Chapter 4.
I didn't see that. I didn't just see Brolly...vaporize Trunks and Goten. I didn't see anything. If I keep saying it, it didn't happen. I didn't see Videl's body laying among the thousand or so dead at the stadium. I didn't.
Now I'll just open my eyes and prove it.
Maybe it did happen.
"Kid, quit standing there like an idiot. Help your dad!!!"
"Kid, I know. I saw it too. Don't think that I'm not suffering the same as you are. Trunks and Goten are gone, but we're all still here. Snap out of it."
"Do you think that I don't feel guilty about this as well? The burden weighs heavy on me. ..I regret even listening to your father and teaching them that tecnique. But it's too late for that Gohan just quit standing there and go help your father. Let their deaths power you!"
How can he possibly understand the pain that I'm feeling? That was MY little brother! I have had to watch out for him since he was born because the fucking "super saiyan" was busy training in other world. "Oh, look at me, I'm Goku, the big hero, and now I'm an even bigger hero because I'm keeping the world safe by staying dead." What a self righteous asshole! Am I supposed to be grateful? The bastard threw me in against Cell, an eleven year old boy, his own son, and told me that I had to save the Earth. He could have destroyed that monster without any difficulty, I know he could, and I know he knows that as well. But the great Goku had other ideas. Now his youngest son is gone and the boy that I have also treated like a little brother for years is gone too? And why? Because that lousy asshole decided that it would be a great idea for Goten and Trunks to learn the fusion technique.
Gohan. You know this isn't your father's fault. Gotenks was the only chance that the boys had of beating Brolly. No one is stronger than those two combined. You know that. No one would have had any chance against them except...
Except me.
I could have saved them. I could have beaten Brolly, but wanted to let them handle it. I wanted them to try their hand at saving the world. I'm not gonna be here forev...
Oh shit.
I sound just like him. I sound like my miserable self-righteous father. What the hell has happened to me.
Don't worry Gohan. You aren't him. You may be worse. You know that that isn't why you didn't beat Brolly. You were scared. You wanted Vegeta, Gotenks, or Daddy to straighten out the mess just like always. You are nothing but a chickenshit Gohan. Face it. FACE IT, YOU FUCKING COWARD!!!
I didn't see that. I didn't just see Brolly...vaporize Trunks and Goten. I didn't see anything. If I keep saying it, it didn't happen. I didn't see Videl's body laying among the thousand or so dead at the stadium. I didn't.
Now I'll just open my eyes and prove it.
Maybe it did happen.
"Kid, quit standing there like an idiot. Help your dad!!!"
"Kid, I know. I saw it too. Don't think that I'm not suffering the same as you are. Trunks and Goten are gone, but we're all still here. Snap out of it."
"Do you think that I don't feel guilty about this as well? The burden weighs heavy on me. ..I regret even listening to your father and teaching them that tecnique. But it's too late for that Gohan just quit standing there and go help your father. Let their deaths power you!"
How can he possibly understand the pain that I'm feeling? That was MY little brother! I have had to watch out for him since he was born because the fucking "super saiyan" was busy training in other world. "Oh, look at me, I'm Goku, the big hero, and now I'm an even bigger hero because I'm keeping the world safe by staying dead." What a self righteous asshole! Am I supposed to be grateful? The bastard threw me in against Cell, an eleven year old boy, his own son, and told me that I had to save the Earth. He could have destroyed that monster without any difficulty, I know he could, and I know he knows that as well. But the great Goku had other ideas. Now his youngest son is gone and the boy that I have also treated like a little brother for years is gone too? And why? Because that lousy asshole decided that it would be a great idea for Goten and Trunks to learn the fusion technique.
Gohan. You know this isn't your father's fault. Gotenks was the only chance that the boys had of beating Brolly. No one is stronger than those two combined. You know that. No one would have had any chance against them except...
Except me.
I could have saved them. I could have beaten Brolly, but wanted to let them handle it. I wanted them to try their hand at saving the world. I'm not gonna be here forev...
Oh shit.
I sound just like him. I sound like my miserable self-righteous father. What the hell has happened to me.
Don't worry Gohan. You aren't him. You may be worse. You know that that isn't why you didn't beat Brolly. You were scared. You wanted Vegeta, Gotenks, or Daddy to straighten out the mess just like always. You are nothing but a chickenshit Gohan. Face it. FACE IT, YOU FUCKING COWARD!!!