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Chapter 2 uses the song "Everything you want" by Vertical Horizon and SPOILERS for "Blind Faith."
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Chapter 2 - Everything you want
It was nearing ten o' clock. Amy Abbott paced around her room, wondering what had come over her to invite Ephram over when she knew he was angry with her. She saw the bitterness in his eyes, felt the barrier he had built to protect himself from her. Maybe he was right this time. She had said she wasn't ready. She had said it was too soon. He had taken the blow like he always had before. Why did everything always go in circles with them? It was time she put a stop to it before it was too late. She need to talk to him; to make him understand that she cared for him; she just couldn't care for him in the way he needed her to.
Ephram didn't care what he wore to Amy's that night. It was the first time his heart wasn't pounding out of his chest when he thought of her. He didn't like the feeling, but he knew he had to accept it. After all, it was what she wanted. A small piece of him still was making plans to prove her wrong tonight. That piece scared and angered him. He walked up to her door, noticing no cars in the driveway. Great, no one was home, just what he needed. Ringing the doorbell, he turned around.
As she opened the door she saw him standing there, leaning up against the side of the house with an annoyed look on his face. "Ten o' clock on the dot." He said.
"Come in, it's getting cold out." She said, with a look of sincerity on her face. "Have a seat, you look uncomfortable."
"I feel uncomfortable, Amy, how else do you want me to look?" he said seriously.
"Look, I know there's a lot going on right now. I saw something. Something I shouldn't have seen. This whole time you've been keeping it a secret, but I saw it. That girl, the babysitter, you're with her."
"Madison?" he blushed, "What do you mean you saw something with her?"
"At the DMV, I saw you kiss her. I came to wait for you, to how you did. But she was there with you." She said looking down.
"It's nothing, really, Amy. Madison and I are just friends. Maybe not even friends. I was just excited about the results and" he stopped. He didn't know why he was even telling her all of this.
Amy stood up and walked over to the other side of the room, uncomfortably. He followed her. She turned her gaze toward him. "Ephram. Be with her. You promised me you wouldn't let us get in the way."
"It's not that simple. It's not like that for her. Besides, I have other things to worry about." He said. He still hadn't forgiven her.
"Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return"
"Look Ephram, I can't love you. I don't love you. Do I need to scream it? You probably wouldn't hear me even if I did."
"Is this why I came over HERE? For you to whine about seeing me with another girl. For you to get my hopes up? For you to make me almost forgive you and then blatantly hurt me? I don't need this at all."
She cried. Why did she always lie to him? Of course she needed him, of course she loved him. She threw a vase against the wall and fell to the ground in tears. She huddled on the ground, crying even harder than when she lost Colin. Ephram cringed. He knew he was the reason why all this had happened. How did the attention always get thrown back at her? Why did she always have to cry wolf? Why was it always about her? "Go then! Ephram! Go! Love Madison! Love her! Marry her! Forget me like everyone else has!"
"Amy you're not making any sense! First you tell me you don't love me, now you act jealous and sad when I yell at you. What do you want? Excuse me if I'm missing the point here, but it's kind of hard not to." He said seriously. "You ache. You ache for Colin."
"No Ephram. I ached for Colin. I really did. I just can't ever make a decision. The truth is I lied to you this whole time. I do need you. I do love you. Okay? Are you happy? Now go hurt me. Rub it in my face really good because I've been such a bitch to you for so long. I asked you here tonight to tell you what I saw. I came to tell you that I wanted you to be happy, but it back fired. Big time." She said, sobbing into her hands that were cut from the bits of glass that lie on the floor.
He weakened. "Amy, I." he said feeling embarrassed for yelling at her. Couldn't he see she was a wreck because of him? He knelt down by the glass, picking up her hand gently and examining the glass that dug into her skin. "Ouch, that hurts Ephram" she said wincing. "Amy, listen, we need to take care of this, of you."
"Don't you care at all that I lied to you?"
