I'm sorry for the delay guys.... I haven't been home for 4 days... I went
to the beach hehehe (Lucky my :D), but you probably don't wanna know what I
did this weekend.... so now with the story
HEARTACHES - CHAPTER 9
Ross woke up. Has it all been real or was he dreaming again? Was everything over? The long waiting, the hidden feelings, the heartaches... where they all really gone forever?. He looked at his left side and saw Rachel sleeping peacefully. She looked like an angel he thought. He missed waking so much waking up next to her just to see her sleep. He was gonna make everything right this time, he promised himself. He wouldn't be able to handle losing her again. Not after revealing her his biggest fears. Not after having her saying she still had feelings for him. Not after last night.
Rachel slowly opened her eyes, remembering the previous night as you remember a wonderful dream. She turned around and saw Ross smiling at her. At first, she looked at him weirdly, still really confused, but then she couldn't help smiling him back, and as if this had been a sign, he kissed her sweetly on the forehead, then in the tip of the nose and then on the lips. It was the way they used to say good morning to each other when they were together. Rachel loved it, he knew it. She kissed him back and slowly they started to sunk into it, not thinking about anything else than themselves, not feeling anything else than each other's lips and tasting nothing but that kiss.
When they broke the magical kiss, one of many others that had been shared that night, they just stare at each other, not saying anything, just feeling, just enjoying
Ross was the first onw to say a word "did you sleep well?"
Rachel nodded
Ross looked at her and started caressing her cheek "me too" he said "better than in a long long time"
There was another silence. Both remained contemplating each other, as if they were in front of the biggest miracle of history, as if it was some kind of dream come true, as if they were living something they had already given up on the hope of living again.
"Breakfast?" he asked softly, still trying to catch his breath.
She nodded again. There weren't words to put down what she was feeling, and although Ross' questions were pretty easy to answer, she felt like she was unable to speak. The lump in her throat was too big, and she knew if she opened her mouth to say something she'd start to cry happy tears. There was still so many things she hadn't said to him, and she didn't know where to start. But she was sure he knew evey little thing she was feeling, cause they could talk to each other just by looking into the other's eyes, from heart to heart. That had been the way they used all this years to say 'I love you' to each other. She had just discovered that.
Ross stood up from the bed, not before giving her another kiss. "I know this could seem rushed, and I don't want to freak you out... but... but I feel like.... I feel like I need to tell you this" he rambled nervously after breaking the kiss. She smiled "I... I love you"
She looked at him speechless, more than she already was, and her eyes filled with tears. She had been fighting them back but after what Ross said she couldn't handle it anymore and she started to cry
"I'm sorry sweety... I knew I shouldn't have said anything yet" he conforted her as he hugged her stroking her hair
"You have no idea..." she finally said "you have no idea how much I've waited to hear you saying that"
He smiled "I know honey... I know how much you've waited"
"I love you too" she replied
"I know" he said looking into her eyes once again
The phone ringed, breaking he healing moment they were sharing. Ross quickly got up from the bed and went straight to the kitchen as Rachel picked up the phone
"Hello?" she said
"Rachel?" a woman's voice said through the phone
"Hey mom!" replied Rachel akwardly
"What are you doing there so early? Are you two back together?" asked Sandra full of hope
"Kinda... I mean... we haven't talked about what does this mean.... but I'm pretty sure that we are"
"That's wonderful darling. It was about time one of you come into his senses. You two have always belonged together. And Emma needs both of you"
Rachel smiled at the sound of her daughter's name. Emma would finally have a real family. "I know" she replied. "Mom... not to sound rude or anything but... why... why are you calling here?"
