HEARTACHE - Chapter 2
A couple of weeks had passed since Ross and Rachel's conversation, Ross had been missing ever since, and the rest of the gang understood it perfectly and weren't asking for anything else, he just needed time to cope with everything. Rachel and Joey had been a couple since they came back from Barbados, but there was still a weirdness between them that didn't want to vanish, specially with Rachel, she was almost running out of excusses not to have sex with him. "If you take that step you'll never be able to take it back" said Monica when she told her her problem "Beside, deep down you don't want your relationship with Joey going any further. Now you have to ask yourself why". Rachel didn't need to ask herself why, she knew it... Monica was right, sleeping with Joey would be accepting they were actually a couple, they had a relationship, they weren't just friends anymore.
"Let me ask you this" said Phoebe as the three girls were sitting in the coffe house having some coffe "when you and Ross slept together for the first time... was it this hard?, was it this unconfortable?"
"The first time Ross and I slept together?" she asked smiling, recalling that very same day, their date in the planetarium, the stars, the music... everything had been perfect
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK****
Both were lying on the display area hugging each other
"I can't believe I'm waking up next to you" she said as he kissed her shoulder
"I know, it's pretty unbelieveabl..." Ross trailed as he saw a group of kids and nuns looking at them amazed "we are not alone..."
Rachel raized her eyes and blushed, as Ross covered them with the fur
"Oh my God" she laughed "they saw us!!"
Ross looked at her and smiled "I'm soooo gonna get fired... but this was so worth it"
"I know... it was the most amazing night of my life"
"yeah?... mine too" he said before kissing her once again
***END FLASHBACK***
"RACHEL!!!!" yelled Monica
"Wha... what?" said Rachel coming back to reality
"you have a lost look on your face... what happened?" commented Phoebe
"I was just... thinking... some stuff" replied Rachel placing her hands on her forehead "good... I have a headache now... at least this gives me today's excuse...". Rachel stood up and prepared to live "I have to go pick up Emma from Ross'... thanks for listening you guys"
"No problem hun..." said Monica as Rachel left the coffe house "she really has issues huh?"
"yeah... but that's nothing new"
"Do you know what can it be... I mean... why she can't... you know?" asked Monica concern
"That's an easy one Mon" replied Phoebe as she sipped her coffe
"And why is it?"
"She still has feelings for Ross, and she knows it. She doesn't love Joey... and this whole thing is killing her, cause she knows if something else happens with Joey then nothing will ever happen with Ross... ever again" explained Phoebe matter of factly
"Do you think that's IT?" asked Joey from behind the couch
*~*
Rachel lied on her bed... thinking. Once again she had turned Joey down as Monica's words kept repeating over and over again on her head "you could never take that back", and she was right, once she had slept with Joey there was no step bacl, at all, it would change everything.... forever, so she had to make a decision, and she had to make it quick
She woke up from her bed and header to the kitchen to get a glass of milk to see if that would help her fall sleep. She checked on Emma before leaving the room. Emma, her little angel, she was everything for her, everything she had. Whenever she was feeling down all she needed was to see her daughter's smile and everything was ok. "I wish I could give you a real family honey... but things didn't work out that way... we'll be better on our own... you'll see" she whispered to the baby trying to convince herself. She had decided that she'd never get married, it would be just her and her daughter "like those Gilmore girls from that TV show" she said to herself.
Rachel was feeling nervous, she had a huge day tomorrow, and she knew it. That was why she couldn't sleep , she was anxious and scared, how this decision would affect the rest of her life and the rest of her daughter's life she had no idea, all she knew was that this was the right thing to do. There had been a point in her life where she used to feel like she really didn't want to know what was gonna happen, she just enjoyed the moment. "It was easier that way, it was easier to enjoy the moment when Ross was next to me" she though, sitted on the big yellow couch on the living room as she drank from her glass
Ross, why did everything always had to get back to Ross, every thought, every memory, every wish, it seemed like her wole life was a circle, that started and ended with him, and it didn't matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't help it, even now, 6 years after their last breakup. "6 years..." said Rachel to herself "it seems like it was just yesterday". She looked into the space for a while, she remembered clearly the last time she had called Ross her 'boyfriend', it had been before the letter fight, "damn letter" she thought
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
Rachel was sitted on Ross' lap in the back of Phoebe's granma's taxi, as they returned from their trip to the beach, next to Chandler, who had spent the whole time complaining about being sitted next to te lovebirds
"Shut up Chandler" said Ross, before going back to kiss Rachel's neck
"Oh man... why do I have to be the one sitting here watching the whole tongues interaction..." complained Chandler once more "See Monica, if you were my girlfriend we could be compiting against them for who can kiss for the longest time, and would make this trip MUCH more interesting, cause I wouldn't have to look at them... but NOOOOO... cause I'm NOT boyfriend material"
"Would you just shut up already?... and please... try to stay away" said Monica, aproaching to Chandler's hearings to whisper "you're still the guy who peed on me"
"And where do you want me to be? On top of those two?. I'm sorry, but the only way I'd have a threesome is me plus 2 girls... I've never seen Ross in any of my fantasies"
"Chandler please.... shut up... seriously..." said this time Rachel "we are trying to enjoy our reconciliation here, right honey?"
