Two whole days. . .two whole days she stayed at his bedside. He sacrificed
himself for her and their unborn child; she could remember everything so
clearly. It haunted her mind every second, if she lost him she didn't know
what she'd do, how she'd be able to go on without him near her side. She
still couldn't get the shooting out of her head.
*Flashback* "NO! Jason. . .oh god Jason please open your eyes! Jase!" She felt someone pull her down, looking over to her side she saw her father holding her down to the ground.
"Stacy stay down!" He didn't want her to injure the baby, or worse get shot, they didn't know if the sniper had left or if he was still there.
"No, I have to get to Jason! Let me go! JASON!!" Struggling to get out of his grasp, she finally turned her body to look at him, the tears streaming down her face; she couldn't lose him not now, not when they had so much to live for.
"Sonny let me go, I need to get to Jason!"
"No you need to say down!"
"He's the father of my child, I need him! JASON!!!! JASON HANG ON!"
He laid there shocked, Jason was the father of his daughter's child? His hold on her loosened as the shock of the news hit him, looking up he saw her rushing over to Jason's side, he stood up as much as he could and hurried over to her, he had to protect her still.
*End Of Flashback*
The blood, there was so much blood, looking down she finally realized that she was still wearing the same clothes she had come into the hospital with. His blood was still stained on her shirt, both Sonny and Carly had of course been in to see Jason telling her she needed to get some rest for the sake of the baby, but she didn't listen, she couldn't leave Jason. Her thoughts went back to Dr. Quartermain's diagnosis of Jason, the bullet went in and out not hitting any major organs, and the only thing was that he lost a lot of blood. She remembered back to when Sonny had appointed Johnny to stand guard and of course had also ordered him to make sure she ate. She wouldn't of eaten but she knew when Jason woke up if he found out she didn't eat, he would be furious.
"Why aren't you waking up Jason? Please come back to me, I need you Jase, we need you. Michael's been in here to see you, he was so traumatized by the whole thing, he kept asking about his Uncle Jason. . .Sonny knows, he knows you're the father of our baby, so if you're staying in there because you think he's going to hurt you he promised he wont. Carly's been upset, she keeps wanting me to go back to the penthouse and rest, but I haven't listened to her yet. . .you'd be proud of me, Johnny's been forcing me to eat healthy stuff and I have, he said that Sonny made him do it. . .alright so maybe I haven't eaten everything healthy, I had a rice crispy treat a couple minutes ago. . ." she tried to hold back the tears but it was no use, they started flooding her eyes.
"Jason please wake up, god please don't take him from me."
*Jason's Dream*
White light surrounded him, he knew he didn't belong here; this had to be heaven though. Suddenly a figure walked threw the light, he'd recognize that figure anywhere, her face suddenly became clearer just as her face did. Running into his arms, he held onto her, he never thought he'd see her again, holding onto her, he could hear someone sobbing. Pulling back he looked down seeing Stacy crying. He missed her so much, looking back up he stared at his first wife, his real first love, Courtney. She nodded her head.
"You need to go back Jason, she needs you, and with her you'll have true happiness. There will be a lot of hard times ahead, but she'll be worth all of the pain and all of the suffering and so will your child. I'll be waiting here for you when it's your time."
Stepping back into the light, he stared at his wife one last time, praying that the next time they'd see each other wouldn't be anytime soon.
Moaning he felt someone's hand holding his, as he opened his eyes, he saw what looked to be a hospital room, looking down he saw Stacy holding his hand, sleeping so soundly, it was almost a Kodak moment (sorry had to put that, lol). Out of the blue Courtney's words rang threw his head, 'There will be a lot of hard times ahead. . .' were these those hard time? Would they have to face each other in a hospital room? He knew what he had to do, it would kill him inside to do it, but it had to be done, there was someone out to kill Stacy, and if he wasn't able to protect her now, what was saying that the next time he would be able to take that bullet again for her?
He was jarred out of his thoughts as Stacy woke up, looking around the room, she opened up her eyes more yawning in the process finally her eyes locked onto Jason's, he was awake. Reaching up she went to hug him only to feel him not embracing her. She pulled back looking at him, what was wrong with him?
*How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.*
It felt as if her heart was going to break if he didn't explain himself, she could already feel the dread in his eyes and feel the pain this conversation was going to cause her.
