Seeing as I had this here anyway, I figured you might like it. ^_^ Enjoy the last instalment to my little fic.
"Why are we here again?" Max asked, sending a slight glare in Rei's direction.
"Because I can't trust Kai not to screw this up." Rei was thinking back on the conversation he'd just had with Kai. He seemed nervous and somewhat elated about something, mentioning that he and Wyatt would be training alone for a while. Rei had immediately grabbed Max as soon as Kai told him and the two of them practically ran to his school, managing to get there in just fifteen minutes.
"You know, I think this is trespassing," Max whispered to Rei as they dropped over the wall into the main school grounds.
"Don't worry, we won't be found out."
"We better not be." Max stopped suddenly and pulled Rei down behind some bushes. "They're over there."
"Really?" Rei poked his head over the bushes and gaped. "Can you believe what he's doing?"
Max shook his head. "I don't think I've ever seen Kai that close to anyone before." They had arrived to see the tableau of Kai holding Wyatt closely to him and helping him blade.
Rei grinned. "He really does like him a lot."
"Yeah."
The two of them continued to watch, right up until Wyatt embraced Kai. They grinned at each other, but their smiles faded as they saw Kai run off and Wyatt walk dejectedly back to his room. They shared a look.
"What just happened?" Max asked.
"I don't know, but I'm going to go talk to Kai. He'd better have a good explanation for it. I'll meet you back at your place, okay?" Max nodded and headed back to the wall where they'd come over. Rei watched him leave then ran after Kai.
Kai turned as he heard someone coming after him. He thought it was Wyatt but was surprised when he saw Rei, and even more surprised when he saw the look on Rei's face.
"What happened?"
Kai's eyes widened and he was too shocked to speak for a moment. "You were watching?"
"Of course, I know you Kai; I knew you would manage to do something to push him away." Rei looked pained. "Why do you do that?"
Kai glared. "This isn't your concern Rei."
"Tough. You hurt him a lot by pulling away like that. Why can't you just accept him?"
"Because it's hard Rei!" Kai burst out. "I've never felt this strongly about anyone ... anything Rei, not even my blading. It scares me." Kai saw the understanding in Rei's eyes and sighed. "I want to be near him so much it's overwhelming. I'm not used to this."
Rei searched for something to say, but found nothing that he felt would really help. "Look," he finally said, "you can't run from this, you're going to have to do something and the only way that I know could possibly help is just to tell him, or you'll end up ruining everything with him. He likes you Kai and you're already hurting him by running away from him."
Kai nodded. "I guess." He smiled slightly. "You're such a pain in the ass, being on my case like this you know Rei, but thanks anyway."
"You're welcome," Rei grinned and he slung his arm quickly around Kai's shoulder and gave him a reassuring hug. "Good luck with this Kai." Then he pulled away and walked off.
Kai shook his head at his friend's actions. Rei must really want him to work this whole situation out. He was a good friend, if somewhat annoying.
"Guess his advice makes sense though. I'll go find Wyatt."
* * *
Wyatt opened his door after the second knock, wondering who would be coming to see him so late at night.
Kai stood in the doorway. Wyatt hesitated slightly then said. "Hey Kai, do you want to come in?" Kai nodded and walked into his room, noticing with some guilt the slightly tearstained cheeks and vaguely red eyes.
"Are you all right?" Kai asked hesitantly.
Wyatt smiled then nodded. "Yeah, I guess." He studied Kai carefully. "Are you though? The way you ran off, I'm wondering if I did something wrong. Or did you suddenly remember a pressing appointment?"
Kai flinched at his tone. "Wyatt, I'm sorry about everything, I never meant to hurt you or anything. I just …" he looked away.
"You know, I don't get you Kai," Wyatt said after they had been silent for so long. "Sometimes you seem so cold and distant, yet at the same time I get the feeling you want nothing more than to sit down and talk or go blade with your friends. And other times you seem so open, smiling and laughing, but you're hiding something. I thought you were a friend, you said I was and that you could trust me with anything."
"I do Wyatt, there's just … something I'm having trouble dealing with."
"Maybe I can help you with it," he offered.
Kai winced at his generosity. Wyatt was a sweet kid, always wanting to help him, be near him, expecting nothing from him, not even friendship if Kai didn't want to give it, but in return he gave so much to Kai. He was deeply hurt by Kai's sudden distance from him again and wanted to help him out, because he seemed to hurt when Kai was hurt.
"I wish you could, but it's something very personal," Kai told him. He sighed and saw the tears forming in Wyatt's eyes.
"Why do you keep running away Kai?"
Kai turned away. "I have to."
"No you don't, I won't do anything to hurt you."
"I'm still scared."
"Of what?"
"Myself."
Wyatt stared at him and barely heard the whispered admission. "What are you so afraid of?"
"My feelings."
"Why?"
"I don't think I can hide them any more if I'm around you too much."
"You shouldn't want to hide them, I won't hurt you, I don't want to be anything more than to be your friend."
