A/N: Okay, I know it's not original.but.*blush* I thought her POV would be
sweet ( The real idea behind this was this song. Disclaimer time, I do
not own the wonderful world of Inuyasha, nor do I have any property rights
to Ms. Mandy Moore's lovely song "Cry" I just happen to admire both a great
deal! *finishes with the disclaimer seal to keep out the bad Lawyer
Youkai*.
A few punctuation explainations.
"." is spoken '..' Is thought ~~..~~ are lyrics from a song
That evening, I watched him in the river, as he reverently scrubbed at his hands and arms, gritting his teeth in anger and frustration. Over and over he rubbed at his hands, so much that I was afraid that he was trying to pull the very skin off. After what seemed to be an eternity, he snarled and came out of the water, sitting down on the riverbank. I sat beside him and handed him a towel I had brought back with me.
He shrugged the gesture off, and I simply nodded, not wishing to press the issues with him tonight. He didn't need Kagome, the shard detector, or Kagome the over opinionated girl from the future, what he needed was Kagome his friend, just to be quiet and listen if something was needed to be said.
"You don't have to force yourself to come near me," he said after a moment. I glanced at him and he looked at me with a stubborn annoyance in his eye. I watched him, my eyes screaming at him to understand.
~~ I'll always remember It was late afternoon~~
'Baka, I'm not forcing myself, I want to be with you. I told you that before, even if you've chosen Kikyo, I swore I would always stay beside you. Why can't you see that? I couldn't leave you, especially now.'
He snarled and glared at me, "What! You're acting like there's something wrong!" He huffed, "I don't give a damn about what I did!"
I had never felt so calm in my life, staring at his angry face, the deep sadness in my heart was all consuming. "Inuyasha," I whispered softly. He made a noise, staring into my eyes, and with a huff turned his head away from me. Even though he tried to look angry, I could feel it. His pain, so strong it pierced my heart and I wanted nothing more than to take it away from him.
~~It lasted forever And ended too soon You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark gray sky I was changed~~
I watched him, staring off with that look on his face, and I couldn't stop myself. I moved behind him and knelt down, placing my hands on his shoulders. "Inuyasha, " I whispered softly, lovingly, "I understand." He grunted softly, and I could feel the tension in his shoulders. He was surprised and did something even I didn't expect. He reached over his shoulder and placed his hand on mine,
I sighed softly and laid my head down on his back gently, just letting him know I was there for him.
We sat there as the sun set, staring off into the water, both silent, both just holding our hands together, a life line of hope. My heart swelled painfully, and I wasn't sure what with what, happiness to have this tender moment, or so much sadness at the pain that he must be going through. After a moment, I realized that it was no longer quiet. I heard a noise, soft, muffled. Beneath my hands, Inuyasha was shaking, very faintly but I could feel it. Without letting go of his hand, I moved around to his side.
~~In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes~~
He tried to turn his head away from me, and I gently cupped his chin with my hand. His eyes were a dull bronze, as he stared at me. His free hand was pressed to his lips, and I could see his lips curled over his finger. He was biting down on his hand, to keep me from hearing. His eyes, were so deep and full of emotion that I stared in surprise. It was then I realized what I saw.
~~The moment that I saw you cry~~
Inuyasha was crying!
~~It was late in September And I've seen you before (and you were) You were always the cold one But I was never that sure You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark gray sky I was changed~~
The cool autumn air blew through our hair, brushing cold fingertips along the back of my neck and giving me goose bumps, but I couldn't turn my head from the sight before me. He slowly moved his hand from his lips and I could see small bite marks in his hand. Nothing serious, no blood, but marks that would last at least an hour. He looked so small and helpless at that moment, not that I could tell him. His pride was injured enough. All my instincts took over and moved my hand from his chin and slid it along his jaw, brushing hair out of the way. He watched me, as hot tears slide down his cheek. His lips were partially opened, in a look of awe.
I couldn't blame him, I didn't believe what I was doing either. I just gave him the warmest smile my sad heart could muster, and I saw all his resolve crumple. Without a word, yet with a soft whimper he leaned forward, his arms wrapping tightly around my waist, and his face pressed tightly against my collarbone. I could smell him strong scent then, how much it was him.
'I might not have his nose, but.' I thought to myself and pressed my nose against into his hair. He smelled of pine from the trees he liked to sleep in, and of clean sweat.that sweet smell of honest exertion. I loved that smell, it was the smell of life. And now too, I could smell his tears. They were falling harder now, I could feel the front of my shirt getting very wet, but I didn't care.
~~In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry~~
Inuyasha nuzzled his face against me, and his hands wrapped tighter around me, and I returned the embrace. He shook violently now, as his cries became louder and more painful.
