AN: *le sigh* No, I don't any part of Inuyasha or anyone else in the series
*breaks into tears* Why do I have to keep saying that over and over?
I'm sorry it's taking me so long to get these chapters out, but it's the end of the semester and I'm being swallowed by projects/papers/presentations. *bows* Gomen, but school does have a greater priority.
Shippou: *sniffle* You don't love us anymore?
Lilac: *sweatdrop* Of course I do Shippou-chan!
Shippou: Inuyasha was mean to you, wasn't he? That's why you're so worried about this school thing. Kagome is the same way whenever he's mean to her.
Kagome: Well, school is very important in our world, and Lilac's is even more important than mine. Someday I'll go to the same kind of school as her.
Shippou :WAAAAAAAAAA..You're all going to leave me alone with Inuyasha, and he's gonna feed me to the first youkai he meets!!
Lilac and Kagome: WHAT?! *double glare*
Inuyasha: *looks guilty* What?! I wouldn't feed him to the first youkai I meet! *looks away and mumbles* Unless I didn't like the youkai, cause that brat is all fur and no meat, he'd choked the guy.
Shippou: Waaaaaaaa!!!
Lilac and Kagome: INUYASHA!
Inuyasha: *realization dawns* Oh shi..*tries to jump out Lilac's window*
Lilac and Kagome: OSUWARI!!!
*The sound of "iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.*CRASH-CRASH-CRASH*" as Inuyasha leaps out the wrong window and goes through the ceiling of the floor below, that floor, and the floor of the storm cellar*
Lilac: *sighing* Great, now I'm going to have to explain not only why there is a half demon shaped hole through the kitchen, but what a guy was doing in my room in the first place. *runs hands through hair*
Kagome: *evil grin* I have an idea!
Okay, I have way too much freedom on my hands..but what is Kagome's evil plot, and why is she eyeing my closet? Wait till the next chapter!!
Once again, I have to give huge thank you's to battousai-heart, for her incredible job as a beta reader. If FF was up for hiring beta readers, you would get full recommendations from me!!
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Inuyasha trudged through the underbrush, his mind in a whirl of confusion and conflict. Stupid girl, can't she see what that means? What I could do? He scowled and paused, glancing around the woods.
Damnit, I'm human now, I can't follow their scent, where the hell are they?
He tried to listening for the river, their voices, but all he could hear was the wind in the trees and a few birds.
Stupid human senses, he cursed. Then his nose did pick up a scent, smoke
Ah ha! He thought and tried to move in the direction that he smelled the smoke coming from. He saw a clearing appear in the trees and just as he reached it, he heard voices.
"Well, that's finished, just like the monk told us," said a male voice. Inuyasha peered through the brush at the small shrine that was being finished.
No! I'm back here?! He thought and sighed, slipping behind a tree before he was seen.
Goddamn stupid dulled senses, he hissed and waited for the men to leave before emerging from the forest. He looked around, "How am I going to find my way back," he whispered and looked around for some sign of direction. The sun was beginning to set, and he was as good as dead after sunset. Something caught his attention, it was Tetsusaiga and it was pulsating. He felt like it was pulling at his mind.
"You know where to find your twin," he whispered and shrugged, "What do I have to lose?" He walked in the direction that the sword pulled him, beginning to recognize some of the features around him, and reached the cave just as the sun dipped below the tree line. Kagome rose to her feet and threw herself into his arms.
"Baka!" she screamed at him, her voice muffled in his haori, "I almost went out there looking for you! I've been so worried since you disappeared, and no one seemed to know where you were."
Inuyasha looked around, noticing that most of the party was missing, with the exception of Shippou and Kirara who were seated beside the small campfire Kagome had started. The youkai sat against the cave wall, having given up his attempt at breaking free and simply stared at them angrily.
Kirara rose up and took off into the woods, probably to go fetch Miroku and Sango. Inuyasha carefully peeled Kagome off of him and walked over to the fire, sitting down silently.
