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HEARTACHES - CHAPTER 7
Ross was sited on the big brown couch in his apartment. Phoebe's wedding was already here, and he was all dressed up with his tuxedo and ready to pick up his date for the evening. Rachel. It wasn't a real date actually, as both of them were the only ones dateless of the group, Phoebe suggested them to go together "you know each other, you like each other. it's perfect!" she had said when they were all hanging out on the coffee place the a couple of days before. And both of them agreed, probably cause they were too polite to say no in front of the other, or cause it was Phoebe's idea and it was Phoebe's wedding.
"Ok man, you have to put yourself together, this isn't a real date" he said to himself as he stood up from the couch and left the apartment
He wasn't sure why, but Rachel had seemed kind of distant lately. After they kissed, over a month ago, she had started acting different with him, avoiding him, not looking straight into his eyes and talking to him just when it was extremely necessary and only about Emma. She has said she wanted them to be only friends, but she was acting like she was hurt. Ross couldn't understand why
"Hey" he greeted nervously as she opened the door "ready to go?"
"Give me just a second. I'll finish my make up and we'll be on our way" she said entering to the bathroom
"you. you look terrific in that dress" he said, trying to break the ice, trying to return to the way they used to be
"Thanks" was everything Rachel replied from the bathroom
Ross sited on Joey's chair and sighed, this was gonna be a long night
"My mom came to pick up Emma like an hour ago. I told her we would go for her after the party" she said as she grabbed her purse and her coat from the sofa
"No problem" replied Ross, taking her coat and helping her to put it on
"Thanks" replied Rachel. Ross smiled. That probably would be the longest conversation they would share the entire night he thought
Rachel left the apartment after Ross did. He had gone to get a cab while she called her mother on the phone to tell her they were on their way to the party. She could have easily done that by her cell phone on the cab, but she rather do it on her home phone cause that way she would have a couple of extra minutes to put herself together and think once again about the whole thing. It had been a month already, but the wound soared like it had been made yesterday. She had tried to avoid Ross, cause seeing him still hurt like hell.
She had talked to Monica a couple of days after the 'incident', and now she was the only one who knew how hurt and tired of fighting she was, and the one who supported her with the LA thing. "I guess you are right" Monica has said "The only way I could move on from Richard was not seeing him again. It hurt, but after a while, the pain, the hurt and the love went away, and before I knew it I was falling in love again. But Rach, please, don't run away from your problems, that would only make them worst. If you decide to go to LA I will support you, but I still think you need to talk this through with my brother. You could make a mistake that you won't be able to repair in the future". Monica's words made complete sense, but nothing that Ross could tell her would make her stay, nothing would make her stay.
"The cab is waiting" said Ross from the door
"Ok, let's go"
*~*
The ceremony started a bit late because of Mike's parents. Monica, who was the maid of honor, was more than pissed about it. But beside that little incident everything turned out wonderful. Phoebe was walked down the altar by Frank Jr, as her 5 friends watched her smiling widely. Rachel had even cried, in fact, she cried the whole ceremony.
"I love weddings" said Ross when the ceremony ended
"We all know that buddy, we all know that" replied Chandler
Phoebe approached to the rest of the gang. She was feeling so happy, probably happier than she'd ever felt in her entire life. "Can you believe I'm married?" she asked excited "I never thought I would be.I mean not for real"
"we are very happy for you Phoebs, you guys are gonna be so happy together" said Rachel as she hugged her friend
"Marrying someone you love is the best feeling in the world, knowing that you're gonna share the rest of your life with that person" Ross sigh thinking in the one thing he'll never have with Rachel
"And he KNOWS about marriages" said Chandler sarcastically
Everybody laughed, everybody but Rachel who just smiled. She was feeling down. Ross probably was right, knowing that you're gonna share everything for the rest of your life with the one person you love must be one of the best feelings in the world. He should have felt that when he married Carol and Emily, but he was too drunk to feel anything when he married her, he was too drunk to even know what he was doing. Monica noticed Rachel's sad look.