"Oh... really... with the excitment of the news I almost forgot.... I called Ross because I was calling at your place and no one picked up. I wanted to know what time are you kinds gonna come to pick Emma up"
"Can you watch her a little bit longer mom?... please?... we still could use some time alone"
"Of course sweety. Enjoy this as much as you can. Just give me a call when you are on your way here"
"Thanks mom. Bye. Love ya'"
Rachel hang up the phone and looked around. A lot of images and thoughts crossed her mind. Their first kiss, their first date, the first time they made love, the first time they said 'I love you'. Everything was merging to this new found happyness and completeness she was feeling. She had never been so happy.
Ross entered the room carring the tray with the breakfast. "Just the way you like it" he said smiling before giving her a quick pick on the lips "Who was calling?"
"My mom"
"Your mom?"
"Yes. She said no one picked up on my place so she decided to call you. You should have listened the tone in her voice when she realized I was the one picking up the phone"
Ross laugh a little "I guess... so... why was she calling?.... is everything ok?"
"Yeah. She just wanted to know at what time we will be picking Emma" replied Rachel as she ate piece of toast
"And... and what did you answer her?" asked Ross concerned. It wasn't like he didn't want to be with his daughter, it was just that he didn't want his time alone with Rachel ended up so soon.
"I told her" she said approaching to her seductibly "that we could still use some time alone, so it wouldn't be anytime soon"
He smiled back and with a flirty tone in his voice said "let's give it 3 to 4 hours"
"Dr Geller!!" giggled Rachel as both of them fell into the bed kissing passionately
*~*
"Rachel, Ross and Emma are on their way over" said Monica to Chalder as she sat the table
"Good... another night of babysitting. This is going to be so exciting" he replied
"Come on.... you love spending time with Emma... admit it"
"She's a great girl" replied Chandler smiling "Speaking of babies, have you made your mind on what you want?"
"Yes... I was thinking... we could get the girl first, so our daughter and Emma can be the best of friends" answered Monica very excited
"Then a girl will be". Chandler hugged her and kissed her hair. There was a knock on the door "we are coming, we are coming.... don't tumb the door please" joked Chandler as he opened the door reveling Ross, Rachel and Emma standing in the hallway
"Hey you guys" greeted Rachel smiling as she entered the apartment
"Thanks for taking care of Emma tonight"
"You know it's not a problem, we are so happy you guys are finally together" replied Monica hugging her brother
"Thanks Mon... so are we" replied Ross breaking the hug. "Chandler, can I talk to you for a second?"
"You don't want an advice right? Cause I suck at that..."
"I know dude... it's not about that"
"Ok then"
Monica, Rachel and Emma, who was playing with some fluffy animals in the carpet, were left in the appartment as Chandler and Ross went to the balcony. Rachel followed Ross with the eyes smiling, she couldn't stop looking at him
"I think I've never seen you this happy" commented Monica
"I've never been this happy Mon... I finally have a family... well... at least sort of..." said Rachel with happy tears in her eyes
"Ok... don't cry... cause if you do I'm gonna start crying too, and you're gonna ruin your make up"
"Ok" replied Rachel smiling as she looked at Ross through the window. "I love him so much"
Monica followed her friend's eyes and looked at her brother too "he loves you like crazy too" she said smiling.
The two friends remained silent. There was still something bugging Monica, bu she didn't know how to ask it, or if she should ask it at all.
"What? Asked Rachel recognizing the concerned look on her friend's face
"There's something I wanna ask you hon"
"Of course"
"What's... what's going to happen with the LA thing?"
"I'm not going anywhere Mon... why would I?" replied Rachel
"Thank God... I was affraid you were gonna carry on with that little plan of yours"
"Not in a million years"
"Did you tell Ross about it?"
"I don't need to... I'm gonna fix everything tomorrow morning. He doesn't have to know"
"You are probably right, it's better this way"
"I don't need him freaking out on our first date Mon... Beside, I'm not going anywhere anyway"
*~*
"Please don't ask me for advine" said Chandler to Ross in the balcony
"I told you it wasn't about that... beside... you are really lousy at that"
"Ok, then shoot" replied Chandler "wait a minute.... you are not porposing, are you?"
