Here's the 19th chapter to this story I hope you all are enjoying it so far!
Disclaimer: Same as all the other chapters. You should know that by now.
" - " = Talking.
' - ' = Thinking.
Through the Years:
A Story about Me
By: Fordina
Chapter 19- Answers and Realizations
It's later on at the party and Jen is making me apologize to her friends for what I said. But she did say that it was good to see me smile, and act like that. She actually told me to do it more often, just as long as it's not making fun of her friends in the process.
"Alright I'll go and apologize. There's something I would like to ask one of them anyway…" I told Jen as we walked back over to the little group.
I cleared my throat and they all looked at me. "Gomen nasai minna-san," I had to smirk at all the confused faces. I got a nudge in the ribs and an annoyed 'ahem' from Jennifer. "Alright, alright, I'm sorry," I said in an annoyed tone. I gave a glance at Jen that asked, 'happy?' She nodded and the group started talking again.
Sara was a little bit away from the group so I thought it'd be okay to go and have a little chat with her.
"Sara-san?" I asked walking over to her.
"Yeah…?" Hesitant and she still won't look at me.
"You can look at me you know. I'm not contagious," Seriously I was ready to make her look at me.
"I-I don't know what you're talking about…" Suuure…
"Sure you don't. What school did you go to in elementary?"
"B-Belmont…" Scared. She's scared of me. "L-look… I'll do whatever you want… Just… Don't hurt me." She started to back up and turn away.
"Damnit Sara!" I hissed. "I'm not going to hurt you! Look at me damnit!" By this time I had grabbed her chin and yanked it so she was looking into my eyes. "I can't turn you to stone just by looking at you." She's shaking; she's shaking with fear. She's completely petrified of me. "Why can't all you people forget the past?" I asked quietly.
"B-because you're too real… Every kid was afraid of something imaginary, but… but you were real."
I let go of her chin and she runs off. No one will ever forget… I walk over to a corner and slump down. Knees to my chest head on my knee's arms tied around myself. They'll always be afraid of me… No one will ever forget… Before I could stop it a small sob breaks through my lips, just as a single tears streaks down my face.
'I can't take this anymore! I want out of here!' I screamed in my head.
'Traci-koi… You need to calm down. It isn't that bad.'
'Yes it is! You don't understand Ken… You don't know…'
'I don't know what it's like to have people being terrified of me? To have them run away whenever I come near? Okay so they might not have been human… But I know Traci.'
'I guess you do… It's just… I'm tired of it… And I still get these goddamn visions… They'll still be afraid of me even when or I should say if I stop having them won't they?'
'More then likely. But Traci remember… You do have people that love you. Me most of all. I'll always be here. As will Jennifer, Taichi, your parents,' I snorted, 'Hey, don't give me that they both love you.'
'I know…'
'And if it's too much to take you know you can always come back here… My mother loved you.' He joked.
'I may have to take you up on that.'
'It wouldn't be forever you know that. But just for a little break.'
'Thanks Ken. Ashiteru.'
'Ashiteru Traci-koi,' I felt soft lips on mine. 'I'll see you later.'
'Ja.'
"I love you…" I whispered.
"Traci? Who you talkin' too?" It was Jen. She's sitting next to me; I hadn't heard her come up to me.
"No one…" I said wiping the tear away.
"Why are you crying?" She put an arm around my shoulder.
"What are you talkin' about? I'm not crying," Another tear escaped.
"A huh… And I'm the queen of England," She said sarcastically.
"Really?! Well… evening m-lady," I said in a British accent.
"Quit it," She shoved my shoulders. "Really, why are you crying?"
"Alright, alright, you got me. I was crying."
"Yes, but why?" She said emphasizing the word 'why'.
"I don't want to burden you with my problems…" Yeah… I knew that wasn't going to work.
"I don't care! Burden me!" I think she was getting ready to strangle me.
"Okay… okay… I'll tell you," I said finally giving in.
"Good, now explain."
"Not here… And probably not to-night… But I'll tell you okay? I promise."
"Hmm… You're promises are not to be taken lightly. All right, you will tell me when you're ready. And if you're not ready by to-morrow you're gonna tell me anyway."
Tbc…
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