"Are you ok sweety?" she asked dragging Rachel to a corner
"yeah" she replied without lifting her eyes from the ground
"Rach, come on" insisted Monica
"It's nothing Mon. I was. I was just thinking about what Ross just said, you know?. and it made me feel kind of sad cause I have no idea what's that like, and probably never will."
"Rach. Rachel look at me" Rachel lifted her head and faced Monica "it will happen to you. I know it"
"Monica, please. I'm 34 years old, I have a daughter and I'm still in love with a guy who has broken my heart so many times that I already lost count. There's no way that can happen to me. Look, maybe I only had one opportunity of getting married, and that was with Barry, and this are the consequences"
"You didn't marry Barry because you didn't love him"
"I know"
"Would you like to have a marriage without love?"
"No" replied Rachel looking down again
"Hey, what's wrong?" asked Ross approaching to where the girls were. He had seen the sad look on Rachel's eyes from where he was standing. He hated to see her that way "are you ok Rach?"
Monica saw this as probably the last opportunity Ross and Rachel had to solve everything. She knew how hurt Rachel was, but still couldn't lose hope of seeing her friend and her brother together again "I'm gonna leave you guys alone" she said smiling
"What?, no. Everything's ok Ross. Monica, what the hell are you doing?" said Rachel with a confused tone in her voice. What was Monica trying to do?, she had no idea, but it wouldn't work that was for sure
"Nothing. Chandler is calling me. excuse me" she lied and left quickly, leaving Ross and Rachel confused.
Both stood silent for a while, just staring t the floor, avoiding the eye contact.
"I'm gonna go to my table" said suddenly Rachel before walking away from Ross
"Rachel wait" said Ross, grabbing her by the arm
"What do you want Ross?" Rachel stopped walking, but didn't turn around
"Look at me"
"What?" she asked again as she turned around, now she was facing Ross but not looking straight to him
"Can you please tell me what's the matter?"
Rachel finally lifted her eyes and looked at him. How could he be so blind? Didn't he see that everything in her life was screw up because of him?. probably don't. "Nothing Ross, really"
"Then why have you been avoiding me and been so bitchie with me lately?"
"Bitchie?" she thought "it's the only way I can keep you away" she wanted to yell at him, but instead she lowed her eyes again and remained silent
"You are not gonna answer me?" he said a bit pissed "ok, have it your way. I don't wanna know anyway. I don't care, but could you please at least pretend you like me?, at least for tonight?, at least for Phoebe?"
Rachel nodded, feeling tears forming in her eyes
"Ok, let's go to our table now. and let's start pretending"
*~*
Phoebe, Mike, Joey, his date, Chandler, Monica, Rachel and Ross were sited on the main table, there weren't many guest, just 3 or 4 other tables, but everybody seemed to be having a great time, everybody but Ross and Rachel. Phoebe sensed the tension between them. She was as tired as the rest of the group of seeing them dying of love for each other, but being so stubborn and proud that none of them wanted to say it first. She was also tired of seeing each other get hurt for the same reasons. They were destinated to be together, Phoebe felt it, she knew it. She had always believed in them, and she still did, that had been the reason why she insisted them to come to her wedding together, cause maybe spending some quality time together would help them to enjoy each other company once again
"Why don't we go dancing?" said Phoebe to the rest of the people in the table
"Phoebs. I. I don't dance" replied Mike
"Oooh. but you will. let's go" Phoebe stood up and dragged Mike to the dance floor
"you know what?, that's a good idea. Let's go Chandler" said Monica also standing up
"Are you sure? What about the 'i'll never dance with you again' that you told me on my office party two years ago?"
"People can change. Beside, this is Phoebe's wedding, it's an special ocation"
"Ok, but if everybody starts laughing and pointing it will be your fault" replied Chandler and both of them left the table followed by Joey and his date
Ross and Rachel were left on the table on their own. Once in a while they would look at each other when the other wasn't looking.
