Disclaimer: I do not own star wars or any of the characters in star wars
(though I wish I did). Don't try to sue me, cause I'm only a 13 year old,
star wars obsessed girl.
Author's Note: Hi everyone! Yes, I'm still alive and no, I haven't disappeared off the face of the earth. I know its been like a million years since I last updated and my only excuse is that, I've been incredibly busy with all the assignments that my teachers are making me do. Add that to all the year 10 math homework and Chinese articles I've had to write and I hardly have anytime to do anything apart from study. * sigh * year 9 is so much harder than year 8.
A big thank you to: Leigh S. Duran, Toria, Me-Me, Niina, Virgo, Camlost, Kitty, Meg, Kalorna Enera, Agent Jaid, Ella, Jevvica, Arifel, Starwars- FREAK, JediPuppy, Eldainwe Aduial Elenath, Rikku oh Ki, tHe InSaNe OnE, Tommy, Master Elora Dannan, Mirkani1, Beliya and a special thank you to Karla Pheonix for being so supportive. *blush* I'm totally flattered by your compliments and I know I'm being very lazy. Hehe.
Dreams Do Come True
Chapter 4
Qui gon paced up and down his shared quarters with Obi Wan. It had been 5 hours since Obi Wan had ran away and Qui Gon was starting to feel extremely worried and guilty.
Perhaps I was a little hard on him. But, all I wanted to do was make sure he won't turn out like Xanatos
Yeah and accusing him of starting a fight, without any proof was part of that too? A rebellious part of his mind asked sarcastically.
I had to discipline him for fighting in the corridors, he is my padawan after all. Qui Gon rationalized.
Oh, so you finally acknowledged the fact that he's your padawan huh? Judging by the way you've been treating him lately, I thought you'd forgot.
What's wrong with the way I've been treating Obi Wan? Qui Gon asked indignantly.
Do I have to remind you? Are you really getting that old? You've been ignoring him ever since you got back from Bandomeer. No wonder he lost his temper. If it was anyone else, it would have happened ages ago.
Qui Gon cringed, the words or rather thoughts, of his alter ego had hit home. He knew he had been ignoring Obi Wan, but it had seemed to be the only way to distance himself. To stop himself from caring for Obi Wan like a son.
Qui Gon did not know it, but Obi Wan, with his cheerful attitude, cheeky grin and sparkling, ever changing, ocean blue eyes, had somehow managed to bypass the innumerable number of walls Qui Gon had put up around himself. Obi Wan had somehow managed to win a place in Qui Gon's heart.
After pacing for another 5 minutes, Qui Gon couldn't stand it anymore. He had to find Obi Wan. If I don't, I will either go crazy from feeling so much pent up emotion or from arguing with myself. Qui Gon thought wryly.
Now that he had decided to find Obi Wan, Qui Gon realized he had no idea where the boy was. For all he knew, Obi Wan could have already left Coruscant and traveled half way through the galaxy by now.
Qui Gon searched through the force, trying as hard as he could, to find Obi Wan's prominent, blue force signature. But no matter how hard he tried or what he did, Qui Gon couldn't sense the cheerful and slightly mischievous signature that was Obi Wan.
This was not good news. The only reasons why Qui Gon could not sense Obi Wan was, if Obi Wan's soul had retreated into the back of his mind or if he had extremely tight shields in place. Qui Gon fervently hoped that it was the latter.
Qui Gon sighed in frustration. He had employed every skill he knew, to determine the whereabouts of his apprentice and still he had failed. There was one way left. The only way. He had to use the bond.
Deep in his heart, Qui Gon had known that this day would come sooner or later. (After all, what would a master/padawan relationship be if not for the bond?) But, he had dreaded, almost feared this day and although he knew it was impossible, he had hoped that it would never come.
You could just leave him. He's probably going to come back soon anyway. The part of his mind that still wallowed in self pity told him.