"Right sweety"
"God, I missed so much having you as my boyfriend" she gave him a quick pick on the lips
"I know... I missed you too... those 4 months have been a living hell"
"I knowww... it had been a nightmare for me too"
"Yes... living without you is a nightmare"
"Listening to you TWO is a nightmare"
"SHUT UP CHANDLER!!" yelled the whole gang
***END FLASHBACK***
"You are awake" said Joey as he came out from his bedroom rubbing his eyes
"Yeah... I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep... so I came for a glass of milk... what are you doing awake at 3 in the morning?" replied Rachel
"Nothing much" Joey headed to the kitchen and opened the fridge "just my early morning snack.... want some?"
"No... thanks... I really really don't wanna eat now" Rachel stared at him for a while, giving everything a second though "Joey, I'm actually happy that you are awake...... we... we... we kind of need to talk"
"Whata about Rach?" Joey sitted in his favorite chair with a sandwish on his hands
"This... I mean... our situation here..." rambled nervous Rachel
"Yeah?"
"Well... I.... I mean... I think... we...."
"We should end it?" asked Joey
"Wha... what?" said Rachel surprised
"What?... that wasn't what you were gonna tell me?"
"Well... yeah... that.... that was kind of IT... but... it's just... I..."
"It's ok Rach, you feel akward with all this" said Joey sitting next to her "I knew this was gonna happen... I mean... that was the only explanation for you not wanting some Joey love"
"Yeah.. that's it..." Rachel looked down "are you gonna be ok?"
"Of course Rach... you don't have to worry about me... this past two weeks were amazing, but I never allowed myself make big expectations about 'us'... so chill out... I'm ok... I'm fine... and I mean it"
"Thanks Joe... I was worried about that... I didn't want to hurt you"
"Nah... you didn't... it's ok... I knew this was going to happen" Joey was sincere, he always knew this wasn't gonna last, she belonged to Ross, and he wanted her to be happy, and she'd never be happy if they stayed together. He loved her, that was true, and that was the main reason why this heartache was really worth it... he would do or handle anything for her
"That's.... that's not all" said suddenly Rachel
"It isn't?" replied surprised Joey
"No.. there's... there's something else... I'm... I'm leaving Joe"
To be continue...
A couple of weeks had passed since Ross and Rachel's conversation, Ross had been missing ever since, and the rest of the gang understood it perfectly and weren't asking for anything else, he just needed time to cope with everything. Rachel and Joey had been a couple since they came back from Barbados, but there was still a weirdness between them that didn't want to vanish, specially with Rachel, she was almost running out of excusses not to have sex with him. "If you take that step you'll never be able to take it back" said Monica when she told her her problem "Beside, deep down you don't want your relationship with Joey going any further. Now you have to ask yourself why". Rachel didn't need to ask herself why, she knew it... Monica was right, sleeping with Joey would be accepting they were actually a couple, they had a relationship, they weren't just friends anymore.
"Let me ask you this" said Phoebe as the three girls were sitting in the coffe house having some coffe "when you and Ross slept together for the first time... was it this hard?, was it this unconfortable?"
"The first time Ross and I slept together?" she asked smiling, recalling that very same day, their date in the planetarium, the stars, the music... everything had been perfect
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK****
Both were lying on the display area hugging each other
"I can't believe I'm waking up next to you" she said as he kissed her shoulder
"I know, it's pretty unbelieveabl..." Ross trailed as he saw a group of kids and nuns looking at them amazed "we are not alone..."
Rachel raized her eyes and blushed, as Ross covered them with the fur
"Oh my God" she laughed "they saw us!!"
Ross looked at her and smiled "I'm soooo gonna get fired... but this was so worth it"
"I know... it was the most amazing night of my life"
"yeah?... mine too" he said before kissing her once again
***END FLASHBACK***
"RACHEL!!!!" yelled Monica
"Wha... what?" said Rachel coming back to reality
"you have a lost look on your face... what happened?" commented Phoebe
"I was just... thinking... some stuff" replied Rachel placing her hands on her forehead "good... I have a headache now... at least this gives me today's excuse...". Rachel stood up and prepared to live "I have to go pick up Emma from Ross'... thanks for listening you guys"
"No problem hun..." said Monica as Rachel left the coffe house "she really has issues huh?"
"yeah... but that's nothing new"
"Do you know what can it be... I mean... why she can't... you know?" asked Monica concern
"That's an easy one Mon" replied Phoebe as she sipped her coffe
"And why is it?"