Back to Kagome's POV
I couldn't believe it, he disappears for most of the afternoon, reappears, and doesn't say a word to me about where he's been. I clenched my fists and stormed up to him,
My hand flew of its own accord, connecting very loudly with his cheek and he stared up at me with shock on his face. His hand rose to his cheek, and he couldn't keep the sting from bringing moisture to his eyes.
"Geez Kagome, what was that for?! That really hurt!" he said and I crossed my arms.
"Good, I'm glad it did. You don't even care what you did to me?! What could have happened out there to you?" I couldn't keep the fear from my voice, but I didn't care.
"Feh, weak," snorted the youkai Inuyasha from his place in the cave and I spun on my heel, glaring at him. "Oh shut up!" I hissed at him.
"Kagome?" I heard behind me, and turned back to the human Inuyasha to continue my lecture when his eyes rolled back in his head and he fell backwards onto the ground.
"Inuyasha?" I whispered, and placed my hand on his forehead. He was freezing. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him back up into a seated position and into my arms. He began shaking violently, and I held him as firmly as I could, to keep him from falling again.
"Kagome," I heard softly behind me and Shippou was there, staring at something with large eyes. I looked in the same direction and saw the youkai Inuyasha, lying on the ground, with the same pained look on its face, convulsing on the cave floor.
I stared at the two of them, and pulled Inuyasha closer. Something inside me tugged at me, and I stared back and forth between them. Faintly, and what seemed to be just out of sight of my vision, I saw a line of light between them, but whenever I tried to focus in on it, it vanished.
"Kagome!" I heard behind me as Kirara came into view, carrying Sango and Miroku.
"Hurry Miroku, something's wrong with Inuyasha," I called and he leapt off of Kirara's back before she even landed and ran over. He knelt by our side and glanced down at the shaking human, and then over to the youkai, his eyes following the same path mine had.
"You see it too?" I asked softly and he nodded. "So I was right, this is because of the separation," I whispered. He looked at me, and I knew that he was trying to come up with words of comfort. I stared at him hard, "Don't lie to me Miroku, we don't have time for comfort or lies, tell me straight. Will he die if he doesn't become reunited with his youkai?"
Miroku sighed and nodded, "I believe so. Just as his body can't handle being controlled completely by his youkai, it also can't exist without it. The longer they stay separated, the weaker they become. "
"No," whispered Inuyasha in my arms and I looked down at his soft brown eyes, glazed over in pain. "I won't do it."
"Please Inuyasha," I whispered, bowing my head and pressing my cheek against his, just as I had before, "I'll die if I lose you now." He sighed softly, "If I take him back, I don't know if I'll be able to stop him."
I gently kissed his cheek, and Miroku shook his head. "You really are a foolish man," he said. I lifted my head, and Inuyasha turned his head. "You are not the only man who has ever feared his base desires, and you most definitely won't be the last. The thing that makes you different from what you fear is you are stronger than your desires, if you choose to be." He glanced at the youkai counterpart, "Would you truly choose death, over courage and faith? I don't believe that Kagome-sama would allow anything she didn't wish to happen to her, and she still has the subduing spell if needs be."
Inuyasha closed his eyes, a stubborn look crossing his face. I stood up, anger and determination coursing through my veins.
"Fine," I said and walked over to the cave, ripping one of the scrolls from the wall. The barrier faded away into nothingness, and the youkai opened his eyes to look at me.
"Mine," it whispered and I put my hands on my hips.
"No!" I exclaimed, stomping my foot stubbornly. It growled and lifted its head.
"Mine, mate, take," it growled and I titled my head to the side.
"No, I'm not your mate," I told it, my voice pitched low and angry. I turned my body so I could see both of them from the corners of my eyes.
"Let me make one thing clear, I love Inuyasha, and I am only Inuyasha's mate," I heard the human half inhale sharply. "But neither of you are Inuyasha, and I refuse to accept only half of him, no matter which half it is." I was directing this more towards the human Inuyasha, I was sure the youkai half didn't know what was happening, and didn't care either.
