Disclaimer: I don't own Everwood, the town, or it's characters. I'm just a
college student.
Chapter 7 uses "Save Yourself" by Sensefield.
A/N: Okay A/E fans, don't worry! This chapter seems a bit much, but it'll all work out! I promise! It hurt me to write it but it's worth the outcome.
Chapter 7- Save Yourself
Madison stared at Ephram now longingly. He knew she was older than him, SHE knew she was older than him. She knew his heart belonged to someone else, and frankly she didn't care. She was in it for kicks, hell, she thought he was attractive. He needed the pain of Amy's absence to fade; needed to feel important and needed.
"I'm sorry I called you Amy. This is just the first time I've thought about anyone else other than her since I've been here." He said, lying through his teeth. He knew he was stupid and that somewhere Amy was screaming for him to stop, yelling at him and telling him he wasn't being the Ephram she knows and loves, but he couldn't listen to her now.
"What are you saying?" Madison asked, moving closer to him, "That you do want this? That you KNOW I'm not Amy and you still want this?"
"I know you aren't Amy. I don't want you to be her," again lying. He kissed Madison passionately, trying to block the image and voice of Amy out of this brain.
"You like my perfume?" Madison asked, pulling away briefly.
"Yeah, it's great." he said kissing her once again. The perfume was the same as Amy's. This didn't help at all.
Things were moving quickly, more quickly than he had ever experienced in his life. He didn't know whether this was right or not, but he knew he was caught up in the moment and just wanted to be happy, even if it was only temporary.
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"Turn out the light
Just say goodnight, to yourself
May I remind you
When you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
Cause that's when they call you, in the night
He's got your picture in his mind
He's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime"
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Amy woke up in the middle of the night, as if she could feel something was wrong. While she couldn't place it, it still bothered her. She woke up her roommate, Anne. "Anne, I can't sleep, something's very wrong."
"Amy, of course something's wrong, you miss Colin, and it's only natural."
"No, it's not that. It's something else. I think it's something back in Everwood. Something that shouldn't be happening."
"You're thinking about him again, aren't you?"
"Who?" she said with a smile on her face, beginning to blush.
"That boy in the picture with you. I saw you say goodnight to the picture, Amy. Who is he?"
"That's Ephram. He's my very best friend. He understands me." She said glowing for the first time since she had been there.
"You're in love with him, aren't you?" she asked squealing.
"I think I really am." She said pausing. With rapid hearbeat she continued, "I've said it so many times, but I think I'm really ready now. After not having him while I've been here I just feel incomplete without him."
"Why don't you call home? Maybe your family can contact Ephram if you don't want to."
"Great idea, Hope they don't get angry that I'm calling so late."
With that Amy picked up the phone and dialed home. Everwood.
Ephram and Madison were getting very close to doing something he'd regret later. He didn't love Madison, he didn't need her, or breathe her like he did with Amy. They continued to kiss and she started to take off his shirt.
"Madison, I." he was interrupted by the phone. In ways he was relieved.
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"Is it really true?
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you
Met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even
remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name"
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"Hello?" he said out of breath. Madison sat annoyed on the couch.
"Ephram? Sorry to call so late, this is Dr. Abbott."
"Oh my God, what's wrong? What's happened to her?"
"Shh, calm down, she's fine. She's just lonely. She said they might be letting her come home for good this weekend and wanted me to let you know. She felt too ashamed to call you after what happened. Son, I'm sorry about the other night. I should've believed you when you told me nothing happened. Amy and I spent a lot of time talking and she told me the truth. I want to thank you, and invite you to come over tomorrow. We're going up to visit her."
"Dr. Abbott, oh my god, yes, thank you, I've been dying to find out how she is. I was so worried. I'd love to come."
They hung up. Dr. Abbott calling was the biggest sign anyone could've sent to stop him from sleeping with Madison and making the biggest mistake of his youth. He pulled on his shirt and ran his fingers through his hair. He was beaming.
"Ephram? So, where were we?" Madison said kissing him. He pulled away immediately.
"Madison, look, I'm sorry, but what just almost happened, it wouldn't have been right. It felt good to know someone else cared for me, but I'm just lost without her. I'm hopeless and you know what? It doesn't even bother me, because she's going to be okay! She's going to come home, and she's going to be okay."
"And what if she just leaves again? She's breaking your heart."
"I'd rather have it broke and a piece of it with her than intact and never know what it feels like to truly love her."
Madison walked away. Ephram walked to his room. He fell to his knees on the floor, picking up the debris of Amy's picture and trying to tape it back together. "Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I don't love her, I don't need her. Please forgive me." He spoke quietly to her, as if he were pleading for his very soul to be saved. Sure, he had other pictures of her.he just couldn't stand the thought of her in pieces because of him, even if it WAS only a picture. He knew that if he was going to give himself in such a way to a girl someday that he almost had tonight; it would have to be Amy. Anyone else would be a lie . . . for Amy Abbott was his soul.
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"Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you so many times we
Just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
Loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name"
A/N: Yeah, so being a college student doesn't take up as much time as one would think. The weekend's coming up, but I have a feeling there still will be updates.
Chapter 7 uses "Save Yourself" by Sensefield.
A/N: Okay A/E fans, don't worry! This chapter seems a bit much, but it'll all work out! I promise! It hurt me to write it but it's worth the outcome.
Chapter 7- Save Yourself
Madison stared at Ephram now longingly. He knew she was older than him, SHE knew she was older than him. She knew his heart belonged to someone else, and frankly she didn't care. She was in it for kicks, hell, she thought he was attractive. He needed the pain of Amy's absence to fade; needed to feel important and needed.
"I'm sorry I called you Amy. This is just the first time I've thought about anyone else other than her since I've been here." He said, lying through his teeth. He knew he was stupid and that somewhere Amy was screaming for him to stop, yelling at him and telling him he wasn't being the Ephram she knows and loves, but he couldn't listen to her now.
"What are you saying?" Madison asked, moving closer to him, "That you do want this? That you KNOW I'm not Amy and you still want this?"
"I know you aren't Amy. I don't want you to be her," again lying. He kissed Madison passionately, trying to block the image and voice of Amy out of this brain.
"You like my perfume?" Madison asked, pulling away briefly.
"Yeah, it's great." he said kissing her once again. The perfume was the same as Amy's. This didn't help at all.
Things were moving quickly, more quickly than he had ever experienced in his life. He didn't know whether this was right or not, but he knew he was caught up in the moment and just wanted to be happy, even if it was only temporary.
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"Turn out the light
Just say goodnight, to yourself
May I remind you
When you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
Cause that's when they call you, in the night
He's got your picture in his mind
He's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime"
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Amy woke up in the middle of the night, as if she could feel something was wrong. While she couldn't place it, it still bothered her. She woke up her roommate, Anne. "Anne, I can't sleep, something's very wrong."
"Amy, of course something's wrong, you miss Colin, and it's only natural."
"No, it's not that. It's something else. I think it's something back in Everwood. Something that shouldn't be happening."
"You're thinking about him again, aren't you?"
"Who?" she said with a smile on her face, beginning to blush.
"That boy in the picture with you. I saw you say goodnight to the picture, Amy. Who is he?"
"That's Ephram. He's my very best friend. He understands me." She said glowing for the first time since she had been there.
"You're in love with him, aren't you?" she asked squealing.
"I think I really am." She said pausing. With rapid hearbeat she continued, "I've said it so many times, but I think I'm really ready now. After not having him while I've been here I just feel incomplete without him."
"Why don't you call home? Maybe your family can contact Ephram if you don't want to."
"Great idea, Hope they don't get angry that I'm calling so late."
With that Amy picked up the phone and dialed home. Everwood.
Ephram and Madison were getting very close to doing something he'd regret later. He didn't love Madison, he didn't need her, or breathe her like he did with Amy. They continued to kiss and she started to take off his shirt.
"Madison, I." he was interrupted by the phone. In ways he was relieved.
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"Is it really true?
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you
Met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even
remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name"
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"Hello?" he said out of breath. Madison sat annoyed on the couch.
"Ephram? Sorry to call so late, this is Dr. Abbott."
"Oh my God, what's wrong? What's happened to her?"
"Shh, calm down, she's fine. She's just lonely. She said they might be letting her come home for good this weekend and wanted me to let you know. She felt too ashamed to call you after what happened. Son, I'm sorry about the other night. I should've believed you when you told me nothing happened. Amy and I spent a lot of time talking and she told me the truth. I want to thank you, and invite you to come over tomorrow. We're going up to visit her."
"Dr. Abbott, oh my god, yes, thank you, I've been dying to find out how she is. I was so worried. I'd love to come."
They hung up. Dr. Abbott calling was the biggest sign anyone could've sent to stop him from sleeping with Madison and making the biggest mistake of his youth. He pulled on his shirt and ran his fingers through his hair. He was beaming.
"Ephram? So, where were we?" Madison said kissing him. He pulled away immediately.
"Madison, look, I'm sorry, but what just almost happened, it wouldn't have been right. It felt good to know someone else cared for me, but I'm just lost without her. I'm hopeless and you know what? It doesn't even bother me, because she's going to be okay! She's going to come home, and she's going to be okay."
"And what if she just leaves again? She's breaking your heart."
"I'd rather have it broke and a piece of it with her than intact and never know what it feels like to truly love her."
Madison walked away. Ephram walked to his room. He fell to his knees on the floor, picking up the debris of Amy's picture and trying to tape it back together. "Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. I don't love her, I don't need her. Please forgive me." He spoke quietly to her, as if he were pleading for his very soul to be saved. Sure, he had other pictures of her.he just couldn't stand the thought of her in pieces because of him, even if it WAS only a picture. He knew that if he was going to give himself in such a way to a girl someday that he almost had tonight; it would have to be Amy. Anyone else would be a lie . . . for Amy Abbott was his soul.
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"Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you so many times we
Just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
Loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name"
A/N: Yeah, so being a college student doesn't take up as much time as one would think. The weekend's coming up, but I have a feeling there still will be updates.