Oh? And what if he's hurt or he never comes back? Are you so self-absorbed that you'd let one of the most promising padawan the Jedi have seen in centuries, leave the order? That annoying, sarcastic voice was back.
This time Qui Gon knew it was right. No matter how hard it was for him to open the bond, he had to. For the sake of Obi Wan, for the sake of the Jedi order and even though Qui Gon didn't know it, for the sake of himself.
Qui Gon took a deep breath and braced himself for what he was about to do. Ever so slowly and carefully, Qui Gon removed the impenetrable shields he had constructed around the entrance to the bond. Shields he had hoped that he would never have to remove.
Finally, the last shield was dismantled and there was nothing blocking him from the bond. Cautiously, Qui Gon stepped closer and he was instantly barraged with a myriad of emotions.
Qui Gon felt Obi Wan's confusion and hurt at being treated so coldly after Qui Gon accepted him as his apprentice. He felt Obi Wan's resignation to the treatment. He felt Obi Wan's doubt about his abilities as an apprentice. He felt Obi Wan's surprise at seeing Qui Gon after the fight with Bruck and he felt Obi Wan's disbelief and despair when Qui Gon assumed he had started the fight. But above all the other emotions, Qui Gon felt Obi Wan's love. His love for Qui Gon.
Unknowingly, tears filled Qui Gon's eyes and fell freely down his cheeks. The boy loved him, even though he had tried everything he could to push him away. Qui Gon's guilty conscience flared up and he knew he didn't deserve Obi Wan or any of Obi Wan's devotion.
Refocusing on the task at hand, Qui Gon searched through the bond and tried to find Obi Wan's whereabouts. Normally, this would have been a piece of cake, since he had already opened the bond. But today there was something different about Obi Wan's force signature. Somehow, it was intangible and elusive.
Finally, after a very thorough search, Qui Gon managed to find out that Obi Wan was still on Coruscant. In fact, he was right here in the temple, in the meditation gardens. Even though his emotions were in turmoil, he still remembered my lessons and tried to calm down. Qui Gon felt an uncharacteristic wave of pride wash over him and this time he did not push it away.
Quickly re-shielding the bond, Qui Gon ran as fast as he could to the meditation gardens. He narrowly avoided crashing into a numerous number of masters, padawans and initiates. They all stared at him with confused and curious faces, with only one question on their mind. What could have caused the ever-composed, Master Qui Gon Jinn to tear through the corridors like a madman?
After what seemed like ages, Qui Gon finally arrived at the meditation gardens. He looked around and saw Obi Wan sitting at the base of a willow tree. At first glance, he thought Obi Wan was meditating, but as Qui Gon got closer, he saw that Obi Wan had fallen asleep. A tender smile grazed Qui Gon's lips and he did not wipe it away.
Qui Gon stopped beside Obi Wan and looked down. Obi Wan's face was scrunched up in a mask of pain and sadness. His face still contained traces of half dried tears. Qui Gon knew that he had caused Obi Wan's tears. He felt his heart twist painfully at this and his guilt came back, worse than ever.
Slowly, Qui Gon bent down to wake Obi Wan and as he did so, he noticed the large, painful-looking gash On Obi Wan's arm. The wound had just stopped bleeding and the area around it was covered with dried flakes of blood. Qui Gon gasped and kicked himself mentally. How could in not have seen that before? How could I have been so blind?
Pushing aside his guilt for the time being, Qui Gon lifted up Obi Wan and ran to the healers' ward. On the way, Qui Gon noticed that Obi Wan was much lighter than a boy his age was supposed to be. Now that he thought about it, Obi Wan's face had a pale, drawn look and his arms and legs were so skinny that they resembled sticks.
The boy must not have been eating properly. Qui Gon thought. Why have I never noticed this before?
You were so busy pitying and feeling sorry for yourself, you probably wouldn't have noticed if the boy had died. the defiant part of his mind answered back.
