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HEARTACHE - Chapter 4
"So, what was the plan again?" asked Joey coming into C&M's appartment with a video tape on his hands
"for the 4th time Joe... remember the first time they got together?" replied Monica, starting to raise her voice
"Not really" replied Joey, handing the videotape to Chandler, who was standing by the tv
"I DO! I DO!" yelled Phoebe from the other side of the room "it was that day when we were watching that video from your prom day"
"Exactly!, it was then when Rachel realized how much Ross had loved her since they were young, and I was thinking that if we show them how they used to be when they were together, it would bring them back some good old memories and well... you know!" said Monica proundly of her plan
"I still think we should lock them on the roof" suggested Joey "It worked on a movie I saw the other day"
"Really?, what movie was that one?" asked Phoebe
"I don't know... but they couldn't come down, so they started to have sex... it was wild!"
"Hey I saw that one too!" said Chandler before catching a killer look from Monica "a long long long time ago when I was alone and pathetic and used to watch porn... Sorry Mon"
"It looks like some one will be sleeping in the couch today" said Phoebe, laughing at Monica and Chandler "Are you guys sure Rachel has't talked to Ross about the leaving thing?" she asked
"I don't really kno..." Monica's words were interrupted by Ross, Rachel and Emma who were entering to the appartment laughing. "it looks like she hasn't" whispered Monica to Phoebe
"Hey guys... what's up?" asked Ross, carring a sleepy Emma on his arms
"Nothing really, we were about to watch an old video of us that Joey just found... wanna join us?" offered Monica
"Just let me put this little one in bed" said Rachel, taking Emma from Ross' arms
"Can I help you?" asked him
"Of course" she replied "we'll be right back" and the three of them exited the appartment
"Look at them" comented Monica after they had exited "why are they so blind?, they'd make a wonderful family"
"I know that, you know that, but they don't seem to see it quite yet" replied Phoebe who was sitted on one of the chairs in the kitchen area
*~*
Ross put Emma in bed as Rachel watched him. She loved watching him interact with their daughter, he sure loved her as much as she did, that was one of the reasons why, after a week of having take the most important decision of her life she still hasn't told him anything... it was too hard.
"Goodnight my little princess, daddy will come to pick you up tomorrow morning" said Ross kissing Emma on her forehead as Rachel stared at him. "What?" he asked her
"Nothing... nothing... I was just... you know... watching you... you two are so cute" she replied
"You think?" he said shyly as Rachel walked to her closet to get a pair of jeans and a sweater
"Would you mind to wait outside?... I wanna change" she asked him
"yes, of course... don't take long" answer him gently before leaving the room.
He sat alone on the big yellow couch thinking, about everything and nothing at all, he had managed to keep his mind on work, movies he had seen, songs he had heard... anything but her, he didn't allow himself thinking about her anymore, she was out of limits and it was better this way, for both of them... for the three of them actually, beside, he was with Charlie. He realized that very moment that he never thought about Charlie, not even when they were spending time together, his mind was always on any other place, that was why he always forgot to call her or pick her up when he promised "How come she hasn't broken up with me?" he thought
Rachel left the room 10 minutes after Ross did, and saw him sitted on the couch, looking into the space. He was thinking, deep in thoughts she recognized, that's how well she knew him. She sat by his side without saying a word, she didn't want to interrupt him.
Ross didn't hear Rachel, he was on a whole different place, but her sweet vanilla smell brought him suddenly back to reallity realizing she was by his side. How many other times had she been by his side and he hadn't realized it untill it was too late?, he had no idea, those had been the biggest mistakes he had ever made. "Hey, didn't hear you there!" he said
"I know, I didn't want to disturb you" she said as she rested her back on the back of the couch and closed her eyes
"Headache?" he asked
"More like... backache" she replied "this hasn't been an easy week"
"Want me to give you a massage?" he offered her
"A massage?" she asked nervously. Just the idea of Ross' hands rubbing her neck and her shoulders turned her on a little, he had such wonderful and powerful, and yet genlte hands. She had always loved the way he used to touch her and sure didn't want to fall into that again.
"I know how much you love them... come here" he said placing his hands on her shoulders
"I... I really don't think this is such a good idea... I... I mean... we have to go to Monica's" she said slowly giving in
"It won't take more than 5 minutes Rach. Now relax 'cause you are too tense... just relax, let yourself go"
'let myself go?' she thought 'if I'd let myself go we wouldn't be doing this exactly'. She quickly tried to take her mind off Ross' hands on her shoulders "So, what were you thinking about when I entered?"
