A/N: How long was it since I've updated? *sighs* my files were on my friend's computer so I couldn't really update. I had to do everything all over again. So please, read and review.
Dedication: I would like to dedicate this angsty chap to my grand father to whom I was very close with, died last August 7, 2003…
Something to consider: Every time you read something, you ought to review or else you wouldn't get a satisfactory chap after this one because the author doesn't know what you would like to read. Constructive Criticism is appreciated so that if ever I had errors, if you correct me, it will be lessen.
Acknowledgement: To Crash, my beta reader whom has beta and edited my chap and so will my next chaps! Thanks a lot and I encourage every one of you to read all her fics which are all equally great and worth every single review and time you give it! ^_^
To the reviewers of chap 4: (I did not put a reviews corner in the fifth chap)
Ponchita- Ehehehe. ^_^ we need that to make her sound like a terrible villain.
Ilovesesshoumaru166- It is the way of life. Everything comes with a price… ^-^ (I'm quoting a fellow I know…)
Shatsui- Oh well, I don't know if I should… I'm having writer's block and might not update very soon…
Mistress Fluffy- I will when I get an idea… ^_^
Vegito044- No, he will not be killing her… She is a leading character!!! ^_^
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Kai19- Yay! I love hearing from you. ^-^ Anyway, I think I'll make him kill the first person that hurt him. It's by order… Not by who's in closest proximity. ^-^
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Translations: I will not repeat the translations of words already been explained
Ningen- human
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Chap 6: The Truth Brings Pain
Disclaimer: This is a fanfiction
Theme: There is a reason behind everything. Not everything is what they seem to be. Or perhaps, whatever you see is not what you really get.
Part 2
Kikyo clumsily walked towards the girl's bathroom. She was at last in Tokyo's Airport. 'With time to spare.' She grinned at herself. Atasuke's plane was delayed at least for four hours. 'It better be.' She thought to herself.
The captain was not easy to plead upon. But giving her body for him to play with for three hours was worth it. After all, she will get what she'd always wanted: to be a human.
No more a clay doll, but a breathing human.
It had been years since she had taken her last breathe… before she had been brutally raped and killed by a stalker. She was then resurrected fifty years later by her younger sister.
She hated it… she had been in hell for that fifty years to suffer even more for the sins she had not committed. She wasn't even able cry… she had to reside in this body of clay and had been forced into hiding. She was deprived a home… no place to return to…no lover to care for. No heart to feel.
Well, at least she DID have part of her soul. But it was full of hatred, hurt and despair which she lived upon; the only three things that sustained her life and kept her walking.
The only things she could feel.
She hated herself. She hated every single living creature that could walk upon land with a real body. And yet, they did not appreciate what they were given so freely.
"Of course they don't." She snorted. "Humans are idiots. They are ignorant of truth unless they are dead. Such irony…" she muttered grimly to herself.
She opened the faucet and thought hard of the image and voice of Atasuke. Water flowed and she wet her hands as she closed her eyes to concentrate. Slowly, her form and gender began to change…
Her long black tresses changed into silver-white ones… her brown eyes tinted into gold. The muscularity of her body distorted and twisted, making her look exactly like Atasuke-the man that had failed her.
She opened her eyes in the mirror; her altered reflection of Atasuke staring back at her. She smirked. An exact replica of the man that was supposed to be her victim stared back at her, smirking as she was.
Too bad that he had to be a bastard.
She pointed her finger on the mirror, directing it to where the reflected Atasuke's heart was. "I was supposed to have you. I was supposed to be in your position. But you had to be a trouble, didn't you?!" she said menacingly. She glared at the glaring man in front of her.
"You had to destroy my plans! You have failed me!!!" tears of hatred spilled down her now golden eyes. "I should hate you… but I don't think I am capable of doing so…" she breathe and the tears that were a moment ago spilling from her eyes disappeared. And her reflection smirked again.
"But as it is, everything comes with a price. But you won't be the one to pay. I'll be targeting someone else…" she smiled, feigning an innocent look.
"And guess who I'm talking about?" she questioned the mirror but the reflection did not respond to her inquiry. She sealed her lips with a finger and kissed the mirror. "I'm not gonna tell." She whispered and straightened herself up.
The door opened and revealed a young woman whom smiled seductively towards him/her. "When I last checked, this was the girl's bathroom."
Kikyou had the urge to either laugh or bite this girl's head off. She settled on a smirk. "Well maybe I'm searching for a girl." He said mysteriously.
"I'm a girl." The lady said, unbuttoning the first two buttons of her shirt. He shrugged.
"I'm not looking for you." He said shortly before exiting.
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Kagome rubbed her eyes and covered her mouth as she yawned. 'What happened last night?' she asked herself as she tried to recall Sesshoumaru's behavior towards her. He seemed… distant. So unlike her first impression of him.
'Impressions are deceiving.' She reminded herself darkly. She sat up and then layed down again. 'What day was it again today?' she tried to remember. After giving it a minute's time, she finally gave up and took a shower.
All she remembered was, she was supposed to pick up the man she supposedly loves.
"It will take my mind off Sesshoumaru." She murmured to herself. She did not want to get angry at him. After all, human or not, he was her guest. She owed him a place to stay after how those people treated him so badly. She did not want to be eaten by her guilt.