"What a great group of friends we have" commented Ross trying to start a conversation
"Mmmmm" was everything Rachel said, and both of them went back to avoid each other's eyes by looking at the rest of the gang dancing
*~*
Phoebe looked at Ross and Rachel on the table "what's wrong with them?" she said out loud
"With whom?" asked Mike
"With Ross and Rachel, they've been on the table alone for over 30 minutes, but they don't even look at each other. They should be at least talking, or laughing, or arguing. you know. being Ross and Rachel. We should do something"
"Phoebe, I don't think we should." refuted Mike, but Phoebe shushed him
"Those two had never been able to do anything on their own"
Phoebe and Mike approached to the table
"Hey you guys!! Why are you here so boarded" said Phoebe
"I'm not. I'm not boarded" said Rachel before yawning "Sorry"
"I'm sorry to ruin your personal party, but why don't you join us on the dance floor?"
"Oh no no no no. I'm definitely on a dancing kind of mood" protested Ross
"Come on!, this is my wedding, you are my best friends, my family. I don't want you to be sitting here the whole night. Now move your fat asses to that damn dance floor or I'll curse you!!"
Ross and Rachel looked at each other for the first time in a while. She smiled to him a little to let him know she wasn't really mad at him, one dance wouldn't kill them.
"Ok, but just because of you Phoebs.. and just one dance" said Rachel standing up
"YAY!" exclaimed Phoebe and her and Mike went back to the dancefloor
Once Phoebe was far enough from them Ross said "I know you are doing this just because of Phoebe" Rachel looked at him "but thank you, I really wanted to dance with you, but I had no idea how to ask you"
Rachel smiled "Just like when we were on High school" she said
Ross laugh "yeah, exactly like when we were on High school. Some things don't change, no matter how hard we tried" he replied, not talking about his high school shyness anymore
"I know. Some things are just destinated to be the way they are" added Rachel, not talking about high school either
Both reached the dance floor and started to dance, very shy at first. They hadn't done that in a long time, and felt like they were making a complete fool of themselves. Both just felt like everybody was starting at them, but they didn't know if it was because of their lousy skills as dancers or just because they were so close together. Whichever was the case, they felt really intimidated.
*~*
"Would you look at them dancing? They look so happy when they are together like that" said Monica to Chandler, both were dancing just a couple or two away from Ross and Rachel, who after four songs seemed to have lost all their inhibitions, fears and insecurities and were dancing pretty close
"I hope it works this time"
"Yeah. me too"
*~*
Rachel lifted her head from Ross' chest just to caught him looking at her really sweetly. She felt so secure when she was in his arms, and so loved when he looked at her that way. "Calm down Rach. it's just your imagination, Ross doesn't love you anymore, at least not that way" she said to herself and buried her head on his chest once again. She would just pretend he did, at least for now, at least for tonight
Ross smiled, having Rachel on his arms was the best feeling in the world. He would do anything to be able to do this everyday, just hug her and see her smiling at him. That smile he loved so much. All the love and devotion he felt for her made her want to protect her every single moment. Now, with her on his arms, he felt like a knight who was defending a castle from a dragon, he was small and weak, and the chances of getting hurt or even killed were high, but he didn't care, because the cause was worth it. For Rachel he would give his life, his soul, his everything.
The song finished and they stopped dancing, but remained locked on a sweet hug. When they realized they were still hugging even when the music was already gone they blushed and stepped back.
"That. that was nice" she said "thanks"
"You. you are welcome" replied Ross
"Rach. Rach. I need to ask you a favor!!" said very excited Joey, who appeared suddenly at her side
"Of course Joe, what's up?"
"Well. Kelly said she wants to go to my place to do some dirty things I had no idea she liked to do, like."
"No details, please Joe"
"Ok, well. I was wondering if you. well. don't mind. you know?"
"It's ok, you can go and do all the weird sex things that you like, I'll ask Monica if I can stay at her place"
"Uhm. Rach. Monica and Chandler just left" said Joey
"Really?. ok, that can be a problem"
"You can stay in my place if you want" offered Ross shyly
Joey smiled "ok, problem solved then. thank you very much Rach" he said and left before Rachel could say anything. She turned around and smiled nervously at Ross. She would be staying at his place the whole night.THAT would be a problem
TO BE CONTINUE.