"I do care." his muffled voice cried and I bent my head down, kissing the top of his forehead gently.
"I know Inuyasha," I whispered gently in his ear
"I could have.." he sobbed and I ran my fingertips along his ear gently, soothing him, "But you didn't.."
~~I wanted to hold you I wanted to make it go away I wanted to know you I wanted to make your everything, all right....~~
His grip tightened and he lifted his head to look up at me, cheeks stained, "I am a monster," he whispered and I bit my lip, "Inuyasha, you are not a monster. You are a wonderful, brave, incredibly strong hanyou." He cringed, "A half-breed monster," he said, his voice filled with disgust and I cupped his chin again, looking deep into his eyes.
"A youkai can be good, and a human can be pure evil, look at Onigmi (forgive me the misspelling). We are not what we are, but who we are. You, Inuyasha are just that. You are Inuyasha, the most amazing being I have ever met." I gently brushed some hair from his face, amazed that I wasn't beet red and able to meet his gaze. Something inside me lit up, enveloped me in an incredible warmth. I loved him, for everything he was, is and could be. It gave me strength, and took away all fear that I could have. I knew for certain, I would never leave him.
He looked at me, and I smiled again. "I know how your precious pride will be nagging you in the morning, I promise. I won't whisper a word of this to anyone." He snorted, a bit of his old spirit coming back, "Feh!"
I resisted the urge to laugh, and instead blinked in surprise as his arms tightened around my waist again, and his head rested against the curve of my neck, his nose very close to my pulse. I stopped breathing a moment. He sniffed deeply, and for a moment rubbed his cheek against my skin. I must have tensed up because he sat back and looked at me in surprise.
"I'm sorry," he whispered and I weakly managed to shake my head, "No.just.surprised,"
"Kagome," he whispered hoarsely, 'May I use your lap?"
I blinked in surprise and nodded, shifting to sit back, stretching out my legs as he comfortably rested his head in my lap with a sigh. I smiled and recalled the first night I saw him human. He slept just like this, and before drifting off to sleep, had tiredly confessed that he thought I smelled good.
I glanced down at the soon sleeping hanyou and leaned over, whispering in his ear, "I think you smell good too," I admitted, and a faint smile graced his lips as he drifted off to sleep. I brushed his temple with my lips softly.
`Aishiteru' I thought wistfully as I leaned back against a tree and let myself fall into a deep slumber.
~~I'll always remember... It was late afternoon... In places no one would find... In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry~~
A few punctuation explainations.
"." is spoken '..' Is thought ~~..~~ are lyrics from a song
That evening, I watched him in the river, as he reverently scrubbed at his hands and arms, gritting his teeth in anger and frustration. Over and over he rubbed at his hands, so much that I was afraid that he was trying to pull the very skin off. After what seemed to be an eternity, he snarled and came out of the water, sitting down on the riverbank. I sat beside him and handed him a towel I had brought back with me.
He shrugged the gesture off, and I simply nodded, not wishing to press the issues with him tonight. He didn't need Kagome, the shard detector, or Kagome the over opinionated girl from the future, what he needed was Kagome his friend, just to be quiet and listen if something was needed to be said.
"You don't have to force yourself to come near me," he said after a moment. I glanced at him and he looked at me with a stubborn annoyance in his eye. I watched him, my eyes screaming at him to understand.
~~ I'll always remember It was late afternoon~~
'Baka, I'm not forcing myself, I want to be with you. I told you that before, even if you've chosen Kikyo, I swore I would always stay beside you. Why can't you see that? I couldn't leave you, especially now.'
He snarled and glared at me, "What! You're acting like there's something wrong!" He huffed, "I don't give a damn about what I did!"
I had never felt so calm in my life, staring at his angry face, the deep sadness in my heart was all consuming. "Inuyasha," I whispered softly. He made a noise, staring into my eyes, and with a huff turned his head away from me. Even though he tried to look angry, I could feel it. His pain, so strong it pierced my heart and I wanted nothing more than to take it away from him.
~~It lasted forever And ended too soon You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark gray sky I was changed~~
I watched him, staring off with that look on his face, and I couldn't stop myself. I moved behind him and knelt down, placing my hands on his shoulders. "Inuyasha, " I whispered softly, lovingly, "I understand." He grunted softly, and I could feel the tension in his shoulders. He was surprised and did something even I didn't expect. He reached over his shoulder and placed his hand on mine,
I sighed softly and laid my head down on his back gently, just letting him know I was there for him.