"Yes, but right now we can't worry about that. This looks like it could become infected. My dad's not around, neither is yours. Looks like I'm the makeshift doctor today. She looked up at him. He looked like his usual self again. She tried to stand up but realized that not only were her hands injured, but her whole stomach and legs had glass bits in them too. She fell. He caught her, picking her up and carrying her to her room.
"[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say"
Setting her down gently, he went to the bathroom to get a wash cloth and some tweezers. Before he left, he looked at himself in the mirror. She smiled. She had said she loves him. She had said she needs him. He shook himself to focus on the task at hand. When he arrived back at her side, tears were streaming down her face. "Here now," he said, pulling the pieces from her hands and wiping it with the wet cloth. She cringed and whimpered. "Shhh," he said softly, "I know it hurts, but look what we've got out already? And you're doing so well."
"Ephram," she said between gasps of pain, "I know you're angry with me. You should be. I'm not asking you to forgive me right now."
"But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return"
"I know the pain you're in. You lost the man you loved. Your whole world is completely upside down from what you wanted. I do forgive you, I just don't think you're ready to really love another man right now."
"You're right. I just, I do love you. I know we're going away to college soon and that it's dumb of me, but I couldn't leave without telling you that. Well, that I do love you."
"I love you too, Amy. You don't know how long I've waited for you to love me in return. But right now, if you do want something, we need to take it slowly. Neither one of us need a heartbreak."
"Ephram? Will you stay with me tonight?"
"I said slowly Amy." He responded staring at her, laughing.
"I mean in another room. In Bright's room. Just in case I get sick again." She said grabbing his hand.
"Oh, definitely. I'll call my dad and let him know." He said walking, then turning back to look at her. She had already closed her eyes. "Yeah, because this is what I want," he said to himself sarcastically, "she said she wants me and I turn her down. But is it for real? Sometimes I wish I didn't have the reputation of being a nice guy."
"I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know why"
A/N: Alright! There's Chapter 2! Please read and review you guys! It means a lot. Thanks for reading!
Chapter 2 uses the song "Everything you want" by Vertical Horizon and SPOILERS for "Blind Faith."
Please Read and Review!
Chapter 2 - Everything you want
It was nearing ten o' clock. Amy Abbott paced around her room, wondering what had come over her to invite Ephram over when she knew he was angry with her. She saw the bitterness in his eyes, felt the barrier he had built to protect himself from her. Maybe he was right this time. She had said she wasn't ready. She had said it was too soon. He had taken the blow like he always had before. Why did everything always go in circles with them? It was time she put a stop to it before it was too late. She need to talk to him; to make him understand that she cared for him; she just couldn't care for him in the way he needed her to.
Ephram didn't care what he wore to Amy's that night. It was the first time his heart wasn't pounding out of his chest when he thought of her. He didn't like the feeling, but he knew he had to accept it. After all, it was what she wanted. A small piece of him still was making plans to prove her wrong tonight. That piece scared and angered him. He walked up to her door, noticing no cars in the driveway. Great, no one was home, just what he needed. Ringing the doorbell, he turned around.
As she opened the door she saw him standing there, leaning up against the side of the house with an annoyed look on his face. "Ten o' clock on the dot." He said.
"Come in, it's getting cold out." She said, with a look of sincerity on her face. "Have a seat, you look uncomfortable."
"I feel uncomfortable, Amy, how else do you want me to look?" he said seriously.
"Look, I know there's a lot going on right now. I saw something. Something I shouldn't have seen. This whole time you've been keeping it a secret, but I saw it. That girl, the babysitter, you're with her."
"Madison?" he blushed, "What do you mean you saw something with her?"
"At the DMV, I saw you kiss her. I came to wait for you, to how you did. But she was there with you." She said looking down.
"It's nothing, really, Amy. Madison and I are just friends. Maybe not even friends. I was just excited about the results and" he stopped. He didn't know why he was even telling her all of this.
