okay part 2...hmm i dunnno how this story is gonna go. If you have any suggestions, please write me. If I use them I'll mention you in here! wee publisity!!

Heero:...Your such an idiot....

Duo:Mora than me?

Heero: Just about....

Duo:YAY!!

thats not nice! duo's not an idiot..

Heero: yes he is. Hes my baka....my idiot!

right....anywho go on.

Kazuma Kuwabara opened his eyes to another day. Another day in his bed. He'd woken from his coma, and come home a week ago. Kazuma Kuwabara now stayed home, in his covers, in his apartment. His sister wanted to move in, but her new job only made it where she could visit nightly. Kuwabara wasn't alone though. His bestfriend had moved in, takeing up the guest room. Though, he usaully wound up in his room. Kuwabara would scream from nightmares, and Yusuke would come in hold him, and whisper that everything would be okay and they'd fall asleep. Just like that. Kuwabara had not chaged his clothes, gelled his hair, or so much as moved. Yusuke often came in to force feed him. Kuwabara broke down screaming and crying at any loud noise, and wasn't ready to go back to collage. What made him feel worse was everyone, in the whole town, his whole school, his whole FU*KING APARTMENT BUILDING, knew...they knew. Thanks to the d*mmed news reporters.

"Kuwa..." A soft voice whispered. Yusuke came in, holding a bowl of warm water and a towel in his arms. Yusuke was quiet now, and had not gone back to work with Keiko. Yusuke stepped in the room and placed the bowel on his deak. "You should go back to work...how are you ever going to make money?" Kuwabara whispered while Yusuke got situated in the room. "I'm fine. Keiko understands, its you who should get up." Yusuke smiled playfully at him. "You need to go back to your part time job or you'll never pay off the rent." Kuwabara didn't say anything. "Your boss wanted you to take a few weeks off though, you don't have to worry." Yusuke said quickly and dipped the towel in the water. He then slowely placed it on his face. "Urameshi what are-" "You haven't moved from this bed. You at least should stay clean." Kuwabara stayed silent as Yusuke tenderly, gently washed his face and neck. He was being so gentle, and kind. It was more than he could stand.

"U-u-urameshi." Kuwabara began to sob and shake. Yusuke dropped the rag and hugged Kuwabara. "Hey...hey its okay. Hush now..." He whispered soothingly feeling warm tears in his own eyes. "Shizuru is going out of town and can't cancel...she is so pissed." Yusuke said trying to change the subject. Kuwabara nodded. He was clutching to Yusuke's chest like a desperate child. Yusuke ran his hand though Kuwabara's messy curls, "Shh...don't worry...everything is going to be okay. I'm here." "Urameshi...Shizuru been paying my rent hasn't she?" Yusuke laughed, "You figured that out quick." "Can we go see Koenma today...theres somthing I gotta do." Yusuke perked up. For the first time Kuwabara wanted to get out of his room. "You gotta get cleaned up!" Yusuke said pulling back and smiling. He felt his heart ache as he saw his bestfriend's red and puffy eyes.

"Oh Kuwa...don't you worry your going to be okay. I'm gonna take care of you."

"I must be the luckiest bast*rd...I hope everyone has a friend like you." He whispered and looked down. "I don't know how you can stomch to be around me." His voice gave out and Yusuke was holding him again. "Easy there..Kuwa...easy. I'm the lucky one to have a best buddy like you." Yusuke made Kuwabara look at him. "Hey...after we see Koenma why don't we go see Genkai and Yukina. She'll be wanting to see you." Kuwabara shuddered. "I...its..." "Too many people?" Yusuke asked still ruffling Kuwabara's hair. Kuwabara nodded, he looked so pityfull. Yusuke nodded, "I understand...we'll see Koenma and thats it. Will you be okay if Kuruma and Hiei are there?" The two demons had been visiting almost hourly. Even Hiei. "Yeah....then can we go home?" "Sure thing buddy." Kuwabara got off his bed swaying from a rush of dizzyness. Yusuke was there to help him stand. Kuwabara had lost weight, and his muscles seemed to reduce in size. He looked paler, and younger. His curley hair nearly went down to his shoulders. Yusuke didn't realize there was so much. "I'll be in the liveing room if you need anything okay?" Kuwabara nodded and off He went.