Qui Gon groaned, why did that annoying voice have to come back now of all times?
Just as Qui Gon was about to think of a reply to his alter ego's comment, he reached the healers' ward. Qui Gon burst into the building and disrupted the normally quiet and calm atmosphere. All eyes turned to stare at him with shock. Everyone had the same thought on their minds: surely this could not be the cool, calm and collected Qui Gon Jinn!
"I need a healer." Qui Gon said loudly, unaware of all the stares he had attracted. "Obi Wan has a large wound on his left shoulder and he has lost a lot of blood."
As if the words had wakened them from a trance, the healers buzzed into motion. They took Obi Wan from Qui Gon and placed him in a treatment room. Qui Gon tried to follow, but the healers would not let him.
"Qui Gon, we need to treat Obi Wan right now and we can't have any outside interference. You can see him as soon as we have finished." assured Clara, a healer who Qui Gon was friends with.
Qui Gon saw the sense in her words and reluctantly, he sat down to wait. His mind kept on wandering to Obi Wan. Every time he thought about the boy, his heart seemed to clench and he was wracked by guilt. In an effort to try and take his mind off Obi Wan, Qui Gon stared at the clock on the wall and started counting the minutes that had passed. However, this only seemed to make time pass even slower and the minute hand on the clock seemed to slow down, until it was moving at a snail paced crawl.
Somehow time passed like this. Just as the clock showed that 2 hours 14 minutes and 23 seconds had passed, the door of Obi Wan's room opened and Clara came out. Qui Gon quickly stood up and waited anxiously to see what Clara was going to say.
"We have replenished the blood Obi Wan has lost and Bacta has been applied to Obi Wan's wound, it will be fully healed in a day." Clara paused for a bit as if she wasn't sure what to say next. "Physically, he is fine. However, there are some.... ah.... problems mentally."
Qui Gon's heart skipped a beat and he asked apprehensively, "What do you mean exactly by 'problems' Clara?"
"While we were treating Obi Wan, we noticed his brainwaves were extremely unusual. They were similar to the brainwaves of people who are in a coma. We did a closer examination of his brainwave and we have concluded that he is in a dream trance."
"A dream trance? I have not heard of it before." Qui Gon remarked.
"That is because it is very uncommon and only occurs in very rare cases. To explain all the aspects of the dream trance to you fully, I will have to bore you with lots of technicalities. But basically it is when the victim, in this case Obi Wan, is so depressed and distressed, that the sub- conscious part of his brain makes him unconscious and creates an illusion, a dream, in his mind. In the dream his innermost desires come true. The dream trance is a method, Obi Wan's sub-consciousness uses to try and stop the overwhelming flood of negative emotions he is feeling." Clara stopped and her expression became sad. "However, there are some side effects to the dream trance, Obi Wan won't wake up from it unless he wants to and since the dream trance is made up of his deepest desires, he will not want to. There have been about 1000 people in the whole galaxy, who have suffered from the dream trance, only 2 have woken up."
Qui Gon looked at Clara with alarm in his eyes. "You mean to tell me, that Obi Wan will stay unconscious forever?" he demanded.
"No, its worse. It takes a lot of energy and brainpower for Obi Wan's mind to sustain the dream trance. Obi Wan's energy level will become lower and lower, until he does not even have any energy to sustain his vital organs. They will being to shut down one by one, until.." Clara stopped and her silence told Qui Gon all he needed to know.
Qui Gon was shocked, "How long does Obi Wan have?" he asked fearfully.
Clara looked at Qui Gon with sympathy, "If Obi Wan does not wake up in 24 hours, he will die."
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Author's Note: A cliffhanger and Obi Wan might die! Lol, I'm totally evil. Hehe. So what did you think? That was my longest chapter ever. It's 3 times more than my first chapter! I tried my best to explain the part about the dream trance, but I don't know if it is still confusing. In your reviews, please tell me if you understand it. I'll probably take awhile to write the next chapter, but as always please R&R.