"Charlie" he answered
Suddenly Rachel felt a bit hurt and jealous, she didn't spect him to answer he was thinking about her as he used to do a long time ago when they were going out. But still, she had never liked Charlie, specially not now. "And how are things with her?" she asked to cover what she was really feeling
"Fine" he answered not very excited
"So... is she 'the one'?" she asked. She always asked him the same thing, everytime he had a new girlfriend, and the answer was always the same one
"Nah... I don't think so" he replied as usual "she's good, but not perfect. Ok, massage done"
Rachel rubbed her neck and it soared a lot less than a couple of minutes ago. She looked at him and smiled "You always say that"
"What?" he asked not knowing what she was talking about
"When I ask you if you think some girl is 'the one', you always answer me saying 'I don't think so'" she said imitating his voice "without giving those poor girls a chance". Suddenly she felt worried, what if she had been one of those 'good but not perfect' girls? What if that was the real reason why he had never tried to get back together?. So she had to ask. "Has... has there ever been... you know... a girl... who you actually... thought was.... you know... perfect" managed to say, not really knowing if she wanted to hear the answer.
"Yes, of course... there was" he replied and then hesitated for a moment, looked deep into her eyes and grabbed her hand. He stood silence for a while and then said: "you"
Rachel stared at him speechless. There she was again, lost in his eyes, he loved those those cute, gentle and once filled with love and devotion for her eyes, and wondered if she could still find that same love and devotion she once knew... and sorprisingly she did. Those eyes that had looked at ger so many times before and in wich she had losed herself so many others still had that same sparkle, still filled her with a warm and peaceful feeling they once did. But yet there was something different in those eyesm but she couldn't tell what it was. It was pain. One of the things Rachel had always admired about Ross' eyes was that you could actually see his soul through them, and now his soul was broken.
"Are you guys comming?" asked out loud Monica, entering to the appartment without knocking, making Ross and Rachel back away really quick "what is taking you so long?
"I'm... I'm sorry Mon" said Rachel trying to put herself together "we... we are coming". Both of them stood up from the couch and followed Monica without saying anything else... the moment had passed
*~*
The time had passed and everybody was really tired an boared
"I swear if I see Richard and you kissing again I'll shoot myself" said Chandler
"you were the one who filmed that... it's not my fault" defended Monica
"Ok... I'm leaving... beside, I have to check on my daughter" said Rachel, who was desesperated for leaving. On the video was an scene where she and Ross were kissing very passionated, and after that intense moment they had shared at her place a couple of hours ago, seeing that kiss really wasn't helping, now she wanted to kiss him even more. But she couldn't fall into that again, she had made a promise to herself 6 months ago, and she was determinated to make it happen
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
It was their last argument, their last fight, Rachel was sure about that, this was his last chance. She was tired, tired of him thinking she was his propety without even doing anything about them, she wanted be with him, more than anything in the world, and still hasn't lost faith... but now she had had it... if he didn't tell anything now she would just leave and never look back... if he didn't say anything about it she would defenetly move on forever
"We said that we would, we would live together as long as this makes sense. An maybe this, you know, just doesn't make sense anymore" she said trying to give him the last chance to stop her
"Yeah, maybe not. So what do you wanna do?" He replied. And that was it... at least for her
"Emma and I will move out... I can't keep living with you anymore... I'm sorry" she managed to say fighting her tears. She didn't want him to see her cry, she wouldn't let him to see her hurt, it wasn't worth it anymore, nothing of this was worth it anymore.
She entered her room, took a couple of bags and started filled them with some of her clothes and some of Emma's while she cried. She would come to pick the rest when she had cooled off.
Rachel sat on her bed for a while and looked at Emma's crib "I'm sorry honey... it just didn't work". And she cried again... she was so tired of getting hurt by Ross... maybe he didn't love her anymore, and she had just made ilussions of something that once was but will never be again. But this time it was over, she would defentetly move on, "this is the last time I'll cry for him" she swear as she wiped her tears before taking a still sleeping Emma off her crib and puting her on her stroller.
***END FLASHBACK***END FLASHBACK***
Rachel walked into her appartment followed by Monica
"Are you ok Rach?" she asked
"Yeah" answered Rachel "just a bit tired... that's all"
"Are you sure?" insisted Monica
"Yes, just need to catch some sleep, this has been a pretty rough week"
"Are you sure there isn't anything else?" insisted again Monica
"NO MON!" said Rachel losing her patience
"Then can you explain me those weird looks between you and my brother" asked Monica seriously
"It was nothing ok... it was wierd watching us kissing on the tv... that's all"
"Weird?... as in... 'I miss doing that' kind of weird?" asked Monica filled with hope that her plan had worked out
"No... weird as in... he's my friend and we haven't been a couple in such a long time. I mean... wasn't weird for you watching you kissing Richard?"