Amy stood up and walked over to the other side of the room, uncomfortably. He followed her. She turned her gaze toward him. "Ephram. Be with her. You promised me you wouldn't let us get in the way."
"It's not that simple. It's not like that for her. Besides, I have other things to worry about." He said. He still hadn't forgiven her.
"Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return"
"Look Ephram, I can't love you. I don't love you. Do I need to scream it? You probably wouldn't hear me even if I did."
"Is this why I came over HERE? For you to whine about seeing me with another girl. For you to get my hopes up? For you to make me almost forgive you and then blatantly hurt me? I don't need this at all."
She cried. Why did she always lie to him? Of course she needed him, of course she loved him. She threw a vase against the wall and fell to the ground in tears. She huddled on the ground, crying even harder than when she lost Colin. Ephram cringed. He knew he was the reason why all this had happened. How did the attention always get thrown back at her? Why did she always have to cry wolf? Why was it always about her? "Go then! Ephram! Go! Love Madison! Love her! Marry her! Forget me like everyone else has!"
"Amy you're not making any sense! First you tell me you don't love me, now you act jealous and sad when I yell at you. What do you want? Excuse me if I'm missing the point here, but it's kind of hard not to." He said seriously. "You ache. You ache for Colin."
"No Ephram. I ached for Colin. I really did. I just can't ever make a decision. The truth is I lied to you this whole time. I do need you. I do love you. Okay? Are you happy? Now go hurt me. Rub it in my face really good because I've been such a bitch to you for so long. I asked you here tonight to tell you what I saw. I came to tell you that I wanted you to be happy, but it back fired. Big time." She said, sobbing into her hands that were cut from the bits of glass that lie on the floor.
He weakened. "Amy, I." he said feeling embarrassed for yelling at her. Couldn't he see she was a wreck because of him? He knelt down by the glass, picking up her hand gently and examining the glass that dug into her skin. "Ouch, that hurts Ephram" she said wincing. "Amy, listen, we need to take care of this, of you."
"Don't you care at all that I lied to you?"
"Yes, but right now we can't worry about that. This looks like it could become infected. My dad's not around, neither is yours. Looks like I'm the makeshift doctor today. She looked up at him. He looked like his usual self again. She tried to stand up but realized that not only were her hands injured, but her whole stomach and legs had glass bits in them too. She fell. He caught her, picking her up and carrying her to her room.
"[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say"
Setting her down gently, he went to the bathroom to get a wash cloth and some tweezers. Before he left, he looked at himself in the mirror. She smiled. She had said she loves him. She had said she needs him. He shook himself to focus on the task at hand. When he arrived back at her side, tears were streaming down her face. "Here now," he said, pulling the pieces from her hands and wiping it with the wet cloth. She cringed and whimpered. "Shhh," he said softly, "I know it hurts, but look what we've got out already? And you're doing so well."
"Ephram," she said between gasps of pain, "I know you're angry with me. You should be. I'm not asking you to forgive me right now."
"But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return"
"I know the pain you're in. You lost the man you loved. Your whole world is completely upside down from what you wanted. I do forgive you, I just don't think you're ready to really love another man right now."
"You're right. I just, I do love you. I know we're going away to college soon and that it's dumb of me, but I couldn't leave without telling you that. Well, that I do love you."
"I love you too, Amy. You don't know how long I've waited for you to love me in return. But right now, if you do want something, we need to take it slowly. Neither one of us need a heartbreak."
"Ephram? Will you stay with me tonight?"
"I said slowly Amy." He responded staring at her, laughing.
"I mean in another room. In Bright's room. Just in case I get sick again." She said grabbing his hand.
"Oh, definitely. I'll call my dad and let him know." He said walking, then turning back to look at her. She had already closed her eyes. "Yeah, because this is what I want," he said to himself sarcastically, "she said she wants me and I turn her down. But is it for real? Sometimes I wish I didn't have the reputation of being a nice guy."
"I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know why"
A/N: Alright! There's Chapter 2! Please read and review you guys! It means a lot. Thanks for reading!