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HEARTACHE - Chapter 6
Rachel was sitting on Central Perk by herself having a coffe. "What did that mean?" she asked to herself. For the past 12 hours she hasn't been able to take the kiss she and Ross shared the previous night off her mind. They hadn't kissed in more than a year, and she was sure nothing else was going to happen between them. She had promised to herself. But now here she was again, thinking about him like a teenage girl with a crush, sleepless and drowning in many thoughts of all the things that could happen from now on.
She was sure of one thing. If Ross had finaly made his mind and this was IT, she wouldn't go anywhere... why would she?. If this was IT, she would finally had everything she had ever wanted. If this was IT, she would finally have Ross, she would finally be happy again.
She smiled. Maybe this was the new begining she had been looking for, kind of different than the one she had thought, but much better
"Rachel?... hi" She heard someone saying from behind the couch. It took her a while to recognize who it was. It was Charlie's voice
"Charlie... hi" said Rachel turning around and giving her the best fake smile she could. She couldn't stand her
"Have you seen Ross?" asked Charlie on a sweet tone that made Rachel want to puke
"Ross?... no... why?
"I need to talk to him about something"
"I heard you guys broke up" said Rachel faking a concert tone in her voice. "Too bad" added sarcasticly
"Yeah well... exactly about that is what I wanna talk to him about"
"Re... Really?" asked Rachel, kind of worried "do you wanna get back together or something?"
"Yes, I really do. I shouldn't have said what I said. I know you guys are friends... it's just that... because of Emma you spend so much time together, and everything gets a bit complicated"
"wow wow wow wow wow. You broke up with him because of me?" asked proudly Rachel
"Yes... I know it was silly, you guys are friends"
"Yes, we are friends" said Rachel "a bit more than friends" she thought to herself
"That's why I need to talk to him"
"Good luck then" said finally Rachel sarcasticly
"Thanks" replied Charlie before leaving the coffehouse
*~*
Ross didn't know what to do, or what to think. That kiss had took him by surpirse. He didn't spect it at all. And now he was confused. Did she want him back? Or was it just the excitment of the moment?. After all, a couple of months ago she had dated Joey, and seemed totally over him. Until last night, he was sure he had lost her forever, and suddenly, out of the blue, they had kissed again. What should he do? Should he go and tell her what he felt? Or should he just keep everything to himself once again?. Keeping all to himself? He wasn't so sure he would be able to do that, specially not after that kiss.
There was a knocking in his office door. For a second he thought it was Rachel and smiled. But he was mistaken. It was Charlie.
"May I help you?" he asked polite. He wasn't mad at her or even hurt, in fact, he was thankful, cause her words had helped him realize something he already knew, but hadn't really accepted until she said it. He could never love another woman the way he loved Rachel.
"Ross, I wanna talk to you"
"About what?... I thought you were pretty clear yesterday. You said this was over"
"I know I said that. But you have to understand, your situation with Rachel isn't something so easy to get use to" she explained
"But..."
"But" she interrumpted him "But now I understand it. You are just friends. It was a silly thing acting the way I did"
"No, it wa..." he tried to explain her again
"No Ross... I was wrong... even Rachel think so"
"What?" asked Ross confused "you... you talked to Rachel?... when?"
"Today. I was looking for you. She was on the coffe place..."
"And... and she told you we were just friends?"
"Yes... she even wished me luck when I told her I was gonna try to fix things up with you"
Ross felt his heart breaking once again, he didn't even know it still had pieces to break. The kiss had ment nothing to her... how could he be so stupid "I see" he said softly
"So?" asked Charlie smiling
"So what?" he asked her, fighting the tears that were forming in his eyes
"Can you forgive me for what I said yesterday?"
"Yes... of course I can, you are forgiven" He smiled at her and quickly looked away
"Sooo, we are back together then?" she said seductively aproaching to him
"No" he replied quickly, with his eyes fixed on the door
"What?" she asked him hurt
"I'm sorry... but I really, really, really need to be on my own"
*~*
***FLASHBACKS***FLASHBACKS***
Rachel woke up a bit dizzy. It took her a while to realize where she was and recolect what had happened the night before. She look by her right side and saw Ross sleeping. She smiled. It had been so long since the last time she woke up by his side, but she hadn't forgoten the feeling.
Last night had been a bit crazy. She had came home worried cause she had forgoten to send the invitations to Monica and Chandler's wedding. She only had until the next day in the morning to do so, or the invitations would never arrived on time. And she hadn't even adressed them!.
Luckyly for her Ross had been there when she arrived and offered to help her while they drak a glass of wine.
The night went through, the invitations where addressed on their envelops and the glass of wine had become a bottle and a half. Feeling a little bit drunk, Rachel let all her inivitions away and came on to Ross on a very slight way, so if anyone would ever ask she'd say he came on to her. No one else knew the Europe story anyway.
The truth was she wanted to be with him, she wanted to have that bonus night they had talked about on Monica and Chandler's engagement night. She wanted to have sex with him once again, but not for the sex itself, but for the feeling of being with Ross.
She had always thought that Ross and her would he the first ones, and maybe the only ones, in the gang to marry each other. It was the way she assumed this whole crazy story was going to end. And seeing how happy and comminted to each other Chandler and Monica were, made her think about how far away from that and from each other Ross and her were. Maybe this night would help them to get closer again. Maybe this would help to stay together again, but this time.... forever.
She looked at him once again and stroke his hair. He started to wake up
"Hey you" she said smiling
"Hey..." replied Ross, looking at her with a confused look on his face
"How did you sleep?" she asked him sweetly
"Ok I guess.... God.... I have a terrible headache.... how much wine did we drink?" asked Ross rubbing his temple
"A bottle, or two... I'm not sure. Do you want an aspirin with your breakfast?" asked Rachel waking up from the bed and putting her robe on
"What time it is?"
"Nine..... thirty" she replied looking at her watch
"I better get going then.... we don't want Joey to see me, right?"
Rachel looked at him hurt. "Right" she replied looking down.
Ross got dressed while Rachel was in the kitchen making herself some breakfast
"Are you sure you don't want something to eat?" he asked him when he left her room wearing his pants and a white t-shirt "I'm sure Joey won't wake up in a couple of hours"
"I'm possitive" he replied. He knew by the tone in her voice and the look in her eyes that there was something bothering her. "Rach... last night was wonderful, and you know you'd never be just one night stand thing for me. But we don't wanna go down that road, right?" he said lifting her chin
Rachel looked at him, into his beautiful and sparkling brown eyes. Probably he was right, going down that road again would have been too complicated, no matter how much she wanted it. "You're right" she said, smiling at him weakly. "Let's just leave it at one night thing no one has to know about".
He looked into her eyes, took hold her face with his hand and kissed her very softly on the lips.
"Bye Rach" he said before leaving the appartment
"Bye" she replied softly. And the weirdest feeling filled her. The feeling of having lost something very dear to her, and at the same time winning something else. She couldn't understand what it was. "Weird" she thought. But that night she had won the biggest price of her life. Emma.
***END FLASHBACK***END FLASHBACK***
Rachel looked at her daughter who was sleeping peacefully. She couldn't stop thinking about the night she had been concived. The morning after that night she had made so many ilusions about getting back together with Ross once and for all, but he had managed to crash them all down. Just like he had just done that evening.
"It was a mistake Rachel. We were just caught in the moment. We should becareful, you know... for Emma" he had said.
She was so sure this was going to be IT, she had let her hopes get so high, but then again, Ross had managed to break them all down, along with her heart once again just because. She had broken the promise she had made to herself and that had costed her just another heartache. But it was over. This time was truely over. There was no going back now. She would leave New York after Phoebe's wedding and never look back. She would get Ross out of her life and out of her heart once and for all.
*~*
Ross laid on his bed sleepless. Rachel only saw him as a friend, Charlie had told him that. How could he had been so stupid to actually thing she wanted to get back together with him?.
"Yeah, I understand you. Actually I was gonna tell you the same thing. It was a mistake" she had said to him without even looking at his face.
He had gone to talk to her about the kiss and to clear everything up before she did it, that way he could keep his pride and she would get rid of the thins thing without feeling guilty. He didn't want to bother her in anyway. All he wanted was her happiness... nothing more, but he had no idea how far she was from that.
TO BE CONTINUE....
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dum dum dummmmm.... hehehe.... I'm stopping now.... I know it was a sad chapter.... but well.... you know how this love thing is... specially when it comes to Ross and Rachel ... they've never made things easy for each other
Please read and review... as usual.... .... knowing that you are reading this made me really really happy....
I'll try to make a happier chapter the next time. but I can't promise you anything. I'm trying to keep the tension 'till the very end. wich it doesn't mean nothing else Hill happen between Ross and Rachel. you just have to wait and see ;).
HEARTACHE - Chapter 6
Rachel was sitting on Central Perk by herself having a coffe. "What did that mean?" she asked to herself. For the past 12 hours she hasn't been able to take the kiss she and Ross shared the previous night off her mind. They hadn't kissed in more than a year, and she was sure nothing else was going to happen between them. She had promised to herself. But now here she was again, thinking about him like a teenage girl with a crush, sleepless and drowning in many thoughts of all the things that could happen from now on.
She was sure of one thing. If Ross had finaly made his mind and this was IT, she wouldn't go anywhere... why would she?. If this was IT, she would finally had everything she had ever wanted. If this was IT, she would finally have Ross, she would finally be happy again.
She smiled. Maybe this was the new begining she had been looking for, kind of different than the one she had thought, but much better
"Rachel?... hi" She heard someone saying from behind the couch. It took her a while to recognize who it was. It was Charlie's voice
"Charlie... hi" said Rachel turning around and giving her the best fake smile she could. She couldn't stand her
"Have you seen Ross?" asked Charlie on a sweet tone that made Rachel want to puke
"Ross?... no... why?
"I need to talk to him about something"
"I heard you guys broke up" said Rachel faking a concert tone in her voice. "Too bad" added sarcasticly
"Yeah well... exactly about that is what I wanna talk to him about"
"Re... Really?" asked Rachel, kind of worried "do you wanna get back together or something?"
"Yes, I really do. I shouldn't have said what I said. I know you guys are friends... it's just that... because of Emma you spend so much time together, and everything gets a bit complicated"
"wow wow wow wow wow. You broke up with him because of me?" asked proudly Rachel
"Yes... I know it was silly, you guys are friends"
"Yes, we are friends" said Rachel "a bit more than friends" she thought to herself
"That's why I need to talk to him"
"Good luck then" said finally Rachel sarcasticly
"Thanks" replied Charlie before leaving the coffehouse
*~*
Ross didn't know what to do, or what to think. That kiss had took him by surpirse. He didn't spect it at all. And now he was confused. Did she want him back? Or was it just the excitment of the moment?. After all, a couple of months ago she had dated Joey, and seemed totally over him. Until last night, he was sure he had lost her forever, and suddenly, out of the blue, they had kissed again. What should he do? Should he go and tell her what he felt? Or should he just keep everything to himself once again?. Keeping all to himself? He wasn't so sure he would be able to do that, specially not after that kiss.
There was a knocking in his office door. For a second he thought it was Rachel and smiled. But he was mistaken. It was Charlie.
"May I help you?" he asked polite. He wasn't mad at her or even hurt, in fact, he was thankful, cause her words had helped him realize something he already knew, but hadn't really accepted until she said it. He could never love another woman the way he loved Rachel.
"Ross, I wanna talk to you"
"About what?... I thought you were pretty clear yesterday. You said this was over"
"I know I said that. But you have to understand, your situation with Rachel isn't something so easy to get use to" she explained
"But..."
"But" she interrumpted him "But now I understand it. You are just friends. It was a silly thing acting the way I did"
"No, it wa..." he tried to explain her again
"No Ross... I was wrong... even Rachel think so"
"What?" asked Ross confused "you... you talked to Rachel?... when?"
"Today. I was looking for you. She was on the coffe place..."
"And... and she told you we were just friends?"
"Yes... she even wished me luck when I told her I was gonna try to fix things up with you"
Ross felt his heart breaking once again, he didn't even know it still had pieces to break. The kiss had ment nothing to her... how could he be so stupid "I see" he said softly
"So?" asked Charlie smiling
"So what?" he asked her, fighting the tears that were forming in his eyes
"Can you forgive me for what I said yesterday?"
"Yes... of course I can, you are forgiven" He smiled at her and quickly looked away
"Sooo, we are back together then?" she said seductively aproaching to him
"No" he replied quickly, with his eyes fixed on the door
"What?" she asked him hurt
"I'm sorry... but I really, really, really need to be on my own"
*~*
***FLASHBACKS***FLASHBACKS***
Rachel woke up a bit dizzy. It took her a while to realize where she was and recolect what had happened the night before. She look by her right side and saw Ross sleeping. She smiled. It had been so long since the last time she woke up by his side, but she hadn't forgoten the feeling.
Last night had been a bit crazy. She had came home worried cause she had forgoten to send the invitations to Monica and Chandler's wedding. She only had until the next day in the morning to do so, or the invitations would never arrived on time. And she hadn't even adressed them!.