"yeah, but that's a whole different thing Rach. After I broke up with him we never got together again, or got married or had a daughter... you two did. Or are you gonna tell me you don't miss kissing my brother at all?"
Rachel looked at Monica, she couldn't lie to her best friend, kissing Ross again had been in her head the whole night, specially after watching in on tv "you know what... I remember that kiss" she said
"Really?" replied Monica surprised "I don't even remember the last kiss Chandler gave me, and that was like 30 minutes ago"
"I have a lot of memories from that time... I think I have more memories from that time than from any other moment on my life" said Rachel with a nostalgic tone on her voice
*~*
"Chandler, you are out of beers" said Ross looking inside the fridge
"Really?... all of them?"
"Yeah, we pretty much finnished them all"
"Go to my place, I think we still have a package there" suggested Joey
"Great idea man!" said Ross and walked to Joey's appartment.
Ross opened the door and listen to Rachel and Monica's conversation
"I have a lot of memories from that time... I think I have more memories from that time than from any other moment on my life" he heared Rachel said. Was she talking about the time when they were together?
"Well, I've read somewhere that people tend to keep the happiest memories of their lifes and erase the bad ones.... you were pretty happy with Ross... I remember that" said Monica and a smile appeared on Ross' face, they were indeed talking about the time they were together
"I was, pretty happy... that's true" suddenly Rachel saw Ross standing by the door "Ross?!" she said kind of surprised and scared, 'did he hear anything of what we were talking about?' she thought
"I...I just came to... to pick up some bears" he managed to say
"Ow... ok then... I'm going to bed... bye Mon"
"Bye Rach"
"Bye Ross"
"Good night Rach" said him smiling at her. She smiled him back and then entered to her bedroom
Noticing the 'interaction' between her friend and her brother she smiled to herself.... "mission archived" she said to herself and left the appartment
TO BE CONTINUED....
HEARTACHE - Chapter 4
"So, what was the plan again?" asked Joey coming into C&M's appartment with a video tape on his hands
"for the 4th time Joe... remember the first time they got together?" replied Monica, starting to raise her voice
"Not really" replied Joey, handing the videotape to Chandler, who was standing by the tv
"I DO! I DO!" yelled Phoebe from the other side of the room "it was that day when we were watching that video from your prom day"
"Exactly!, it was then when Rachel realized how much Ross had loved her since they were young, and I was thinking that if we show them how they used to be when they were together, it would bring them back some good old memories and well... you know!" said Monica proundly of her plan
"I still think we should lock them on the roof" suggested Joey "It worked on a movie I saw the other day"
"Really?, what movie was that one?" asked Phoebe
"I don't know... but they couldn't come down, so they started to have sex... it was wild!"
"Hey I saw that one too!" said Chandler before catching a killer look from Monica "a long long long time ago when I was alone and pathetic and used to watch porn... Sorry Mon"
"It looks like some one will be sleeping in the couch today" said Phoebe, laughing at Monica and Chandler "Are you guys sure Rachel has't talked to Ross about the leaving thing?" she asked
"I don't really kno..." Monica's words were interrupted by Ross, Rachel and Emma who were entering to the appartment laughing. "it looks like she hasn't" whispered Monica to Phoebe
"Hey guys... what's up?" asked Ross, carring a sleepy Emma on his arms
"Nothing really, we were about to watch an old video of us that Joey just found... wanna join us?" offered Monica
"Just let me put this little one in bed" said Rachel, taking Emma from Ross' arms
"Can I help you?" asked him
"Of course" she replied "we'll be right back" and the three of them exited the appartment
"Look at them" comented Monica after they had exited "why are they so blind?, they'd make a wonderful family"
"I know that, you know that, but they don't seem to see it quite yet" replied Phoebe who was sitted on one of the chairs in the kitchen area
*~*
Ross put Emma in bed as Rachel watched him. She loved watching him interact with their daughter, he sure loved her as much as she did, that was one of the reasons why, after a week of having take the most important decision of her life she still hasn't told him anything... it was too hard.