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HEARTACHES - CHAPTER 7
Ross was sited on the big brown couch in his apartment. Phoebe's wedding was already here, and he was all dressed up with his tuxedo and ready to pick up his date for the evening. Rachel. It wasn't a real date actually, as both of them were the only ones dateless of the group, Phoebe suggested them to go together "you know each other, you like each other. it's perfect!" she had said when they were all hanging out on the coffee place the a couple of days before. And both of them agreed, probably cause they were too polite to say no in front of the other, or cause it was Phoebe's idea and it was Phoebe's wedding.
"Ok man, you have to put yourself together, this isn't a real date" he said to himself as he stood up from the couch and left the apartment
He wasn't sure why, but Rachel had seemed kind of distant lately. After they kissed, over a month ago, she had started acting different with him, avoiding him, not looking straight into his eyes and talking to him just when it was extremely necessary and only about Emma. She has said she wanted them to be only friends, but she was acting like she was hurt. Ross couldn't understand why
"Hey" he greeted nervously as she opened the door "ready to go?"
"Give me just a second. I'll finish my make up and we'll be on our way" she said entering to the bathroom
"you. you look terrific in that dress" he said, trying to break the ice, trying to return to the way they used to be
"Thanks" was everything Rachel replied from the bathroom
Ross sited on Joey's chair and sighed, this was gonna be a long night
"My mom came to pick up Emma like an hour ago. I told her we would go for her after the party" she said as she grabbed her purse and her coat from the sofa
"No problem" replied Ross, taking her coat and helping her to put it on
"Thanks" replied Rachel. Ross smiled. That probably would be the longest conversation they would share the entire night he thought
Rachel left the apartment after Ross did. He had gone to get a cab while she called her mother on the phone to tell her they were on their way to the party. She could have easily done that by her cell phone on the cab, but she rather do it on her home phone cause that way she would have a couple of extra minutes to put herself together and think once again about the whole thing. It had been a month already, but the wound soared like it had been made yesterday. She had tried to avoid Ross, cause seeing him still hurt like hell.
She had talked to Monica a couple of days after the 'incident', and now she was the only one who knew how hurt and tired of fighting she was, and the one who supported her with the LA thing. "I guess you are right" Monica has said "The only way I could move on from Richard was not seeing him again. It hurt, but after a while, the pain, the hurt and the love went away, and before I knew it I was falling in love again. But Rach, please, don't run away from your problems, that would only make them worst. If you decide to go to LA I will support you, but I still think you need to talk this through with my brother. You could make a mistake that you won't be able to repair in the future". Monica's words made complete sense, but nothing that Ross could tell her would make her stay, nothing would make her stay.
"The cab is waiting" said Ross from the door
"Ok, let's go"
*~*
The ceremony started a bit late because of Mike's parents. Monica, who was the maid of honor, was more than pissed about it. But beside that little incident everything turned out wonderful. Phoebe was walked down the altar by Frank Jr, as her 5 friends watched her smiling widely. Rachel had even cried, in fact, she cried the whole ceremony.
"I love weddings" said Ross when the ceremony ended
"We all know that buddy, we all know that" replied Chandler
Phoebe approached to the rest of the gang. She was feeling so happy, probably happier than she'd ever felt in her entire life. "Can you believe I'm married?" she asked excited "I never thought I would be.I mean not for real"
"we are very happy for you Phoebs, you guys are gonna be so happy together" said Rachel as she hugged her friend
"Marrying someone you love is the best feeling in the world, knowing that you're gonna share the rest of your life with that person" Ross sigh thinking in the one thing he'll never have with Rachel
"And he KNOWS about marriages" said Chandler sarcastically
Everybody laughed, everybody but Rachel who just smiled. She was feeling down. Ross probably was right, knowing that you're gonna share everything for the rest of your life with the one person you love must be one of the best feelings in the world. He should have felt that when he married Carol and Emily, but he was too drunk to feel anything when he married her, he was too drunk to even know what he was doing. Monica noticed Rachel's sad look.
"Are you ok sweety?" she asked dragging Rachel to a corner
"yeah" she replied without lifting her eyes from the ground
"Rach, come on" insisted Monica
"It's nothing Mon. I was. I was just thinking about what Ross just said, you know?. and it made me feel kind of sad cause I have no idea what's that like, and probably never will."