Yusuke went to sit on the sofa, and the tears he held back, came. This was the worst thing he'd ever had to deal with. But it had to be worse for Kuwabara. "God, why wasn't I there?"He wiped his eyes and sniffed. He looked at the t.v. in front of him, where a picture of Kuwabara's family sat. There where 3 frames in all. A big group picture, where Kuwabara was only 12 in. Shizzuru was 18 or so then. His father had brown hair, which he wore up just like Kuwabara, and lively blues eyes, which no doubt where Kuwabara had recived his from. The mother Had orange hair, and brown eyes, and looked like an older Shizzuru. next to them was the single pictures of Kuwabara's parents. "In loveing Memory of Jase Kuwabara." Was printed on the fathers, and on Kuwabara's moms it read, "In loveing memory of Suwan Kuwabara." Yusuke felt suddenly sick. "Sorry...I failed in looking out for your son...I should have been there. I'm his best friend dam*it! " Yusuke rubbed his eyes and sighed. He could hear the shower turn off. He wiped his eyes and let out a small sigh. He had to be strong for Kuwabara...he had too.

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Kuwabara dried off carefully, avoiding the new bandages on his toso and chest. Kuwabara winced every time he moved, and his injuries where jostled. He brushed his hair, not careing if it was wet, and through on the largest hoody he had. It was a bright day though...and warm. But he couldn't let anyone see him...he wasn't ready for anyone to see his skin. Because in his mind, he thought that somehow the people around him would figure it out. Figure out the deed befallen on his body. They'd figure out what was wrong with him. That he was broken.

Kuwabara hit his head. No, he wasn't broken! He wasn't going to let this ruin his life!! Tears began to spill out his eyes, but he bit his lip to stop. He pulled on his pants, which normally fit him. Now everything seemed to be to big. He'd gone down at least 3 sizes. His entire body felt frail, and like a child he often clutched to Yusuke's hand to steady himself. Yusuke didn't seem to mind, but Kuwabara did. He felt...weak. Vulrunable. Oh how he hated it. He was tired of being afraid to open his eyes! He was tired of going outside the room! He was tired of crying! "I'M SO SICK OF EVERYTHING!!" He shouted tears falling down his face, and he raised his fists smashing the river.

Kazuma Kuwabara sunk to the floor crying as Yusuke Urameshi rushed in. He starred at the broken mirror, to the blood in the sink, and then to Kuwabara himself,whos hands had slits and cuts all over them. Yusuke immediantly got the first aid kit and bandaged Kuwabara's hands. Kuwabara was shakeing, and crying again. Yusuke threw his arms around him and sobbed along with his friend. "I'm...I'm sorry I wasn't there! I could have protected you! Could have done somthing!...God, Kuwa." Yusuke sobbed and Kuwabara felt a rush of guilt. "Its not your fault...Its not...not my fault. It just happened." Kuwabara said softly. Yusuke began laughing and wiped his eyes, "Here I am supposed to be makeing you feel better and...your makeing me feel better." The two chuckled drying their eyes. "No more hurting yourself, okay?" Kuwabara blushed, ashamed and nodded. "You got to start eating again....those clothes are huge on you." "I'm ready to go see Koenma now." Kuwabara said softly. Yusuke nodded and helped his friend up."Ok, then." Yusuke said leading him to the door. And for the whole trip there that was all the two could say.

~~***~~

Kuwabara clutched Yusuke's arm as they walked in Koenma's office. Yusuke's arms were around his friend to keep him calm. Kuwabara flinched every time someone brushed him, and he cluthed Yusuke's shirt tighter as they passed the demons, spirits, and people. Boeton was kind enough to tell the deamons to not go near Kuwabara, and leave him alone. So when he walked in everyone kindly smiled and let the two pass them. Koenma pushed open the office and both of them entered the room. Kuwabara sighed and relaxed his death grip on Yusuke's shirt. Yusuke reluctantly released Kuwabara, and did not protest as Kuwabara still clinging to his shirt. "Hello Kuwabara." That wasn't Koenma's voice. Kuruma, and Hiei stood by Koenma's desk along with Boeton and Koenma himself. Kuwabara's grip tightned and he looked down."H...Hey guys." Kuwabara stammered.