Author's Note: Hi everyone! Yes, I'm still alive and no, I haven't disappeared off the face of the earth. I know its been like a million years since I last updated and my only excuse is that, I've been incredibly busy with all the assignments that my teachers are making me do. Add that to all the year 10 math homework and Chinese articles I've had to write and I hardly have anytime to do anything apart from study. * sigh * year 9 is so much harder than year 8.
A big thank you to: Leigh S. Duran, Toria, Me-Me, Niina, Virgo, Camlost, Kitty, Meg, Kalorna Enera, Agent Jaid, Ella, Jevvica, Arifel, Starwars- FREAK, JediPuppy, Eldainwe Aduial Elenath, Rikku oh Ki, tHe InSaNe OnE, Tommy, Master Elora Dannan, Mirkani1, Beliya and a special thank you to Karla Pheonix for being so supportive. *blush* I'm totally flattered by your compliments and I know I'm being very lazy. Hehe.
Dreams Do Come True
Chapter 4
Qui gon paced up and down his shared quarters with Obi Wan. It had been 5 hours since Obi Wan had ran away and Qui Gon was starting to feel extremely worried and guilty.
Perhaps I was a little hard on him. But, all I wanted to do was make sure he won't turn out like Xanatos
Yeah and accusing him of starting a fight, without any proof was part of that too? A rebellious part of his mind asked sarcastically.
I had to discipline him for fighting in the corridors, he is my padawan after all. Qui Gon rationalized.
Oh, so you finally acknowledged the fact that he's your padawan huh? Judging by the way you've been treating him lately, I thought you'd forgot.
What's wrong with the way I've been treating Obi Wan? Qui Gon asked indignantly.
Do I have to remind you? Are you really getting that old? You've been ignoring him ever since you got back from Bandomeer. No wonder he lost his temper. If it was anyone else, it would have happened ages ago.
Qui Gon cringed, the words or rather thoughts, of his alter ego had hit home. He knew he had been ignoring Obi Wan, but it had seemed to be the only way to distance himself. To stop himself from caring for Obi Wan like a son.
Qui Gon did not know it, but Obi Wan, with his cheerful attitude, cheeky grin and sparkling, ever changing, ocean blue eyes, had somehow managed to bypass the innumerable number of walls Qui Gon had put up around himself. Obi Wan had somehow managed to win a place in Qui Gon's heart.
After pacing for another 5 minutes, Qui Gon couldn't stand it anymore. He had to find Obi Wan. If I don't, I will either go crazy from feeling so much pent up emotion or from arguing with myself. Qui Gon thought wryly.
Now that he had decided to find Obi Wan, Qui Gon realized he had no idea where the boy was. For all he knew, Obi Wan could have already left Coruscant and traveled half way through the galaxy by now.
Qui Gon searched through the force, trying as hard as he could, to find Obi Wan's prominent, blue force signature. But no matter how hard he tried or what he did, Qui Gon couldn't sense the cheerful and slightly mischievous signature that was Obi Wan.
This was not good news. The only reasons why Qui Gon could not sense Obi Wan was, if Obi Wan's soul had retreated into the back of his mind or if he had extremely tight shields in place. Qui Gon fervently hoped that it was the latter.
Qui Gon sighed in frustration. He had employed every skill he knew, to determine the whereabouts of his apprentice and still he had failed. There was one way left. The only way. He had to use the bond.
Deep in his heart, Qui Gon had known that this day would come sooner or later. (After all, what would a master/padawan relationship be if not for the bond?) But, he had dreaded, almost feared this day and although he knew it was impossible, he had hoped that it would never come.
You could just leave him. He's probably going to come back soon anyway. The part of his mind that still wallowed in self pity told him.
