She is a paradox to you.
A sweet enigma from which you suck your secret pleasure from, with nervous
sly glances, only when you are sure that her own beautiful world from which
you are an outsider has made her oblivious to your burning, staring eyes.
You want her.
Under your sheets at night you bite down on your pillow to keep from being
heard. The image of her pink tongue sliding over pristine white canines,
too sharp for comfort, is forever etched in your mind, the single gesture
creating hundreds of proposals and insinuations and fantasies inside your
young, impressionable mind.
She knows how to get what she wants. And more. And today when she sees
you staring, from across the table in the bustling Hall, her lips quirk
into a smirk, only for a moment, as her cool black eyes stare straight
back. They turn away, breaking the stretched out, suspended moment, as she
stabs her fork down into the table, barely missing her boyfriend's fingers
in a vicious warning to him. Her snarled out words, "I told you not to
touch me in public!" only draw you to her more, a moth to the flame,
despite how it makes the elder boy cringe and flush with embarrassment and
anger towards this pale, ethereal, dangerous beauty. You think to yourself
with slight smugness that YOU would not anger her so. That you would be
anything and everything she would want from you.
A touch to your hand distracts you. Your attention drawn now to the
prefect beside you. Macnair. "It isn't worth it, Lucius." He says to you
with a little shake of his head, and a pitying look.
You don't care.
Only years later will you begin to understand what was meant. Her
deceptive charm will have drawn you in, tangling you in her carefully woven
web of screams and power. She will have you wrapped around her finger.
Caught in the vicious cycle of desire. You will need to make her yours.
Work will yourself into a sweat to show her that you are above her, own
her, control her. The struggle of power, each out to prove something. And
every time, you will be the one to cave, moaning out her name in the dark.
"Bella."
She will always get what she wants.
"Bella."
She will always get what she wants.
