A Trip to the Past
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Chapter 20~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I sat in my dorm alone as usual. It had become October and Sirius had begun Quidditch training with James again. I honestly didn't understand the purpose of the game and thought it was a waste of time. All the girls had gone soon after they woke to enjoy the brisk autumn Saturday and away from the freak. All of my friends had finally turned their backs upon me except Dawn who decided that I was correct and all the other girls were wrong.
I finally removed myself from my bed at noon and dressed in black holey jeans and a tattered shirt and sweatshirt. I put on my favorite robes which had muggle bleach stains on them, safety pins everywhere, and duck tape covering some of the holes. I grabbed my wand in a lackluster movement then walked out of my tower to find Dawn.
I found her by the lake in her clothes which were like mine. Her normal hair color had been colored silver for a while now and her green eyes stood out even more against her fair skin. She hadn't changed in personality but in her style and everything else, she was different. She was going to find someone who could do magical tattoos soon and I admired her bravery.
"Hey Stormy, how it been for you?"
"Same as always in this friggin' school, still hated by its occupants and disrespected by their mentors."
"How could I forget what you deal with Storm?" her now very cynical voice said. She had taken to calling me Stormy or Storm now because she said I needed a better nickname.
"Yes my darling morning you may have forgotten the pain that resides in this school for you have always been prejudged against for you are a Slytherin."
"Ah now I remember the liars and hypocrites that have come into our school."
"Good" I said, my voice bitter and hard like it was most of the time now.
Dawn looked over at me and smirked, she nodded her head and our old group was outside by Hester. I traced over the concealed circle scar on my hand, wishing for just a moment that Lily hadn't become the stuck up she was now. I watched in delight as her hand popped up as her and mine hand began to burn.
I looked at Dawn to see something I rarely saw in her eyes now, pain and unhappiness. It was nearing her parent's one year anniversary soon and I knew she didn't wish to relive the memories. I couldn't change the past no matter how much I wish I had that ability. I would have to let her relive her pain on her own though because she refused to let me talk to her about it anymore.
I pulled my knees up to my chest and zoned out for a bit till I felt a soft hand on my shoulder. It was Remus who smiled at me and took his place by Dawn and I. He didn't care about what I had done to myself and was still the comforting friend he had been. Jeannie was unhappy that he refused to call off our friendship for her and they had a row about it recently. I didn't know much about their relationship anymore then that though.
"So what brings you to the schools freaks Remus? Got sick of Pettigrew lapping over my brother and my boyfriend's stupid Quidditch practice?"
"Yeah and I was wondering if you both could accompany me to the library seeing as all my other friends hate the place."
"Sure Remmie, we'll go" Dawn piped up smiling as the other girls sent us looks of hatred.
We walked past the girls to have them hiss at Dawn and I. I had to resist the urge to kick all of them while they were down and walk to the library. I of course though flip them all off. When we arrived in the library I wondered over to books about the Ancients and sat at a table to read while the others tried to find what they were looking for. I was soon joined by Dawn with a pile of books about Potions which she needed help with and refused to let me help her.
Remus soon joined us with books about dark creatures. We all read in silence till James, Sirius, and Pettigrew trudged into the library fresh from the field. Sirius' hair was tousled and he looked extremely hot with it like that. I pointed out of the library and he took the note of leave. I shortly exited and we walked into his dorm quietly.
"Go get a shower boy, you stink" I laughed and lay down on his soft bed.
He went for a shower while I sat like a moron on his bed. He came out with only a towel around his waist. My eyes traveled down his nicely toned stomach and his hair was getting long again. I don't know what I like better on him because he had this way of being incredibly hot any way he tried.
Sirius picked out some clothes and went back in the bathroom, damn! I closed my eyes and began to burn that nice image in my head as he dressed. I got extremely hot in his dorm some how and took of my robe and my top. I really didn't care though because Sirius would love if I would just sit in my black bra for him alone all day. I began to understand the fact that Sirius was going to be longer in the bathroom then expected and decided to try to nap while he took a long time. I succeeded in doing so.
Sirius' POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I came out from my shower and getting dressed in leather pants and a black ripped tee to see Tempest asleep on my bed. She had taken off her robe and shirt probably because it had gotten really hot in the dorm for some odd reason. I walked over to her and looked down at my broken angel.
She didn't know it but during the summer I had found a silver ring with a strange carving in it and a letter of what our destiny was to be, or basically Tempest's. I had put it on a silver chain and wore it around my neck now and I noticed she had one in her room during the summer. She still only wore the locket I had given her in our first year around her neck and I thought it was sweet.
I thought her piercing was lovely on her though I didn't know how to react to it at first and regretted being anger with her for a few days about the thing. I looked at her small body and noticed you could see the faint lines of every rib and it made me sad when I thought about how skinny she gets.
I sat on my bed careful not to disturb and traced over her pale stomach with my index finger. I leaned down then kissed her stomach up, when I reached her lips, I muttered mostly to myself: "Tempest Potter one day we will get married because I could never anyone more then I love you."
