care.
This world had taken so much away from her.
She wouldn't let it take Vaughn away.
Even if it was only for one night.
Vaughn's hands slid down her back, Causing her to arch against him, pulling her closer to him.
Her hands ran through his hair and down the back of his neck.
Finally she pushed him away.
"No. No . No. Vaughn you. you are married" she said breathlessly,
that was the first time she had said it out loud, and it made her realize it was real.
"Sydney. I know that this is probably making me the worst person ever.
But I love you. I love you more then anyone. More then Lauren. But if I hadn't moved on I would have died. And I regret that now. the moving on part, but you are back. and I made a mistake. A huge mistake. But just give me one night" Vaughn finished his speech, pleading to Sydney
Her head was screaming to her that it was wrong. he was married.
But her body took over, numbing her mind.
Allowing Vaughn to consumer her.
Walking over he stood behind her, waiting for her to turn around.
"OK" she told him allowing herself to melt into him again.
All her problems were gone.
And she wished for thousandth time that there was nothing wrong in her life.
That it could be just one night, every night.
(End flashback)
Vaughn sat down at his desk, rubbing his temples.
He had been different Since Sydney got back, even more distant the before.
And since he had to lie to his wife he had been standoffish and dodged her.
And now this.
His life was so screwed up.
And he had screwed her life up even more.
All he wanted to do, was wake up in Sydney's bed, and let it all be a dream, none of the past two years had ever happened.
(Flashback)
Sydney walked through the door of Weiss' House at around nine at night.
Her eyes were bloodshot from crying,
Her hands were shaking,
And she felt even more lost then before.
"Hey Syd How was your Tr.." Weiss rounded the corner, but stopped talked when he saw sydney. Immediately walking over and taking her in his arms.
"Syd. What happened?" he asked
"Vaughn" she said
"What happened?" Weiss asked
"Nothing. just forget it" She tried to dismiss it and walked towards her room.
Shutting the door and sinking into her bed.
Tears streamed down her face.
He had left her twice.
After everything they had been through,
He left her again.
Memories flooded back, making the gaping hole in her life feel even bigger.
The key to the hotel room.
The Vatican.
The Disease.
Taiwan.
She wished she had let him die then.
She wished she had never had the experience of being in love with Michael Vaughn.
She wished she had just let him die.
He let her die.
And for the first time she was mad for him not saving her,
For not knowing where she was.
And then Weiss knocked on the door, interrupting her thoughts.
"Syd. I know something is wrong" Weiss shouted through the door
"Please Syd let me in" he begged
"Fine" she said quietly
"Syd, just tell me what he did" he asked her
"It was me too" she told him in a stony voice.
Cursing herself for allowing herself to be seduced like that.
"What happened?" Weiss asked kindly
"I slept with him" she confessed quietly, tilting her head back to keep from crying again, and as a reason not to look into Weiss' eyes.
Weiss sat there speechless.
He didn't know what to say.
(end flashback)
Syd walked to her desk.
Her mind was racing, and she felt so confused and alone.
She needed to find Carrie.
She didn't have a mother anymore.
And she needed advice.
HAHAHAHAH I don't know if you picked up on my cliffhanger, but you will understand !!!!!
It felt like the past two years had never happened,
That he had never quit this job.
That he had been walking through these doors every day for the past years.
Except for the huge slap in the face of a reminder that he got ever morning waking up next to wife.
The one thing that he loved and could not hate,
But would love to hate.
He had betrayed Sydney,
Something he knew she would never do to him.
After everything she had been through,
Noah, Danny, then him.
He wanted to die.
Especially after that night Two Weeks ago.
(Flashback)
"What time do we leave in the morning?" Sydney asked him gathering the papers off of the hotel desk, preparing to go back to her room.
She had a tired worn out voice,
not from the mission, but her life,
her life was tired, and worn way to thin.
"I think 10" he told her
'I am married I am married, why did I have to get f****** married?' Vaughn kept repeacting over and over in his head.
Since she had died,
he wasless then half of what he used to be.
You think that after loving someone as much as he did,
you can never love again if you lose them,
which is true to some extent.
He would never tell anyone this.
He loved his wife.
But not like he loved Sydney,
Lauren was like a good dissapointment in his life.
She helped him get parts of his life back.
But the only one who could fully fix it was Sydney.