"Goodnight my little princess, daddy will come to pick you up tomorrow morning" said Ross kissing Emma on her forehead as Rachel stared at him. "What?" he asked her
"Nothing... nothing... I was just... you know... watching you... you two are so cute" she replied
"You think?" he said shyly as Rachel walked to her closet to get a pair of jeans and a sweater
"Would you mind to wait outside?... I wanna change" she asked him
"yes, of course... don't take long" answer him gently before leaving the room.
He sat alone on the big yellow couch thinking, about everything and nothing at all, he had managed to keep his mind on work, movies he had seen, songs he had heard... anything but her, he didn't allow himself thinking about her anymore, she was out of limits and it was better this way, for both of them... for the three of them actually, beside, he was with Charlie. He realized that very moment that he never thought about Charlie, not even when they were spending time together, his mind was always on any other place, that was why he always forgot to call her or pick her up when he promised "How come she hasn't broken up with me?" he thought
Rachel left the room 10 minutes after Ross did, and saw him sitted on the couch, looking into the space. He was thinking, deep in thoughts she recognized, that's how well she knew him. She sat by his side without saying a word, she didn't want to interrupt him.
Ross didn't hear Rachel, he was on a whole different place, but her sweet vanilla smell brought him suddenly back to reallity realizing she was by his side. How many other times had she been by his side and he hadn't realized it untill it was too late?, he had no idea, those had been the biggest mistakes he had ever made. "Hey, didn't hear you there!" he said
"I know, I didn't want to disturb you" she said as she rested her back on the back of the couch and closed her eyes
"Headache?" he asked
"More like... backache" she replied "this hasn't been an easy week"
"Want me to give you a massage?" he offered her
"A massage?" she asked nervously. Just the idea of Ross' hands rubbing her neck and her shoulders turned her on a little, he had such wonderful and powerful, and yet genlte hands. She had always loved the way he used to touch her and sure didn't want to fall into that again.
"I know how much you love them... come here" he said placing his hands on her shoulders
"I... I really don't think this is such a good idea... I... I mean... we have to go to Monica's" she said slowly giving in
"It won't take more than 5 minutes Rach. Now relax 'cause you are too tense... just relax, let yourself go"
'let myself go?' she thought 'if I'd let myself go we wouldn't be doing this exactly'. She quickly tried to take her mind off Ross' hands on her shoulders "So, what were you thinking about when I entered?"
"Charlie" he answered
Suddenly Rachel felt a bit hurt and jealous, she didn't spect him to answer he was thinking about her as he used to do a long time ago when they were going out. But still, she had never liked Charlie, specially not now. "And how are things with her?" she asked to cover what she was really feeling
"Fine" he answered not very excited
"So... is she 'the one'?" she asked. She always asked him the same thing, everytime he had a new girlfriend, and the answer was always the same one
"Nah... I don't think so" he replied as usual "she's good, but not perfect. Ok, massage done"
Rachel rubbed her neck and it soared a lot less than a couple of minutes ago. She looked at him and smiled "You always say that"
"What?" he asked not knowing what she was talking about
"When I ask you if you think some girl is 'the one', you always answer me saying 'I don't think so'" she said imitating his voice "without giving those poor girls a chance". Suddenly she felt worried, what if she had been one of those 'good but not perfect' girls? What if that was the real reason why he had never tried to get back together?. So she had to ask. "Has... has there ever been... you know... a girl... who you actually... thought was.... you know... perfect" managed to say, not really knowing if she wanted to hear the answer.
"Yes, of course... there was" he replied and then hesitated for a moment, looked deep into her eyes and grabbed her hand. He stood silence for a while and then said: "you"
Rachel stared at him speechless. There she was again, lost in his eyes, he loved those those cute, gentle and once filled with love and devotion for her eyes, and wondered if she could still find that same love and devotion she once knew... and sorprisingly she did. Those eyes that had looked at ger so many times before and in wich she had losed herself so many others still had that same sparkle, still filled her with a warm and peaceful feeling they once did. But yet there was something different in those eyesm but she couldn't tell what it was. It was pain. One of the things Rachel had always admired about Ross' eyes was that you could actually see his soul through them, and now his soul was broken.
"Are you guys comming?" asked out loud Monica, entering to the appartment without knocking, making Ross and Rachel back away really quick "what is taking you so long?