Then I kissed her soft lips and I knew she had awakened when she started to kiss back. I broke the kiss and she was smiling something rare now at me. Her eyes were shiny and glossed like se had been in a trance like state but yet she hadn't. She was really quite odd at times, yet she always had her reasons for her difference.
"Merlin Siri"
"What stormy?"
"You are so beautiful" she whispered into my ear and I was stunned that my normally quiet Tempest had something like that.
"Baby, you are the loveliest person I have ever laid eyes upon."
"Liar, I am hideous but you dearest are handsome" she said so softly I could barely hear her.
Tempest then wrapped her arms around me and pulled me down to her. She kissed my lips briefly then buried her head in my chest. She was then silent as I gently stroked her hair. She was still hurting form her supposed friends turning on her because she looked different. She was still as good as a person as she had been before and I didn't see how her looks scared people.
Tempest fell asleep in my arms and I let her sleep. She was free from pain in her dreams and I would never take away her freedom from that hurt she has endured. I gently slipped out from under her tiny sleeping embrace and closed my bed's curtains. I then sat at a window with parchment and some ideas.
Tempest Nicolette Potter,
You are beyond any boundaries placed in our world. You stand for those oppressed in every way; from animals to the rest that have a style like your own. I could never imagine my world without you my dear. For you are my broken winged angel who still flies above us all, my storm.
Sirius
I laid the note by Tempest's sleeping head then left the dorm. I sat in the common room and waited for my friends to come back to the tower. I especially needed to talk to James about some pranking ideas. Of course I decided that finding them was more effective then waiting around.
Back to Tempest's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I woke up still shirtless in Sirius' bed with a letter by my head. I reached up and gently opened the soft letter from my love. The letter made me smile and a tear of joy crawled out of my eye. I put the letter in my pocket and regained my shirt and robe. I honestly didn't know why I slept so much during the weekend yet I didn't dare try to fix that problem, I actually enjoyed sleeping.
I snuck out of the boy's dormitory to the common room. I walked out of the common room with everyone staring at me because I seemingly came out of thin air. I went back outside to sit under a tree by myself and think about how much I detested people. I went into a trance about this that I didn't even notice a figure standing in front of me till it sobbingly hissed at me.
"What the hell do you want Evans, got too bored being surrounded by imbeciles."
"Shut it Potter, you are just as bad as your brother you know that right? Anyway McGonagall sent me to find your freaky ass."
"Leave me alone" I hissed as she began to follow me as I went to go to McGonagall's office.
She eventually walked away once I was in the hallway of the professor's office. I quietly entered the office and sat across from my head of house. She looked at me sadly then regained her eternal face of stone.
"Professor why have I been called to your office by Evans?"
"It is something that has come to my attention about something you have hanging on your dorm wall by you and have been practicing with Miss Potter."
"I take it you mean my sword, what is wrong with the beauty?"
"It upsets some of the other girls because they are afraid you could use it against them."
"Really" I raised my eyebrow while stating this slowly. "If they are so afraid of me then they must know I am a product of their own hatred and selfishness."
"Miss Potter I know you are different per se, the vegetarian, the music, the piercing, and the clothes all say that but I do not see how your roommates have anything to do with it."
"Easy really, hurt me by hating me I become worse. I will not take the sword down because it is also a symbol of our heritage and I will speak to you later Professor if they decided to complain again."
I left the now stunned Professor McGonagall in her office and stomped to the Great Hall for food because I had begun to become very hungry all of the sudden. I sat at the end of my house table and helped myself to salad. It was quite enjoyable to be alone forever I had now learned. So they thought I could hurt them, trust me I would do worse then physical pain, emotional was much worse.
After I ate I returned to my dorm room, since I had no homework to do because I was still head of all my classes I decided to blare some good old Sex Pistols. I had the record player at its loudest when the other girls returned from dinner, hm they were all buddy buddy now. I jumped on my bed tearing down the curtains as I did so and began to jump crazily to annoy them.
I began to go wild and just throw things around, tear posters off the wall, rip my pillows. I had scared them so much when I had left our dorm in shreds that when I was done no one could speak. I found my wand among the mess and then began to put everything back in order.
"This will be you soon, girls" I whispered dangerously and went to change my record from the Sex Pistols to the Clash.
"Really Potter, I don't think you will hurt us at all" Evans snuffed at me.
"Yeah I will bitch. You know, now of you see how you are all hypocrites. At least we freaks know where we lie and have brains."
"Well then at least we know how to act in normal society unlike the likes of you, Cobain, and the Marauders although Remus can be an exception."
"If I were you Thornton I would keep your mouth shut unless of course you want to be subject to one of the spells I have had the pleasure in finding in the restricted section.'
"No" they all said in unison and scampered like the dogs they were out into the common room.
Everyone feared me soon after except Dawn and the Marauders and Pettigrew didn't count because he was terrified of me. This was all the bitches in my dorm's fault and now everyone talked about me and shunned me, putting rage into my heart that didn't belong there. I walked in halls in complete silence with only the loud Marauders to keep me in a form of society. I hadn't cried yet for them and I never would I vowed to myself one day when I almost cried because I was so alone.