I was right, only the human version seemed shocked, his mouth hanging open. I turned completely to look him in the eyes when I felt arms wrap around my waist and pull me back. I felt claws on my skin, and they were cold. Inuyasha stared at me, and then at the youkai half that had taken possession of me, and I didn't move. I just watched him, to see what he would do. The ball, as they say, was in his court now. I just hoped that I had made the right decision and that he wouldn't hate me for what I was doing.
Shippou was trying to come to my rescue, but Miroku once again had him by the tail, holding his struggling form airborne, much to the kitsune's annoyance. I was too far away to hear clearly, but I was sure he was telling the kitsune it was Inuyasha's choice. Sango and Kirara stood at his side, watching the events, and I could tell Sango was holding on barely holding on to her own urge to come in and attack. Even Kirara growled softly, her fur fluffed angrily.
The youkai Inuyasha began pulling me towards the cavern, growling in my ear. Cold shivers traveled down my spine, but I didn't struggle. I watched the human Inuyasha's eyes, as hurt and hunger, anger and will played out inside them.
"Kagome, don't do this, please," he said softly, and I closed my eyes. "I would rather this, than to watch you die," I said softly. "I would rather this were you, the whole you, even if you let the youkai take over a little, but if you don't join together again, you'll die and I would die as well." His eyes widened, as realization seemed to take over. He was on his feet, despite the weakness, and the youkai Inuyasha paused.
He had drawn Tetsusaiga, which remained dormant in his human hands, but was still pointed and could do damage if needed. He whispered softly, his eyes peering out from his black bangs, "Let her go, now! This is our fight." The word fight brought a snarl to the youkai's lips, and he threw me off to the side.
Sango quickly swooped in and pulled me away from the fighters, but my eyes remained glued on them.
"That was a very brave, or foolish thing you just did," she whispered to me, and I cringed inside. "I know Sango, but what other choice did I have?"
I'm sorry it's taking me so long to get these chapters out, but it's the end of the semester and I'm being swallowed by projects/papers/presentations. *bows* Gomen, but school does have a greater priority.
Shippou: *sniffle* You don't love us anymore?
Lilac: *sweatdrop* Of course I do Shippou-chan!
Shippou: Inuyasha was mean to you, wasn't he? That's why you're so worried about this school thing. Kagome is the same way whenever he's mean to her.
Kagome: Well, school is very important in our world, and Lilac's is even more important than mine. Someday I'll go to the same kind of school as her.
Shippou :WAAAAAAAAAA..You're all going to leave me alone with Inuyasha, and he's gonna feed me to the first youkai he meets!!
Lilac and Kagome: WHAT?! *double glare*
Inuyasha: *looks guilty* What?! I wouldn't feed him to the first youkai I meet! *looks away and mumbles* Unless I didn't like the youkai, cause that brat is all fur and no meat, he'd choked the guy.
Shippou: Waaaaaaaa!!!
Lilac and Kagome: INUYASHA!
Inuyasha: *realization dawns* Oh shi..*tries to jump out Lilac's window*
Lilac and Kagome: OSUWARI!!!
*The sound of "iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.*CRASH-CRASH-CRASH*" as Inuyasha leaps out the wrong window and goes through the ceiling of the floor below, that floor, and the floor of the storm cellar*
Lilac: *sighing* Great, now I'm going to have to explain not only why there is a half demon shaped hole through the kitchen, but what a guy was doing in my room in the first place. *runs hands through hair*
Kagome: *evil grin* I have an idea!
Okay, I have way too much freedom on my hands..but what is Kagome's evil plot, and why is she eyeing my closet? Wait till the next chapter!!
Once again, I have to give huge thank you's to battousai-heart, for her incredible job as a beta reader. If FF was up for hiring beta readers, you would get full recommendations from me!!