"Rach. Rachel look at me" Rachel lifted her head and faced Monica "it will happen to you. I know it"
"Monica, please. I'm 34 years old, I have a daughter and I'm still in love with a guy who has broken my heart so many times that I already lost count. There's no way that can happen to me. Look, maybe I only had one opportunity of getting married, and that was with Barry, and this are the consequences"
"You didn't marry Barry because you didn't love him"
"I know"
"Would you like to have a marriage without love?"
"No" replied Rachel looking down again
"Hey, what's wrong?" asked Ross approaching to where the girls were. He had seen the sad look on Rachel's eyes from where he was standing. He hated to see her that way "are you ok Rach?"
Monica saw this as probably the last opportunity Ross and Rachel had to solve everything. She knew how hurt Rachel was, but still couldn't lose hope of seeing her friend and her brother together again "I'm gonna leave you guys alone" she said smiling
"What?, no. Everything's ok Ross. Monica, what the hell are you doing?" said Rachel with a confused tone in her voice. What was Monica trying to do?, she had no idea, but it wouldn't work that was for sure
"Nothing. Chandler is calling me. excuse me" she lied and left quickly, leaving Ross and Rachel confused.
Both stood silent for a while, just staring t the floor, avoiding the eye contact.
"I'm gonna go to my table" said suddenly Rachel before walking away from Ross
"Rachel wait" said Ross, grabbing her by the arm
"What do you want Ross?" Rachel stopped walking, but didn't turn around
"Look at me"
"What?" she asked again as she turned around, now she was facing Ross but not looking straight to him
"Can you please tell me what's the matter?"
Rachel finally lifted her eyes and looked at him. How could he be so blind? Didn't he see that everything in her life was screw up because of him?. probably don't. "Nothing Ross, really"
"Then why have you been avoiding me and been so bitchie with me lately?"
"Bitchie?" she thought "it's the only way I can keep you away" she wanted to yell at him, but instead she lowed her eyes again and remained silent
"You are not gonna answer me?" he said a bit pissed "ok, have it your way. I don't wanna know anyway. I don't care, but could you please at least pretend you like me?, at least for tonight?, at least for Phoebe?"
Rachel nodded, feeling tears forming in her eyes
"Ok, let's go to our table now. and let's start pretending"
*~*
Phoebe, Mike, Joey, his date, Chandler, Monica, Rachel and Ross were sited on the main table, there weren't many guest, just 3 or 4 other tables, but everybody seemed to be having a great time, everybody but Ross and Rachel. Phoebe sensed the tension between them. She was as tired as the rest of the group of seeing them dying of love for each other, but being so stubborn and proud that none of them wanted to say it first. She was also tired of seeing each other get hurt for the same reasons. They were destinated to be together, Phoebe felt it, she knew it. She had always believed in them, and she still did, that had been the reason why she insisted them to come to her wedding together, cause maybe spending some quality time together would help them to enjoy each other company once again
"Why don't we go dancing?" said Phoebe to the rest of the people in the table
"Phoebs. I. I don't dance" replied Mike
"Oooh. but you will. let's go" Phoebe stood up and dragged Mike to the dance floor
"you know what?, that's a good idea. Let's go Chandler" said Monica also standing up
"Are you sure? What about the 'i'll never dance with you again' that you told me on my office party two years ago?"
"People can change. Beside, this is Phoebe's wedding, it's an special ocation"
"Ok, but if everybody starts laughing and pointing it will be your fault" replied Chandler and both of them left the table followed by Joey and his date
Ross and Rachel were left on the table on their own. Once in a while they would look at each other when the other wasn't looking.