Luckyly for her Ross had been there when she arrived and offered to help her while they drak a glass of wine.
The night went through, the invitations where addressed on their envelops and the glass of wine had become a bottle and a half. Feeling a little bit drunk, Rachel let all her inivitions away and came on to Ross on a very slight way, so if anyone would ever ask she'd say he came on to her. No one else knew the Europe story anyway.
The truth was she wanted to be with him, she wanted to have that bonus night they had talked about on Monica and Chandler's engagement night. She wanted to have sex with him once again, but not for the sex itself, but for the feeling of being with Ross.
She had always thought that Ross and her would he the first ones, and maybe the only ones, in the gang to marry each other. It was the way she assumed this whole crazy story was going to end. And seeing how happy and comminted to each other Chandler and Monica were, made her think about how far away from that and from each other Ross and her were. Maybe this night would help them to get closer again. Maybe this would help to stay together again, but this time.... forever.
She looked at him once again and stroke his hair. He started to wake up
"Hey you" she said smiling
"Hey..." replied Ross, looking at her with a confused look on his face
"How did you sleep?" she asked him sweetly
"Ok I guess.... God.... I have a terrible headache.... how much wine did we drink?" asked Ross rubbing his temple
"A bottle, or two... I'm not sure. Do you want an aspirin with your breakfast?" asked Rachel waking up from the bed and putting her robe on
"What time it is?"
"Nine..... thirty" she replied looking at her watch
"I better get going then.... we don't want Joey to see me, right?"
Rachel looked at him hurt. "Right" she replied looking down.
Ross got dressed while Rachel was in the kitchen making herself some breakfast
"Are you sure you don't want something to eat?" he asked him when he left her room wearing his pants and a white t-shirt "I'm sure Joey won't wake up in a couple of hours"
"I'm possitive" he replied. He knew by the tone in her voice and the look in her eyes that there was something bothering her. "Rach... last night was wonderful, and you know you'd never be just one night stand thing for me. But we don't wanna go down that road, right?" he said lifting her chin
Rachel looked at him, into his beautiful and sparkling brown eyes. Probably he was right, going down that road again would have been too complicated, no matter how much she wanted it. "You're right" she said, smiling at him weakly. "Let's just leave it at one night thing no one has to know about".
He looked into her eyes, took hold her face with his hand and kissed her very softly on the lips.
"Bye Rach" he said before leaving the appartment
"Bye" she replied softly. And the weirdest feeling filled her. The feeling of having lost something very dear to her, and at the same time winning something else. She couldn't understand what it was. "Weird" she thought. But that night she had won the biggest price of her life. Emma.
***END FLASHBACK***END FLASHBACK***
Rachel looked at her daughter who was sleeping peacefully. She couldn't stop thinking about the night she had been concived. The morning after that night she had made so many ilusions about getting back together with Ross once and for all, but he had managed to crash them all down. Just like he had just done that evening.
"It was a mistake Rachel. We were just caught in the moment. We should becareful, you know... for Emma" he had said.
She was so sure this was going to be IT, she had let her hopes get so high, but then again, Ross had managed to break them all down, along with her heart once again just because. She had broken the promise she had made to herself and that had costed her just another heartache. But it was over. This time was truely over. There was no going back now. She would leave New York after Phoebe's wedding and never look back. She would get Ross out of her life and out of her heart once and for all.
*~*
Ross laid on his bed sleepless. Rachel only saw him as a friend, Charlie had told him that. How could he had been so stupid to actually thing she wanted to get back together with him?.
"Yeah, I understand you. Actually I was gonna tell you the same thing. It was a mistake" she had said to him without even looking at his face.
He had gone to talk to her about the kiss and to clear everything up before she did it, that way he could keep his pride and she would get rid of the thins thing without feeling guilty. He didn't want to bother her in anyway. All he wanted was her happiness... nothing more, but he had no idea how far she was from that.
TO BE CONTINUE....
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dum dum dummmmm.... hehehe.... I'm stopping now.... I know it was a sad chapter.... but well.... you know how this love thing is... specially when it comes to Ross and Rachel ... they've never made things easy for each other
Please read and review... as usual.... .... knowing that you are reading this made me really really happy....
I'll try to make a happier chapter the next time. but I can't promise you anything. I'm trying to keep the tension 'till the very end. wich it doesn't mean nothing else Hill happen between Ross and Rachel. you just have to wait and see ;).