"I'm... I'm sorry Mon" said Rachel trying to put herself together "we... we are coming". Both of them stood up from the couch and followed Monica without saying anything else... the moment had passed
*~*
The time had passed and everybody was really tired an boared
"I swear if I see Richard and you kissing again I'll shoot myself" said Chandler
"you were the one who filmed that... it's not my fault" defended Monica
"Ok... I'm leaving... beside, I have to check on my daughter" said Rachel, who was desesperated for leaving. On the video was an scene where she and Ross were kissing very passionated, and after that intense moment they had shared at her place a couple of hours ago, seeing that kiss really wasn't helping, now she wanted to kiss him even more. But she couldn't fall into that again, she had made a promise to herself 6 months ago, and she was determinated to make it happen
***FLASHBACK***FLASHBACK***
It was their last argument, their last fight, Rachel was sure about that, this was his last chance. She was tired, tired of him thinking she was his propety without even doing anything about them, she wanted be with him, more than anything in the world, and still hasn't lost faith... but now she had had it... if he didn't tell anything now she would just leave and never look back... if he didn't say anything about it she would defenetly move on forever
"We said that we would, we would live together as long as this makes sense. An maybe this, you know, just doesn't make sense anymore" she said trying to give him the last chance to stop her
"Yeah, maybe not. So what do you wanna do?" He replied. And that was it... at least for her
"Emma and I will move out... I can't keep living with you anymore... I'm sorry" she managed to say fighting her tears. She didn't want him to see her cry, she wouldn't let him to see her hurt, it wasn't worth it anymore, nothing of this was worth it anymore.
She entered her room, took a couple of bags and started filled them with some of her clothes and some of Emma's while she cried. She would come to pick the rest when she had cooled off.
Rachel sat on her bed for a while and looked at Emma's crib "I'm sorry honey... it just didn't work". And she cried again... she was so tired of getting hurt by Ross... maybe he didn't love her anymore, and she had just made ilussions of something that once was but will never be again. But this time it was over, she would defentetly move on, "this is the last time I'll cry for him" she swear as she wiped her tears before taking a still sleeping Emma off her crib and puting her on her stroller.
***END FLASHBACK***END FLASHBACK***
Rachel walked into her appartment followed by Monica
"Are you ok Rach?" she asked
"Yeah" answered Rachel "just a bit tired... that's all"
"Are you sure?" insisted Monica
"Yes, just need to catch some sleep, this has been a pretty rough week"
"Are you sure there isn't anything else?" insisted again Monica
"NO MON!" said Rachel losing her patience
"Then can you explain me those weird looks between you and my brother" asked Monica seriously
"It was nothing ok... it was wierd watching us kissing on the tv... that's all"
"Weird?... as in... 'I miss doing that' kind of weird?" asked Monica filled with hope that her plan had worked out
"No... weird as in... he's my friend and we haven't been a couple in such a long time. I mean... wasn't weird for you watching you kissing Richard?"
"yeah, but that's a whole different thing Rach. After I broke up with him we never got together again, or got married or had a daughter... you two did. Or are you gonna tell me you don't miss kissing my brother at all?"
Rachel looked at Monica, she couldn't lie to her best friend, kissing Ross again had been in her head the whole night, specially after watching in on tv "you know what... I remember that kiss" she said
"Really?" replied Monica surprised "I don't even remember the last kiss Chandler gave me, and that was like 30 minutes ago"
"I have a lot of memories from that time... I think I have more memories from that time than from any other moment on my life" said Rachel with a nostalgic tone on her voice
*~*
"Chandler, you are out of beers" said Ross looking inside the fridge
"Really?... all of them?"
"Yeah, we pretty much finnished them all"
"Go to my place, I think we still have a package there" suggested Joey
"Great idea man!" said Ross and walked to Joey's appartment.
Ross opened the door and listen to Rachel and Monica's conversation
"I have a lot of memories from that time... I think I have more memories from that time than from any other moment on my life" he heared Rachel said. Was she talking about the time when they were together?
"Well, I've read somewhere that people tend to keep the happiest memories of their lifes and erase the bad ones.... you were pretty happy with Ross... I remember that" said Monica and a smile appeared on Ross' face, they were indeed talking about the time they were together
"I was, pretty happy... that's true" suddenly Rachel saw Ross standing by the door "Ross?!" she said kind of surprised and scared, 'did he hear anything of what we were talking about?' she thought
"I...I just came to... to pick up some bears" he managed to say
"Ow... ok then... I'm going to bed... bye Mon"
"Bye Rach"
"Bye Ross"
"Good night Rach" said him smiling at her. She smiled him back and then entered to her bedroom
Noticing the 'interaction' between her friend and her brother she smiled to herself.... "mission archived" she said to herself and left the appartment
TO BE CONTINUED....