"What a great group of friends we have" commented Ross trying to start a conversation
"Mmmmm" was everything Rachel said, and both of them went back to avoid each other's eyes by looking at the rest of the gang dancing
*~*
Phoebe looked at Ross and Rachel on the table "what's wrong with them?" she said out loud
"With whom?" asked Mike
"With Ross and Rachel, they've been on the table alone for over 30 minutes, but they don't even look at each other. They should be at least talking, or laughing, or arguing. you know. being Ross and Rachel. We should do something"
"Phoebe, I don't think we should." refuted Mike, but Phoebe shushed him
"Those two had never been able to do anything on their own"
Phoebe and Mike approached to the table
"Hey you guys!! Why are you here so boarded" said Phoebe
"I'm not. I'm not boarded" said Rachel before yawning "Sorry"
"I'm sorry to ruin your personal party, but why don't you join us on the dance floor?"
"Oh no no no no. I'm definitely on a dancing kind of mood" protested Ross
"Come on!, this is my wedding, you are my best friends, my family. I don't want you to be sitting here the whole night. Now move your fat asses to that damn dance floor or I'll curse you!!"
Ross and Rachel looked at each other for the first time in a while. She smiled to him a little to let him know she wasn't really mad at him, one dance wouldn't kill them.
"Ok, but just because of you Phoebs.. and just one dance" said Rachel standing up
"YAY!" exclaimed Phoebe and her and Mike went back to the dancefloor
Once Phoebe was far enough from them Ross said "I know you are doing this just because of Phoebe" Rachel looked at him "but thank you, I really wanted to dance with you, but I had no idea how to ask you"
Rachel smiled "Just like when we were on High school" she said
Ross laugh "yeah, exactly like when we were on High school. Some things don't change, no matter how hard we tried" he replied, not talking about his high school shyness anymore
"I know. Some things are just destinated to be the way they are" added Rachel, not talking about high school either
Both reached the dance floor and started to dance, very shy at first. They hadn't done that in a long time, and felt like they were making a complete fool of themselves. Both just felt like everybody was starting at them, but they didn't know if it was because of their lousy skills as dancers or just because they were so close together. Whichever was the case, they felt really intimidated.
*~*
"Would you look at them dancing? They look so happy when they are together like that" said Monica to Chandler, both were dancing just a couple or two away from Ross and Rachel, who after four songs seemed to have lost all their inhibitions, fears and insecurities and were dancing pretty close
"I hope it works this time"
"Yeah. me too"
*~*
Rachel lifted her head from Ross' chest just to caught him looking at her really sweetly. She felt so secure when she was in his arms, and so loved when he looked at her that way. "Calm down Rach. it's just your imagination, Ross doesn't love you anymore, at least not that way" she said to herself and buried her head on his chest once again. She would just pretend he did, at least for now, at least for tonight
Ross smiled, having Rachel on his arms was the best feeling in the world. He would do anything to be able to do this everyday, just hug her and see her smiling at him. That smile he loved so much. All the love and devotion he felt for her made her want to protect her every single moment. Now, with her on his arms, he felt like a knight who was defending a castle from a dragon, he was small and weak, and the chances of getting hurt or even killed were high, but he didn't care, because the cause was worth it. For Rachel he would give his life, his soul, his everything.
The song finished and they stopped dancing, but remained locked on a sweet hug. When they realized they were still hugging even when the music was already gone they blushed and stepped back.
"That. that was nice" she said "thanks"
"You. you are welcome" replied Ross
"Rach. Rach. I need to ask you a favor!!" said very excited Joey, who appeared suddenly at her side
"Of course Joe, what's up?"
"Well. Kelly said she wants to go to my place to do some dirty things I had no idea she liked to do, like."
"No details, please Joe"
"Ok, well. I was wondering if you. well. don't mind. you know?"
"It's ok, you can go and do all the weird sex things that you like, I'll ask Monica if I can stay at her place"
"Uhm. Rach. Monica and Chandler just left" said Joey
"Really?. ok, that can be a problem"
"You can stay in my place if you want" offered Ross shyly
Joey smiled "ok, problem solved then. thank you very much Rach" he said and left before Rachel could say anything. She turned around and smiled nervously at Ross. She would be staying at his place the whole night.THAT would be a problem
TO BE CONTINUE.
This was a sucky chapter... well... maybe not that sucky, but nothing much happened cause the good stuff is yet to come on the next one. PLEASE KEEP REVIEWING... I love reading what you have to say =)