Tangled Webs
Chapter 15
Push
Rating: R
The Crossing Jordan characters aren't mine! They're just using my head for their personal playground!
Kaidlyn and her mother, Laura, are my own creations and therefore they're mine!
Song lyrics: "Push" by Sarah McLachlan
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"Where do you want to get something to eat?" Eddie asked gently as they pulled out of the parking lot at the hospital.
"I'm not hungry," Kaid shrugged.
"You need to eat something, baby," he looked at her, concerned.
"Let's stop by the Pogue so I can let Uncle Max know I'm ok," she finally said. "Maybe by then I'll decide what I want."
"Sounds like a plan." Eddie drove over to Max's bar and walked inside with Kaidlyn.
Max ran out from behind the bar to hug his niece. "You're alright, then?"
"Yeah, I'm ok Uncle Max," Kaid said, hugging him back. "No concussion or anything. Just stitches."
"Good," Max said, rubbing her back.
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom. I'll be right back," Kaid excused herself.
Max looked at Eddie. "She really alright?"
"Yeah," he said. "She will be. She's shaken like any of us would be. But I think she's gonna be fine."
Max nodded. "It might not be good for her to be alone tonight…" he paused.
"Max, I would never take advantage of anything…" Eddie started to protest.
"I'm not saying that. I'm just saying that if she wants to stay with you, don't feel like you have to bring her home."
"Alright, thank you, sir." Eddie shifted his weight uncomfortably.
"Eddie, I know we've had our differences, but I can honestly say that I have not ever seen her as happy as you've made her. I'm not going to blame you for anything or keep the two of you apart. And you can still call me Max." Max patted Eddie on the back. "But now if you hurt her…"
"Max, I can honestly say that I have no intention of hurting her…" He looked up as Kaid came out of the bathroom. "You ready, baby?"
"Yeah." She hugged Max again. "I'll see you later."
"Sure thing, sweetheart." Max smiled at them and waved as they walked out the door.
When they got back to the car, Eddie looked at Kaid. "Alright baby. What do you want to eat?"
"I'm still not hungry," she said. "But I suppose Chinese."
"Ok." Eddie said. He stopped by his favorite place and got an assortment of things for them to choose from. Perhaps one of them would make Kaid hungry.
Once home, he spread a picnic out on the coffee table while Kaid selected a CD from her case that she kept in Eddie's car. Sarah McLachlan again, but that was fine with him. It seemed to calm her. She walked over and sat down next to him, leaning her head on his shoulder. He was glad to see that she ate a little. When they'd finished, he moved up to the couch, pulling Kaid up with him.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked, gently.
"Nope," Kaid said. "I want to do this…" She straddled his lap and began kissing him deeply.
He responded, but then pulled away. "Kaid? What's going on?"
"I want this, Eddie. I want to know I'm alive," she said quietly. "If today proved nothing else, it's that we don't know how much time we have left. I'm sick of being scared."
"Ok…" he thought he was following her train of thought, but…
"Eddie, I love you," she said, taking his face between her hands and looking into his eyes. "I love you more than I ever thought I could love anyone." She leaned into him kissing him deeply and passionately. Eddie began to stroke her back and this time she didn't flinch when his hands wandered below the waist. He groaned as he felt her start to move against him, pressing into his body, her own hands massaging his back.
Eddie pulled back to look deep in Kaid's eyes. He'd thought it before…he had never taken any woman and would not take Kaid without her consent. He couldn't fully understand the demons she was fighting to even get this far with him. But he knew he admired her courage more than he'd ever admired anyone before.
As he stopped moving and she felt his lips leave hers, Kaid opened her eyes. "What?" she whispered, breathless with desire.
"Are you sure?" Eddie asked gently. "Are you sure you want to do this?"
Kaid's eyes filled with tears. "Oh, God Eddie," she gasped, Yes, I'm sure." She leaned in and kissed him deeply then pulled back. "I've never been more sure of anything in my life."
He nodded, but kept searching her eyes.
"Yeah, I'll admit I'm a little scared," she confessed, "but baby, I want this. I want to make love to you…and you to me. Please…" As she spoke, a song started on the CD. As Eddie heard the words of the song combined with Kaid's words, and as he saw the look in her eyes, he knew that she was being completely open and honest with him.
Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
The rest of Kaid's sentence was lost as Eddie leaned down and kissed her deeper than he thought possible. As his fingers grazed the side of her body, she moaned into his mouth, which only heightened all the senses they were feeling. He pulled back for a moment to stand, picking her up as her legs wrapped around his waist and gently carried her into the bedroom kissing her all the way down the hall.
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land
He tenderly laid her on the bed and they resumed their kissing. She pulled at his shirt, and soon he was wriggling out of it. Ditto for the undershirt and the pants, and he soon found himself in only his briefs.
Part of him was dying to rip her clothes off and take her right there, but he made himself go slowly. She was going to be in control of the evening. And if she decided at the last minute to stop, so be it. No meant no. At each step, he'd pull back to look at her, to get her confirmation that she wanted this to continue.
He untucked her shirt from her jeans and slowly unbuttoned it, running his fingers all over her abdomen, chest and sides. When the last button was undone, she wriggled out of the shirt leaving only a baby pink lace bra on the upper half of her body. Eddie kissed her shoulders, her chest, and her abdomen, continuing to graze her ever so lightly with his fingers.