"That's just it," Kai burst out suddenly. "I don't want that, and I'm afraid you'll leave once you find out how much I'm attracted to you!" Kai paled suddenly and his eyes widened as he realised what he'd blurted out unintentionally. He shook his head and ran for the door, throwing it open and running out into the corridor.
Despite his churning shocked emotions, Wyatt started to run after him then stopped halfway down the hallway. Kai needed time to deal with this and he did too. He walked slowly back to his room and closed the door behind him. He sat down on his bed and looked over at the table beside him.
"I still have his Dranzer."
* * *
Kai paced back and forth in his room, berating himself for a fool for running from him again. But after that admission, he was too scared to do anything else.
Yes, he admitted it, he, Kai Hiwatari was scared. Why shouldn't he be? After never having to deal with anything like this, it was all thrust upon him so suddenly it made his head reel. Emotions weren't weaknesses, or distractions they were confusing, intricate intense puzzles and he had no idea how to deal with his.
Kai flung himself on his bed and debated calling Rei or Max for help, but it was late and they probably wouldn't appreciate such a call when they were trying to sleep. Not to mention he wanted to work things out for himself this time. It wasn't fair on Wyatt or himself if he didn't put effort into solving his situation.
He couldn't do it without rest though, so Kai decided to get some sleep, fitful and restless though it was.
At around seven in the morning he heard a knock on the door and looked over. He looked terrible. Calling out, "I'll be there in a moment," Kai quickly dashed to his bathroom and washed his face and combed his fingers through his hair. It didn't make much difference but it was some. Still in his rumpled clothes from last night, Kai opened his door and stared.
Wyatt was there looking very determined.
Kai looked away as he invited Wyatt in. He could feel Wyatt's curious stare on him, but he refused to meet his gaze.
"What brings you here?" he finally asked after a long silence.
Wyatt held out his hand and deposited Dranzer onto Kai's bed. "You left Dranzer with me yesterday; I thought I should bring it back."
"Thanks," Kai mumbled, still not looking directly at Wyatt. He moved over to pick up Dranzer and Wyatt grabbed a hold of his arm. Kai looked over and swallowed as their gazes met.
"You're avoiding me," Wyatt said with a hurt tone evident in his voice. Kai didn't answer straight away, which only further proved the truth of Wyatt's comment. "Why?"
"I … I didn't think you would want to see me again."
"Why not?"
Kai frowned. "After yesterday, why would you?"
"You really don't know me very well do you Kai." Wyatt shook his head. "You say I know you, and I might, but do you know all that much about me? You say you like me, yet you run, thinking I would despise you for that, you keep closing yourself off thinking that your thoughts and perceptions of me are the right ones, but they may not be." He smiled. "I'm here, aren't I? I don't hate you, far from it in fact."
Kai stared at him, seeing something he'd always missed. He had been selfish in his thoughts of Wyatt, and rather arrogant too, he hadn't really gotten to know Wyatt or his thoughts about their friendship. He hadn't really been much of a friend to Wyatt, and friendship was a two-way bond.
"What exactly is it that you want from me?" Kai asked. "Why do you want to be with me?"
Wyatt smiled. "I like you, isn't that reason enough?"
Kai nodded. "Of course. Thank you and I'm sorry for being such a jerk."
"You were just confused, but that's okay, we all get confused sometimes." Wyatt bit his lip in thought, staring at Kai shyly. "There is one thing I'm curious about though."
Kai gulped and nodded. "Yeah?"
"What you said last night, was it true?"
Kai hesitated then nodded. "Yes, it was. I really do like you Wyatt, I just wasn't sure how to deal with that, so I did what I always had and pushed you away."
Wyatt nodded, processing this while Kai watched him nervously. "I think I like you too Kai," he finally said, much to Kai's astonishment. He grinned. "I mean, it's not every day that you can say Kai Hiwatari likes you, you'd have to be a fool to pass up the opportunity. But I do like you, I've always admired you and I've been slightly infatuated ever since I met you."
Kai laughed. "Yeah, I noticed that." Seeing Wyatt's grin he felt suddenly relieved about everything. "So you like me too huh?" Wyatt nodded. "Then you won't mind if I do this?" Kai leaned forward, hesitating slightly until he saw the anticipation in Wyatt's eyes, then he pressed his lips to Wyatt's.
He could feel Wyatt's slight hesitation before he pressed back gently, making the kiss last longer before he pulled away, his cheeks slightly flushed from the actions.
Kai waited nervously while Wyatt stared at him.
"Okay," Wyatt said slowly. "Now I really, really, really like you." Kai laughed at this and Wyatt grinned at him, pulling him down to sit on the bed beside him, never releasing his hand from its grip on Kai's wrist.
"That's good," Kai gently brushed his free hand over Wyatt's cheek, gently holding his chin and smiling as he saw Wyatt's slight blush.
"Is it?"
"Most definitely." Kai leaned in for another kiss, knowing that things would be just perfect for them from now on.
AN: Ah, kawaii! I love ending my romance fics like that. I hope you all enjoyed that, cause I know I did.
Well, until my next endeavour,
Laters,