She let her thoughts sink down the drain as warm water splashed on her form; the sound of countless droplets of water echoing inside the closed shower room. She leaned on the wall behind her. Why was she confused? Did she suddenly feel doubtful about her feelings for Atasuke? Why did she care if the youkai hated her or not?
She inhaled jaggedly. It felt as if something heavy had been placed inside her heart. She was unsure of what it was, but she could definitely feel its presence. How was she suppose to deal with the confusion? How was she suppose deal with the conflicting emotions..?
Kagome puzzled over her thoughts for a bit more, groaning in agony when she could not find answers to any of her multiple questions. "Note to self: the shower is not the best place to think." She said in a lame voice. She massaged her long hair to spread the shampoo with a hand and the other scrubbing her body.
Clean. She thought to herself. I need to be clean.
Drying herself, she decided to confront the youkai. Putting on house clothes [for rich people of which really consists of some expensive dress bought in Gucci [or some expensive store], she walked towards Sesshoumaru's door.
She firmly knocked, determined to clear the issue with the man/youkai/whatever he was that day. She would not in any way give up without a fight, and she wouldn't leave without a straight answer. She swiped the key on the mechanical doorknob and opened the door to reveal the form of the stunning youkai.
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Her fragrant smell wafted to his nose long before she had arrived at his doorstep and knocked on the door. As she opened the door, he looked upon her delicate features. Her beautiful face was contorted into a determined frown and her cerulean eyes spoke of the same determination.
Her pretty rose-colored lips began to open and he wanted to prove if they tasted as sweet as they seem. "I need to talk with you." His eyes flicked to her eyes, showing no emotion whatsoever. He did not reply.
"It concerns your attitude towards me yesterday." She said reluctantly. Her voice softened a bit. "I felt you were… troubled, and it made me feel enraged and I didn't know what to think! Please, if you have any problems, you can talk to me." she said, her eyes pleading with him to stop whatever he was doing.
For a moment, he felt suddenly guilty. After all, he was the one causing whatever emotion it was that welled up inside the young woman's brain. His jaw set itself. "The pitiful race of mankind could not be helped by a single ningen." He started coldly. "I don't need any help from a creature in the same race with those whom have inflicted pain to me and I promise you we will not be on good terms after I'm finished with my captors," he said the last word with utmost disgust. Kagome felt a pang in her heart.
Her family funded money to those captors… Atasuke had funded money to those captors… it was also her fault that he had been severely abused. Why he was acting like this… She opened her mouth to speak, but as expected, no words came out. She looked down at the floor, tears blurring her vision and she couldn't even remember what the tears were for. All she knew was… she needed to cry.
Sesshoumaru's eyes almost widened in surprised as the saltiness of her tears reached his sensitive nose. He couldn't see her eyes, but the droplets of water dripping down to the white carpeted floor was evidence enough of the sorrow being shed. He didn't know what to do, nor what to think.
Did he do something wrong? Were his words too harsh or rude? His inner voice said no, while another voice from deep inside him said yes.
He did not want this… he did not want to hear her cry. He did not want to be the cause of this ningen's - the one person who was kind enough to provide him with shelter and apologize for mankind's abuse - tears. Nor would he like to see her pain or sorrow.
But he couldn't escape… he couldn't escape the guilt welling up inside of him. Reluctantly, he opened his arms and pulled her nearer, her face touching his chest. She did not try to fight… she accepted him. SHE accepted HIM. He pulled her nearer and her palms made their way to his broad shoulders and clutched them with trembling hands.
"G-gomenasai…" she whispered so softly that it was almost inaudible if it had not been for his natural sharp hearing abilities. "I never wanted to cause you pain…" she sobbed into his chest. 'She was trembling,' he noted to himself distantly. He felt her body shaking and he tightened the embrace, not wanting to let loose this fallen angel in his arms.
'Don't worry…' he thought to himself. 'You are not the cause of my pain…'
End of Part Two
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Massao: well, that was… dramatic? Or angsty? Oh well. *sighs* if you've noticed, I used the term, 'fallen angel' for Kagome.
Brief explanation: we were discussing this on CLE (Christian Living Education) and our teach said that every single human being came from heaven. So technically, we are all fallen angels. And because Kagome looks like an angel, she is a fallen angel. ^_^
I hoped you liked it. I am really busy and you can even ask anyone who reads my other Kag/Sess fic SUC, coz I haven't updated for I while and this is a breakthrough coz I regularly do.
Also, you can IM me every Friday and Saturday. I had some cramming and got grounded so you won't get any replies if you IM me. I use massao_na_mizu my old mail. Actually, I still use it; it just got a bit crowded. ^_^ If you aren't Asians, bet that the time is that we're 12 hours ahead or something. So if you mail me at 5 am, I will receive it in my time around 5 p.m. I open my mail and messenger around six. ^_^
Some review guide questions: As not to have some flames… you know how I hate those…
Did this part 2 chap disappoint you? How or why?
Are there some grammatical errors? In this situation, what would you have done or how you would have done part 2 of the chap? Was there something unclear? What is it? Would you rather have OOC Sesshoumaru (sweet, huggable) or the IC Sesshoumaru (indifferent, cold, can be nice at times, etc)?