"What?... why... why not?"
"Because you've only been back together for two days. You don't marry a girl after being with her two days. Who knows who's name you're gonna say in the altar this time"
"Ha, ha, really funny Chandler. First of all, that sounded like and advice. And second of all, Rachel isn't just A GIRL. I don't know where have you been the last 10 years, but we have our history" said Ross looking through the window and seeing Rachel and Monica talking in the living room "anyway... that's not what I wanted to tell you... I'm not proposing, at least not tonight"
"Ok, what was it then"
"I'm gonna ask her to move in with me... I was gonna do it anyway... I miss her and Emma like crazy, and I don't see why we should be living in two places now"
"Now THAT makes sense... I think it's a great idea man"
"Thanks" replied Ross smiling. "Ok, let's go back inside. Rachel and I have reservations and we sure don't wanna be late"
Chandler and Ross entered to the apartment from the balcony "Honey, we better get going" he said
"Yes, I was going to tell you the same thing" replied Rachel approaching to the door
"Again, thank you guys for taking care of Emma"
"No problem Ross. You two have fun tonight" replied Chandler smiling at his friend before Ross and Rachel left the apartment.
"Wait, I forgot to bring a coat" said Rachel in the hallway. Both of them entered to hers and Joey's apartment. Rachel saw the answering machine light blinking "Honey, could you please hear the message as I get my coat?. It's probably my mother or Joey"
"Sure Rach..." replied Ross as he watched her entering to her room. He pushed the play button and an unfamiliar female voice came through the machine
"Miss Green, this is Mrs Adams. I'm calling you to tell you that everything is ready up here. The landlord of the building said there was no problem with the baby, the car is already yours and we have you the best daycare center in town, and the best thing is that it's pretty close to the office. Call me tomorrow morning to confirm everything and we'll be seing each other soon. Bye bye"
Ross looked at the machine weirdly, trying to figure out what was all that about.
Rachel came out from her room with two coats in her hands "wich one do you think it's better? This one or this?" she asked not looking at him. "I think I'm gonna wear this one, the night isn't that cold" she said lifting the coat on her right hand. She looked at Ross and saw the weird expression on his face. "What?... if you don't like this one I can wear the other"
"Are you moving" he asked suddenly
"Uhu?"
"Are you going anywhere?"
"Yes... I'm going on a date with you... what's wrong honey?"
Ross pushed play and the woman's voice came through the speaker again. Rachel paled
"Are you moving?" he asked again
"No" she replied quickly
"Then what was that about?"
"I was gonna move... but not anymore" she answered lowing her voice
"Where?" he asked intrigued
"LA" she said softly
"L... L... A? And you weren't planing on tell me anything?"
"I'm not moving anymore Ross!"
"But you were!!... and you were gonna take Emma with you, without telling me anything!"
"I was... I was going to tell you"
"When?... you had everything ready!! When were you supposed to leave?"
"Two weeks" she answered looking down. That was why she didn't want to tell him anything, she knew he was gonna react this way "I thought there was no other way to get over you, ok?! I wanted to start over. I wanted to build a family for my daughter!"
Ross laugh sarcastically "so you were doing all this for our daughter... you wanted to destroy my life just for Emma's sake"
"Come on Ross, I thought we would never gonna happen again, and I was tired of getting hurt. I needed to finally move on"
"Then don't say it was for Emma's sake!! It was only for yours!!" he said raising his voice. There was a hurt look in his eyes and a tone in her voice that made Rachel's heart squeeze
"It was a mistake Ross... I'm going to fix everything tomorrow morning. I'm not going anywhere now"
"Maybe you should..." he replied coldly "maybe you are right... it can be the best thing for the three of us" he added before leaving the apartment slamming the door with an atonished Rachel looking at him
TO BE CONTINUE...
I'm sorry for that guys.... but I promised you tension 'till the very end....