Oh? And what if he's hurt or he never comes back? Are you so self-absorbed that you'd let one of the most promising padawan the Jedi have seen in centuries, leave the order? That annoying, sarcastic voice was back.
This time Qui Gon knew it was right. No matter how hard it was for him to open the bond, he had to. For the sake of Obi Wan, for the sake of the Jedi order and even though Qui Gon didn't know it, for the sake of himself.
Qui Gon took a deep breath and braced himself for what he was about to do. Ever so slowly and carefully, Qui Gon removed the impenetrable shields he had constructed around the entrance to the bond. Shields he had hoped that he would never have to remove.
Finally, the last shield was dismantled and there was nothing blocking him from the bond. Cautiously, Qui Gon stepped closer and he was instantly barraged with a myriad of emotions.
Qui Gon felt Obi Wan's confusion and hurt at being treated so coldly after Qui Gon accepted him as his apprentice. He felt Obi Wan's resignation to the treatment. He felt Obi Wan's doubt about his abilities as an apprentice. He felt Obi Wan's surprise at seeing Qui Gon after the fight with Bruck and he felt Obi Wan's disbelief and despair when Qui Gon assumed he had started the fight. But above all the other emotions, Qui Gon felt Obi Wan's love. His love for Qui Gon.
Unknowingly, tears filled Qui Gon's eyes and fell freely down his cheeks. The boy loved him, even though he had tried everything he could to push him away. Qui Gon's guilty conscience flared up and he knew he didn't deserve Obi Wan or any of Obi Wan's devotion.
Refocusing on the task at hand, Qui Gon searched through the bond and tried to find Obi Wan's whereabouts. Normally, this would have been a piece of cake, since he had already opened the bond. But today there was something different about Obi Wan's force signature. Somehow, it was intangible and elusive.
Finally, after a very thorough search, Qui Gon managed to find out that Obi Wan was still on Coruscant. In fact, he was right here in the temple, in the meditation gardens. Even though his emotions were in turmoil, he still remembered my lessons and tried to calm down. Qui Gon felt an uncharacteristic wave of pride wash over him and this time he did not push it away.
Quickly re-shielding the bond, Qui Gon ran as fast as he could to the meditation gardens. He narrowly avoided crashing into a numerous number of masters, padawans and initiates. They all stared at him with confused and curious faces, with only one question on their mind. What could have caused the ever-composed, Master Qui Gon Jinn to tear through the corridors like a madman?
After what seemed like ages, Qui Gon finally arrived at the meditation gardens. He looked around and saw Obi Wan sitting at the base of a willow tree. At first glance, he thought Obi Wan was meditating, but as Qui Gon got closer, he saw that Obi Wan had fallen asleep. A tender smile grazed Qui Gon's lips and he did not wipe it away.
Qui Gon stopped beside Obi Wan and looked down. Obi Wan's face was scrunched up in a mask of pain and sadness. His face still contained traces of half dried tears. Qui Gon knew that he had caused Obi Wan's tears. He felt his heart twist painfully at this and his guilt came back, worse than ever.
Slowly, Qui Gon bent down to wake Obi Wan and as he did so, he noticed the large, painful-looking gash On Obi Wan's arm. The wound had just stopped bleeding and the area around it was covered with dried flakes of blood. Qui Gon gasped and kicked himself mentally. How could in not have seen that before? How could I have been so blind?
Pushing aside his guilt for the time being, Qui Gon lifted up Obi Wan and ran to the healers' ward. On the way, Qui Gon noticed that Obi Wan was much lighter than a boy his age was supposed to be. Now that he thought about it, Obi Wan's face had a pale, drawn look and his arms and legs were so skinny that they resembled sticks.
The boy must not have been eating properly. Qui Gon thought. Why have I never noticed this before?
You were so busy pitying and feeling sorry for yourself, you probably wouldn't have noticed if the boy had died. the defiant part of his mind answered back.
Qui Gon groaned, why did that annoying voice have to come back now of all times?
