Chapter 3:
Sirius's eyes were hollowed and dark. He could not sleep, he could not eat, he was functioning just enough to keep himself alive. What else was there to do? His stomach churned with the unknowing feeling he possessed after sending the letter.
He moaned with utter sadness flowing through his veins. He couldn't even imagine how to start to describe how he was feeling. The only word that seemed to be playing through his mind was, forgiveness. Not forgiveness from Remus.. Or anyone else for that matter.. But forgiveness from himself.
A soft hooting echoed through the empty cell, Sirius could feel his heart beat quicken, and his stomach become increasingly tense. He lifted him self heavily from his bed, and walked over to the barred window. He stared at the great white owl. noting how free it was.. And what it was like and how it felt to be ... free. Finally he untied the letter from the owl and held it tightly in his hand. After closing his eyes for a few precious seconds, he slowly unfolded the parchment and began to read.
Sirius,
My heart nor my mind can take anymore lies or doubt. The fact still remains that Lily and James are dead.. you were their secret keeper.. Their friend..and you killed them.... Now you must live with what you have done. I pray that it torments you with every passing day. slowly diminishing your soul. I never would have conceived you could do such a treacherous thing to those you love.. And unfortunately loved you too.you were my friend.. My brother I could even say.. But not now. no longer.You asked me for forgiveness.. That which I cannot give.. Perhaps one day. but not today.. Not tomorrow. Wounds heal in time.. And those I have sustained are deep.I cannot weep.. I cannot falter. I will go on living in the free world.. But you.. You will stay locked in your own grief and guilt.. Live with what you have done... I have to ask.. Would lily and James forgive you? Even more.. Would Harry forgive you? For it is them.. you have condemned. Goodbye Sirius.
-Remus
Sirius let the letter fall limply from his shaking hands.. Then dropping to his knees he wept once more. He wretched with dry heaves and quiet sobs. No one would ever know he was innocent. no one would ever know he was true.. In fact no one would ever know that he still lived and breathed. But breathe was the only thing he could do.
Sirius's eyes were hollowed and dark. He could not sleep, he could not eat, he was functioning just enough to keep himself alive. What else was there to do? His stomach churned with the unknowing feeling he possessed after sending the letter.
He moaned with utter sadness flowing through his veins. He couldn't even imagine how to start to describe how he was feeling. The only word that seemed to be playing through his mind was, forgiveness. Not forgiveness from Remus.. Or anyone else for that matter.. But forgiveness from himself.
A soft hooting echoed through the empty cell, Sirius could feel his heart beat quicken, and his stomach become increasingly tense. He lifted him self heavily from his bed, and walked over to the barred window. He stared at the great white owl. noting how free it was.. And what it was like and how it felt to be ... free. Finally he untied the letter from the owl and held it tightly in his hand. After closing his eyes for a few precious seconds, he slowly unfolded the parchment and began to read.
Sirius,
My heart nor my mind can take anymore lies or doubt. The fact still remains that Lily and James are dead.. you were their secret keeper.. Their friend..and you killed them.... Now you must live with what you have done. I pray that it torments you with every passing day. slowly diminishing your soul. I never would have conceived you could do such a treacherous thing to those you love.. And unfortunately loved you too.you were my friend.. My brother I could even say.. But not now. no longer.You asked me for forgiveness.. That which I cannot give.. Perhaps one day. but not today.. Not tomorrow. Wounds heal in time.. And those I have sustained are deep.I cannot weep.. I cannot falter. I will go on living in the free world.. But you.. You will stay locked in your own grief and guilt.. Live with what you have done... I have to ask.. Would lily and James forgive you? Even more.. Would Harry forgive you? For it is them.. you have condemned. Goodbye Sirius.
-Remus
Sirius let the letter fall limply from his shaking hands.. Then dropping to his knees he wept once more. He wretched with dry heaves and quiet sobs. No one would ever know he was innocent. no one would ever know he was true.. In fact no one would ever know that he still lived and breathed. But breathe was the only thing he could do.