"Wow, I guess I get to sleep in a little" syd joked sleepily
"Well I think they passed some law about CIA agents having to come home at four in the morning" Vaughn tried to joke but immediately regretted his words.
There were two things that they didn't talk about,
His wife and the time she was gone.
Who would blame either of them?
Sydney picked up the rest of the papers, looking down at the ground.
She wanted to badly to cry, but she wouldn't let her guard down around Vaughn,
Not anymore,
Not after he had betrayed her.
So she quickly headed for the door.
Vaughn walked over and obstructed her path though.
"Vaughn. please. just let me leave" she begged
Her voice wavering
"Syd" he made her look up
"I am so sorry. you know that" he tried to apologize
"I just want to go" she fought him tears now running down her cheeks.
That was their moment of weakness.
Vaughn bent down and kissed her.
Feeling for the first time in two years.
The passion and the love would have been tangible to someone if they walked in the room.
But the Cheating and the Wrong doing would have been too.
But This was the only place he wanted to be.
This was the only place he ever wanted to be.
And he felt alive again.
Be damned with moving on.
Confusion hit Sydney's bring full force.
She fought so hard not to let herself go numb.
She wanted to remind herself he was married.
But she didn't care.
This world had taken so much away from her.
She wouldn't let it take Vaughn away.
Even if it was only for one night.
Vaughn's hands slid down her back, Causing her to arch against him, pulling her closer to him.
Her hands ran through his hair and down the back of his neck.
Finally she pushed him away.
"No. No . No. Vaughn you. you are married" she said breathlessly,
that was the first time she had said it out loud, and it made her realize it was real.
"Sydney. I know that this is probably making me the worst person ever.
But I love you. I love you more then anyone. More then Lauren. But if I hadn't moved on I would have died. And I regret that now. the moving on part, but you are back. and I made a mistake. A huge mistake. But just give me one night" Vaughn finished his speech, pleading to Sydney
Her head was screaming to her that it was wrong. he was married.
But her body took over, numbing her mind.
Allowing Vaughn to consumer her.
Walking over he stood behind her, waiting for her to turn around.
"OK" she told him allowing herself to melt into him again.
All her problems were gone.
And she wished for thousandth time that there was nothing wrong in her life.
That it could be just one night, every night.
(End flashback)
Vaughn sat down at his desk, rubbing his temples.
He had been different Since Sydney got back, even more distant the before.
And since he had to lie to his wife he had been standoffish and dodged her.
And now this.
His life was so screwed up.
And he had screwed her life up even more.
All he wanted to do, was wake up in Sydney's bed, and let it all be a dream, none of the past two years had ever happened.
(Flashback)
Sydney walked through the door of Weiss' House at around nine at night.
Her eyes were bloodshot from crying,
Her hands were shaking,
And she felt even more lost then before.
"Hey Syd How was your Tr.." Weiss rounded the corner, but stopped talked when he saw sydney. Immediately walking over and taking her in his arms.
"Syd. What happened?" he asked
"Vaughn" she said
"What happened?" Weiss asked
"Nothing. just forget it" She tried to dismiss it and walked towards her room.
Shutting the door and sinking into her bed.
Tears streamed down her face.
He had left her twice.
After everything they had been through,
He left her again.
Memories flooded back, making the gaping hole in her life feel even bigger.
The key to the hotel room.
The Vatican.
The Disease.
Taiwan.
She wished she had let him die then.
She wished she had never had the experience of being in love with Michael Vaughn.
She wished she had just let him die.
He let her die.
And for the first time she was mad for him not saving her,
For not knowing where she was.
And then Weiss knocked on the door, interrupting her thoughts.
"Syd. I know something is wrong" Weiss shouted through the door
"Please Syd let me in" he begged
"Fine" she said quietly
"Syd, just tell me what he did" he asked her
"It was me too" she told him in a stony voice.
Cursing herself for allowing herself to be seduced like that.
"What happened?" Weiss asked kindly
"I slept with him" she confessed quietly, tilting her head back to keep from crying again, and as a reason not to look into Weiss' eyes.
Weiss sat there speechless.
He didn't know what to say.
(end flashback)
Syd walked to her desk.
Her mind was racing, and she felt so confused and alone.
She needed to find Carrie.
She didn't have a mother anymore.
And she needed advice.
HAHAHAHAH I don't know if you picked up on my cliffhanger, but you will understand !!!!!