"Stacy, we need to talk." The four most dreaded words anyone in a relationship hated to hear, 'we need to talk' nodding her head she took in a deep breath. He tried not to look into her eyes, that would only make this harder then it already was for him, he just got her back into his life and now he was going to push her back away again, but this time it was for her protection, and their child's.
"Stacy this isn't going to work out." There he said it, it was fast and straight to the point.
*I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
It felt as if someone had stabbed her in the heart and twisted the knife, 'this isn't going to work out'? What the fuck was that? "What do you mean this isn't going to work out? What are you talking about Jase, it must be the medication talking, I'll have Johnny. . ."
Standing up she walked to the door only to hear him yell at her, stopping her dead in her tracks. "Stacy leave and don't ever come back, alright?!"
*I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.*
She turned around facing him, the tears already starting to form in her chocolate eyes, "What?"
God why did she have to make this harder then it already was? " I said that I want you to leave? Do you really think I loved you? Huh? You were just a conquest for me, someone to get over my dead wife, a women that I'll love until the day I die! You mean nothing to me alright?"
*If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday*
"You don't mean that Jase, you love me, and I love you too. We're going to have this baby, and this family together."
It was killing him inside to have to say these things, but he had to push her away for her own protection. "HA! You thought we'd be together? Sweetie what kind of fantasy world are you living in? You're a stripper, a hooker! I bet that child isn't even mine!"
*And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
She could feel the tears streaming down her face, how could he say these things? She couldn't stand it any longer and ran out of the room, falling to the floor, the tears flooding her face. She still couldn't believe he would say those things to her, she felt a hand on her shoulder and looked up to see Johnny standing above her, helping her up she could tell he heard everything, the sympathy was in his eyes. Helping her stand back up he smiled at her.
"How about we go get a piece of chocolate cake?" Wiping a few tears from her face he could tell that's what she wanted, he motioned for another guard to take his place as he escorted her over to the elevator.
*And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
Inside Jason couldn't hold back the tears any longer, it hurt him so badly to know that he had hurt her, but this was the only way to ensure that she's be safe, eventually he'd tell her the truth, he only prayed she'd be able to forgive him and take him back, or there would be no reason for him to stay.
Song Credit: Boyz-2-Men "It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday"
*Flashback* "NO! Jason. . .oh god Jason please open your eyes! Jase!" She felt someone pull her down, looking over to her side she saw her father holding her down to the ground.
"Stacy stay down!" He didn't want her to injure the baby, or worse get shot, they didn't know if the sniper had left or if he was still there.
"No, I have to get to Jason! Let me go! JASON!!" Struggling to get out of his grasp, she finally turned her body to look at him, the tears streaming down her face; she couldn't lose him not now, not when they had so much to live for.
"Sonny let me go, I need to get to Jason!"
"No you need to say down!"
"He's the father of my child, I need him! JASON!!!! JASON HANG ON!"
He laid there shocked, Jason was the father of his daughter's child? His hold on her loosened as the shock of the news hit him, looking up he saw her rushing over to Jason's side, he stood up as much as he could and hurried over to her, he had to protect her still.
*End Of Flashback*
The blood, there was so much blood, looking down she finally realized that she was still wearing the same clothes she had come into the hospital with. His blood was still stained on her shirt, both Sonny and Carly had of course been in to see Jason telling her she needed to get some rest for the sake of the baby, but she didn't listen, she couldn't leave Jason. Her thoughts went back to Dr. Quartermain's diagnosis of Jason, the bullet went in and out not hitting any major organs, and the only thing was that he lost a lot of blood. She remembered back to when Sonny had appointed Johnny to stand guard and of course had also ordered him to make sure she ate. She wouldn't of eaten but she knew when Jason woke up if he found out she didn't eat, he would be furious.
"Why aren't you waking up Jason? Please come back to me, I need you Jase, we need you. Michael's been in here to see you, he was so traumatized by the whole thing, he kept asking about his Uncle Jason. . .Sonny knows, he knows you're the father of our baby, so if you're staying in there because you think he's going to hurt you he promised he wont. Carly's been upset, she keeps wanting me to go back to the penthouse and rest, but I haven't listened to her yet. . .you'd be proud of me, Johnny's been forcing me to eat healthy stuff and I have, he said that Sonny made him do it. . .alright so maybe I haven't eaten everything healthy, I had a rice crispy treat a couple minutes ago. . ." she tried to hold back the tears but it was no use, they started flooding her eyes.