When she could almost stand things no more, she pressed against him with her hips and looked up at him, her eyes begging him to take her jeans off. He hesitated for just a minute, and she took his hand and placed it on the button, nodding her assent. He unfastened the pants and gently slid them down until they joined the pile of clothing in the middle of the floor. He gasped as he saw that she was wearing a thong that matched her bra, then kissed his way up to her lips.
By this point Kaid's hands were exploring Eddie's body as well with a new intensity. He felt his nipples harden under her gentle touch and knew those weren't the only thing growing harder by the minute. He stopped his exploration of her body to allow her time to do her own of him. God, she had the gentlest touch he'd ever felt. He shuddered as her fingers passed over his shoulders and back.
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know that I believe in
They were on their sides, and he watched her eyes carefully as he felt her hands go lower and lower on his body. When she finally pulled off the briefs and reached his hardened shaft, he fought to keep his eyes open and was rewarded by a look of wonder and pure love in hers. He leaned in to kiss her and neither of them closed their eyes. As she ran her fingers up and down and gently grasped it, it was his turn to moan into her mouth, sending shivers up each of their spines. At the sensation, Kaid pressed even harder into his body ~ surprised, but not frightened by the intensity of her own reaction.
You're all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
She started to wriggle out of her bra and thong, but Eddie kissed her and slowly found the clasp in the back of the bra and undid it, slowly pulling the lace away from her skin. As he sat up to toss the bra onto the clothes, he looked at her for a moment, not believing this was happening. She was absolutely beautiful. She looked at him and whispered, "Rub my back?" then flipped over onto her stomach, revealing a small tribal tattoo on the small of her back.
He straddled her legs, then leaned down and kissed at it. "What's this?"
"Hmm? Oh, I got that on my last birthday," she whispered.
"It's beautiful," he said, kissing it again. "Just like you." He let his hands wander over her back, hoping that his fingertips were as light as hers had been. She relaxed under his touch and small moans came from her mouth. After a few minutes, when Eddie had about decided she'd fallen asleep, she rolled over, their hips practically joined.
I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say of do cause you're too good to fight about it
"Kiss me?" she said, almost shyly.
In answer he stretched out and lay completely on top of her, kissing her deeply. His hands wandered to the small scrap of material that separated them. As he grasped the waistband, he pulled back to look at her. She nodded, and he gently but quickly removed the underwear.
She could feel him against her belly and began to move her hips the way she figured she was supposed to. Eddie moaned as he kissed her and she pressed a little harder into him. When he thought he wasn't going to be able to stand it anymore, he pulled his face back and looked deeply into her eyes ~ more deeply than he had all evening ~ his eyes asking the question he was afraid to form with his mouth.
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You won't stood down to battle but you never turn to go
Kaid read his look perfectly and nodded slowly. "I'm sure. I'm sure, baby." She reached up and brought his face to hers. "Eddie, I want you to make love to me. Please…" Another deep kiss as he rolled them over so he could reach into his nightstand to get the small piece of latex.
Kaid looked at him, her eyes full of love and wonder as he opened it. "You want to do it?" She shook her head, so he rolled it on and then gently rolled her to her back, looking to her for one more confirmation. At her nod, he pulled her into a deep kiss and ever so gently positioned himself.
"Slowly, slowly," he kept repeating to himself silently. The last thing he wanted to do was hurt or scare her. Ever so gently as their kiss deepened, he pushed inside her and felt her hips rise to meet his. He felt some slight resistance, even though he knew that she technically was not a virgin, he also knew that in essence this was her first time. He pulled away from their kiss and looked at her, finding her eyes closed. "Kaidie? Look at me…" he asked gently, still slightly inside her. When she opened her eyes, he whispered, "You still ok?"
As she nodded, he held her back tightly and pushed himself all the way into her. At this new sensation, Kaid's eyes got wide and she gasped. "You ok?" He was going to keep checking on her, determined to do what he could to get those demons away. She nodded and he began to move rhythmically, alternatively kissing her and pulling back to watch her eyes, her face.
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
Slowly she began to move her body in rhythm with his as their kisses deepened. As he came closer to the edge, he kept her in a steady, deep, probing kiss, feeling her respond as his thrusts increased. Moments before his climax, he felt her arch towards him and the rhythmic contraction of her muscles sent him over the edge. Their lips still on each other's they moaned simultaneously, sending another wave of shivers down their spines.
You're all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
When it was over, Eddie carefully slipped out of her and removed the condom while pulling her into a tight embrace. She looked up at him. "I know it's gonna sound cliché," she whispered, "but you're trembling."
He laughed gently as he nodded and kissed her. "So are you," he said when they broke apart. He held her for what seemed like only a minute ~ quite different than with other lovers he'd had in the past where even a minute seemed like torture ~ when she looked up at him.
There are times I can't decide when I can't tell right from wrong
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm ok
Sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day
"Eddie?"
"Yeah, baby?"
"I love you so much."
"I love you too, Kaid. God, baby, I love you too."
She breathed deeply and then whispered softly, "Thank you…"
He didn't have to ask what for, just whispered "You're welcome," and pulled her into another kiss.
They lay, locked like that until he heard her breathing reach the slow, steady breath pattern of sleep. He looked at her and gently kissed her forehead, whispering "Good night, baby. I love you." He continued watching her, scarcely believing what she'd given him, and found he simply couldn't let her go. So he held her cradling her securely but tenderly and soon followed her in sleep, holding her in his arms.
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe
…to be continued…