Please read and review... I'm gonna try to post the next chapter soon... I have it kind of ready, there are a few things I want to add before posting it though....
HEARTACHES - CHAPTER 9
Ross woke up. Has it all been real or was he dreaming again? Was everything over? The long waiting, the hidden feelings, the heartaches... where they all really gone forever?. He looked at his left side and saw Rachel sleeping peacefully. She looked like an angel he thought. He missed waking so much waking up next to her just to see her sleep. He was gonna make everything right this time, he promised himself. He wouldn't be able to handle losing her again. Not after revealing her his biggest fears. Not after having her saying she still had feelings for him. Not after last night.
Rachel slowly opened her eyes, remembering the previous night as you remember a wonderful dream. She turned around and saw Ross smiling at her. At first, she looked at him weirdly, still really confused, but then she couldn't help smiling him back, and as if this had been a sign, he kissed her sweetly on the forehead, then in the tip of the nose and then on the lips. It was the way they used to say good morning to each other when they were together. Rachel loved it, he knew it. She kissed him back and slowly they started to sunk into it, not thinking about anything else than themselves, not feeling anything else than each other's lips and tasting nothing but that kiss.
When they broke the magical kiss, one of many others that had been shared that night, they just stare at each other, not saying anything, just feeling, just enjoying
Ross was the first onw to say a word "did you sleep well?"
Rachel nodded
Ross looked at her and started caressing her cheek "me too" he said "better than in a long long time"
There was another silence. Both remained contemplating each other, as if they were in front of the biggest miracle of history, as if it was some kind of dream come true, as if they were living something they had already given up on the hope of living again.
"Breakfast?" he asked softly, still trying to catch his breath.
She nodded again. There weren't words to put down what she was feeling, and although Ross' questions were pretty easy to answer, she felt like she was unable to speak. The lump in her throat was too big, and she knew if she opened her mouth to say something she'd start to cry happy tears. There was still so many things she hadn't said to him, and she didn't know where to start. But she was sure he knew evey little thing she was feeling, cause they could talk to each other just by looking into the other's eyes, from heart to heart. That had been the way they used all this years to say 'I love you' to each other. She had just discovered that.
Ross stood up from the bed, not before giving her another kiss. "I know this could seem rushed, and I don't want to freak you out... but... but I feel like.... I feel like I need to tell you this" he rambled nervously after breaking the kiss. She smiled "I... I love you"
She looked at him speechless, more than she already was, and her eyes filled with tears. She had been fighting them back but after what Ross said she couldn't handle it anymore and she started to cry
"I'm sorry sweety... I knew I shouldn't have said anything yet" he conforted her as he hugged her stroking her hair
"You have no idea..." she finally said "you have no idea how much I've waited to hear you saying that"
He smiled "I know honey... I know how much you've waited"
"I love you too" she replied
"I know" he said looking into her eyes once again
The phone ringed, breaking he healing moment they were sharing. Ross quickly got up from the bed and went straight to the kitchen as Rachel picked up the phone
"Hello?" she said
"Rachel?" a woman's voice said through the phone
"Hey mom!" replied Rachel akwardly
"What are you doing there so early? Are you two back together?" asked Sandra full of hope
"Kinda... I mean... we haven't talked about what does this mean.... but I'm pretty sure that we are"
"That's wonderful darling. It was about time one of you come into his senses. You two have always belonged together. And Emma needs both of you"
Rachel smiled at the sound of her daughter's name. Emma would finally have a real family. "I know" she replied. "Mom... not to sound rude or anything but... why... why are you calling here?"
"Oh... really... with the excitment of the news I almost forgot.... I called Ross because I was calling at your place and no one picked up. I wanted to know what time are you kinds gonna come to pick Emma up"
"Can you watch her a little bit longer mom?... please?... we still could use some time alone"
"Of course sweety. Enjoy this as much as you can. Just give me a call when you are on your way here"
"Thanks mom. Bye. Love ya'"
Rachel hang up the phone and looked around. A lot of images and thoughts crossed her mind. Their first kiss, their first date, the first time they made love, the first time they said 'I love you'. Everything was merging to this new found happyness and completeness she was feeling. She had never been so happy.