We sat there as the sun set, staring off into the water, both silent, both just holding our hands together, a life line of hope. My heart swelled painfully, and I wasn't sure what with what, happiness to have this tender moment, or so much sadness at the pain that he must be going through. After a moment, I realized that it was no longer quiet. I heard a noise, soft, muffled. Beneath my hands, Inuyasha was shaking, very faintly but I could feel it. Without letting go of his hand, I moved around to his side.
~~In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes~~
He tried to turn his head away from me, and I gently cupped his chin with my hand. His eyes were a dull bronze, as he stared at me. His free hand was pressed to his lips, and I could see his lips curled over his finger. He was biting down on his hand, to keep me from hearing. His eyes, were so deep and full of emotion that I stared in surprise. It was then I realized what I saw.
~~The moment that I saw you cry~~
Inuyasha was crying!
~~It was late in September And I've seen you before (and you were) You were always the cold one But I was never that sure You were all by yourself Staring up at a dark gray sky I was changed~~
The cool autumn air blew through our hair, brushing cold fingertips along the back of my neck and giving me goose bumps, but I couldn't turn my head from the sight before me. He slowly moved his hand from his lips and I could see small bite marks in his hand. Nothing serious, no blood, but marks that would last at least an hour. He looked so small and helpless at that moment, not that I could tell him. His pride was injured enough. All my instincts took over and moved my hand from his chin and slid it along his jaw, brushing hair out of the way. He watched me, as hot tears slide down his cheek. His lips were partially opened, in a look of awe.
I couldn't blame him, I didn't believe what I was doing either. I just gave him the warmest smile my sad heart could muster, and I saw all his resolve crumple. Without a word, yet with a soft whimper he leaned forward, his arms wrapping tightly around my waist, and his face pressed tightly against my collarbone. I could smell him strong scent then, how much it was him.
'I might not have his nose, but.' I thought to myself and pressed my nose against into his hair. He smelled of pine from the trees he liked to sleep in, and of clean sweat.that sweet smell of honest exertion. I loved that smell, it was the smell of life. And now too, I could smell his tears. They were falling harder now, I could feel the front of my shirt getting very wet, but I didn't care.
~~In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry~~
Inuyasha nuzzled his face against me, and his hands wrapped tighter around me, and I returned the embrace. He shook violently now, as his cries became louder and more painful.
"I do care." his muffled voice cried and I bent my head down, kissing the top of his forehead gently.
"I know Inuyasha," I whispered gently in his ear
"I could have.." he sobbed and I ran my fingertips along his ear gently, soothing him, "But you didn't.."
~~I wanted to hold you I wanted to make it go away I wanted to know you I wanted to make your everything, all right....~~
His grip tightened and he lifted his head to look up at me, cheeks stained, "I am a monster," he whispered and I bit my lip, "Inuyasha, you are not a monster. You are a wonderful, brave, incredibly strong hanyou." He cringed, "A half-breed monster," he said, his voice filled with disgust and I cupped his chin again, looking deep into his eyes.
"A youkai can be good, and a human can be pure evil, look at Onigmi (forgive me the misspelling). We are not what we are, but who we are. You, Inuyasha are just that. You are Inuyasha, the most amazing being I have ever met." I gently brushed some hair from his face, amazed that I wasn't beet red and able to meet his gaze. Something inside me lit up, enveloped me in an incredible warmth. I loved him, for everything he was, is and could be. It gave me strength, and took away all fear that I could have. I knew for certain, I would never leave him.
He looked at me, and I smiled again. "I know how your precious pride will be nagging you in the morning, I promise. I won't whisper a word of this to anyone." He snorted, a bit of his old spirit coming back, "Feh!"
I resisted the urge to laugh, and instead blinked in surprise as his arms tightened around my waist again, and his head rested against the curve of my neck, his nose very close to my pulse. I stopped breathing a moment. He sniffed deeply, and for a moment rubbed his cheek against my skin. I must have tensed up because he sat back and looked at me in surprise.
"I'm sorry," he whispered and I weakly managed to shake my head, "No.just.surprised,"
"Kagome," he whispered hoarsely, 'May I use your lap?"
I blinked in surprise and nodded, shifting to sit back, stretching out my legs as he comfortably rested his head in my lap with a sigh. I smiled and recalled the first night I saw him human. He slept just like this, and before drifting off to sleep, had tiredly confessed that he thought I smelled good.
I glanced down at the soon sleeping hanyou and leaned over, whispering in his ear, "I think you smell good too," I admitted, and a faint smile graced his lips as he drifted off to sleep. I brushed his temple with my lips softly.
`Aishiteru' I thought wistfully as I leaned back against a tree and let myself fall into a deep slumber.
~~I'll always remember... It was late afternoon... In places no one would find... In places no one would find All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside) It was then that I realized That forever was in your eyes The moment I saw you cry~~