"Jason please wake up, god please don't take him from me."
*Jason's Dream*
White light surrounded him, he knew he didn't belong here; this had to be heaven though. Suddenly a figure walked threw the light, he'd recognize that figure anywhere, her face suddenly became clearer just as her face did. Running into his arms, he held onto her, he never thought he'd see her again, holding onto her, he could hear someone sobbing. Pulling back he looked down seeing Stacy crying. He missed her so much, looking back up he stared at his first wife, his real first love, Courtney. She nodded her head.
"You need to go back Jason, she needs you, and with her you'll have true happiness. There will be a lot of hard times ahead, but she'll be worth all of the pain and all of the suffering and so will your child. I'll be waiting here for you when it's your time."
Stepping back into the light, he stared at his wife one last time, praying that the next time they'd see each other wouldn't be anytime soon.
Moaning he felt someone's hand holding his, as he opened his eyes, he saw what looked to be a hospital room, looking down he saw Stacy holding his hand, sleeping so soundly, it was almost a Kodak moment (sorry had to put that, lol). Out of the blue Courtney's words rang threw his head, 'There will be a lot of hard times ahead. . .' were these those hard time? Would they have to face each other in a hospital room? He knew what he had to do, it would kill him inside to do it, but it had to be done, there was someone out to kill Stacy, and if he wasn't able to protect her now, what was saying that the next time he would be able to take that bullet again for her?
He was jarred out of his thoughts as Stacy woke up, looking around the room, she opened up her eyes more yawning in the process finally her eyes locked onto Jason's, he was awake. Reaching up she went to hug him only to feel him not embracing her. She pulled back looking at him, what was wrong with him?
*How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.*
It felt as if her heart was going to break if he didn't explain himself, she could already feel the dread in his eyes and feel the pain this conversation was going to cause her.
"Stacy, we need to talk." The four most dreaded words anyone in a relationship hated to hear, 'we need to talk' nodding her head she took in a deep breath. He tried not to look into her eyes, that would only make this harder then it already was for him, he just got her back into his life and now he was going to push her back away again, but this time it was for her protection, and their child's.
"Stacy this isn't going to work out." There he said it, it was fast and straight to the point.
*I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
It felt as if someone had stabbed her in the heart and twisted the knife, 'this isn't going to work out'? What the fuck was that? "What do you mean this isn't going to work out? What are you talking about Jase, it must be the medication talking, I'll have Johnny. . ."
Standing up she walked to the door only to hear him yell at her, stopping her dead in her tracks. "Stacy leave and don't ever come back, alright?!"
*I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.*
She turned around facing him, the tears already starting to form in her chocolate eyes, "What?"
God why did she have to make this harder then it already was? " I said that I want you to leave? Do you really think I loved you? Huh? You were just a conquest for me, someone to get over my dead wife, a women that I'll love until the day I die! You mean nothing to me alright?"
*If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday*
"You don't mean that Jase, you love me, and I love you too. We're going to have this baby, and this family together."
It was killing him inside to have to say these things, but he had to push her away for her own protection. "HA! You thought we'd be together? Sweetie what kind of fantasy world are you living in? You're a stripper, a hooker! I bet that child isn't even mine!"
*And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
She could feel the tears streaming down her face, how could he say these things? She couldn't stand it any longer and ran out of the room, falling to the floor, the tears flooding her face. She still couldn't believe he would say those things to her, she felt a hand on her shoulder and looked up to see Johnny standing above her, helping her up she could tell he heard everything, the sympathy was in his eyes. Helping her stand back up he smiled at her.
"How about we go get a piece of chocolate cake?" Wiping a few tears from her face he could tell that's what she wanted, he motioned for another guard to take his place as he escorted her over to the elevator.
*And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.*
Inside Jason couldn't hold back the tears any longer, it hurt him so badly to know that he had hurt her, but this was the only way to ensure that she's be safe, eventually he'd tell her the truth, he only prayed she'd be able to forgive him and take him back, or there would be no reason for him to stay.
Song Credit: Boyz-2-Men "It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday"