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Summary: This story takes place after „State of Flux". Chakotay's thoughts, after they discovered that Seska is a cardassian spy.
Author's notes: This is the english version of one of my german stories. My sister was so kind to translate it for me, even if she didn´t like Star Trek.
Thanks, Julia, you're the best!
We tryed to eliminate all errors, but if there are any left, please tell me (Thanks to CatC and sfcmdhq for doing so). If there are no errors, just tell me your opinion about the story.
Blind
Chakotay sat in his cabin and stared at the passing stars outside.
How could I be so blind?!
He had had a short conversation with Tuvok. He explained to the Vulcan that he felt better, after he found out that Seska did not only fool him.
Tuvok´s reaction was typically Vulcan. "Curious." „What?" Chakotay had asked.
„That my failure, added to your own, should improve your feelings." explained Tuvok.
His answer was simple."Misery loves company, Tuvok."
Partly he was right. She was very good, if even Tuvok didn´t look through her game.
But that didn´t help him at all.
Tuvok hadn´t been with her for so long, like I had.
And he didn´t love her.
How could I be so blind?!
A Cardassian. The pesonification of everything he´d fought.
Probably she even belonged to the Obsidian Order.
He felt sick when he thought about it.
The enemy.
And I brought her into my bed.
How could I be so blind?!
When Tuvok told him the suspicion first, he couldn´t believe it. He didn´t want to believe it.
So he made a joke about it. "You were working for her. Seska was working for them. Was anyone on board that ship working for me?"
That was not fair towards B´Elanna, Ayala and the others. But that´s what he felt like right now.
Cheated, betrayed, used.
How many of their people could the Cardassians lure into a trap with the help of Seska?
How many deaths did she cause?
How many deaths did I cause, because I didn´t look through her disguise?
Seskas face kept appearing in front of his eyes. Her smile, her joy about a succesful mission, their time together, her passion…
Yet everything was an act.
Nothing was real.
She even looks different in reality!
Nothing but lies.
First Tuvok, then Seska.
Am I to be fooled so easily?!
He found no answer. Maybe there was none.
Chakotay sat in his cabin and stared at the passing stars outside.
How could I be so blind?!
THE END
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