Songfic. Sirius/Remus. Set after Order of the Phoenix. Remus' pov.
Evanescence - My Immortal. Sirius and Remus belong to JK Rowling, lyrics
are by Evanescence. Everything else is mine. mwhahaha. My first ever
songfic, all reviews are welcome!
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears Because your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
I think I see you sometimes. I call out your name, then remember you're not there. I thought we had gone through the worst. I thought we were over all the heartache. I hate being here. Without you. This house holds too many memories. So many happy moments between us. Just when I had you back, just when we were beginning again, you were taken away from me. It took so long for us to get this far, now there's nowhere else for us to go.
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I held you night after night. You had recurring nightmares about Azkaban. I used to think if I held you tight enough, you'd forget. I was just kidding myself. You let me think I was helping. I watched you sleep sometimes; just to make sure you were alright. You looked so peaceful when you were sleeping. As if all your troubles left you. But I knew as soon as you woke up, they'd be back.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
We spent so many nights together; so many late nights talking, making plans for the future. Our future. Now you're gone and this house feels so empty. I stay here because of you. Your presence fills this house. Everything I touch reminds me of you. Funny, I used to take everything for granted. I would always wake up with you. You would always be the last person I'd see at night.
You used to captivate me By your resonating light But now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
We'll never know how things would have turned out. I lie awake most nights thinking about things you'd said. You could always make me smile. Make me feel like I was the most important person. When we were together, nothing else seemed to matter. You were all I could see of tomorrow.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone And though you're still with me I've been alone all along
I still can't believe you're gone. I keep expecting to see you pottering around the kitchen. Making coffee for us both or clearing things away, singing to yourself. It's so hard without you here. Everyday hurts. It was hard enough all those years you were in Azkaban. But at least then I knew you were alive. But I have to stay strong, I have to keep going. As long as I have my memories and thoughts, you're still here with me. Sirius love, I'll never forget you. You'll always be a part of my life.
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears Because your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
I think I see you sometimes. I call out your name, then remember you're not there. I thought we had gone through the worst. I thought we were over all the heartache. I hate being here. Without you. This house holds too many memories. So many happy moments between us. Just when I had you back, just when we were beginning again, you were taken away from me. It took so long for us to get this far, now there's nowhere else for us to go.
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
I held you night after night. You had recurring nightmares about Azkaban. I used to think if I held you tight enough, you'd forget. I was just kidding myself. You let me think I was helping. I watched you sleep sometimes; just to make sure you were alright. You looked so peaceful when you were sleeping. As if all your troubles left you. But I knew as soon as you woke up, they'd be back.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
We spent so many nights together; so many late nights talking, making plans for the future. Our future. Now you're gone and this house feels so empty. I stay here because of you. Your presence fills this house. Everything I touch reminds me of you. Funny, I used to take everything for granted. I would always wake up with you. You would always be the last person I'd see at night.
You used to captivate me By your resonating light But now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
We'll never know how things would have turned out. I lie awake most nights thinking about things you'd said. You could always make me smile. Make me feel like I was the most important person. When we were together, nothing else seemed to matter. You were all I could see of tomorrow.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone And though you're still with me I've been alone all along
I still can't believe you're gone. I keep expecting to see you pottering around the kitchen. Making coffee for us both or clearing things away, singing to yourself. It's so hard without you here. Everyday hurts. It was hard enough all those years you were in Azkaban. But at least then I knew you were alive. But I have to stay strong, I have to keep going. As long as I have my memories and thoughts, you're still here with me. Sirius love, I'll never forget you. You'll always be a part of my life.