Ross entered the room carring the tray with the breakfast. "Just the way you like it" he said smiling before giving her a quick pick on the lips "Who was calling?"
"My mom"
"Your mom?"
"Yes. She said no one picked up on my place so she decided to call you. You should have listened the tone in her voice when she realized I was the one picking up the phone"
Ross laugh a little "I guess... so... why was she calling?.... is everything ok?"
"Yeah. She just wanted to know at what time we will be picking Emma" replied Rachel as she ate piece of toast
"And... and what did you answer her?" asked Ross concerned. It wasn't like he didn't want to be with his daughter, it was just that he didn't want his time alone with Rachel ended up so soon.
"I told her" she said approaching to her seductibly "that we could still use some time alone, so it wouldn't be anytime soon"
He smiled back and with a flirty tone in his voice said "let's give it 3 to 4 hours"
"Dr Geller!!" giggled Rachel as both of them fell into the bed kissing passionately
*~*
"Rachel, Ross and Emma are on their way over" said Monica to Chalder as she sat the table
"Good... another night of babysitting. This is going to be so exciting" he replied
"Come on.... you love spending time with Emma... admit it"
"She's a great girl" replied Chandler smiling "Speaking of babies, have you made your mind on what you want?"
"Yes... I was thinking... we could get the girl first, so our daughter and Emma can be the best of friends" answered Monica very excited
"Then a girl will be". Chandler hugged her and kissed her hair. There was a knock on the door "we are coming, we are coming.... don't tumb the door please" joked Chandler as he opened the door reveling Ross, Rachel and Emma standing in the hallway
"Hey you guys" greeted Rachel smiling as she entered the apartment
"Thanks for taking care of Emma tonight"
"You know it's not a problem, we are so happy you guys are finally together" replied Monica hugging her brother
"Thanks Mon... so are we" replied Ross breaking the hug. "Chandler, can I talk to you for a second?"
"You don't want an advice right? Cause I suck at that..."
"I know dude... it's not about that"
"Ok then"
Monica, Rachel and Emma, who was playing with some fluffy animals in the carpet, were left in the appartment as Chandler and Ross went to the balcony. Rachel followed Ross with the eyes smiling, she couldn't stop looking at him
"I think I've never seen you this happy" commented Monica
"I've never been this happy Mon... I finally have a family... well... at least sort of..." said Rachel with happy tears in her eyes
"Ok... don't cry... cause if you do I'm gonna start crying too, and you're gonna ruin your make up"
"Ok" replied Rachel smiling as she looked at Ross through the window. "I love him so much"
Monica followed her friend's eyes and looked at her brother too "he loves you like crazy too" she said smiling.
The two friends remained silent. There was still something bugging Monica, bu she didn't know how to ask it, or if she should ask it at all.
"What? Asked Rachel recognizing the concerned look on her friend's face
"There's something I wanna ask you hon"
"Of course"
"What's... what's going to happen with the LA thing?"
"I'm not going anywhere Mon... why would I?" replied Rachel
"Thank God... I was affraid you were gonna carry on with that little plan of yours"
"Not in a million years"
"Did you tell Ross about it?"
"I don't need to... I'm gonna fix everything tomorrow morning. He doesn't have to know"
"You are probably right, it's better this way"
"I don't need him freaking out on our first date Mon... Beside, I'm not going anywhere anyway"
*~*
"Please don't ask me for advine" said Chandler to Ross in the balcony
"I told you it wasn't about that... beside... you are really lousy at that"
"Ok, then shoot" replied Chandler "wait a minute.... you are not porposing, are you?"
"What?... why... why not?"
"Because you've only been back together for two days. You don't marry a girl after being with her two days. Who knows who's name you're gonna say in the altar this time"
"Ha, ha, really funny Chandler. First of all, that sounded like and advice. And second of all, Rachel isn't just A GIRL. I don't know where have you been the last 10 years, but we have our history" said Ross looking through the window and seeing Rachel and Monica talking in the living room "anyway... that's not what I wanted to tell you... I'm not proposing, at least not tonight"
"Ok, what was it then"
"I'm gonna ask her to move in with me... I was gonna do it anyway... I miss her and Emma like crazy, and I don't see why we should be living in two places now"
"Now THAT makes sense... I think it's a great idea man"
"Thanks" replied Ross smiling. "Ok, let's go back inside. Rachel and I have reservations and we sure don't wanna be late"
Chandler and Ross entered to the apartment from the balcony "Honey, we better get going" he said
"Yes, I was going to tell you the same thing" replied Rachel approaching to the door
"Again, thank you guys for taking care of Emma"
"No problem Ross. You two have fun tonight" replied Chandler smiling at his friend before Ross and Rachel left the apartment.
"Wait, I forgot to bring a coat" said Rachel in the hallway. Both of them entered to hers and Joey's apartment. Rachel saw the answering machine light blinking "Honey, could you please hear the message as I get my coat?. It's probably my mother or Joey"
"Sure Rach..." replied Ross as he watched her entering to her room. He pushed the play button and an unfamiliar female voice came through the machine
"Miss Green, this is Mrs Adams. I'm calling you to tell you that everything is ready up here. The landlord of the building said there was no problem with the baby, the car is already yours and we have you the best daycare center in town, and the best thing is that it's pretty close to the office. Call me tomorrow morning to confirm everything and we'll be seing each other soon. Bye bye"
Ross looked at the machine weirdly, trying to figure out what was all that about.
Rachel came out from her room with two coats in her hands "wich one do you think it's better? This one or this?" she asked not looking at him. "I think I'm gonna wear this one, the night isn't that cold" she said lifting the coat on her right hand. She looked at Ross and saw the weird expression on his face. "What?... if you don't like this one I can wear the other"
"Are you moving" he asked suddenly
"Uhu?"
"Are you going anywhere?"
"Yes... I'm going on a date with you... what's wrong honey?"
Ross pushed play and the woman's voice came through the speaker again. Rachel paled
"Are you moving?" he asked again
"No" she replied quickly
"Then what was that about?"
"I was gonna move... but not anymore" she answered lowing her voice
"Where?" he asked intrigued
"LA" she said softly
"L... L... A? And you weren't planing on tell me anything?"
"I'm not moving anymore Ross!"
"But you were!!... and you were gonna take Emma with you, without telling me anything!"
"I was... I was going to tell you"
"When?... you had everything ready!! When were you supposed to leave?"
"Two weeks" she answered looking down. That was why she didn't want to tell him anything, she knew he was gonna react this way "I thought there was no other way to get over you, ok?! I wanted to start over. I wanted to build a family for my daughter!"
Ross laugh sarcastically "so you were doing all this for our daughter... you wanted to destroy my life just for Emma's sake"
"Come on Ross, I thought we would never gonna happen again, and I was tired of getting hurt. I needed to finally move on"
"Then don't say it was for Emma's sake!! It was only for yours!!" he said raising his voice. There was a hurt look in his eyes and a tone in her voice that made Rachel's heart squeeze
"It was a mistake Ross... I'm going to fix everything tomorrow morning. I'm not going anywhere now"
"Maybe you should..." he replied coldly "maybe you are right... it can be the best thing for the three of us" he added before leaving the apartment slamming the door with an atonished Rachel looking at him
TO BE CONTINUE...
I'm sorry for that guys.... but I promised you tension 'till the very end....
Please read and review... I'm gonna try to post the next chapter soon... I have it kind of ready, there are a few things I want to add before posting it though....