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Inuyasha trudged through the underbrush, his mind in a whirl of confusion and conflict. Stupid girl, can't she see what that means? What I could do? He scowled and paused, glancing around the woods.
Damnit, I'm human now, I can't follow their scent, where the hell are they?
He tried to listening for the river, their voices, but all he could hear was the wind in the trees and a few birds.
Stupid human senses, he cursed. Then his nose did pick up a scent, smoke
Ah ha! He thought and tried to move in the direction that he smelled the smoke coming from. He saw a clearing appear in the trees and just as he reached it, he heard voices.
"Well, that's finished, just like the monk told us," said a male voice. Inuyasha peered through the brush at the small shrine that was being finished.
No! I'm back here?! He thought and sighed, slipping behind a tree before he was seen.
Goddamn stupid dulled senses, he hissed and waited for the men to leave before emerging from the forest. He looked around, "How am I going to find my way back," he whispered and looked around for some sign of direction. The sun was beginning to set, and he was as good as dead after sunset. Something caught his attention, it was Tetsusaiga and it was pulsating. He felt like it was pulling at his mind.
"You know where to find your twin," he whispered and shrugged, "What do I have to lose?" He walked in the direction that the sword pulled him, beginning to recognize some of the features around him, and reached the cave just as the sun dipped below the tree line. Kagome rose to her feet and threw herself into his arms.
"Baka!" she screamed at him, her voice muffled in his haori, "I almost went out there looking for you! I've been so worried since you disappeared, and no one seemed to know where you were."
Inuyasha looked around, noticing that most of the party was missing, with the exception of Shippou and Kirara who were seated beside the small campfire Kagome had started. The youkai sat against the cave wall, having given up his attempt at breaking free and simply stared at them angrily.
Kirara rose up and took off into the woods, probably to go fetch Miroku and Sango. Inuyasha carefully peeled Kagome off of him and walked over to the fire, sitting down silently.
Back to Kagome's POV
I couldn't believe it, he disappears for most of the afternoon, reappears, and doesn't say a word to me about where he's been. I clenched my fists and stormed up to him,
My hand flew of its own accord, connecting very loudly with his cheek and he stared up at me with shock on his face. His hand rose to his cheek, and he couldn't keep the sting from bringing moisture to his eyes.
"Geez Kagome, what was that for?! That really hurt!" he said and I crossed my arms.
"Good, I'm glad it did. You don't even care what you did to me?! What could have happened out there to you?" I couldn't keep the fear from my voice, but I didn't care.
"Feh, weak," snorted the youkai Inuyasha from his place in the cave and I spun on my heel, glaring at him. "Oh shut up!" I hissed at him.
"Kagome?" I heard behind me, and turned back to the human Inuyasha to continue my lecture when his eyes rolled back in his head and he fell backwards onto the ground.
"Inuyasha?" I whispered, and placed my hand on his forehead. He was freezing. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him back up into a seated position and into my arms. He began shaking violently, and I held him as firmly as I could, to keep him from falling again.
"Kagome," I heard softly behind me and Shippou was there, staring at something with large eyes. I looked in the same direction and saw the youkai Inuyasha, lying on the ground, with the same pained look on its face, convulsing on the cave floor.
I stared at the two of them, and pulled Inuyasha closer. Something inside me tugged at me, and I stared back and forth between them. Faintly, and what seemed to be just out of sight of my vision, I saw a line of light between them, but whenever I tried to focus in on it, it vanished.
"Kagome!" I heard behind me as Kirara came into view, carrying Sango and Miroku.
"Hurry Miroku, something's wrong with Inuyasha," I called and he leapt off of Kirara's back before she even landed and ran over. He knelt by our side and glanced down at the shaking human, and then over to the youkai, his eyes following the same path mine had.