When Halloween came around I was in a sense of almost hatred of the holiday when it once had been my favorite celebration. I barely noticed any difference in the day till Dawn grabbed me after class and shook me in the middle of the hallway.
"Tempest come out of this, it is Halloween. Now go get ready and meet me by Hester in twenty."
I looked at her stunned then shrugged and walked to my dorm. I decided to change my clothes to that of a ripped tang top that cut at my belly button with a fishnet shirt over it. My skirt was knee length with frays on it. I wore fishnet stockings with holes in some areas of them with some really tall boots. I had on black eye shadow and eye liner with blood red lipstick. I toke some of my fake blood I had gotten a while ago and let a small trickle come from my mouth to my chin. There I was the perfect Halloween girl for Dawny girl.
I put on my robe but let it be unbuttoned and I pocketed my bottle of fake blood and my wand. I then walked out of my empty dorm into the lion's pit. Every head turned as I walked in the common room. I thought it was quite funny because people now thought I was what I looked like, a vampire. I gave them no look of credit to let them know I thought them all morons and exited the room with the grace of a royal queen.
I walked to Hester quite mystified at what my friend wanted me for on a holiday. I had learned to ask where Dawn was taking me before but for some reason today I didn't care enough about anything that happened to me any more. I arrived at our tree friend, Hester and Dawn stood there almost bounding towards me with joy in every one of her moves. This was a rarity to see a happy dawn and I walked silently to my dear friend.
"Come on we might be late" she cried happily.
"Where are we going?" I asked with a bit of concern in my voice.
"To a party silly" she laughed off and led me forcefully to the Forbidden Forest.
I was lead on a well beaten path to a clearing where one hell of a party was going on. Before we could walk into the clearing though Dawn handed me a mask and she and I put them on so no one could tell who we were. I soon learned this party was going to last a long time and was by invitation only. The people running this gig didn't want too many to be missing from the feast that it would arise attention and only those receiving one knew about it except me. Sometimes I had to emit Slytherins were smart.
"Hey ah Dawny why are we here if I didn't get the invite."
"Trust me those running this thing wanted you here they just gave me the invite to give to you. I just forgot now go mingle so I can go have some fun with a couple of boys."
"Dawn" I hissed but it was too late she was walking away to go join some boys she knew would be there. Merlin help me survive the night without killing my friend who was now in my bad books. I wandered over to the punch table and took some knowing full well it was probably spiked already but I didn't care.
I took a couple of sips of my drink before setting it down and letting my eyes catch a glimpse of a wonderfully interesting creature. He had long wavy blond hair tied back into a black ribbon and his frame work was that of a tall thin build but it was fascinating that he exuded power from his very movement. I couldn't see his face at the time but I knew he was handsome and I had never seen him before in my life.
Girls were swooning at him soon even if they had come with a date. His attention though turned upon me because I had been watching him, studying his very precise actions. He walked towards me now alone as if the girls were now being forced away from him by his power.
"Why hello Miss" he said kissing my knuckles. I looked upon him in surprise and he smiled beautifully.
"Hello yourself sir" I whispered in a bright smile.
"Care to dance with me Ma'am?" he asked and I nodded to the man's request.
He lead me onto the make shift dance floor and a slow song came on. He wrapped his arms around me and I danced with him not without feeling guilty though about not dancing with my boyfriend who wasn't here. I didn't put my head on his shoulder while we danced though and when the song ended I scampered away. This was when I decided to leave because I now felt extreme guilt about what I had just done even though it wasn't all that much and I walked away from the party and the Forbidden Forest.
I entered the feast in the middle of it and every head turned when I entered. Professor McGonagall glared at me sending the signal I would end up in trouble if I pulled something like that again. I sat at the end of the table alone and played with the food. I wasn't hungry and I felt like I had done something very bad even though it wasn't even all that horrible like some of the others did to their boyfriends.
At the end of the feast I jumped at the first chance to leave the Great Hall and ran to Gryffindor's tower and ran up to my dorm. I grabbed my bath things and pajamas and set to the task of cleaning before I would be able to sleep.
In the bath tub I realized something as I looked at my body: I was never going to be able to rid myself of the emotional wounds I had been hurt by. Abandonment by everyone would taint my skin forever and my heart would ever be burned into my existence because I was a wrong doer. I finished my bath an hour later and carefully dressed in my pajamas as to not accidentally rip my nose piercing out.
When I came out of the bathroom the girls were in our dorm room and look disgusted with me as I walked to my bed and picked up my ever faithful cat Siren. She meowed playfully and swatted at my multicolored curls. I laughed at my beautiful cat and set her back on the bed. I then crawled into bed and shut my curtains around it so no one could see me.
I slept the entire night fitfully and had dreams of deceit and betrayal. I woke the next morning tired as ever and in a really bitchy mood that would make my entire Saturday at Hogsmeade living hell. Man did I hate being me and what I would experience later in the day. Damn!