Just as Qui Gon was about to think of a reply to his alter ego's comment, he reached the healers' ward. Qui Gon burst into the building and disrupted the normally quiet and calm atmosphere. All eyes turned to stare at him with shock. Everyone had the same thought on their minds: surely this could not be the cool, calm and collected Qui Gon Jinn!
"I need a healer." Qui Gon said loudly, unaware of all the stares he had attracted. "Obi Wan has a large wound on his left shoulder and he has lost a lot of blood."
As if the words had wakened them from a trance, the healers buzzed into motion. They took Obi Wan from Qui Gon and placed him in a treatment room. Qui Gon tried to follow, but the healers would not let him.
"Qui Gon, we need to treat Obi Wan right now and we can't have any outside interference. You can see him as soon as we have finished." assured Clara, a healer who Qui Gon was friends with.
Qui Gon saw the sense in her words and reluctantly, he sat down to wait. His mind kept on wandering to Obi Wan. Every time he thought about the boy, his heart seemed to clench and he was wracked by guilt. In an effort to try and take his mind off Obi Wan, Qui Gon stared at the clock on the wall and started counting the minutes that had passed. However, this only seemed to make time pass even slower and the minute hand on the clock seemed to slow down, until it was moving at a snail paced crawl.
Somehow time passed like this. Just as the clock showed that 2 hours 14 minutes and 23 seconds had passed, the door of Obi Wan's room opened and Clara came out. Qui Gon quickly stood up and waited anxiously to see what Clara was going to say.
"We have replenished the blood Obi Wan has lost and Bacta has been applied to Obi Wan's wound, it will be fully healed in a day." Clara paused for a bit as if she wasn't sure what to say next. "Physically, he is fine. However, there are some.... ah.... problems mentally."
Qui Gon's heart skipped a beat and he asked apprehensively, "What do you mean exactly by 'problems' Clara?"
"While we were treating Obi Wan, we noticed his brainwaves were extremely unusual. They were similar to the brainwaves of people who are in a coma. We did a closer examination of his brainwave and we have concluded that he is in a dream trance."
"A dream trance? I have not heard of it before." Qui Gon remarked.
"That is because it is very uncommon and only occurs in very rare cases. To explain all the aspects of the dream trance to you fully, I will have to bore you with lots of technicalities. But basically it is when the victim, in this case Obi Wan, is so depressed and distressed, that the sub- conscious part of his brain makes him unconscious and creates an illusion, a dream, in his mind. In the dream his innermost desires come true. The dream trance is a method, Obi Wan's sub-consciousness uses to try and stop the overwhelming flood of negative emotions he is feeling." Clara stopped and her expression became sad. "However, there are some side effects to the dream trance, Obi Wan won't wake up from it unless he wants to and since the dream trance is made up of his deepest desires, he will not want to. There have been about 1000 people in the whole galaxy, who have suffered from the dream trance, only 2 have woken up."
Qui Gon looked at Clara with alarm in his eyes. "You mean to tell me, that Obi Wan will stay unconscious forever?" he demanded.
"No, its worse. It takes a lot of energy and brainpower for Obi Wan's mind to sustain the dream trance. Obi Wan's energy level will become lower and lower, until he does not even have any energy to sustain his vital organs. They will being to shut down one by one, until.." Clara stopped and her silence told Qui Gon all he needed to know.
Qui Gon was shocked, "How long does Obi Wan have?" he asked fearfully.
Clara looked at Qui Gon with sympathy, "If Obi Wan does not wake up in 24 hours, he will die."
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Author's Note: A cliffhanger and Obi Wan might die! Lol, I'm totally evil. Hehe. So what did you think? That was my longest chapter ever. It's 3 times more than my first chapter! I tried my best to explain the part about the dream trance, but I don't know if it is still confusing. In your reviews, please tell me if you understand it. I'll probably take awhile to write the next chapter, but as always please R&R.