"You see it too?" I asked softly and he nodded. "So I was right, this is because of the separation," I whispered. He looked at me, and I knew that he was trying to come up with words of comfort. I stared at him hard, "Don't lie to me Miroku, we don't have time for comfort or lies, tell me straight. Will he die if he doesn't become reunited with his youkai?"
Miroku sighed and nodded, "I believe so. Just as his body can't handle being controlled completely by his youkai, it also can't exist without it. The longer they stay separated, the weaker they become. "
"No," whispered Inuyasha in my arms and I looked down at his soft brown eyes, glazed over in pain. "I won't do it."
"Please Inuyasha," I whispered, bowing my head and pressing my cheek against his, just as I had before, "I'll die if I lose you now." He sighed softly, "If I take him back, I don't know if I'll be able to stop him."
I gently kissed his cheek, and Miroku shook his head. "You really are a foolish man," he said. I lifted my head, and Inuyasha turned his head. "You are not the only man who has ever feared his base desires, and you most definitely won't be the last. The thing that makes you different from what you fear is you are stronger than your desires, if you choose to be." He glanced at the youkai counterpart, "Would you truly choose death, over courage and faith? I don't believe that Kagome-sama would allow anything she didn't wish to happen to her, and she still has the subduing spell if needs be."
Inuyasha closed his eyes, a stubborn look crossing his face. I stood up, anger and determination coursing through my veins.
"Fine," I said and walked over to the cave, ripping one of the scrolls from the wall. The barrier faded away into nothingness, and the youkai opened his eyes to look at me.
"Mine," it whispered and I put my hands on my hips.
"No!" I exclaimed, stomping my foot stubbornly. It growled and lifted its head.
"Mine, mate, take," it growled and I titled my head to the side.
"No, I'm not your mate," I told it, my voice pitched low and angry. I turned my body so I could see both of them from the corners of my eyes.
"Let me make one thing clear, I love Inuyasha, and I am only Inuyasha's mate," I heard the human half inhale sharply. "But neither of you are Inuyasha, and I refuse to accept only half of him, no matter which half it is." I was directing this more towards the human Inuyasha, I was sure the youkai half didn't know what was happening, and didn't care either.
I was right, only the human version seemed shocked, his mouth hanging open. I turned completely to look him in the eyes when I felt arms wrap around my waist and pull me back. I felt claws on my skin, and they were cold. Inuyasha stared at me, and then at the youkai half that had taken possession of me, and I didn't move. I just watched him, to see what he would do. The ball, as they say, was in his court now. I just hoped that I had made the right decision and that he wouldn't hate me for what I was doing.
Shippou was trying to come to my rescue, but Miroku once again had him by the tail, holding his struggling form airborne, much to the kitsune's annoyance. I was too far away to hear clearly, but I was sure he was telling the kitsune it was Inuyasha's choice. Sango and Kirara stood at his side, watching the events, and I could tell Sango was holding on barely holding on to her own urge to come in and attack. Even Kirara growled softly, her fur fluffed angrily.
The youkai Inuyasha began pulling me towards the cavern, growling in my ear. Cold shivers traveled down my spine, but I didn't struggle. I watched the human Inuyasha's eyes, as hurt and hunger, anger and will played out inside them.
"Kagome, don't do this, please," he said softly, and I closed my eyes. "I would rather this, than to watch you die," I said softly. "I would rather this were you, the whole you, even if you let the youkai take over a little, but if you don't join together again, you'll die and I would die as well." His eyes widened, as realization seemed to take over. He was on his feet, despite the weakness, and the youkai Inuyasha paused.
He had drawn Tetsusaiga, which remained dormant in his human hands, but was still pointed and could do damage if needed. He whispered softly, his eyes peering out from his black bangs, "Let her go, now! This is our fight." The word fight brought a snarl to the youkai's lips, and he threw me off to the side.
Sango quickly swooped in and pulled me away from the fighters, but my eyes remained glued on them.
"That was a very brave, or foolish thing you just did," she whispered to me, and I cringed inside. "I know Sango, but what other choice did I have?"