Koenma slowley approached him,"Welcome back Kuwabara." He said smiling and in a hushed voice. He was in his teenaged form and placed a hand on Kuwabara's shoulder, gently massaging it. "Its okay...your amoung friends." Kuwabara relaxed and released Yusuke's shirt compleatly. Yusuke pat him on the back and Kuwabara looked up at everyone. It was obviouse he still did not know what to think. "How are your wounds healing up." Hiei suddenly spoke out. There was a bit of stunned silence, and Kuwabara answered, "Th...they're he..hea...healing up fine, Hiei." Hiei blinked, and Yusuke could have sworn he saw a bit of sadness in the red orbs. "Oh Kuwabara, Are you sure you wanted to get out of bed?" Boeton asked bouncing on her feet. "Yes...I have somthing to talk to Koenma about...bu..but actully," Kuwabara took a breath, "It concerns us all." The people in the room immediantly focused their attention on him.

"I'm resigning as a Rekai Tentai, as of now." Kuwabara stated starring at Koenma seriously.

"WHAT!?"Several voices gasped out. Kuwabara was shakeing and took a step back. "I c...can't handle it! I...I'm too scarred to ev...even get out of my house! I'm not ready to come back and...and start as a detective...I...I can't! I j...just can't!!" Kuwabara had griped his hands and his eyes were closed.Yusuke watched his friend shake sadly.'Oh Kuwabara...why you?' he thought misrabley. Yusuke put his arms around Kuwabara, "Hey....no one exspects you to be over this in a week Kuwabara...." "Thats right. It would be best for you not to come back for a few months,so don't worry about makeing big deciosins right now." Koenma said gently. "Koenma if you don't mind until Kuwabara is starting to feel better, I'd like to resign too." Yusuke said surprising the red head. "No...Ura-" "Koenma, I agree with Yusuke." Kuruma said smiling gently. "We could use a vacation." Hiei didn't say anything, but nodded agreeing with Kuruma. "Thats fine, it will give us time to train the other Reikai." Koenma said smiling, clearly okay with the idea. Kuwabara looked at his toes, feeling again guilty. Boeton surprised him by glomping onto him. "You take care." She told him, her voice sniffily. She released him and Koenma rubbed his back. "Be careful, and get all the rest you need."

Yusuke and Kuwabara left Kuruma, and Hiei following. "Do you feel up to doing anything?" Kuruma asked Kuwabara sweetly, "I can make us all some tea." He suggested. Kuwabara smiled, "I'll take you up on that offer next time, I'm just so tired right-" He was cut off as a demon rushed by carrying a large stack of papers. Kuwabara forze as he saw him running at them. His fangs were showing and his hair flying back, and in Kuwabara's head he saw his eyes narrow, his face twist sickly. The demon raised his hands, and Kuwabara screamed, "NO!" His spirit sword was out and he slashed in front of him cutting the stack of papers. The demon being narrowly missed. He squeeked and took off in the other direction yelling about a mad man. "Kuwabara!" Yusuke cried looking at his friend. The papers had flown up in the air and Kuwabara was shakeing. His sword was gone, and his legs buckled. He fell to his knees holding his head, tugging at his long curls. Yusuke dropped down hugging him, "Its okay, your safe everything is okay!" Yusuke whispered over and over, while Kuwabara starred blankly at the wall his breath coming out raggedly. "Urameshi, can we go home?" He asked shakeing tears falling down his face. "Yeah, yeah we're going home."

~~***~~

Kazuma Kuwabara slept sound in his room while in the kitchen,Kuruma,Hiei, and Yusuke sat talking quietly so not to wake him.

"That was the first time I saw him with his hair down." Kuruma said softly,avoiding the subject he wanted to discuss.

"Yeah." Yusuke said softly.

"I've never seen him like that. "Hiei stated causeing the others to look at him. "I didn't like it. His entire spirit seemed to have died. Faded into nothing..." Hiei's voice grew hard. "I'm going to kill those demons...for changeing him. For makeing *me* miss the old Kuwabara."

The two young men starred at him in surprise. Hiei had never confessed to such feelings. He barely even admitted he Kuruma and Yusuke were friends.

"Do you think he'll get better?"

"No," Yusuke said softly. "Not alone. I'm going to help him, no matter what it takes." Yusuke said softly.

Hiei and Kuruma looked at their commrade and friend, and silently agreed. They wanted the old Kuwabara back. The one who dreamed of a time when useless battles wern't done, fought to protect the innocent, and was so care free. And...they wanted the heads of the demons that took him away, leaving a souless being in his place.