"She still has feelings for Ross, and she knows it. She doesn't love Joey... and this whole thing is killing her, cause she knows if something else happens with Joey then nothing will ever happen with Ross... ever again" explained Phoebe matter of factly
"Do you think that's IT?" asked Joey from behind the couch
*~*
Rachel lied on her bed... thinking. Once again she had turned Joey down as Monica's words kept repeating over and over again on her head "you could never take that back", and she was right, once she had slept with Joey there was no step bacl, at all, it would change everything.... forever, so she had to make a decision, and she had to make it quick
She woke up from her bed and header to the kitchen to get a glass of milk to see if that would help her fall sleep. She checked on Emma before leaving the room. Emma, her little angel, she was everything for her, everything she had. Whenever she was feeling down all she needed was to see her daughter's smile and everything was ok. "I wish I could give you a real family honey... but things didn't work out that way... we'll be better on our own... you'll see" she whispered to the baby trying to convince herself. She had decided that she'd never get married, it would be just her and her daughter "like those Gilmore girls from that TV show" she said to herself.
Rachel was feeling nervous, she had a huge day tomorrow, and she knew it. That was why she couldn't sleep , she was anxious and scared, how this decision would affect the rest of her life and the rest of her daughter's life she had no idea, all she knew was that this was the right thing to do. There had been a point in her life where she used to feel like she really didn't want to know what was gonna happen, she just enjoyed the moment. "It was easier that way, it was easier to enjoy the moment when Ross was next to me" she though, sitted on the big yellow couch on the living room as she drank from her glass
Ross, why did everything always had to get back to Ross, every thought, every memory, every wish, it seemed like her wole life was a circle, that started and ended with him, and it didn't matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't help it, even now, 6 years after their last breakup. "6 years..." said Rachel to herself "it seems like it was just yesterday". She looked into the space for a while, she remembered clearly the last time she had called Ross her 'boyfriend', it had been before the letter fight, "damn letter" she thought
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
Rachel was sitted on Ross' lap in the back of Phoebe's granma's taxi, as they returned from their trip to the beach, next to Chandler, who had spent the whole time complaining about being sitted next to te lovebirds
"Shut up Chandler" said Ross, before going back to kiss Rachel's neck
"Oh man... why do I have to be the one sitting here watching the whole tongues interaction..." complained Chandler once more "See Monica, if you were my girlfriend we could be compiting against them for who can kiss for the longest time, and would make this trip MUCH more interesting, cause I wouldn't have to look at them... but NOOOOO... cause I'm NOT boyfriend material"
"Would you just shut up already?... and please... try to stay away" said Monica, aproaching to Chandler's hearings to whisper "you're still the guy who peed on me"
"And where do you want me to be? On top of those two?. I'm sorry, but the only way I'd have a threesome is me plus 2 girls... I've never seen Ross in any of my fantasies"
"Chandler please.... shut up... seriously..." said this time Rachel "we are trying to enjoy our reconciliation here, right honey?"
"Right sweety"
"God, I missed so much having you as my boyfriend" she gave him a quick pick on the lips
"I know... I missed you too... those 4 months have been a living hell"
"I knowww... it had been a nightmare for me too"
"Yes... living without you is a nightmare"
"Listening to you TWO is a nightmare"
"SHUT UP CHANDLER!!" yelled the whole gang
***END FLASHBACK***
"You are awake" said Joey as he came out from his bedroom rubbing his eyes
"Yeah... I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep... so I came for a glass of milk... what are you doing awake at 3 in the morning?" replied Rachel
"Nothing much" Joey headed to the kitchen and opened the fridge "just my early morning snack.... want some?"
"No... thanks... I really really don't wanna eat now" Rachel stared at him for a while, giving everything a second though "Joey, I'm actually happy that you are awake...... we... we... we kind of need to talk"
"Whata about Rach?" Joey sitted in his favorite chair with a sandwish on his hands
"This... I mean... our situation here..." rambled nervous Rachel
"Yeah?"
"Well... I.... I mean... I think... we...."
"We should end it?" asked Joey
"Wha... what?" said Rachel surprised
"What?... that wasn't what you were gonna tell me?"
"Well... yeah... that.... that was kind of IT... but... it's just... I..."
"It's ok Rach, you feel akward with all this" said Joey sitting next to her "I knew this was gonna happen... I mean... that was the only explanation for you not wanting some Joey love"
"Yeah.. that's it..." Rachel looked down "are you gonna be ok?"
"Of course Rach... you don't have to worry about me... this past two weeks were amazing, but I never allowed myself make big expectations about 'us'... so chill out... I'm ok... I'm fine... and I mean it"
"Thanks Joe... I was worried about that... I didn't want to hurt you"
"Nah... you didn't... it's ok... I knew this was going to happen" Joey was sincere, he always knew this wasn't gonna last, she belonged to Ross, and he wanted her to be happy, and she'd never be happy if they stayed together. He loved her, that was true, and that was the main reason why this heartache was really worth it... he would do or handle anything for her
"That's.... that's not all" said suddenly Rachel
"It isn't?" replied surprised Joey
"No.. there's... there's something else... I'm... I'm leaving Joe"
To be continue...