So little time so many chapters!

Well I have another one up… Hope you guys are liking it so far! I know I like writing it… It's like a half true half not diary!

Ken: So, a lot of this stuff is true?

Fordina: Yes, most of it actually… Well except for me meeting you in real life… That I can only wish for… ::Sigh::

Ken: There, there.

Fordina: Thank you. Now, disclaimers. I hate doing this… It's so depressing. It just shows how little you do own, and how little a life you actually have… But I guess by reading this story you could probably figure that out anyway huh? Thought so! ^o^

Well, I don't own Digimon… And I don't really own any of the characters in this story either… Well, except for Tracilee… 'Cause that's kinda me ^o^ Lol… So yeah… Hope you like it and don't forget to review!

= Talking.

'-'= Thinking.

Through the Years:

A Story about Me

By: Fordina

Chapter 5- Why Don't You Believe Me?

I haven't seen Ken in a few days. Maybe he's made at me? What if I did something wrong? What if he never comes back? What if… What if… There could be so many of those 'What ifs'. And I have so many on my mind right now…

"Traci?" A voice asked behind me. I turn around to find Jennifer staring at me worriedly.

"Yeah?"

"What's the matter? You haven't been yourself in a few days," She asked. Then she grinned. "Does it have anything to do with Ken?"

I know it was all meant in good humor but it triggered something in me and I broke down in tears.

"Traci! What did I say!? Why are you crying?!" She asked as I fell to the floor clutching my knees to my chest.

Calming myself a bit I look back up at her. "I-I'm sorry… It's just… it's just that I haven't seen Ken in a few days… I know it's a stupid thing to get all upset about but…"

See looked at me with sympathy. "Hey it's okay… I know I did that once when Tai didn't come and see me for a few days," She looked down at the memory. "But that was a while ago. He'll come back. Ken's a busy guy, he's got a lot to take care of," She looked at me. "You know… With all the saving the world and all…" She laughed. I tried to too but it just came out as a choked sob.

"I'm sorry… I must look like such a baby!" I said getting up.

"Yeah," She said. I looked at her shocked. "But we all look like that some times!" She laughed again. This time I do too.

Later that evening I was sitting in the in living room watching TV. It was seven thirty and one of my favorite shows was on. Digimon. Ken's not in them but I love them any ways. I don't just watch it just because of him… I mean when I started to watch this show he wasn't even in it! Because he came along in season two. But any ways, I looked out the window and found Zaira walking out of her house. Turning off the TV I grabbed a coat, put on my shoes and ran out the door.

"Zai-chan!" I yelled to get her attention. Looking my way she waved.

"Hey TL! What're ya doing out here?" She asked.

"I saw you walk out… I had nothing better to do so I thought that if you weren't doing anything then we could do somethin'," I suggested.

"Sure, but my mum asked me to go to the super market to get some things," She told me.

"I'll come! I can help you carry things back," She nodded and we started walking in the direction of the market. There was an eerie silence between us, so I decided to break it. "Umm… Zaira?" I asked kinda timidly.

"Hmm?"

"Well… You're going to think this is kind of weird but…" I stuttered.

"Come on! Just spill it! I bet you it's more normal then you think!" I don't think so Zaira… I really don't think so…

"Well… You know my… Well I guess you could call it obsession with Ken?" She nodded. "And you know how I'm always saying that I want him to be real? To be able to meet him?" She nodded again. "Well… I kinda have…"

She looked at me strangely. "You, you have got to be kidding me!" She cried. "Trac you know that's not possible!"

I looked at my feet. "But I have… I've met him and um…" I paused, unsure if I should tell her the next part. "And I'm his… uh girlfriend…"

To my surprise she started to laugh. "Oh my god! That's a good one TL! I mean… I know you like him and all… And I will never make fun of you for falling in love with an Anime character, but… To go as far as saying that you've met him and that you are his girlfriend! That's just rich!"

I looked at her, hurt evident in my eyes. "I never would have thought that one of my only friends would have laughed at me. I know what I say sounds crazy! But it's true! And you know what? I've met all the other Digidestined too! Because I've been to the Digital World!" I cried not caring who heard me.

Her eyes suddenly softened. Taking on a look of pity. "You're not kidding are you?"

I shook my head no. "No, I'm not. I've met him. And personally," I said looking at her. "I don't care if you believe me or not!" With that I ran off home. We hadn't walked that far anyway. She continued on her way. Not even glancing back once.

When I arrived home my mother was still out. This wasn't unusual though; she's always out now. I've noticed that I really have grown apart from my mother. I used to be a little mamma's girl, always wanting to be with her. Never wanting to be alone.

Now, now it's different. Now I don't care if I'm alone, no… I shouldn't say that. I hate being alone. But I don't really like the company of other's either… I'm strange that way. I like company, but not with a lot of people. And I have to know them. But I'm always in some sort of situation that makes me deal with people. I'm not saying that I hate human kind. Because I don't. Well… Not really. Let's just say I have a certain taste for people. So I guess that's why I don't really have any friends. Sure I have acquaintances. But who doesn't? Just a bunch of people you know but never talk to. That's all the people are to me. They're just kind of there. And I was all alone until I met Zaira. I've known her for years… And now that I tell her something she doesn't even believe me? I mean I have to admit that it is kinda out there… Me knowing a cartoon, sorry Anime character. But I do. And I well… I love him. And he loves me. And I don't care if anyone ever believes me. I know I'll always have one person. Maybe even two. Ken will always be there for me, and now so will Jen.

Hmm… Odd I just called her by her short name… I don't usually do that until I totally trust someone… I guess that means that I trust her… And why not? She understands what I'm going through, because she's been through it. I guess that's what you call a real friend.

Tbc…

Well… There goes another chap… Came in so quickly and left just as fast! Hehe…

Ken: So um… Why didn't she believe you?

Fordina: Come on! If you were in her position would you have believed me?

Ken: Well… No, probably not.

Fordina: See?

Ken: But she was your best friend!

Fordina: Correction, is my best friend. But hey… You'll just have to wait until later chapters to find out if she ever does believe me!

So until next time on 'Through The Years: A Story about Me'!